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Afterwards, Xia He was still panting on his stomach, his whole body was hot and covered with the other party's sweat.

He touched the somewhat messy strands of hair on his forehead and his hot cheeks, feeling extremely tired. The short half hour felt as difficult as half a century had passed.

Gu Sheng collapsed on the other seat and gasped, feeling a little unfinished. He glanced at Xia He, grabbed his right hand and put it to his mouth, kissed it, and asked, "Did I hurt you?"

Xia He raised his moist eyes, shook his head lightly, expressing no.But in fact, that kind of pain was something he didn't want to experience again in the future.

During the process, he wanted to break free from the other person several times and ask him to stop, but when he thought that the person on top of him was Gu Sheng, he accepted it willingly.

Intercourse that violates the laws of nature originally requires an unbearable price to pay.

But he really hoped that someone would come out and tell him that all this was done according to the rules, it was very normal, this time it won't work, next time it will be better.There has never been a violation of the laws of nature, it is just a violation of the wishes and living conditions of most people.

After recovering, he turned over and sat up, but couldn't help frowning.His hands were trembling slightly when he was putting on his trousers. Gu Sheng noticed it, and put the clothes on his shoulders for him, and said with great distress: "I made you feel bad, I'm sorry!"

"I don't blame you." Xia He felt weak, and began to feel uneasy again.He said: "Take me back to your house. I'm afraid my dad will see my appearance when I go back. When he asks, I really don't want to make up a reason to answer. I feel very tired."

Gu Sheng also put on his own clothes, like a child who has done something wrong, while worried about Xia He, he dared not speak casually.Even though he was as barbaric as a rapist before, no matter how hard he is now, his heart has been crushed to pieces.

When they drove back, neither of them spoke, Xia He didn't want to, and Gu Sheng didn't dare.

He didn't care about the figures and vehicles passing by outside the window, and his heart was suddenly empty, and he didn't know how to describe it.

When we arrived at the place, the very elegant villa with the doorbell installed.After entering, it looked a little desolate.An aunt was cooking in the kitchen. Gu Sheng and Xia He went in side by side. They only said hello and then wanted to find a place to lie down.

Gu Sheng waited for him to go upstairs to his huge room.Mattresses, wardrobes, tables and chairs are all in order, like a four-star hotel.The floor-to-ceiling windows are large, and when the curtains are drawn, strong light comes in, making Xia He feel uncomfortable.He just wants to sleep well in the dark now, without thinking about anything.

"Go take a shower, and lie down on my bed after you take a shower."

Gu Sheng looked at him and said.

He nodded, and took off his coat and inner liner again.

There is a bathroom in the room, which saves a lot of trouble.Gu Sheng also took off his clothes and went in with him.He took the shower head, turned on the hot water, tested the water temperature, and said to Xia He, "Let me wash it for you."

Xia He readily accepted, lying in the bathtub and allowing him to sprinkle water on himself, while gently rubbing his hands on his skin.He closed his eyes, and Gu Sheng's fingers touched his lips with the rustling water, as if feeling the shape and coldness of his lips, slowly protruding into his mouth from the outside of his lips, prying open his teeth.Feel his soft tongue with your fingertips.

Xia He suddenly glanced away, opened his eyes and looked at him squatting beside him, and said, "Gu Sheng, I'm a little tired, can you let me sleep?"

Gu Sheng felt that he had done something wrong again, so he lowered his eyelashes and said, "Okay, I'll dry it for you."

After hearing this, Xia He stood up, let him wipe his back with a bath towel to his chest, and then slowly lowered it.

He walked out of the bathroom and fell on the big soft bed, like lying on cotton, smelling the faint scent of daisies, and closed his sleepy eyes.

After a while, Gu Sheng also came out. Seeing him lying motionless, he moved lightly onto the bed, opened the quilt and covered him, and got next to him.She put her arms around him and asked, "I want to sleep with you for a while."

"Ah."

Xia He responded lightly.

"Can I hold you?"

"Ah."

Xia He simply turned over, faced Gu Sheng face to face, buried his face in his chest, and fell asleep peacefully.

When I woke up, it was already dark.There was a knock on the door outside the room, and it was the aunt who was cooking shouting, "Gu Sheng, take your classmate out for dinner."

Gu Sheng opened his eyes first, leaned over and sniffed Xia He's hair, then kissed him on the forehead, and said, "Wake up, get up and eat."

Xia He turned over and woke up, his eyelashes were red and his face was calm.After waking up, he sat up, stared out the window and asked, "What time is it?"

Gu Sheng took out his watch from the bedside: "It's past six o'clock in the evening."

"Lend me a call."

Hearing what he said, Gu Sheng didn't ask who he was calling, for fear of causing the froze situation that happened a few hours ago because of the phone call.He took the mobile phone and handed it to Xia He, Xia He quickly dialed a number on it, waited for a while, and said to the other end of the phone: "Dad, I'm not going back tonight, I'm at Gu Sheng's house... um... ·····Um."

The phone hangs up.

He returned the phone to the other party, wanting to turn over and get up.

Gu Sheng asked curiously, "What did your father say?"

Xia He rubbed his eyes and said, "I didn't say anything, let me talk to you more."

After hearing this, Gu Sheng laughed and said: You really should talk to me more."

Xia He also smiled, didn't say anything, got up, got dressed, went into the bathroom and washed his face.

Looking at the red-eyed self in the mirror, I suddenly felt a little strange.

After dinner, it was pitch black outside the window, there were no stars, and it was foggy.

Gu Sheng stood on the balcony smoking a cigarette, brushing the ashes with his fingers.Xia He walked to his side, hesitated for a while, and said: "Give me another one, I can always learn this time."

Gu Sheng was still surprised and didn't understand why he was so obsessed with smoking all of a sudden.He said: "What do you want to learn to smoke all of a sudden? Do you understand that smoking is bad for your health?!"

"Don't you smoke too?"

"That's why I know it's not good for my health."

"Then can you feel the discomfort in your lungs now?"

Gu Sheng said: "That's not true. I heard that people only have premonitions when they are 50 or [-] years old. I'm only eighteen now, so it's early."

Seeing Xia He's face drooping, he changed his mind and said: "But I can give you one, but you are not allowed to buy cigarettes by yourself in the future. I let you smoke, so you can smoke, okay?"

Xia He snorted lightly, feeling bored, "You are so childish!"

"You're just naive." Gu Sheng said, "If I don't learn so many advantages from me, I'll lose my optics."

Xia He was amused by him, and turned his hand to grab the half of the cigarette left between his fingers.Gu Sheng was a little dazed, and saw that he held it to his mouth, took a deep breath, and there was a fleeting light in his pupils.After the smoke lingered in his mouth, he exhaled it with his breath, Xia He asked, "Is that so?"

Gu Sheng nodded: "Congratulations, you have learned it, you can return it to me now."

As he spoke, he reached for his cigarette butt.

Xia He turned his gaze to look into the distance, looking at the faintly red sky, and said, "I just want to know how you feel when you are doing these things."

"Ok?"

Gu Sheng looked at him with surprise.

"When you run, when you smoke, when you fight, I want to feel it."

Xia He said: "Before I wanted to get closer to you, quietly, I didn't dare to let you find out, but I really wanted to call you to tell you how I felt, even if you let me die."

Gu Sheng was silent, watching him, the cigarette butt between his fingers had already burned to the end in the cold wind.

Xia He exchanged glances with him, and continued: "I went to buy a pack of cigarettes that day. I wanted to rely on that pack of cigarettes to get closer to you, but in the end I only took two puffs and almost coughed up my heart."

After he finished speaking, he laughed out loud, accompanied by a sour tone, which made Gu Sheng lose expression on his face.

"I don't know about these things." Gu Sheng said, "It would be great if you told me sooner. However, it's not too late now."

He threw away the cigarette butt, leaned closer to Xia He's face, took a deep breath of the scent on his neck, and squeezed his neck in an extremely gentle way.

Later, there was a strong wind blowing outside the window, the TV in the living room was on, and the weather forecast inside said that there would be heavy snow tomorrow.

Xia He walked into Gu Sheng's room, saw the computer in the corner, went to it, and tried to turn it on.

Later, Gu Sheng also came in, holding a platter of cut fruits in his hand, and put it in front of Xia He, "Eating some fruit can help digestion, my mother told me before."

"Your mother told you this?"

Xia He raised his head and held his hand on his shoulder.

Gu Sheng changed his mind and said, "I will only remember this sentence when she told me."

When he said this, his eyes were a little lonely.

Xia He thought for a while and replied: "I have forgotten what my mother said to me, I just remember that she is very gentle and likes to laugh."

Originally, it was just a casual mention, but the topic suddenly became serious as it continued.Seeing that Xia He accidentally provoked a sad past, Gu Sheng hurriedly smiled and changed the subject.Looking away at the computer, he said, "Want to watch a movie? I have several foreign blockbusters stored in it."

Xia He: "What movie?"

"Alien, have you seen it?"

"no!"

Gu Sheng turned around and dragged an armchair, sat down next to him, moved his fingers to move the mouse, typed a few times on the keyboard, and clicked a movie.

While watching the movie, he complained while watching.When the alien crawled out of the man's stomach, revealing its small and sharp blood-stained fangs, he curled his lips and said, "It's disgusting, how did you say it grew up in that man's stomach?"

Xia He watched it quietly, occasionally smiled with him, and answered after thinking for a while: "It is parasitic, similar to alien creatures, and its growth rate may be different from normal species."

Gu Sheng seemed to understand but half understood: "Oh..."

After the movie was over, Gu Sheng asked again, "Are you scared?"

Xia He watched it with relish, and shook his head: "Don't be afraid, it's quite exciting."

"Aren't you afraid of such terrifying creatures?"

Gu Sheng covered his eyes with his hands to block the bloody light from the screen, "I can't stand this kind of bloody picture, it's too disgusting."

Xia He said: "Let's stop watching it, go to bed early, it's a bit cold."

After giving birth, Gu Sheng immediately put his hands down from his eyes and said, "Just waiting for your words, I really can't enjoy this movie, how about showing you a Hong Kong police movie some other day?"

Xia He sneered: "Aren't gangster movies also bloody."

"It's better than that, and a little more exciting."

"That's fine."

Xia He stood up and straightened his somewhat stiff back.He was wearing Gu Sheng's pajamas, moving to the bed.Gu Sheng on the side kept watching him, as if he was thinking of some bad idea again.

So, he turned off the light, jumped onto the bed in twos and threes, and after he tasted it, he began to miss it again not long after.He fell on Xia He, hugged him, leaned close to his ear and said, "Do you want to do it again?"

"What again?"

Xia He was very clear in his heart, but pretended not to know.In fact, after that incident, he suddenly figured it out, since the two of them are together, why worry about things that haven't happened yet?

I think of a sentence someone said: "When you come to the world, you should go out to bask in the sun, and walk on the street hand in hand with the person you like."

Gu Sheng rubbed against his sensitive parts, and said in a deep voice, "You know, stop pretending."

Xia He sneered: "You still want me to suffer again, don't you?"

"Don't worry, I'll be more gentle. Don't worry, I'll take my time. I promise I won't be in a hurry. If you let me in, I'll go in, okay?"

Seeing the other party's evil fire burning vigorously again, Xia He has nothing to say, but in fact, as long as the other party approaches him, he will react. I don't know if this is inertia or just for Gu Sheng.

But think about it, it should be because of the latter.

So he nodded and echoed the other party's kiss.

This time, it was still unbearable, but it was much better than the rough and jerky movements the first time.Panting, Xia He crawled on Gu Sheng's chest, sticking against his hot skin.Gu Sheng's hand touched his ear lightly, it felt like stroking his heart.

After a while, Gu Sheng fell asleep, his body's scorching temperature hadn't receded, and he hugged Xia He's hand around his chest.I heard that people who lack maternal love since childhood will especially want to be hugged.

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It snowed in the middle of the night, and it was quiet and soft outside the window.

At noon, as the bell rang for the end of get out of class, everyone filed out as usual and ran to the corridor to bask in the sun.Gao Yalan still has no companions, she likes to sit alone in the classroom, or read a book, or practice calligraphy.

The playground is covered in white, reflecting the sun is extremely dazzling.

Xia He wanted to talk to her, but he was afraid that Gu Sheng would be unhappy, so he didn't proceed.

For some reason, no matter how he explained Gu Sheng couldn't understand the essence of this matter.

Zhou Yu ran over and put his hand on his shoulder. He wanted to ask him about Xie Dong's birthday, but he didn't ask after thinking about it. He just said, "Hey, let's go see the snow scene someday."

Xia He looked around: "Isn't this just a snow scene?"

"It's not like this, I mean a place where you can ski."

"Where can I find it? Only in the north is there such a heavy snow."

Zhou Yu smiled and said: "I know a place, a ski resort just opened a few days ago, it is said that the restaurant is very big, let's go together after the unified examination." At the end, he added: "Yes, you can call Gu Sheng."

After hearing this, Xia He didn't think there was any problem at first, but after thinking about his words carefully, he asked in confusion, "Why are you still called Gu Sheng?"

"Because you two seem to have a pretty good relationship recently, I'm afraid you won't like it if I don't call him."

When he heard such nonsensical words, Xia He's eyelids jumped up unexpectedly, and immediately followed the other party's words, saying: "How can you tell that I have a good relationship with him?"

"Hey, this is my ability to have a clear mind. I'm afraid, he will take my place in your heart soon."

When Zhou Yu speaks, he is always mixed with indecent humor.

Xia He didn't speak, just pretending he was farting.

At this time, Gao Yalan came out, passed by the two, and walked through the crowd to the corridor.

Zhou Yu stared at her leaving back, touched Xia He's elbow, and asked, "Hey, you didn't do anything to offend her, did you?"

Xia He frowned: "What are you talking about?"

"Gao Yalan, isn't the relationship between you two unclear? She never forgets you, but you turn a blind eye to her. It hurts the girl so much."

Xia He was a little unhappy: "How can you tell that she never forgets me?"

Zhou Yu put on a plausible look, and said: "Just because she just walked over and looked at you, she didn't dare to look at you. Believe me, who am I, Zhou Yu? I grew up watching love movies, and the thoughts of a little girl are beyond me. I understand most, if you don’t believe me, try to confess your love to her again, and see if she agrees right away.”

Xia He rolled his eyes at him: "Get lost!"

He turned and twisted his neck, looking into the distance.Zhou Yu noticed a bloody red mark on his neck, and asked curiously, "What's wrong with you?"

Xia He came back to his senses, raised his hand to touch it, and suddenly remembered something, hurriedly said perfunctorily: "It's nothing, I was bitten by a spider and took some medicine."

After all, cover it with the collar of your coat.