little transparent love

Zhang Ran put his hand on the door handle of the car and looked at the bright lights outside the car window, the timidity in his heart became stronger and stronger.

"Young man, why don't you get out of the car?" The driver said anxiously.

Zhang Ran took a deep breath, "Get out of the car now."

After paying the money, he got out of the car and walked forward without looking sideways, comforting himself to ignore those uncomfortable gazes. It was not until entering the venue that Zhang Ran heaved a sigh of relief. He straightened his tie and wanted to find Mother Lu.

Looking around, Zhang Ran's pupils shrank, he saw Mother Lu and Qi Yuling standing together, obviously Mother Lu also saw him, and beckoned him to pass.

Zhang Ran walked towards Lu's mother. When the people around saw him going in that direction, they watched him in unison, and some even whispered.

Zhang Ran clenched his hands and tried to ignore those voices.

Walking into Lu's mother, Zhang Ran also saw clearly what the two were wearing. They were high-end evening dresses, and a set of jewelry was worn on the neck, ears, and hands, making them look dazzling. Although men and women wear different clothes, Zhang Ran actually had a feeling of being out of place, maybe this feeling has been there since the moment he got off the car, but now it is even stronger.

Lu's mother looked at Zhang Ran's clothes, dissatisfied, but said nothing, "Today's annual meeting is very important, you follow us and watch carefully, recognize people well, and don't talk nonsense."

Zhang Ran nodded silently, and couldn't help but focus on Qi Yuling.

Qi Yuling ignored him, she lifted Mother Lu's arm and said with a smile, "Auntie, then you can take Zhang Ran with you, I'll go shopping elsewhere."

Mother Lu patted Qi Yuling's hand with a smile, "Follow me wherever you go."

"OK then."

This annual meeting was hosted by the Lu Family Group, and the meaning of being with Mother Lu is self-evident. When Mother Lu took the two of them to greet other people, some people asked who Zhang Ran was, but Mother Lu just said indifferently. He said, "Oh, it's my son's friend."

It was a middle-aged man, a little fat, with a kind face, but the words he said were not very pleasant, "Huh? Your son's friend?" He looked Zhang Ran up and down, and said with a smile, "This suit is Where was it customized? I don’t think I’ve seen it before?”

Mother Lu looked back at Zhang Ran, frowned and said, "He found it by himself, I don't know, maybe he came too hastily."

"Hahaha, yes, just now I saw this kid get off a taxi, maybe he was really in a hurry."

The people around also laughed when they heard it, Mother Lu's expression was a little bad, Qi Yuling said at this time, "Auntie, you talk to a few uncles first, Zhang Ran and I are going to go shopping elsewhere, too many people here It's early, I'm a little hungry."

"Okay, okay." Mother Lu said with a gratified smile, "Go."

Qi Yuling took the lead to leave, and Zhang Ran followed blankly.

When the two came to the dining area, Qi Yuling took two glasses of champagne from the table, handed one to Zhang Ran, and pointed to a balcony, "Let's go there."

"it is good."

The night wind blew on Zhang Ran's face, and Zhang Ran couldn't help shivering. Just now, Mother Lu brought him to see so many people. He vaguely noticed something, but he couldn't believe it.

Qi Yuling took a sip of wine in silence, and then said, "I didn't expect Auntie to bring you here."

Looking at the night, Zhang Ran said, "What do you want to say? Uncle and aunt have agreed that I will be with Brother Yan."

Qi Yuling sneered, turned her head to look at Zhang Ran, "I know...I know the two of them will always agree. After all, brother Yan has been a person with independent opinions since he was a child. He can make up his own mind about everything. Auntie and the others are very happy. At least you can persuade Brother Yan, what else can they do if they disagree? But do you think this means they accept you?"

"Isn't it?" Zhang Ran asked Qi Yuling in a rare agitation.

Qi Yuling smiled, "You don't have to treat me as an imaginary enemy, Brother Yan and I are impossible, even if my uncle and aunt like me, I also like Brother Yan, but I guess it's really impossible." Qi Yuling smiled bitterly , "My parents found out about Brother Yan and you, they don't agree with me being with Brother Yan, even without you in the future, they won't allow their daughter to live with someone who likes men."

Zhang Ran suddenly gripped the quilt tightly, feeling a strong sense of humiliation.

"How do you feel when you come here today?" Qi Yuling asked, "Don't think what I said is harsh. If you don't escape, think about it carefully. The gap between you and Brother Yan is just peeling off the outer layer of quilt today. Red|Naked showed up."

Zhang Ran's breathing became a little short, "I...I don't know what you're talking about."

"You know." Qi Yuling calmly tore off Zhang Ran's disguise, "You've always known it, and you've been avoiding it all the time. Ever since you got together with Brother Yan, you and Brother Shen Qiao have less contact with each other. Why? You are avoiding us, not because of Brother Yan, but because of your low self-esteem. This kind of inferiority is magnified after being with Brother Yan. You don’t want to face it directly, so you want to escape, right? You are afraid that we will use "" I look at you and Brother Yan with the eyes of "unworthy"..."

"Stop talking!" Zhang Ran looked at Qi Yuling with red eyes.

"Did I say something wrong?" Qi Yuling asked, "Do you know why you are with us, and today those people are still mocking you openly and secretly?"

"Stop talking..." Zhang Ran's tone was almost begging, and he looked away in embarrassment.

"Because anyone with a discerning eye can tell that you don't fit in with us." Qi Yuling said, opening Zhang Ran's collar with her hands, "Your clothes are new, right? You spent a lot of money? But it's still not enough, In our eyes, you look like a bumpkin. Your manner, your taste, all show the gap between you and us. Not to mention your status, the distance between you and Brother Yan has already been placed. Put it on the bright side, even if you have feelings, it will always wear off if this continues."

Zhang Ran covered his eyes, he had never felt so helpless before.

Qi Yuling smiled wryly, "This is the purpose of Auntie, and this is the purpose of Brother Yan's parents. If you can't do it with a hard knife, then use a soft knife. If you can't do it with Brother Yan, then you can do it with you. And retreat."

Zhang Ran put down his hands and looked at Qi Yuling, "Why are you..."

"Why did I tell you this?" Qi Yuling's eyes turned cold, "I'm jealous of you, I'm really jealous of you, because you can be liked by Brother Yan, but at the same time, I'm also very envious of you, because you can get Brother Yan likes it. But now, I pity you."

Zhang Ran's face turned pale, and he said as if grasping at the last straw, "Brother Yan and I...we will persevere, as long as we don't give up..."

"Don't give up?" Qi Yuling smiled, looking at Zhang Ran like a fool, "Is this something you can do without giving up? I heard that you are writing novels, do you read those novels too much?" The things in the novel are all fake, this is reality! It’s not your self-righteous persistence that will make love last for a long time. As for Brother Yan, don’t you wonder why you can’t see Brother Yan at the annual meeting of the Lu family? come over?"

Zhang Ran's heart tightened, and he didn't care about the impact of Qi Yuling's words on him. He stared at Qi Yuling, anticipating what Qi Yuling's next words would be.

Qi Yuling said, "That's why I pity you."

"What's wrong with Brother Yan?" Qi Yuling didn't say anything, but Zhang Ran couldn't help asking. After all, Lu Jingyan was the only thing he cared about most.

"This is a matter between you, you should find out for yourself." Qi Yuling drank the wine in one breath, "I will go abroad in the next year, I hope your relationship will have a good result."

Looking at the back of Qi Yuling going away, Zhang Ran clutched his chest, feeling stuffy in his chest, almost out of breath, the hand holding the wine glass was turning white and trembling, he forced himself to look at Mother Lu, The aunt was surrounded by people, like a high-ranking queen, looking down at her tiny self. Without even moving a finger, a group of people rushed to crush her to death, and he had no strength left to resist.

Zhang Ran walked out of the balcony with the wine he had never drunk before, put the wine glass back on the dining table, and then wanted to leave here. Forgive him for being rude, because he really didn't want to say hello to that aunt. Su Su's waiter took away the wine he hadn't drunk and poured it away. Just like himself, he put on the best posture, but he was still disgusted by others.

Laughing self-deprecatingly, Zhang Ran thought of Lu Jingyan and what Qi Yuling said, but now he didn't even have the courage to pick up the phone and call Lu Jingyan.

His whole body was cold, but his forehead was sweating, Zhang Ran returned home in a daze, took off half of his clothes, and started to tear like crazy, and tore the clothes off himself as if venting his anger, then threw them away, holding the clothes on the carpet , did not make any sound, as if hitting a ball of cotton, wasted effort, as if laughing at Zhang Ran, Zhang Ran stared blankly, suddenly squatted on the ground and cried out, he felt like a clown He was helpless in the face of things and could only vent on his back. That feeling was too "scary". He knew that he had always had a low self-esteem, but he had never felt inferior like today. They were mercilessly put on the ground and trampled into slag, even if they were spliced ​​together, they would be broken.

After crying for a long time, his legs were numb. Zhang Ran raised his head and looked at the time through his blurry eyes. It was already past ten o'clock in the evening, and Lu Jingyan hadn't come back yet, just like yesterday. Could it be that he was still working overtime?But today's annual meeting, isn't everyone in the company on vacation?Zhang Ran bit his thumb, his heart beat violently, wiped away his tears, took out his mobile phone with trembling hands, and called Lu Jingyan.

The call was quickly connected.

Zhang Ran asked in a natural tone, "Brother Yan, why haven't you come back yet? Are you still working overtime today?"

The person on the other end of the phone paused, and then Lu Jingyan hummed.

"Oh, then what do you want to eat, I'll give you..."

"Don't wait for me, I'll eat." Lu Jingyan said softly, "Ranzi, go to sleep when you're sleepy, don't wait for me."

Zhang Ran stared at the front blankly, but said coquettishly, "But I want to wait for you to come back."

Lu Jingyan smiled, "Okay, I'll go back as soon as possible."

After hanging up the phone, Zhang Ran held the phone tightly, his eyes flickered, and he didn't know what he was thinking.

The author has something to say: We Ranzi are definitely not self-deprecating people