Thank you for these five years

Soon after the start of the second half of the year, I officially entered the ranks of the postgraduate entrance examination.Get up early to eat, then go to the library or study room to occupy a seat to study, forcing myself to read books, memorize words, and write test papers.And what about Little D?He is busy with his purchasing agent work at home.Not long after we met, I watched him start as a purchasing agent from the very first order.From the excitement of selling a small amount just now, to the turnover of tens of thousands in a month and now, it is really not easy.

I still remember that one day I received a big package.Unexpectedly, I thought it should be him. On the way back to the dormitory with the package in my arms, I took a photo for Little D, and sure enough.This big fool sent me a package of snacks, all of which I like.There is also a postcard inside, which reads: "To my dear wife, study hard and pay attention to your health!~"

Back in the dormitory, I filled the bed with snacks, took a photo and sent it to Little D.I'm already super happy.Although the days of the postgraduate entrance examination were difficult, I still felt very happy to be accompanied by someone silently.

Time flies, and when I finished the exam, I felt a lot more relaxed.However, I also understand.We, who are about to graduate, and we seem to have really come to a crossroads.A very real question is before us, should I go home after graduation or stay in the north?Sometimes, I don't think about it, I always feel that the boat will be straight when it reaches the bridge, and I will talk about the future things later.

Around March 15, little D's grandmother received bad news and was seriously ill and hospitalized.I originally wanted to go over to accompany him, but was told not to come over in the short term.When asked why, Xiao D's family asked someone to make a calculation, and outsiders should not come to the house in the near future.And I am an outsider.If this will go to Xiao D's house, it is really not the right time.

There is no way but to endure and accompany him through the mobile phone.Until a long time later, when grandma's condition improved, I finally went to Xiao D's house.That night, Little D and I slept in his parents' room.Before that, when I went to Little D's house, Little D and I always slept on the sofa in the living room. He slept on one end and I slept on the other.And that night, we slept in bed.

Uneasiness and suspicion arose that night.Looking at little D's face, I was looking forward to and afraid.Suddenly, the phone vibrated, and I saw that it belonged to Xiao D.Usually, he doesn't let me touch his mobile phone, so I haven't touched it much.But sometimes I see him enter the password, so I remember.By coincidence, I reached out and picked up Little D's cell phone.After opening it, first check if there is any software like Xiaolan or Jiejiedi.I can't say whether it was disappointment or expectation, but I found it, and it was hidden very deep.Opening the software, I saw some flirting words between him and others.Chest tightness, but I don't know how to say it, comfort myself, it's just online, there is no face-to-face, and nothing substantive happened.Exit these software and clean up the traces that have been opened.I clicked on WeChat again, and saw strange avatars one after another.I paddled casually, and suddenly saw the name of the sail.

Well, it's a sail.I'm sure.

Click on the window and see the chat between the two of them.After reading one by one, I suddenly remembered why Xiao D suggested to me the idea of ​​going to Chengdu for a trip earlier, and I said it’s okay, let’s go.He answered the conversation and made a joke: "Don't be afraid that I will go to find Fan."I also had a big heart at the time, "It's okay, just go find it. It's okay, I don't worry."

I slept very late that day, very late.When I saw Little D again, I felt a little fear in my heart.I don't know how many secrets this person sleeping next to me hides.

The next day, I confessed.I told Little D that I checked his cell phone, but I didn't say what I saw.Obviously, he was very angry when he learned of my behavior, and he should be angry.Seeing him like this, I also began to reflect on my behavior last night, a bit like committing a crime to collect evidence.

I sneaked into the room and looked at the books in his window.While looking away, he accidentally landed on a calendar.An inexplicable force drove me to look through it.Carefully opened the bookcase and took out this calendar.

This is a custom calendar.And the photo of the calendar is Little D and Sail.There are photos of Xiao D, Fan, a photo of the two of them together in Changsha, and... and a photo of Xiao D helping Fan blow his hair in the room.This photo hit my chest like a heavy hammer.I originally thought that they just met in Changsha and had a meal together.However, the truth is not simple, I did not expect such a scene.Thinking about it carefully, I am terrified, and my heart is cut like a knife.

When I left, I took the calendar with me.On the way to the station, I began to question him, from the things on the phone last night to the chat with Fan, and then I took out the calendar.Little D finally admitted that they opened a room, but he repeatedly stated that nothing really happened.He also asked me to believe it again and again, then took the calendar, tore it up in front of me, and threw it into the trash can on the side of the road.It happened so quickly that I didn't have time to react, and the calendar was already discarded.

I was stunned, but a thought flashed across me: If nothing really happened, then this calendar is also a memory, so just throw it away?Of course, this idea is also very short-lived.

Later, Xiao D also knew that he was wrong, so he didn't say much.Before I confronted him, he scolded me for looking at his phone like that.After tearing up the calendar, the two of us didn't talk in the car.He sent me to the station, and after saying goodbye without words, I entered the station by myself and took the train back to school.

When I got to school, I acted like nothing happened.The next day, I greeted each other with the same good morning greeting. Seeing Xiao D’s reply, we knew that he and Fan had both tacitly changed the story.After all, it was a long time ago.It would not be appropriate to use it to sting the current people.As adults, we should forget about the past and live in the present. [A stupid me, I will get angry when I see this again]

Shortly after the incident, little Grandma D's condition deteriorated and passed away.Little D was immersed in great grief, and I could only accompany him from a distance to comfort him.Sometimes he would think of grandma, and I would be on the other end of the phone, listening to him cry softly alone in the middle of the night.Feeling the sound of his heart breaking, and nothing I could do.

One day, I finished class.On the way back to the dormitory, I received a WeChat message from Ming. It was almost time for dinner, and he asked me to come out for dinner.After the previous incident, for Ming, I regarded him as an ordinary friend who knew my biggest secret.

We made an appointment to meet at the door of the dormitory building.This invitation was a bit of a surprise, but I still agreed.When I walked to the door, I didn't see Ming.I lowered my head and took out my phone to ask where he was, but he just told me to go forward, but no one was there.I continued walking with small, doubtful steps, and suddenly a familiar figure appeared from the left—Little D!

During that time, I was very depressed.One is that the postgraduate entrance examination failed, and the other is that the internship is quite annoying.Little D's surprise visit became a source of excitement for me.That night, we went to open a room, and then there was a crazy reunion between two people.

I'm already longing for little D's body, and I can see that he is too.We, who are oppressed by life, devote ourselves wholeheartedly to this huge movement at this moment.When I took a shower, I couldn't help myself, so I hurriedly dried myself, and we came to the bed.From the licking and kissing at the head of the bed, to the touching and sucking in the bed, to the collision at the end of the bed...

After finishing, little D was tired and lay on my body with his head resting on my chest.I leaned against the head of the bed, just looking at him, stroking his hair.After a while, I noticed something strange and heard little D's cry.

"What's wrong?" I asked him cautiously.

"I think I'm breastfeeding" Xiao D sobbed in response.

"[I touched his head] cry, I am here."

After finishing speaking, Little D began to cry presumptuously.I looked at the big boy in front of me, thinking about the way he was on the bed just now, and seeing him now with tears streaming down his face, I was full of pity.Caressing his hair, I felt emotional in my heart: How I wish I could be with him forever, always by his side, let him be presumptuous on me, and show him his fragility to me quietly.

[Such a scene can always arouse the tenderness in my heart.Our last tenderness is what I have fallen into again and again.It's paralyzed me that I don't mind being friends in front of everyone and then being a couple behind closed doors. 】

As the days go by, graduation gets closer.I communicated with little D before, and this time I will go to Thailand for my graduation trip.This is my first time to go abroad, and it is also the first time for the two of us to go abroad together.We reported for a group tour, and we were still quite worried, fearing that we would not have a good time, but it turned out that we were overthinking it.

In June, the trip to Thailand started.Our small team still had a good time chatting, and everyone established a group, and we all got along quite well in the group.All kinds of people really get together.Little D and I can be regarded as active members of the team. One night we arrived in Bangkok and it was free time.I yelled to go to Siam Square very early, and then I said it aloud on the bus.Later, there were two young ladies who were relatively close to us in this line of work and planned to go with us.Somehow, another newlywed couple knew about it and wanted to go with us. Afterwards, everyone spread the word, and basically wanted to go to Siam Square with us. After all, it is also the commercial center of Bangkok.So, Xiao D and I took the whole team to buy light rail tickets, and then organized everyone to Siam Square, and set a prominent place to gather, and then let everyone move freely.

Little D accompanied me to Siam Square. I came here entirely because of the movie "Love of Siam", so I made an early arrangement to watch it.Although things have changed, but being able to come here can be regarded as the fulfillment of my wish.

On the way back to the hotel from Siam Square, I kept secretly looking at Little D, thinking to myself, I am very grateful to this kid.Crazy with me, wave with me.Although he is tall, he still acts like a child.

The arrangement for the next few days, besides shopping, is to ride an elephant, Songkran Festival and eat fruit.The small pineapples in Thailand are really delicious, especially delicious.If you mention it, you will always want to try it again.The other is the Songkran Festival, which is actually a small gathering place for Chinese people.The bus brought wave after wave of tour groups over, built a big venue, and prepared clothes and water ladles.

However, when the music started and the water was sprinkled, the atmosphere was still very good, and we soon became part of the excitement.I kept pouring water on Little D, and the other two sisters in the group were also helping me.Little D, who was originally aimless, became excited when he saw my posture, and he fell in love with me. We just splashed each other there, very happy.Later, people in the group said that seeing the two of us playing was like two children after school in summer, playing in the water on the road and not wanting to go home.

Before returning to China, we went shopping at the local 711 in Thailand, and I was interviewed by a beautiful sister.They asked me a few questions, and I answered them decently. Little D said that I was like a politician at the time, and what I said was clear and logical.In the end, I took a photo with the beautiful young lady, but I didn’t pay attention to the big belly just after eating. Later, this photo was laughed at by Xiao D, saying that it looked like she was pregnant for three months.Every time I yell at him, "It's not yours, you have to be responsible."

Oh, and of course we didn't miss the ladyboys, horses and chickens, and the special adult shows.To be honest, we are not interested in being a ladyboy, but it is quite comfortable to kill a chicken, but certain positions during the massage really make people blush.Afterwards, I told Xiao D that after this trip, I learned again, and you can enjoy the blessing again.The other thing is to watch adult performances, really, the world is amazing, haha.During the process, I also had various discussions with Little D:

"Look at this, and then look at you, this comparison, you can't do it." I said.

"[Little D gave me a blank look] Oh, if I do that, you will die of pain"

"Oh, then you don't always have the best time."

"Hey, what else do you want, believe it or not, your husband will make you miss the flight tomorrow"

"Hmph, then I will shoot down your plane tonight"

……

After returning from Thailand, the graduation ceremony is over.I kind of missed it, but it's not a pity at all.It's just that when I really graduated, I was a little confused.

What will happen to us?The time has really come to this day, but we seem to have no choice.And this summer vacation, there is one more thing, I still think about it, that is, Xiao D will go to Chengdu to travel and meet Fan.