love like wind

Xu Li picked up a bunch and said while eating, "It's not hot."

Seeing his clear smile, Yang Jiayou felt much more comfortable, but just smiled without saying a word.

After the meals were prepared, the family sat down, the sky was high and the clouds were clear, the dining table was close to the shade of the trees, the summer wind blew over, and the warmth was filled with the smell of green grass.

"cheers--"

The four glasses collided crisply, and the time was beautiful and warm, which made people want to pause the moment.

In the past few years in the Yang family, Xu Li has been fully taken care of. Uncle Yang and Aunt Xu regard him as a son, and there is basically no difference in life from Yang Jiayou.Thinking of this, Xu Li felt very guilty.

Now that he had spoken to Yang Jiayou, Xu Li didn't intend to avoid it, but just pay attention to the boundaries of getting along.

After the barbecue that day, Xu Li said that he had something to do at school and wanted to go back early.

Yang Zhenhua agreed, "University hasn't had summer vacation yet, so it's mainly on your own time."

After leaving the house, Xu Li suddenly felt relieved, and Yang Jiayou followed his footsteps: "What's going on at school?"

Xu Li turned his head, with a smile in his eyes, and said honestly: "I want to go back to grandma's house."

Yang Jiayou repeated, "Grandma?" He wondered if Xu Li was feeling emotional and missed his family.

Xu Li nodded, his voice was very steady: "It's where I used to live, and I haven't been back for about five years."

Yang Jiayou understood: "Oh, I'll go with you." Then, he went into the room to get his mobile phone, and stood at the entrance to change his shoes nimbly, with a look of involuntary explanation.

Seeing Yang Jiayou's serious expression, Xu Li did not refuse.

The two of them took the bus to the other direction of the city. After seven o'clock, there were not many people on the bus.Xu Li was sitting by the window, and Yang Jiayou was next to him, with earphones on his ears, and he didn't know what music he was listening to.

Sitting beside each other in silence, there is a sense of certainty in my heart.

They transferred to a bus halfway, and after more than 40 minutes, they arrived at a community.This place is also in the urban area, the location is good, but it is in the opposite direction from the Yang family.From time to time, there are a few children in the green belt of the community, most of them are playing hide-and-seek.

Looking up, you can see sporadic lights, and the smell of food wafts in the air.

Yang Jiayou asked, "Which floor do you live on?"

"Fifth floor." Xu Li led the way, holding the house key in his palm.

Since no one lives there all year round, the door creaked dryly when unlocked, and the neighbors thought it was a thief.

"Huh? Who is it?"

Xu Li felt that she was unfamiliar, "My family lives here."

The woman was holding a bowl in her hand, and there was a child standing at her feet. The door was ajar, and the TV behind her was chirping.

Yang Jiayou followed Xu Li into the house, and the light in the living room flickered, quickly illuminating the room.

With a structure of three bedrooms and one living room, the house is very clean and everything is neatly stored.

Xu Li raised his head, there was no trace of smoke on the ceiling, it seemed that Uncle Yang asked someone to repaint it.Xu Li's eyes suddenly became warm, he tried his best to restrain his emotions, and pushed open the door of his room.

When he was young, he slept on a single bed, covered by a tartan dustcloth, and the upright piano stood silently in the corner, reminiscent of the scene when he was playing it when he was a child.

Yang Jiayou inspected the house inside and out, "This house is pretty good."

"En." Xu Li stood in front of the desk, on which was a baby's hundred-day photo, and he gently wiped the dust on it with the palm of his hand.

Yang Jiayou leaned over the door to look, saw a big red dot on the forehead of the child in the photo, and said with a smile, "When you were a child?"

Xu Li smiled, but did not speak.

This is a photo of his younger sister Xu Lan. He remembered that there was a faint birthmark on her sister's neck.

Yang Jiayou knew what was going on in Xu Li's family, and was afraid that talking too much would make him sad, so he just stood aside quietly.

Grandma's room has also been cleaned up, but the sewing basket in the living room should have been burned.

Xu Li stood at the door and didn't dare to go in. When he was 13 years old, he couldn't imagine how his grandmother was poisoned by gas. It was Teacher Qin and Uncle Yang who helped him minimize the damage and try to make him recover from the pain.

Yang Jiayou and Yang Jiayu were his closest playmates in his youth, filling the huge hole in his heart.Thinking of this, Xu Li leaned on the wall with one hand, his back trembled, and he sucked his nose from time to time.

Yang Jiayou took out the tissue in his pocket, and said softly, "Wipe it."

Xu Li took it, without turning his head, but took a deep breath.

Yang Jiayou said: "Looking forward, there will still be good days ahead." He paused, as if he was at a loss for words, "Don't you still have us? We are your relatives."

It's okay not to say these words, but as soon as these words were spoken, the tears that had been buried in my heart for many years flooded out.

Yang Jiayou half-joked, "Hey, who said before that you don't shed tears in front of me?"

Xu Li's tears fell one by one, crying very quietly.

Yang Jiayou had no choice but to hug him lightly, pressing the back of his neck with his palm, and said in a coaxing tone, "Cry if you want to cry, don't hold back."

Weeping sounded in the air, Xu Li hugged Yang Jiayou back, he closed his eyes, tears fell on Yang Jiayou's T-shirt, his breathing became heavy, and his emotions gradually dissipated.After a long time, tears were streaming down his face, his cheeks were a little stiff, Xu Li put his chin on Yang Jiayou's shoulder, and said softly, "Jiayou, are you a few months older than me?"

"Yes." Yang Jiayou patted his back lightly, as if coaxing him, "What's wrong?"

Xu Li smiled, "Then do I have to call you 'brother'?"

Yang Jiayou made a 'cut', and said angrily: "You are like Yang Jiayu, no matter how old or young, you always call me by my first name. I don't dare to take the word 'brother'."

The air suddenly became silent, Xu Li leaned on Yang Jiayou's shoulder, and whispered, "Jiayou."

"Ok?"

"Brother." He choked up, sucked his nose, and asked, "Did you hear that?"

"..." Yang Jiayou's eyes flickered with tears, and the strength of his arms tightened, "Yes, I heard."

Hugging like this, I also feel very happy, still the same as when I was a child, even more determined and intimate.

After a while, Xu Li smiled, and said in a muffled voice, "Jia Yu really cares about your brother, really."

"Are you talking nonsense? She is my own sister." Yang Jiayou suppressed his emotions, and his tone was the same as usual.

Xu Li said softly, "I also have a sister."

Yang Jiayou was startled, remembering that his father said a long time ago that Xu Li's mother died of dystocia, and Yang Jiayou didn't know about his sister.Xu Li didn't continue talking. Yang Jiayou guessed that his sister might not be there anymore. He was afraid that Xu Li would feel uncomfortable, so he didn't ask.

After a while, Xu Li's mood eased, he let go of his hand, and when he raised his eyes again, his eyes were much more relaxed.

Yang Jiayou looked around, "Do you want to get something today?"

Xu Li nodded, "Well, wait a minute." The fire burned a lot of things, but the door of his room was closed at that time, and the only remaining photo albums were on the bookshelf.Inside was a photo of his younger sister Xu Lan. He had contacted the police before and the basic information of Xu Lan's disappearance had been registered. It would be even better if there were other photos, so he went home to get the album.

After Xu Li took his things, the two were ready to leave.

Although the neighbor's door is closed, children can be heard playing from time to time, as if saying they don't want to take a bath.

The atmosphere of life in this community is more intense. Although there are too many traumas mixed in, it still hides Xu Li's childhood and makes him miss it.

Lock the door again, go down the stairs, the voice-activated lights gradually turn on, Yang Jiayou walked in front of Xu Li, he looked at Yang Jiayou's back, and remembered the homosexual information he had checked before.

He felt that the classification in the literature was incomplete.

There is another type that has not been mentioned, that is, love is sometimes gender-neutral, just like Yang Jiayou, who stays with him solidly, is a relative, a close friend, and also a heartbeat. These feelings are mixed together, making people unable to let go, wanting to live forever I was with him.

In middle and high school, Xu Li often followed Yang Jiayou as his follower. In the rules of the young man's game, Yang Jiayou always firmly defended him. Sometimes he would cry for no reason before going to bed.He has been taking off with the eagle, feeling the tension and thickness of life, and he can't let go.

He once thought, what would happen if there was no Yang Jiayou in this world?How to do it?

Xu Li didn't dare to think about it, it was an unimaginable and terrifying thing.

This kind of love seems to have grown in Xu Li, and the thought of not having Yang Jiayou is like a cramp.

Based on Xu Li's understanding of Yang Jiayou, Yang Jiayou seems to be bluffing on the surface, sometimes very naive, arrogant and unreasonable, but in fact he is very soft-hearted.There are some things that Xu Li can't say too much, because Yang Jiayou will take it seriously, which will bring him pressure invisibly.Just like now, it's actually good to be with each other.Xu Li was already content.

Taking the bus to the school, Yang Jiayou was still asking: "You will be a junior next semester, do you have any plans?"

Xu Li asked without answering, "What about you?"

"Didn't I tell you that I want to go abroad to study in graduate school, and the things I did with my tutor were very smooth. If there is a chance in the future, I can continue my studies."

Xu Li said: "I have no interest in academics."

"Is it because I'm not interested, or I don't want to be interested," Yang Jiayou looked at him seriously, "If we can apply for a scholarship, we will share the living together, and it won't cost much."

Xu Li didn't speak, feeling a little heavy.

Yang Jiayou asked: "Are all the part-time jobs you did before related to your major?"

"almost."

"Are you interested?"

With a faint smile on the corner of Xu Li's mouth, he whispered, "You can make money."

Yang Jiayou said solemnly: "Don't be so anxious to make money. After further study, the salary will still be good."

Xu Li thought of another thing, "Jiayou, most of our high school classmates have gone abroad. Do you feel regretful that you didn't go out for your undergraduate degree?"

"No," Yang Jiayou said firmly, "Everyone has their own choice, and you don't have to care about others."

"Speaking of which, in high school, you were the best in your class."

Yang Jiayou smiled and said, "Didn't I be defeated by you in the end?"

Xu Li snorted with a smile.

Yang Jiayou continued: "Life is a long-distance race. It's not who runs fast, but who runs farther."

Xu Li glanced at him, "You have learned a lot?"

"Does this still require comprehension?" Yang Jiayou leaned back in the chair and raised his head slightly, "I remember you told me before that the goal of becoming an outstanding ordinary person is quite pragmatic."

Xu Li was silent.

Yang Jiayou said: "You should think about the matter of graduate school. The opportunity is rare. Why don't you enrich yourself while you still have plenty of time and energy?"

Xu Li tentatively asked: "What if I don't go to graduate school?"

Yang Jiayou turned his face sideways, with a frank and straightforward expression, "Then I will be very lonely."

With emotions stuck in his throat, Xu Li didn't know what to say.