Wouldn't things have been different if I hadn't met you

Walking out of the restaurant, Liu Xia couldn't restrain the sadness in her heart.

From the moment she received the call from Chen Xiaodong's mother, Liu Xia guessed that this would be the ending.How can this society accept them so easily?

It was obviously expected, but it really happened, but he couldn't bear it.

Afraid that he would be spotted when he went home now, he called Chen Xiaodong and said that there was a temporary meeting.Unexpectedly, Chen Xiaodong didn't ask for details, but hurriedly told him to drink less, and then hung up the phone.

As a result, the loss in my heart was amplified.

After wandering aimlessly on the riverside avenue for an hour, the exhaustion slightly relieved the depression in my heart.

Liu Xia looked at his watch, it was already eight o'clock, he didn't eat anything just now, but he didn't feel hungry either.What I told Chen Xiaodong just now was that there was a social event, but now it's a little early to go home, and I don't know where to go, thinking that Haibin Road is not far away, so I might as well go for a ride.

At the end of the month, zero o'clock is always cooler than usual.

Liu Xia sat down in an empty corner and ordered a glass of sake.Perhaps because of the small number of people, the bar's resident singer K was not on stage. The singer was a young junior. Although his voice was green, he still sang very devotedly.Liu Xia had something on her mind, so she didn't care about it.Just hold the wine glass and drink one mouthful at a time.After drinking the second cup, he didn't continue - no matter how bad his mood was, he still remembered not to get drunk.

Suddenly, the prelude to the exclusive taste sounded in his ears, and Liu Xia picked up the phone reflexively, only to find that there was no phone.When I looked up, I realized that the sound was coming from the stage.

"Only when I met you did I realize how important you are to me..."

Chen Xiaodong still heard the promise he made to him last night, talking about taking him home and giving him a mother, but today his mother ordered him to break up with him.

Liu Xia couldn't control her emotions that had been suppressed all night, she buried her head and sobbed softly.

You shouldn't have expected it, how could you be so stupid.

After waiting for a long time, K came to the stage.After venting, the sadness in Liu Xia's heart was almost gone, and it was getting late, so she decided to go home.

As soon as I walked to the door, I saw a group of people fighting in a corner. To be precise, a group of people were beating someone. Although Zero Point was a place where good and bad people mixed together, Liu Xia was still taken aback when Chen Xiaodong was not around.Just as he was about to avoid it, so as not to hurt Chi Yu, he unexpectedly saw K in the crowd, holding the arm of one of them, as if trying to persuade him to fight.

Not singing, so here it is.

Liu Xia couldn't help but take a second look.

This look made him see another face that made him grit his teeth whenever he thought of it.He was lying in the middle of the crowd, his face was bruised in many places, and he was in a state of embarrassment.

Liu Xia stopped in his tracks, although he knew it was wrong, but there was still a burst of pleasure in his heart.

Deserve it.

And Yan Dong seems to have seen him too, and winks at him and smiles.

Liu Xia was annoyed by his laughter, and gave him a disgusted look, then turned and left in a hurry.

It was already 11 o'clock when I got home, and Chen Xiaodong was not there.

Liu Xia took out her mobile phone and was about to dial a number when the sound of the key opening the door sounded.

"Why did you come back so late?" Liu Xia walked over, although she was complaining, but her tone was very gentle.

Chen Xiaodong looked tired and did not answer, just hugging Liu Xia into his arms.

"Did something happen?" Liu Xia subconsciously tensed up. Could it be that his mother also talked to him?Ready to beat each other?

After hugging for a full minute, Chen Xiaodong let go, went to the kitchen to pour water and said, "The company's financing has some problems."

When Liu Xia heard that it was about work, she was somewhat relieved.But financing problems are not trivial, which is directly related to the company's listing.Xiaodong looked exhausted, and Liu Xia was heartbroken, so he quickly took out the peaches from the refrigerator, washed them and handed them to him.

Chen Xiaodong took Tao Zi, and saw Liu Xia's worried face, so he relaxed his expression: "It's not a big problem, it's just that Mr. Chen obviously made an agreement yesterday, but today he suddenly refused to sign the agreement."

"Did you ask him why?"

"I've been trying to communicate today, but the other party's attitude is very negative." Chen Xiaodong chewed on the peach, and the sweet taste calmed him down somewhat.

"Is there some condition that makes him dissatisfied? I sometimes meet this kind of customers, who like to be reserved, and don't say what they want directly, but let you guess." Liu Xia analyzed seriously, as if he had been touched Some bad memories, he frowned slightly.

Now the sullenness in Chen Xiaodong's heart was completely emptied, he smiled and hugged Liu Xia into his arms, bowed his head and pecked Liu Xia on his lips. "Then guess what I want now?"

The aroma of juicy peaches in the air also aroused Liu Xia's emotions.Of course he knew what Chen Xiaodong wanted to do, because he wanted to too.So he blushed a little and said, "I'll go wash up first." After speaking, he pushed Chen Xiaodong away and went to the bathroom.

While taking a bath, he thought of Aunt He, Chen Xiaodong's mother.After hesitating again and again, he still decided not to tell Xiaodong about the meeting with Aunt He, after all, he agreed to Auntie He.Besides, Xiaodong is already annoyed by work, so he can handle such things by himself.

When Liu Xia washed up and made all preparations, she came out of the bathroom, but found Chen Xiaodong lying on the bed, and fell asleep at some point.

The desire was provoked, but the other party fell asleep. Liu Xia was a little disappointed, but Chen Xiaodong must have been exhausted today, and couldn't bear to wake him up again, so he gently changed his pajamas and covered him with the quilt, and quietly Go to the toilet to solve it.

For the next week, Chen Xiaodong was as busy as a spinning top. Every day, Liu Xia would go out before he woke up, and he would not come back until one or two o'clock in the morning. In the first two days, Liu Xia prepared supper and waited for him every day. He couldn't stop sleeping on the dining table, and on the third day, Chen Xiaodong asked him to go to bed at twelve o'clock.For a whole week, Liu Xia only saw Chen Xiaodong three times in total, let alone chatting and sexing.This situation has never happened since the two of them were together.

And Chen Xiaodong was also in an unprecedented state of distress this week. Except for the investors who had signed the agreement, all the investors who had negotiated before had changed their minds and refused to invest no matter what.Chen Xiaodong lost two pairs of shoes, but things didn't make any progress.Refusal to invest means that financing cannot be completed, and there is no hope for the company to go public.Chen Xiaodong was so anxious that his mouth was full of foam, and he lost ten catties in a week.

Chen Xiaodong has never suffered any setbacks since he grew up.He has been among the best in grades since he was a child, and he has been in key high schools and key universities all the way. After graduation, he plans to start a business, and his family gave him 100 million without saying a word.Although it was a bit hard to start from a small company, it has been going smoothly, and accumulating capital with his hands little by little gave him a sense of accomplishment.This situation is unprecedented, and it is undoubtedly a serious blow to his self-esteem and confidence.

What made him even more depressed and anxious about this incident was the reason for the divestment.After many inquiries, it is said that the reason why investors changed their minds overnight was because they knew that Chen Xiaodong was gay.

Chen Xiaodong didn't understand the relationship between sexual orientation and investment, but he seemed to understand something from the contemptuous eyes of the person who told him the news.And repeated failures made him feel more relaxed.

On the morning of Saturday, Liu Xia worked overtime at the company as usual, and received a call from Chen Xiaodong, saying that he would take him to eat seafood at night.Originally, Liu Xia really wanted to ask how the financing was going, but the private phone calls during working hours had already affected her badly, so she didn't ask anything, thinking that she would talk about it in detail at night.So Liu Xia was a little absent-minded throughout the morning, and finally took the lunch break, but Manager Li informed him that he would have dinner with the client in the evening.

Liu Xia has never hated this job more than at this moment.Reluctantly, he called Chen Xiaodong to explain the situation.

Hurry up, it's already 11 o'clock when Liu Xia gets home.Worried that Chen Xiaodong had already fallen asleep and would wake him up, Liu Xia opened the door cautiously.When he opened the door, he found the lights were bright.

"Back?" Chen Xiaodong came out of the kitchen with a smile, still holding a bowl in his hand.

Liu Xia suddenly felt warm in his heart, and the depression and loneliness of many days were swept away.

"Drink a lot of wine again?" Chen Xiaodong frowned, and handed the bowl in front of Liu Xia, "Let's drink a bowl first."

Liu Xia took the bowl, it was mung bean soup, he was a little moved.

There were still some grapes in the refrigerator, Liu Xia took them out and washed a bunch, and sat down on the sofa with Chen Xiaodong.

While eating grapes, Liu Xia realized that Chen Xiaodong seemed to be preoccupied.

"How about the financing?" Liu Xia asked worriedly.

"It's probably all right." Chen Xiaodong replied in a muffled voice, just sitting and not eating grapes, he didn't know what was going on in his heart.

Liu Xia doubted the authenticity of Chen Xiaodong's words, so she said this in order not to worry herself?

But Liu Xia resisted asking more, he understood the importance of leaving some space for each other.He held the bowl and sipped the soup while Chen Xiaodong sat quietly aside, the atmosphere was a little too quiet for a while.

"Xia..." Chen Xiaodong seemed hesitant to speak.

"Huh?" Liu Xia put down the bowl, turned her head to look at Chen Xiaodong, and was ready to listen.

Chen Xiaodong seemed to be tensed by Liu Xia, stood up and walked to the window, with his back to Liu Xia.It took a while before he spoke: "Have you thought about the future?"

"What about the future?" Liu Xia frowned slightly, not understanding what Chen Xiaodong was referring to in the future.

"In the future, do you ever think that one day...you will marry a woman and go back to live a normal life." Chen Xiaodong was still standing at the window, scratching the glass meaninglessly, because he lowered his head so he couldn't see clearly expression.

Liu Xia was somewhat shocked, he never thought that these words would come out of Chen Xiaodong's mouth.In the past, he was always dissatisfied with his cover-up of their relationship, always saying that he hoped their love would be aboveboard.He who used to be like this actually said to go back to live a "normal" life.Even though Liu Xia didn't have the sixth sense of a woman, he still noticed that things were not easy.

Liu Xia got up and went to the window, took his arm, and forced him to turn around and look at her.

"The family wants you to return to a normal life?" Liu Xia asked, her tone was very calm, without any hint of coercion.

"It's the hope of this society. Those people can't tolerate us at all. I was too naive before..." Chen Xiaodong lowered his head and frowned, with an aggrieved expression that seemed to be about to cry.

"They won't invest because you're gay?" Liu Xia asked caressingly touching Chen Xiaodong's face.

Chen Xiaodong didn't answer, leaned back against the wall, and sighed softly.Liu Xia saw that his eyes were already red.

Can't help feeling distressed.Liu Xia let go of Chen Xiaodong's hand and sighed, but her face remained the same as before, as if everything was a trivial matter.The tone is also light, without sadness or anger: "I understand, Xiaodong, let's break up."

Chen Xiaodong jumped up as if he had seen a ghost, hugged Liu Xia into his arms, and almost scolded: "What nonsense are you talking about! Who wants to break up!"

Liu Xia's heart was not as calm as it appeared on the surface, she couldn't help it anymore after being hugged by Chen Xiaodong like this, and tears fell down.While secretly scolding himself for being worthless, he cried even harder.

So the conversation stopped.Chen Xiaodong carried him into the bedroom, coaxing him with delicate and gentle kisses for a long time before finally stopping his tears.

Liu Xia sucked her nose and lay on the bed staring at the ceiling in a daze.

Chen Xiaodong's most important career has been working hard for so many years. If his relationship is ruined, he will not be able to forgive himself.

Mingming had told himself thousands of times earlier that they could not be together forever, and that sooner or later they would break up, why was he still reluctant.

"Xia, don't talk about breaking up again in the future." Chen Xiaodong propped himself up with one hand, looked at Liu Xia and said.

Liu Xia had just cried, his nose and eyes were red, he looked up at Chen Xiaodong, thought for a while and said, "I don't want to be a hindrance to your career."

"I didn't mean that." Chen Xiaodong was a little anxious, he knew Liu Xia's fragility and insecurity in his bones, and he couldn't let him get hurt.He organized his language again and said: "The company's problems belong to the company, and any problem cannot be solved at the expense of you. I'm just too stressed, and I just want to talk to you. If you do this again, I will never dare I’m telling you this.” After finishing speaking, he leaned down and kissed Liu Xia affectionately on his lips, until the kiss made him unable to breathe, then let him go, half coaxing and half commanding: “Promise me, I will never talk about breaking up again."

Liu Xia pursed her lips and nodded.

A night of lingering.