Divergent

December 2015, 12 Yin Gucheng

I don’t know how many times I have dreamed about her, but this dream is also quite strange. In the dream, I first held the hands of countless girls and then let them go one by one, as if I was looking for something.Suddenly returned to the current classroom, and learned that a new classmate was coming to the class, it was Yao Qian!She saw me, walked towards me, and sat down beside me.She said happily: "We will be at the same table from now on!" I also sat down and slowly took her hand, my face flushed instantly, and I was so shy for the first time.

It seemed that this was what I was looking for, a pair of warm hands.I looked at her again and blushed even more.Woke up after that.

Maybe we will all forget some things in our dreams, for example, we have broken up, for example, how could she transfer to our school after she has chosen a vocational high school.

If I could remember something in the dream, I would know I was dreaming, and I would rush to hug her.

Let me see her more in my dreams, Oneiroi.But I know that I have been insomnia until I have no strength to dream.Tomorrow is Christmas Eve, but for me this year, it's just an ordinary Wednesday.We've been clamoring to spend Christmas together before, but Christmas is here, how about you?

December 2015, 12 Yin Gucheng

Tomorrow is the new year, if my friends don't remind me, I really forgot that there is a new year.After going to bed at two o'clock this morning, I dreamed about her again.

My dream brought us to my grandmother's house in my childhood. There were only two of us in the house. After a quick dinner, we packed the dishes and chopsticks into the kitchen.I stood at the door and looked at her maliciously, and then said: "Haha, it's your turn to do the dishes today! Wash slowly!" She pouted and said, "Okay, then go buy some wine, we haven't seen you for a long time We drank together." I thought to myself, yeah, how come two alcoholics who are together haven't had a drink for a long time.It's a bit strange, no matter, let's buy the wine first.

When I was still on the way to buy wine, I suddenly woke up.I stared out the window, it was so foggy today.A piece of whiteness blocked my sight, I was a person in the fog, I couldn't see my surroundings, I couldn't see the way I came here, lost in this maze of fog.

I will be 18 next year, can I stop writing sad songs?

December 2016, 1 Yin Gucheng

Smoking is hard to quit, after all it has kissed me for six years, and after four months it kissed me wantonly.Let it accompany me through this harsh winter again, and let me not think of her.

I want to go to her city.

Good night, dear world.It's time to write two poems tomorrow.

January 2016, 1 Xiaoxue Gucheng

Dear, are you watching the snow now?

Who said that this lonely city never snows, you see, they are so beautiful!This is the first time I have seen snow. They are like naughty elves, and they want to put everything here with white hair and beard.Isn't the scene covered in silver what we saw together in our dreams?I want to write poems about them!

I just wrote a good word yesterday, and it started to snow today.The snow from the eaves floated from the window and fell on the pillow.Xue, who turned you into Pingting's dancers?Is the young god?Or her eyes?

It's really beautiful, where do you see the snow?I went out, and I wanted to tell Xue about my insomnia.

8:31 a.m.

When I went out today, I bought four or five bottles of cocktails and sat alone on the snowy grass.He smoked the cigarettes one by one, and drank the wine one by one.

I remember getting on the subway and wandering around, aimlessly.There are only a few empty wine bottles around me, I want to cry, but I dare not cry.

8:06 p.m.