Divergent

The relationship between me and her was not as perfect as outsiders saw.We have experienced countless quarrels, countless cold wars, countless breakups, and countless reconciliations.It's hard for her to be a pair with me, pouring endless cold water.

We become more and more irritable, more and more prone to quarrel over little things.Become less tolerant of each other than before.

I have a completely different attitude from her in dealing with the problems that arise in the relationship.I belonged to speaking out when there was any problem at that time. I think the problem should be solved in a timely manner.And she belongs to the kind of people who put all the problems and unhappiness in her stomach at that time. She even wanted to bear the mistakes I made by herself, so she often gave me the illusion that it didn't matter.But as long as something ignites her, it will definitely be a big explosion.She would shake out all the things that happened before, even things that I can't remember anymore.It always surprises me.I said several times: "If you think there is something wrong with me in the future, just tell me directly, don't be bored in your heart. If you tell me, I will definitely change it." She also agreed, but we still inevitably went further and further apart. up.

In fact, we broke up so many times because we hoped that this relationship would get better and better. We never really wanted to separate.Remembering a reconciliation, she said this in the space:

The most important thing for two people to be together is tolerance besides trust.Only when two people get along slowly will they be more suitable for the thoughts in their hearts, no matter good or bad.Sometimes it's not a good idea to speak out. It's too scary to have a gap, and the two of them will only get further and further apart.Remember not to use your ears to understand the other half, gossip and gossip disturb people's ears.Don't forget how important trust is. Cold wars and quarrels hurt the relationship the most. Once or twice may improve the relationship, but the heart is too sensitive to be separated if the frequency is too many.True love is not so easy.

Perhaps we have become the pair that is too sensitive.

The last time I broke up, maybe I was tired of the days of on-off and on-again, tired of the relationship that was always arguing about little things.I proposed to break up, I don't know her well, I don't know what she wants, I didn't give her the freedom she deserved, I was very selfish, I didn't care about her very much, and I was considerate of her.I always feel that there are many people in this world who are more worthy of her than me.So I let go, really let go.

Yes, I really felt sick at the time.Obviously I was very reluctant to be separated from her, but I was as determined as if I had done a great cause.Since it is a great thing, it is inevitable to suffer great pain alone.I crushed my thoughts of reconciliation again and again, and I naively thought that as long as I survived this period, everything would be fine.

In order to let her give up her heart to find a new relationship faster, I found a lover who was 3 years younger than me in the first day of junior high school.Her name is Jiang.In the cold winter, I was extremely nice to that girl every day, giving her sugar, milk tea and buying gifts every day.All kinds of shows.I thought Yao would forget about me soon, but no.

She would call me every night, sometimes it was really a "killing serial call".Only a few times, she begged me to reconcile with her, and she told me how she had insomnia these days and how her eyes were swollen from crying.I didn't change my mind though, I turned her down like an iceman.I remember that I said a very stupid thing, I said that I want to go to the outside world for a while, maybe five years, maybe ten years.You can wait as long as you want.

Thinking about it now, I still regret it, why insist on pushing the person I love so much away from me?Isn't this self-deception?If you really feel that you are not good, you can change it. How can you give up such a good girl to others?

Alas, what's the use of regretting when you can't come back.I'd better go on and tell you the story.