grief

For the past few days, Qiao Yuxi has been avoiding Yi Yan intentionally or unintentionally.Even though Yi Yan had explained and apologized to him, and he had made it clear that he didn't mind, he always felt that they were different.

Until that day, Qiao Yuxi sat alone in front of the window in a daze, and saw Lou Yi coming straight here with a suitcase after getting off the taxi.

Lou Yi stood at the door dejectedly, saying that he was kicked out because of a quarrel with Ouyang Liling, and he had nowhere to go, so he thought of this.

Qiao Yuxi didn't say anything, just smiled lightly, took the suitcase, and led him into the room.

From that day on, four people lived here.

It seems to go back many years ago.

At that time, Qiao Yuxi was always smiling, because Yi Yan said that he liked his smile.

Yi Yan always treats everyone tenderly, because he is the eldest of the four and has to take care of everyone.

Geng Ye fights with people from time to time, because he is a bloody young man who loves to fight against injustice.

Lou Yi always hides behind everyone, and occasionally complains in front of Yi Yan, most of which is about Geng Ye causing a few more troubles, and then attracts Geng Ye's fist, crying and complaining to everyone.

It seems that they have become the four teenagers playing under the banyan tree.

It's just that some intangible things have been lost, and it's not the same.

Qiao Yuxie's smile lacked vitality, Yi Yan's gentleness was mixed with caution, Geng Ye's irascibility was more deliberate, and even Lou Yi's flinching and dodging had a trace of unclear meaning.

In fact, these are more like illusions now.They can't go back.

In the living room, Lou Yi was chased by Geng Ye again, and while running, he called Qiao Yuxi who was sitting beside him for help, but Qiao Yuxi smiled and said nothing, so he flipped through the magazines that Geng Ye had bought early in the morning.

Yi Yan came out of the kitchen, holding a dinner plate: "Okay, stop making trouble, hurry up and finish breakfast, and go to work."

"Let go of you today!" Geng Ye walked to the dining table, picked up the bread and stuffed it into his mouth, not forgetting to mutter: "I'm starving to death."

No wonder I wasn't hungry, I woke up early in the morning and didn't stop. First I dragged Lou Yi up who was drowsy, then I went out to buy milk, newspapers and magazines, and when I came back, I chased Lou Yi all over the house.

"I...I..." Lou Yi collapsed on the sofa, panting heavily, "I protest!"

"What are you protesting for?" Geng Ye stared, "Everyone wakes up early in the morning, but you are the only one who is lying in bed like a pig and still has the face to protest!"

"That's because you have to go to work, but I..."

"Resign!"

"what?"

"We have already drawn a clear line with Ouyang Liling, why are you still..."

"Geng Ye, eat quickly." Yi Yan handed the milk to Geng Ye, "Lou Yi is free to do whatever he wants, don't always interfere with him."

"That's right, that's right, it's still Yi Yan..." Lou Yi's voice gradually disappeared from Geng Ye's gaze.

Qiao Yuxi didn't make a sound from the beginning to the end, and smiled faintly, but the smile was a little hollow.

Yi Yan poured out another glass of milk and put it in front of him, and after thinking for a while, he asked, "Yu last, why don't we go together this weekend..."

"Well, what did you say?" Qiao Yuxi seemed to have just recovered.

Yi Yan pondered for a while, then smiled slightly: "It's okay, eat more."

"Oh."

Geng Ye and Lou Yi looked at each other, and silently lowered their heads to eat quickly.

By the time the three of them had finished eating, Qiao Yuxie had only eaten a third of a piece of bread, and the things on the plate hadn't moved.

These days, he simply treats eating as coping, and eats very slowly and very little every time, his body loses weight rapidly, and the clothes that originally fit hang loosely on his body, and he looks so weak that it makes people feel distressed.

Everyone saw it, but there was nothing they could do.

It was because of Ouyang Liling before, Yi Yan could still persuade him to coax him.He listened to Yi Yan very much, the situation would not be too bad.

But now because of Yi Yan, no one knew what to do.

Geng Ye put on his clothes, walked to the door and returned, Qiao Yuxi was still in a daze, chewing mechanically.

"Feather, if you don't like it, I'll go buy you something you like."

Qiao Yuxi raised her head: "No need. Yi Yan's cooking is delicious, I like it very much."

"Feather last..."

"Let's go, we'll be late later."

Yi Yan picked up his coat and squatted in front of Qiao Yuxi: "Yuxi, I'll come back to cook for you at noon today, okay?"

"No, it's too much trouble, I can do it myself."

These days, Qiao Yuxi hadn't eaten anything at noon, only when everyone was around, he would sit at the dining table to make a show.

Yi Yan didn't say anything, and left with Geng Ye.

Qiao Yuxi didn't notice that there was one person missing in the room. He stared at the dinner plate for a while, picked it up and went into the kitchen, tidied it up, and came out after more than ten minutes.

"Feather, do you want to go out for a walk today?"

Lou Yi suddenly made a sound, and Qiao Yuxi was taken aback: "You...didn't you leave just now?"

"No, I've been here all along."

Qiao Yuxi was in a daze, he just thought he was the only one left in this room.

Slowly walking over to sit beside Lou Yi, Qiao Yuxi closed his eyes tiredly: "Lou Yi, where can I go?"

"Yuxi, what's wrong with you?" Lou Yi looked at Qiao Yuxi wonderingly, "I always feel that something is wrong with you, can you tell me?"

Qiao Yuxi smiled wryly, and said, can the problem be solved?But Dora went into the water alone.

"Is it because of Li Ling?" Seeing that he was silent, Lou Yi asked tentatively.

"Do you hate him?" Qiao Yuxi suddenly asked, asking an inexplicable question.

Lou Yi couldn't react for a while: "Why should I hate him?"

"He kicked you out, don't you blame him?"

"He kicked me out? How could... Ah, yes, he kicked me out." Lou Yi nodded vigorously, looked at Qiao Yuxi, and saw that he was fine, "Of course I blame him, but... ..."

"Why did you quarrel with him?"

"I...I...because..." Lou Yi's eyes rolled around, "Actually, it's not a big deal, so don't mention it."

"This is not like you." Qiao Yuxi turned to look at Lou Yi, "You dare to quarrel with him, you have made a lot of progress."

"Hehe..." Lou Yi smiled uncomfortably, "Hey, Yuxi, why are you talking about me, aren't you talking about you?"

"I... I'm fine."

"Father, can I ask you a question?"

Qiao Yuxi nodded.

"If... If you do it all over again, do you still want to meet Ouyang Liling?"

Qiao Yuxi was taken aback.He never thought about this question, because the facts are in front of him, they have already met, and they have no choice.

However, if this really existed, would he regret his current choice?

Lou Yi had a panoramic view of Qiao Yuxi's expression, hesitated to speak, only took a deep look at him, and then left.

Qiao Yuxi returned to the room and sat in front of the window in a daze all morning. He didn't realize that the room had been entered, the notebook had been opened, and the swivel chair in front of the desk had moved slightly.

He didn't even notice that Ouyang Liling's car was parked at the door.It wasn't until the doorbell rang that he just woke up from a dream, rubbed his stiff face, got up and opened the door.

Looking at each other, Qiao Yuxi's first reaction was to close the door quickly.

"Feather tree!" Ouyang Liling quickly stepped forward and rushed in.

Qiao Yuxi was taken aback for a moment, then turned around and walked back to the living room, standing with her back to Ouyang Liling.

"Feather, I know you don't want to see me, but..."

Ouyang Liling had just learned from Lou Yi that Qiao Yuxie had been having a bad time recently, and he was so haggard that he couldn't care less, so he came here directly.

"Ouyang Liling, if you want to apologize to Lou Yi, there's no need to come here, he's in the company now." Qiao Yuxi's voice was very calm.

Ouyang Liling didn't understand what Qiao Yuxi meant.Why should I apologize to Lou Yi?But that's not important.He just wanted to take a good look at Qiao Yuxie.

"Feather." Ouyang Liling walked forward slowly, stretched out his hand tentatively, and touched Qiao Yuxi's arm.

Qiao Yuxi froze and did not resist.

Ouyang Liling hugged him: "Yu Zhi, I'm sorry, I really can't stand not seeing you again, I..."

"Let go." Qiao Yuxi said coldly.

Ouyang Liling hugged him even tighter: "Yu Zhi, no matter how much you hate me, it's enough to torture me...Come back to me, please?"

Qiao Yuxi took a deep breath: "I beg you, please go and don't come to me again."

"Feather, how many times do I have to say it before you can believe that I really didn't do those things..." Ouyang Liling turned his body and made him face herself, "Feather, how could I have the heart to use that Such a despicable means to frame you... You have an accident, do you know how distressed I am, if I can, I really hope that I can replace you, I..."

"That doesn't matter anymore."

"Feather last..."

"Liling, I'm not saying angry words, and I don't hate you, really... let's stop here..." Qiao Yuxi didn't know that he was already crying, he only felt something warm slipping across his face , erased it casually, and his tone was still calm, "If you can still be friends, I am willing, otherwise, I don't mind just being strangers..."

After listening to him quietly, Ouyang Liling began to giggle: "Yu Zhi, you obviously still love me, why do you pretend it doesn't matter?"

"Yes, I still love you, I have always loved you, and I may continue to love you in the future, but..." Qiao Yuxi wiped away the tears on his face again, "I will not be with you anymore."

Ouyang Liling let go of her hand, and took a few steps back feebly.He finally made up his mind, and Qiao Yuxi wanted to let go again.

Is it a test given by fate, or are they torturing themselves, or maybe they should never have started.

If there is no such feeling, they will always be brothers, as promised at the beginning, they will never be separated.

However, no if.

"Feather, will you be happy leaving me?"

"……meeting."

"Then why do you look like this now?"

Qiao Yuxi wiped away tears vigorously: "This is the last time, and it won't happen again."

"Okay, then tell me again, is the record here fake?" Ouyang Liling held a USB flash drive in his hand, "This is copied from your notebook, and the password is... I ask you The date of confession..."

Qiao Yuxi stared closely at the USB flash drive in Ouyang Liling's hand, which belonged to Lou Yi.He stepped forward and snatched it, threw it on the ground, and stepped on it hard.

His notebook is full of love and reluctance for Ouyang Liling. He collected all the reports about Ouyang Liling, cut out all the pictures, and carefully organized and saved them. It marked his longing for Ouyang Liling and his wish to return to Ouyang Liling.

He has always wondered how Lou Yi dared to argue with Ouyang Liling. It turned out that he was not kicked out, but it was clearly a conspiracy.

He ran into the room, picked up the laptop on the table and was about to throw it on the ground, and then Ouyang Liling hurriedly hugged him.

"Feather, don't be like this..."

"Why, why did everyone design me?" Qiao Yuxi struggled hard, "Let go, let me go!"

"Feather, you misunderstood, Lou Yi accidentally saw..."

"You're talking nonsense!" Qiao Yuxi yelled, "You arranged for him to spy on me, and you did everything!"

"No, Yuxie, I didn't do that." Ouyang Liling took the notebook from his hand and pressed him on the bed, "Don't get excited, listen to me, you really misunderstood. Lou Yi came here because He misses you so much, he sees that you are unhappy, and wants to understand..."

"Shut up! Shut up!" Qiao Yuxi cried and kicked Ouyang Liling, "Ouyang Liling, you liar! Until now, you are still talking nonsense!"

"..." Ouyang Liling knew that it was useless for him to explain now, so he just kissed her directly.

"Uh...uh..." Qiao Yuxi struggled hard, but to no avail.

He hadn't gone out since he got up, and he was still wearing pajamas, which was easily stripped off by Ouyang Liling.

"Feather last..." Ouyang Liling called him softly.

Qiao Yuxi finally gave up resisting, closed his eyes tightly, and lay upright on the bed, allowing Ouyang Liling to touch and kiss his body.

He really lost too much weight, and his originally thin body became surprisingly thinner.

Ouyang Liling was very distressed, secretly blamed herself, and gently hugged him tightly.

Qiao Yuxi was crying all the time. As a man, he had already shed too many tears. Perhaps, all the tears in his life had been in these days.

"Feather last...feather last..."

Ouyang Liling's voice was beside her ears, full of lust, and a little hoarse.

"Don't call me by my name..."

Qiao Yuxi suddenly grabbed Ouyang Liling's back fiercely, and her nails were deeply embedded in the flesh.

He has no desire for Yi Yan, but simply regards Yi Yan as his elder brother.

But for Ouyang Liling, he couldn't control the most primitive impulse, he wanted, he longed for Ouyang Liling's caress, longed for Ouyang Liling's invasion, longed for the feeling of coexistence of pain and happiness.

He admitted that he was hypocritical and shameful.

"Feather, I want you, can I?"

Qiao Yuxi wanted to say that Ouyang Liling was more hypocritical than him, they were already naked and entangled with each other, but they still pretended to ask such meaningless words.Even if he refuses, it's impossible for Ouyang Liling to leave him.

Despite thinking like this in his heart, Qiao Yuxi still opened his blurry teary eyes and nodded slightly.

Yi Yan stood outside the door and turned around sadly.The groans and impact sounds from the room made his heart ache. He felt that maybe it would be better to die in the next second.

In just one and a half hours of rest time, he rushed all the way back from the company just to cook a meal for Qiao Yuxie.Now it seems that it is just self-indulgence.

When he saw Ouyang Liling's car from the door, he had already thought of such a result, but he was not reconciled, he always expected from the bottom of his heart that Qiao Yuxi had gradually given up on Ouyang Liling.

Looking up, the sun is shining, but it is not warm enough.

Compared to Ouyang Liling, no matter how hard he tries, he will always be a loser.

Step by step, different from the mood when he came, he left with disappointment, clutching the trampled U disk that he just picked up from the living room.