Guandong Yunmengtan

The elders in the family had hoped that Meng Xiang would become a doctor when he grew up, but he himself had no interest in medicine, and he and his family were in good health, so he rarely sought medical treatment when he got sick, so he had no intention of studying this area of ​​knowledge.Now that Gu Yi was informed of the bad news about cancer, he was startled and saddened to make up his mind, abandoned his studies and work, and devoted himself to searching for relevant information on the Internet all day long. With the deepening of understanding, fear and despair increased day by day, like a thick and thick python. Tightly bound, slowly towards suffocation.

In the advanced stage of the disease, it can cause severe bone pain and body numbness. Patients have loss of appetite, confusion, and loss of mobility, which seriously affects the quality of life.Meng Xiang was worried, and every time he found a new symptom, he nervously asked Gu Yi if he felt similar. It was strange to say that he didn't ask whether Gu Yi was fine before. Since he started to pay close attention to the condition, the symptoms he found Gu Yi had paid everything and couldn't go to work in Le Village. He was bedridden most of the day, couldn't eat and couldn't sleep. When he asked him if it hurt, he just shook his head and said it was okay, as if he was trying to bear it.

Meng Xiang kept persuading him to go to the hospital for treatment from morning to night, but both hard and soft tactics didn't work. Gu Yi even threatened that if he mentioned medical treatment, he would run away from home and find a secluded place to die.

"It can't be cured, and going to the hospital is a pain. I was sick when I was young, and the treatment was worse than the illness. I don't want to lie on the bed with tubes all over my body, dirty and smelly, waiting to die. That would be hard for everyone."

He also forced Meng Xiang to swear that he must conceal his illness before he died, and he was not allowed to tell Gu Weidong, lest he repeat the pain of more than ten years ago.Meng wants to understand his desire to be strong, but he can't accept this too cruel reality anyway. He keeps guarding every step of the way, thinking wildly if he doesn't see him for a second, and dare not fall asleep at night, for fear that if he makes a mistake, he will be lost forever. he.

The heart-wrenching torment was the most excruciating. He was haggard at a speed visible to the naked eye. In less than half a month, he was already yellow, dry, black and thin, and he looked more like a terminally ill patient than Gu Yi.That night, when he helped Gu Yi take a shower and put him to bed, Gu Yi suddenly grabbed his shoulder and exclaimed: "Meng Xiang, you have white hair?!"

Meng Xiang was stunned for a moment, and asked him to help pull it out. After pulling out five or six roots in a row, Gu Yi's eyes turned red, and he hugged him tightly, his scorching breath quickly wetted the socket of his neck.Meng Xiang hugged Gu Yi like an inch, pretending to be calm and comforting him: "It's okay, I'm young and white, how many white hairs can I still pretend to be old?"

Gu Yi choked up and said, "I'm sorry for making you so sad, I should have told you later if I knew about it earlier."

Now no matter what he said, it was like a sharp knife piercing into Meng Xiang's heart, taking advantage of the opportunity to pierce his fragile strength like a plastic film.

"What nonsense, you really don't want me to be sad, so go to the hospital obediently, maybe there is still hope."

It has been like this recently. Whenever this topic is brought up, Meng Xiang sheds tears without saying a word. In the past, he always liked to laugh at those men who like to piss. After who wants to be with Gu Yi, his tear glands frequently lose control, especially when he learns that After he fell ill, he almost shed tears behind his back, and only then did he realize that "a man doesn't flick his tears easily, but they don't reach the point of sadness."

"Let's try again, okay? No matter what method we use, we have to try. I can use my bone marrow and viscera for transplantation. Anyway, we are all type A blood. Maybe we can be matched successfully? It doesn't matter how much you spend, as long as you can To live on, I would rather be in debt for the rest of my life, and be a coolie for the rest of my life, please don't give up so quickly, I can't live without you at all..."

He wept bitterly and begged, with endless remorse in his heart, hating himself for not being enlightened at the beginning, for not being able to reconcile with Gu Yi earlier, the time spent together was so short, and those days and months that were wasted by worries and hesitation in front of him seemed particularly pity. He couldn't help slapping himself for all the indifference, ridicule and capriciousness he did to Gu Yi at that time, wishing to exchange the rest of his life to recover the loss.

Seeing him crying until the river mouth broke the bank, Gu Yi didn't know how to comfort him, so he hugged him silently, also full of remorse, but the nature was completely opposite.He regretted that he should not have broken into Meng Xiang's life without authorization, and being close to him as Tiantian was enough, why should he not be content with grabbing his love?Knowing that the result will be a tragedy, but forcing this tragedy on him, just to fulfill his own wish, causing his sweetheart to suffer innocent pain, this kind of selfish love may send him to hell.

However, without this love, he probably wouldn't be able to face death as bravely as he is now. Meng Xiang is the best gift in his life. After experiencing the happiness of mutual love, it is not in vain to come to this world. What should be blamed is that the last lie was too inappropriate. I originally wanted to give him a psychological buffer period, but it caused him to be heartbroken early. Seeing that his frowning brows and tears have not been relieved for a moment, he is clearly afraid of eternal death, and the meticulous care he takes every day is even more comparable. The biological parents are so lucky to be loved by this kind and gentle person, and it is extremely painful to think of the sorrow he will go through after parting.The joke of fate is cruel and ruthless, hope and despair must buy one and get one free, the bright package is boundless darkness, you can't go forward, you can't retreat.

Perhaps such absurd consumption of each other even God couldn't stand it anymore, two days later he sneezed and scraped a speck of dust on Meng Xiang's right eye, causing him to lose his eye and slip, breaking through the deception all at once.

That day, Meng wanted to send Gu Yi home to visit his father, but found that he forgot to bring the pills he depended on, so he hurried back to get them.When he walked into the yard, he was suddenly confronted by a whirlwind. His eyes hurt and he didn't pay attention to his feet.

He was shocked for a moment, and immediately called Gu Yi to ask where to buy the medicine.When Gu Yi heard that he broke the medicine bottle, he panicked for a while, and even said: "Don't worry, it is a special medicine, you have to go to a specific hospital to find a doctor to get a prescription, I will call the doctor, and I can get it tomorrow Medicine, come and pick me up first."

Meng wanted to know that he couldn't live without this life-saving medicine for a day, so how could he wait for tomorrow, so he quickly rescued some clean ones, rushed to the largest nearby pharmacy with the mentality of trying his luck, and grabbed the pharmacist for advice.

"Do you sell this medicine in your store? I need it urgently!"

The pharmacist took the pill, looked at it, and asked him, "Sir, what disease does this medicine treat?"

Meng Xiang was very anxious: "This is a special hormone produced in Germany that helps terminally ill patients maintain their physical strength. My wife has bone marrow cancer and must take this medicine every day. Please help me find it!"

When the pharmacist heard that the situation was urgent, he hurriedly treated it cautiously, and asked the customer to wait a moment based on the bad appearance of the pills, and brought the medicines into the office to ask colleagues to help identify them.A few minutes later, she brought over a middle-aged fat man with a supervisor's badge. The fat man saluted Meng Xiang with a smile, and asked him where he bought the medicine in the first place.

Meng Xiang said: "My wife said it was prescribed by the doctor in the hospital where he saw a doctor. If you don't have it here, can you help me find out where I can buy it?"

The fat man and the female pharmacist exchanged glances, probably because the guest's speech was too weird, not only using the masculine "he" to refer to his wife, but also talking nonsense in a serious manner, and they became more alert and more cautious.

"But sir, your medicine is ordinary mints."

The fat man spread out the paper bag in his left hand, pointed at the pills and smiled apologetically, "Just now I tasted a little bit to identify the nature of the medicine, and it's really mints, and it's exactly the same as what I usually take."

Seeing Meng Xiang's shocked expression, he quickly took out a small green candy box from his trouser pocket, first asked Meng Xiang to look at the logo on the box, and then opened the box lid and poured the candies onto the paper bag in his left hand.

"Look, it's really the same, and the taste is also the same. If you don't believe me, try it."

Meng wanted to use his eyeballs as a microscope, and stared closely at the pile of white tablets. He couldn't tell the difference between the former and the latter. He reached out and picked up a piece and put it in his mouth. It was indeed a fake mint, and then tried a few more. Still.

His shocking blankness dispelled the doubts and fears of the shop assistants, and the fat man kindly reminded: "Sir, if the doctor really prescribed this medicine to you, it may be suspected of medical fraud. I suggest you call the police immediately."

Fraud?

Meng Xiang was forced to break out in a cold sweat by this word. Honesty does not mean mental retardation, and lies are like dominoes that move his whole body. He feels that he is a bug that has been upside down in a black urn, and now there is a crack in the bottom of the urn. A ray of light came through, showing him where the way out was.

After walking out of the pharmacy, he received a call from Gu Yi, asking if he was on his way.

Gu Yi's tone was as urgent as before, but Meng Xiang's state of mind had changed drastically. It sounded full of guilt, just like mud trying to plug the cracks again.

"Wait, I have to do something first."

He turned off his phone, went home and found Gu Yi's medical examination report, went to the hospital where he had his finger transplant last time, and consulted his attending doctor.The doctor heard that Gu Yi was suffering from malignant myeloma and it had developed to an advanced stage, so he said in disbelief: "The last time the patient was discharged from the hospital, the examinations were all normal. Even if he developed the disease, the progress would not be so fast."

Meng wanted to hand over the information, seeing the doctor quickly relaxed while looking through it, and finally smiled lightly in relief, his mood went against it and became heavy.

"Hehe, Meng Sang, this inspection report is not from the same person."

The doctor first pointed out the loopholes in the data itself, holding the X-ray film and said: "The second rib on the right side of the patient in this picture has the scar left by the operation, but there is no scar in the other picture. It is obvious that they are two different patients. .And there are many inconsistent errors on the checklist, and the compilation is not in compliance with the norms. It must not be issued by a regular hospital.”

"Are you saying that this report was forged by putting together the inspection sheets of two people?"

"It seems to be like this, and based on my common sense, even if I suffer from multiple myeloma, it will take three months at the earliest from the onset of symptoms to the spread of the whole body. This disease is terrible, and it will eventually lead to necrosis of nerve endings, convulsions, and paralysis. , persistent high fever, severe internal bleeding accompanied by multiple organ failure, does the patient have any of these symptoms?"

"...No, the symptoms he showed were fatigue, anorexia, and insomnia."

"Can you still move around freely? How about self-care ability?"

"It's all okay."

The doctor smiled and returned the report to him: "I think the patient may really need to see a doctor, but not to the oncology department. I suggest you take him to consult a psychologist when you have time. There is a kind of mental disorder called 'proxy Pretending to be ill, the patient will take the role of the patient and continue to pretend to be various diseases in order to gain the attention and sympathy of others. Normal life."

He re-diagnosed Gu Yi's illness in a few words, smashed the heavy rock that was oppressing Meng Xiang's nerves, and poured a spoonful of boiling oil on top of his head, causing the pricks to emit green smoke.

This ordeal that made him feel heartbroken and worse than death was actually a carefully choreographed prank, and he couldn't wait to catch the ruthless liar and question why he was persecuted in such a cruel and inhuman way for no reason!

But his feet suddenly lost strength, and he couldn't walk that far. He went to a nearby park and called the liar.Hearing his tone, Gu Yi knew that the lie had been exposed, so he only answered in a low voice: "Yes".

After hanging up the phone, Meng Xiang punched the ginkgo tree next to him, and then bumped his head on the rough trunk. His brain was boiling, and the hot steam shrouded his eyes. For self-righteousness, the rest will be pursued by Gu Yi himself when he comes.

The interval of half an hour is very necessary. When the other party came, his irritability had cooled down a little, and he didn't meet violently as planned at the beginning. He rushed forward angrily, grabbed Gu Yi's lapel and dragged him to the side of the big tree. Pressing it hard, the clumsy breath shuttled through the nostrils, bringing out heat waves and sparks.

"What the hell kind of inspection report is this? I've already gone to the hospital for an appraisal. If you want to fake it, you can make a decent one. You just want to fool me, right? I'm an idiot, and I've been played around by you all day long!"

He frantically tore at the stack of papers, kneaded them and threw them hard against Gu Yi's face, the paper shredded into snowflakes, and some of them were carried far away by the wind.Gu Yi stared blankly, the gap between his lips showed no signs of loosening, but he had personally ignited Meng Xiang's fuse, and the explosion was irreversible. Wanting to go crazy, eager to know why Gu Yi hurt him.

"If you want to play tricks on me, just pretend that a robber stabbed me a few times with a knife, or drove me into a serious injury. Why do you pretend to be terminally ill? My fucking eyes are almost blind from crying for you! I think about it all day Suicide! What kind of heart do you have? A good life is only satisfied if you have to toss about and drive me to death? You are a loser! A loser!"

Gu Yi's eyes were clouded with tears, still using his silence as a shield, he bent over to pick up scraps of paper, and after picking up the nearby ones, he picked up the faraway ones, as if he wanted to clean up the rubbish.

Seeing that he never forgot his sense of public morality, Meng wanted to see that he was more indignant than the cruelty of fooling himself, and rushed to grab his shirt again.

"What are you picking it up for? If you talk about public morality like that, why don't you have any conscience towards me? You must make it clear today, otherwise there will be no end!"

"...There is nothing to say, I am sorry for you."

Gu Yi actually calmed down under his accusation, without any hesitation that the defendant should have, and even made a judgment for the judge without authorization.

"let's break up."

A family is not afraid of ghosts, but afraid of people. Meng Xiang had heard before that one of the couple made the heavens and the earth, and made a happy family until the family was ruined. You know how powerful you are on your own.During these days, Gu Yi pretended to be sick and nearly killed him. Before he could find out why, this troublemaker simply proposed to break up.

Didn’t he have a good name? Gu Yi intentionally spends his days doing nonsensical things. His wife can’t live a normal life, so he insists on bleeding out. I think he is lucky to be a man. If he is The woman is the life of a widow as the older generation said, and the man with poor mental quality insists on killing him.

Now that Zuonan has packed up his luggage and moved back home, pretending to be deaf and dumb and resorting to non-violent non-cooperation to confront, Meng thought that there was nothing he could do, so he wanted to seek help from heretics, so he contacted Xiong Fatty at night and said: "The old Taoist priest in Qingcheng Mountain is still here. Not here? Help me find it, and ask the head of his family what to do if he makes trouble for no reason."

Xiong Pang was worried about Gu Yi's condition, so he asked this one first, and he was startled when he knew it was a fake. Meng thought that he couldn't find a place to vent his anger these two days, so he let him vent for a while, and by the way, he drank two cans of beer and burped. : "This dish of Lao Tzu was taken care of by him. He became thin like a vine, and his eyes were crying and myopic. If he found out a few days later, he might just take a belt and hang himself if he couldn't figure it out. I don't know if he is Bewitched by ghosts, how dare you say such lies that kill people."

After Xiong Kai lost his love for the second time, his mentality was much more benevolent, and he understood that it would be better to demolish three temples than destroy a family. After righteous indignation, he chose to persuade: "He is too ignorant of seriousness, but don't be so angry. I heard that pretending to be sick is true. It's a kind of mental illness, the cause of which is lack of love, maybe I want you to care more about him before lying."

"I don't care about him yet! I just need to find a shrine to confess him. He has the final say on what to do, and I obey the command. I am more obedient than a soldier. I don't know what else he has. A little dissatisfied!"

"You think you've done a good job, but he doesn't think so. You see, he is willing to chop off his fingers and thumbs for you. Compared with the things you did for him, it seems unsatisfactory."

Mentioning this matter, Meng Xiang's heart immediately softened like a biscuit soaked in water. He never doubted Gu Yi's love. What he was worried about was how to introduce this love into a stable channel. At present, the difficulty of this project is no less than Dayu's. To control the water, because he couldn't figure out Gu Yi's thoughts at all.He is too independent and self-respecting, just like a proud fox, carefully hiding his wounds, even the closest people can't let him feel at ease and show weakness.Meng wanted to suspect that he had no confidence in himself and thought that he was not a lifelong reliable partner, so he used these extreme methods to test him.

Xiong Pang's speculation caters to this point.

"Based on my analysis, Gu Yi is a child from a single-parent family. He has always depended on their father for life, and their father treats him very well, so he inevitably has a little love for his father. Listening to what you usually say, I think you and their father The formula is very close, so he will look at you, this is also normal, generally dolls have a good relationship with their parents, and they are looking for a partner compared to the other party. But you are definitely not as good as their father to him. So good, it’s not that you don’t pay attention, it’s that you have been together for a short time and haven’t given you a chance to show off, so he created opportunities for you, Sarah. When he was sick when his father went bankrupt to save him, now he pretends to be sick in front of you, If you can do what their father looks like, you will meet the standard, if you can’t do it, you will fail.”

Meng Xiang scratched his head helplessly, and sighed regretfully: "If he wants to test me, I will test it, but why are you breaking up with me now? He doesn't answer the phone calls, he doesn't reply to the messages, I don't understand what he wants son."

"Why can't you figure this out? Think about it, when you didn't know he was Tiantian last time, Gao Xiao made a fuss to meet Tiantian. He thought you wanted to confess your love to Tiantian, and he also said that he wanted to tell you after he blew himself up. Goodbye. He has a strong personality and a good face. Knowing that this whole game is fierce, you probably can't forgive him, so you break up first. Make sure you say it."

Xiong Pang was afraid that Meng Xiang would not be able to let go of his figure, so he used his own experience to speak out: "Don't worry so much about falling in love. Everything is easy when two people like each other. Just think about the way you were dying a few days ago. If Gu Yi wasn't around Now you are going to become a monk, and now he is fine, so you should be happy. Listen to my father, there is only rat poison in this world, there is no medicine for regret, and if I am like this, I have no chance to get back."

With a friend's blood and tears, Meng Xiang chose to cherish the person in front of him, and tidied up his emotions to call his father-in-law the next day.He kept this matter from his elders from the beginning to the end, and he still doesn't want Gu Weidong to know. He contacted him today to find out about Gu Yi's recent situation and see if he can come to pick him up.

This question yielded bad news——Gu Yi has gone on a trip.

"He said that Tokyo was too hot and wanted to go to Karuizawa to escape the summer heat. He set off early yesterday morning."

Hearing Meng Xiang's silence for a while, Gu Weidong couldn't help asking: "Xiao Meng, did you and Xiao Yi quarrel?"

Meng Xiang hurriedly said, "No."

"Oh, don't lie to me. I'm neither deaf nor dumb nor a family member. I usually pretend to be confused about your affairs, but this time it's too obvious. Otherwise, why would Xiaoyi move back suddenly? The other night I also saw him crying on the balcony, this child has always been very strong, it's not that he will never shed tears when he is extremely sad. Xiao Meng, you promised me to treat him well, so you can't lose your word."

Meng Xiang felt no less distressed than Gu Weidong, and expressed his sincerity again: "Father, Xiaoyi and I are really fine, it's just that there was a little conflict. I was just looking for him to have a good talk, but he didn't answer my call, and now he is hiding quietly. I'm also worried about going outside. Please notify me immediately when he comes back, and I will rush there as soon as possible."

I heard that Gu Yi's return date is uncertain, he is like a damp motor, always short-circuited during operation, compared to a while ago, the grief and despair have disappeared, and the spirit still can't cheer up, and it's midsummer, and there are cicadas like refugees flooding all over Tokyo Hiss, like countless tweeters sounding everywhere and all the time, loudly cheering for the fireball in the sky.Walking on the road, those wandering refugees would also bump into people's faces like headless flies. Meng Xiang was so upset that he really wanted to shout at them with his voice to see whose anguish could overwhelm the other.

When I came to the intersection of the street and the road, a yellow popsicle wrapper suddenly flew in front of my eyes, and there were several high-rise apartments nearby. I don’t know which unscrupulous guy was littering upstairs.Meng Xiang has a good awareness of environmental protection. Seeing that the wrapping paper left on the clean road was an eyesore, he turned around to pick it up. Within two or three seconds of his deviation from his path, a black car chased the wind from behind. As the car drove up, the corner of Meng Xiang's backpack collided with the car body, and he was immediately knocked down by the inertia, and he rolled up in a panic, seeing that the car was speeding away without even stepping on the brakes.

Day Oh!Drunk and instigated in broad daylight!It's easy to kill people!

He thought that the driver must be a heartless road killer, so he got up and patted his underwear, and continued to pick up the wrapping paper.At this time, I turned to thank the resident who threw the paper. His unintentional throwing saved his life. After all, it was the blessing of the Bodhisattva.

Accidents happen all the time, but repeated ones are suspicious.The next evening when he went out to throw out garbage, he was nearly hit by a small car. The car was more fierce than the one the day before, and it charged straight at him. Thanks to his quick reflexes, he dodged behind the telephone pole, and the small car passed by. It is also fleeting, deliberately taking human life as a trifle.

Meng Xiang was in danger twice, even if he didn’t have the paranoid of persecution, he felt a little uneasy. He thought that his luck was bad recently, so he should take the time to go to the temple to burn incense. The next morning, he really went to Sensoji Temple, the most popular temple in Tokyo, and learned his lesson. Look forward and backward to beware of vehicles, and only relax when we arrive at the subway station.

The usual crowds of people were still gathered on the platform. He stood in the front row of the aisle pondering his thoughts, his attention drifted away, and the people around him became the scene of the event, and there was no need to record it in his mind.After a while, the train roared towards him, and when the front of the train was less than ten meters away from him, a roar that cracked rocks and pierced clouds resounded through the platform.

"やめろ (stop)!"

The cry was rapid and terrifying, like an alarm in a catastrophe. Everyone at the scene trembled. Meng Xiang's skin shuddered. Looking around, a short-haired woman in a dark green sports suit was rushing towards her. It was something she hadn't seen in a long time. Jin Shanqiu who met, needless to say, the long-haired beauty following her must be Shigeru Mizuki in disguise.

"Oh, how can you woman scream loudly in public, it's so embarrassing!"

Mizuki Shigeru caught up with Jin Shanqiu angrily, and said hello to Meng Xiang: "Meng Sang, I'm sorry to scare you. I saw you from a distance just now, and I was about to call this woman over to say hello to you. Until you suddenly scream like hell, you probably took the wrong medicine in the morning."

He took out a tissue to wipe off his perspiration, and handed one to Jin Shanqiu. Jin Shanqiu ignored him and focused all his attention on Meng Xiang, his nerves stretched like a rubber band.

"Meng Sang, are you okay?"

Meng Xiang was inexplicably nervous, and shook his head blankly: "It's okay, what's wrong?"

Jin Shanqiu asked: "Have you noticed the man standing behind you just now?"

"No, no."

"I just saw that person wanted to push you off the platform, and he was already raising his hand to gather momentum. If I didn't yell at that, he would have succeeded."

The severe cold broke through the summer defense and attacked Meng Xiang. In an instant, more goosebumps grew on his vest, elbows and even his scalp. He looked around in panic. The crowd had completed another round of metabolism, and a group of strange faces replaced another group of strange faces , the same expression of indifference, the same numbness, as if a thousand forests are intertwined, and the criminal who attempted to commit an attack has disappeared like a cunning beast fleeing into the jungle.