ex husband always trying to get me pregnant

"When I was very young, I gave birth to the responsibility of being the eldest son and elder brother. I studied, practiced martial arts, and treated people and things seriously. I told myself all the way to be a good son who would make my father and father proud. To set an example, you must be diligent and enterprising in the court, and let the four words "Master Cheng" be worthy of the name outside the court. After I was engaged to you, I thought about it almost all the time. In the future, I should pay more attention to my wife and love my children. .”

"I've always been like this. I never felt that something was wrong, and my life has always been smooth, until I met you."

Xia Yan sat hugging her knees by the breezy water, her bright eyes blinked, and she looked seriously at Cheng Xi who was confiding.

"To be precise, after reuniting with you last year, I suddenly realized that I was not born to be disciplined, cautious and calm. I would be anxious and angry, sad, helpless and vulnerable, desperate and collapsed, and even occasionally want to open my mouth Swearing at people and beating others. At first I thought I was crazy, but later I realized that it was the wantonness that I had suppressed for many years. The me in the past was just the young master Cheng in everyone's eyes, not the real Cheng Xi. In the past In those years, the real Cheng Xi seemed to be an image separated from me, and you put these two parts together bit by bit, until now, they finally overlap completely."

Cheng Xi raised his hand on the ground, and firmly grasped Xia Yan's hand.

"Thank you, without you, my whole life would probably be just a vain shell."

Xia Yan actually understands this feeling very well.

To be Miss Sun in the Tan Mansion back then, and later to be the prince in the palace, neither Shen Jing nor arrogant, was not his original intention.

The only difference is when she is with Cheng Xi.

Facing Cheng Xi, he can be completely defenseless, say whatever he wants, and release his emotions at will, good or bad, unintentional or deliberate Cheng Xi can catch it, and he will never misunderstand or doubt it.

Cheng Xi said again: "After Master Uncle woke me up, my mind was in chaos. After a few days at home, I always felt that something was missing. On the way to find you, my heart was inexplicably chaotic and anxious, until When I came to your door, I heard your footsteps and voice, and saw you walking towards me with a smile... At that moment, I was inexplicably filled with something, and felt that everything in the world was like that. It’s pleasing to the eye, there’s nothing wrong with it.”

The first time Xia Yan heard him talk about that period of time, she was very curious for a while.

"When I went out to work, I vaguely understood that I was supposed to be an upright man, but in fact I was a fool in the eyes of others, so I could only belong to you and could not be equal to you. But I desperately want to be equal to you , and it is the only equal, and I just heard that you are going on a blind date, so I want to do something to prove to you how good I am, and I hope you can change your mind."

Xia Yan listened with gusto.

"So I worked several jobs, and I saved all my wages. I thought I would give you a certain amount of money and let you be my wife. I also wanted you to resign from the yamen and rely on me for support in the future. But Sometimes I think, if this is really the case, I won’t be able to see your good-looking appearance in official uniform, and it’s a pity.”

Xia Yan didn't know whether to laugh or cry, and said casually, "You look good in official uniform! Much better looking than me!"

Cheng Xi sighed helplessly, and said, "Don't you think I'm stupid?"

Xia Yan rolled his eyes and let out a "huh" and said, "It's okay."

"But I was almost fooled to death by myself. When I woke up that night, I almost immediately wanted to hit the wall and kill myself, especially..." Cheng Xi's eyes flickered.

"What is it?" Xia Yan wanted to know what Cheng Xi, who had been a gentleman for more than 20 years, thought was the most stupid, so he asked without thinking.

Cheng Xi lowered his head, raised his hand to press the center of his brows, avoided Xia Yan's eyes and said, "The night you get better, you and I..."

Xia Yan thought about it for a while, and immediately blushed, her heart beat and her breath became short of breath.

"I think it's because of that incident that I'm extremely...satisfied and happy, and the biggest gap in my heart has been filled, so...it's all right." Cheng Xi looked embarrassed.

"I didn't expect this to be the thing I was obsessed with, especially when you were reluctant that night. You were forced by me, and I was so stupid that you had to compromise. It must have been the kiss and sleep together..." Cheng Xi rarely saw The language is incoherent.

"I was chaotic, regretful and blamed myself. I felt that I had gone too far. I had no face to see you. I wanted to kill myself even more!"

Xia Yan was frightened after hearing this, and hurriedly said, "Fortunately, he didn't kill himself."

Cheng Xi said sincerely: "Just think about it, the life that was so hard to get back must not be killed at will again."

Xia Yan nodded solemnly, nodded and suddenly felt something was wrong, and immediately angrily punched Cheng Xi on the chest, "So you can't kill yourself, you just leave without saying goodbye! It made me worry and panic!"

"I didn't do it on purpose!" Cheng Xi grabbed his hand with shame on his face, "It's just..."

Xia Yan withdrew his hand from Cheng Xi's palm, hugged his arms, moved his butt to the side, raised his eyebrows sideways and said, "What is it?!"

Cheng Xi leaned over, put one hand on his shoulder, and said in a good voice: "Originally, I just wanted to stay away for a day or two, and come back to you after I sorted out my mood. I didn't expect to find out about the second prince's concubine during the period." Clues, chances are rare, I left Huzhou to investigate, and after searching, I suddenly heard that the second prince is now the king of Linjiang County!"

Only then did Xia Yan realize that Cheng Xi didn't know about it because he was stupid before!

Cheng Xi calmed down for a while, and said: "I was worried that he would be unfavorable to you, so I rushed back immediately. I heard that he had already made a move when I arrived at the Yamen, but you actually went to arrest Boss Xin yourself! I was scared out of my wits at the time, so I quickly rush to find you..."

Xia Yan curled his lips, he was very annoyed that his biggest contribution since he took office was said so lightly.

Cheng Xi understood, moved closer to him, and coaxed him softly: "No, I'm not saying you're not good. I criticized you that day because I was in a hurry. I was actually angry with myself and regretted it."

Xia Yan was taken aback.

Cheng Xi blamed himself deeply: "I was so angry that I didn't communicate with you in advance, and I let you risk yourself alone. Before I saved you, I kept thinking, if something really happened to you, then I, I..." His His expression flustered, "Yan'er, you and I have walked on the verge of life and death. I really don't want to go through that kind of thing again, do you understand?"

Xia Yan stared blankly at his expression of fear from the bottom of his heart, thinking how could he not understand?

It's not just Cheng Xi's expectation to stay together safely for the rest of his life.

Xia Yan stopped being angry, he laughed, raised his hand to touch the top of Cheng Xi's head who was like a big child at this time, and said: "You must have worked hard in those few days when you were investigating outside and rushing back again, right?"

Cheng Xi was slightly surprised, then showed a comforting expression after being understood, nodded and said: "The verification needs to be followed closely, it is inconvenient to send a letter, I really want to contact you but I can't, and I don't care much about sleeping and eating. Later, I came back as soon as possible , I dare not delay for a moment, the thick-soled boots are all worn out."

"Ah?!" Xia Yan immediately grabbed Cheng Xi's feet and asked anxiously, "Are you injured?"

Cheng Xi stopped him and said: "It's a bit worn out, it's okay, it's almost better now." After a pause, he added, "I'm not telling you these things to ask for forgiveness, but..."

"I understand! You don't want to hide from me, you want to confess everything!" Xia Yan felt relieved, looked around with clear eyes, and said happily, "Cheng Xi, let's go play in the water? Don't you want to be wanton?" Opened his mouth, laughed heartily into a flower, took off his shoes and socks twice, rolled up his trousers, trotted to the shallows, and waved to Cheng Xi, "Come on, come on! It's so cool!"

Cheng Xi stood up, only to see stars on the water under the sun, Xia Yan was laughing and making noises, like a young fairy descended from the sky.

For a moment, all the etiquette and rules were thrown away, and he also took off his boots and trousers, put the hem of his clothes in his belt, and followed Xia Yan, running, jumping, kicking and laughing loudly in the water together.

"The water in the Canglang is so clear! You can wash my clothes!" Xia Yan lifted the slightly wet hem of his clothes.

"The water in the Canglang is turbid! It can wash my feet!" Xia Yan raised his legs and kicked his feet, bringing up a string of crystal clear water splashes.

Cheng Xi looked at him with his hands on his hips and smiled, quietly admiring this cute habit that he had to perform whenever he read poetry.Suddenly Xia Yan's eyes showed cunning, she bent down and picked up a large handful of water, splashed it on Cheng Xi, and jumped forward!

Cheng Xi retreated subconsciously, following a change in his expression, he saw Xia Yan slipped on his feet, fell forward with an "ah", and the whole body slapped firmly on the water with a "baji" sound!

……

After a stick of incense.

Cheng Xi lit the fire with his upper body bare, picked up branches to build a bracket, and hung Xia Yan's wet clothes.Looking up, Xia Yanjiu was pulling on his boots, wearing his middle coat with his hands and feet protruding a lot, and his outer robe, with his wet hair on his head, trembling, feeling aggrieved and pitiful.

Cheng Xi said with a smile: "This is probably to harm others and eventually harm oneself."

Xia Yan became furious and ran to hit Cheng Xi, then ran back quickly and stood by the fire to keep warm.

Cheng Xi said: "Persist for a while, we will go on the road as soon as the clothes are dry."

Xia Yan said, "Where are you going?"

Cheng Xi said: "There is a hot spring courtyard not far ahead. The host is my friend, and I have agreed in advance to borrow his place to live in."

Xia Yan said: "You can go on the road without drying your clothes."

If someone comes later and sees him like this, he will be ashamed to death.

Cheng Xi disapproved: "Wearing wet clothes is easy to catch cold, so be patient."

Arriving at the hot spring courtyard that night, before going to sleep, Xia Yan really caught fire.

His face was flushed with fever, his body was weak, and even his consciousness was hazy.

Cheng Xi hugged him and bathed in the greenhouse, wiped him dry from head to toe, put on a new coat, and then carried him to bed.

Xia Yan curled up in Cheng Xi's arms, eyes half closed, and murmured, "It's all your fault."

Cheng Xi tore off the brocade quilt with one hand, and asked, "What?"

Xia Yan unconsciously stretched out his fingers and pressed Cheng Xi's chest, and whispered: "From the first day we met again, you said I was going to catch a cold, and now finally..."

Cheng Xi turned his head sideways and said, "Since I said it, then let me cure you, okay?"

Xia Yan rubbed Cheng Xi's neck, feeling uncomfortable between his brows, and let out a "hmm".

Cheng Xi's eyes tightened, he took a deep breath, wrapped Xia Yan in the quilt, took another quilt to put on it, lay down on the upper quilt, and stretched out his arms to hug Xia Yan through the quilt inside. Leaning his forehead, he said, "I'll help you sweat, and you'll be fine tomorrow."

Xia Yan closed his eyes and nodded drowsily.

Cheng Xi leaned over and lowered his eyes, and pressed a kiss lightly on his smooth forehead.

In the darkness, his mood could not be calm for a long time.

This was the first time in his life that he slept with Xia Yan on the same bed with a clear mind.

No more doubts, no more tangled worries.

"finally."

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