Lost the most important place in your heart

Akashi's situation is relatively the best among the four of them. He always knew what he wanted, and half of the things turned out like this were caused by him, but now even he is starting to waver.

When I got home, it was already quite late, Akashi took off his coat, the servant at the side took it, the butler had dutifully handed over the towel, Akashi wiped the water from his hair, but couldn't clean the way Thank you, and handed the towel back to the butler, who respectfully handed over the coat: "It's cold, young master, you should put on your clothes."

Akashi picked up his coat and looked at this brightly lit home, luxurious and majestic, synonymous with nobility, but without temperature, it was too cold.

Even though the heating was turned on in the room, he was still cold, and he was shivering from the deepest chill in his heart.

"I..." Akashi was confused, did the power he wanted bring such a thing?

The cold home, in exchange for my own innocence, has not been so cold for a long time, his warmth...

It was that person, who was as warm as the previous mother, but this warmth was exchanged by him for this cold right.

Why is there a sense of irony?Like a silly kid trading his favorite lollipop for a hard diamond.

In the eyes of adults, this may be an unprofitable deal, but only the child knows what he has lost.

Suddenly, Akashi thought of something, put on his coat indiscriminately, and hurried upstairs.

Quickly ran into his study room, Akashi was rummaging for something in the desk drawer, and finally found that thing in the third drawer - that bloody chess piece, before Akashi never understood how angry he was He was so angry that he bled, and now he understood where the anger came from.

"Heizi almost died."

I remembered that the girl had said that I would regret it.

Do you regret it?Akashi asked himself, the soreness in his heart is not fake, no, to be precise, his heart is still trembling, because he almost lost that person, if something like that really happened...

I can't think about it anymore.

Akashi flipped the pawn, and many things came to mind, that person's salvation for himself.

In order not to lose them brought by basketball, he forced himself to win and never allowed failure. It was he who told himself that it was okay to fail. It will not be lost because of winning or losing.

To me, that person is like an angel, an angel who rescued the devil from the abyss. In the depths of hell, self-born and self-destroyed.

Akashi unconsciously touched his left eye with his hand.

"Tears? Me, crying?"

If time could be turned back...

"What? I, I, Akashi Seijuro, have such an unrealistic wish, really..."

But, I will never make that choice again.

Rights, nothing can be brought to me, the so-called substitutes, I can't even do the most basic pleasure myself, but I have been deceiving myself for a while, but it only made me more convinced that I was really moved by him.

So am I afraid?Afraid that he will leave me, afraid of losing him, so I will abandon him before losing him, so that I am the one who will not be laughed at?

No, I'm not such a weak person, just grab what I like, no matter what method I use, so what is the reason?

To grab it back?But what about the future that will be lost?

The vow of the previous moment turned into hesitation at this moment.

"Oh——" Chief Akashi sighed, his head hurt badly, and he couldn't figure it out after so long.

Pinching the chess piece with his fingernails, he felt an urge to wipe off the blood on it, but he didn't have the courage, was irritable, uneasy, and couldn't make a choice...

"Hey, Akashi Seijuro, when did you become like this?"

Yes, he didn't know what to do next?do what?Without any entry point, he didn't even know what was the thing that bothered him so far?

Flipping the chess piece again, Akashi thought of someone, he took out his mobile phone and dialed the other person's number.

Kise didn't expect that Akashi would call him at this time, looking at the vibrating cell phone, Kise didn't want to answer it, but considering that Akashi had already hung up on Akashi today...

Akashi was still intimidating to him, and the phone was picked up at the last second.

Huang Se took it?Akashi was slightly surprised, he thought he wouldn't answer the call either.

"Kise, it's me, Akashi."

Kise sighed on the other end of the phone: "What's the matter?"

"Are you free tomorrow? I want to talk to you."

"What about little Heizi?"

"Ah."

"Little Akashi, what else do you want to do? Isn't little Chris talking enough? Little Kuroko will no longer appear in front of you."

Akashi's breath choked, no, he instinctively rejected this possibility.

"That's why I want to ask you something, I'm very confused now."

Kise wanted to refuse at first, but thinking of the chance Chris gave him tonight, Kise nodded: "Okay, where are you?"

"You agree?"

"Ah."

"Okay, tomorrow at ten o'clock in the morning next to M's office next to the First General Hospital."

"it is good."

The next day, Kise went to M's first with two packs of instant noodles, and Akashi got there a little earlier than him.

"I thought you wouldn't come."

"I don't want to, but I still want to hear what you want to say now, Akashi?"

"Why? Why are you standing by Heizi's side? Do you know that you have bet your future?"

Akashi went straight to the point, he had been tortured so much that he couldn't fall asleep all night, if this continues, he will really go crazy.

"Huh?" Kise didn't expect Akashi to ask such a question, "Now, little Akashi, what are you asking? My future is little blackie."

"The future is... Kuroko?" Akashi never expected Kise to give such an answer, "Are you crazy? You are obviously a hot model, and now that you can't play basketball, your future..."

"Heh——" Kise chuckled again, saying that there are quite a lot of common bad habits among their miraculous generations, "Hey, Akashi, someone asked me this question before, Akashi, what do you think of basketball? What do you take little blackie for?"

"Basketball and sunspot?"

Kise smiled calmly: "Later someone told me that basketball is never played for the sake of winning, but we simply want to play. We just forgot what Xiao Heizi once told us."

"forget?"

Yeah?Is this what he has been feeling for the past two days that he has forgotten?

"And I've gradually come to understand that there's no need to think about anything beside Xiao Heizi, because I just want to be by his side."

Kise's expression is relieved, he can easily think of many things out of the mundane.

"Huise, if you choose to be with Heizi now, and you will lose your wonderful life because of it, are you not afraid that you will hate Heizi when you can't bear it?"

"Hate?" Kise shook his head, "The only thing I hate now is myself. If it weren't for my cowardice, little Heizi would not have encountered such a thing, and although I don't know what will happen in the future? But I I won't hate Xiao Heizi, but I can guarantee it."

"What guarantee do you have? If you trade everything you have to stay by Heizi's side, and in the end you want to get everything back but it's impossible, you..."

"Isn't everything about me a little blackie?"

"Huh?" Akashi wondered.

"I want to make sure that there is no need for anything. I like Xiao Heizi, and that is enough. Doesn't Xiao Akashi like me, like Xiao Heizi?"

After a long silence, Akashi nodded.

"Sure enough. So Akashi, what you have been struggling with is fear, fear that you will hate Xiao Heizi in the future?"

"I, the thing I'm afraid of, is this?" Akashi's eyes widened, it was a bit unbelievable, but this feeling of sudden enlightenment was not deceiving.

The thing he has been struggling with since last night, no, is the real reason why he pushed Heizi away not for power, but because he is afraid that he will hate Heizi one day in the future?

Which is more important to me, absolute power or sunspots?It seems to be back to the original point.

But the answer seems pretty obvious.

But Kise surprised Akashi a little bit.

"Kise, after what happened yesterday, why are you still so calm?"

"Calm?" Kise lowered his head, "At least it looks like this on the surface, otherwise what else could it be?"

"Huise?"

"Actually, I didn't fall asleep last night, but Xiao Heizi promised me that I could go see him today, so that's enough."

It's very humble, and it doesn't sound like something the Generation of Miracles would say.

"When did we become like this?" Akashi said with rare emotion.

"Maybe it started when we left Heizi."

Akashi didn't answer.

Huang Lai took a sip of her drink: "It's getting late, I should go find Xiao Heizi."

"Kose, can you really do this?"

"Ah, after all, this is the only little place left beside Xiao Heizi that I managed to win, it's only enough for me to stand on, so of course I have to cherish it, I can't even lose that. "Huise smiled wryly.

"Kose, you..." Akashi couldn't believe it was what Kise said

Huang Lai shook his head: "I'm no longer qualified to stand beside him, he already has his most important person by his side."

Huang Lai's smile became even more bitter. Why should he compete with that person for the position they gave up, who is full of little blacks.

Akashi glanced at the coffee in the cup, it was bitter, it seemed like he hadn't had a sweet drink for a long time, sweet, what kind of taste was it?

"Wait a minute, Kise, I'll go with you."

The ice in the coffee sank to the bottom of the cup.