slow and quick

In the end, Ji Lin took a taxi home.

It was 11:30 when I got home, my parents were asleep, and I woke up when I heard the sound, and called him in the room, asking why he came back.

Ji Lin washed his face and replied that he wanted to come back, so he came back.

Mom didn't care too much, and told him to be quiet, and remember to turn off the lights when he returned to the room, and the door was about to be locked, so he fell asleep again.

Ji Lin hummed and looked at himself in the mirror.

Very embarrassed.

In the end, he compromised.

Manman cried until his heart was broken.

Crying and begging him, telling him not to like himself, saying that he just drank too much.

With a pale face, Ji Lin replied in a trembling voice, saying yes, I drank too much.

But he didn't drink much.

He knew what he was talking about.

He also knew that Manman looked very strange.

Not annoying.

He is lying.

It's not at all out of hate.

Why do you cry like this when you hate someone? How can you look so painful when you hate someone?

Ji Lin clutched the towel tightly, breathing slowly, suppressing his emotions.

Manman looked so scared.

But what makes people desperate is that he has no ability at all to say the words "don't be afraid".

So incompetent.

Too weak.

He himself is afraid, how can he tell Manman not to be afraid?

Ji Lin turned his head and looked at the dark space behind him.

Just feel empty for a while.

"I can't do anything."

Ji Lin is deeply aware of this.

He didn't have the ability to hold up a sky for Manman, cover him from the wind and rain, and tell him that he was always here.

He could only beg there, begging for the love he couldn't keep.

What he wants is a beautiful garden.

But he has nothing.

That garden can never float in the air.

Once it fell, Ji Lin didn't even have the ability to stop it.

It will be smashed to pieces directly.

So is he.

So is the beautiful garden.

He couldn't help but think, if either I or Manman, one of them was a girl, it would be fine.

Or, if in this society, homosexuality and heterosexuality are both common and acceptable to the public, it would be great.

Or, his parents are enlightened enough to even encourage him to pursue true love, and it would be nice if his uncles and aunts could accept their sexual orientation.

But there are not so many ifs.

When he realized that something was wrong with Manman, the first reaction in his head was "Why do we have to make it so difficult?"

He couldn't help but complain a little.

But in an instant, he reacted again.

Can't blame others.

It's because I'm too weak.

There are so many unfair things in this world, and so many people living in hardship.

He is not special.

Even, he is lucky.

Ping An has grown up.

Apart from his parents' disapproval of his sexual orientation, his parents have not owed him anything since he grew up all these years, so it can't be any better for him.

He has no reason to resent his parents.

This is too white-eyed wolf.

The society didn't treat him too unfairly.

It's been smooth sailing for him.

The classmates, friends and teachers I met were also very good.

But how can there be a perfect thing?

In the final analysis, he was still too weak.

He didn't dare to think about it, if his parents knew about his sexual orientation.

If he was with Manman, his family would know about it.

What will he do to protect Manman?

What did he use to ensure that he would not be defeated?

It would be nice if it was a little bigger, and it would be nice if it was a little stronger.

That way, you won't look at the person you love so much, crying bitterly in front of yourself, but you can't do anything.

For weak people, saying they like it is extravagant enough to make people panic.

On the day of filling out the application, after Ji Lin finished filling it out, he didn't leave.

After begging the teacher for a long time in the office, he finally asked him to let go and tell me where Zheng Man had filled in.

He chose S major.

Ji Yan glanced at the score line, and he probably hangs in the S University.

He originally thought that Zheng Man would go back to X University, and then he also chose the university in X City.

When asked about Zheng Man's wish, he hurried over to change his wish.

If you can't go to S University, you can change to T University in S City.

Ji Lin admits that he is a bit ruthless.

Knowing that nothing can be done, but still want to get closer.

Get as close as possible.

When the admission notice came out, Ji Lin was still practicing driving in the driving school.

The school entrance banquet was scheduled for the National Day, and my parents said that summer was too hot, and after setting up a banquet, unfinished dishes tended to go bad.

Ji Lin herself is actually quite indifferent.

Zheng Man's school entrance banquet is at the end of August.

A banquet in the city.

Ji Lin followed her mother early in the morning and asked Zheng Man's parents if they wanted to help.

Zheng Man's mother smiled and said that it was directly booked to the hotel, and there was nothing to do.

He was angry again, saying that he was still talking about Zheng Man just now, and prepared three tables for him, and asked him to call him a classmate.

As a result, he just told his mother that he didn't call out his classmates and didn't want to call out.

"What do you mean you don't want to shout? How can there be no classmate at the school entrance banquet?" Zheng Man's mother was annoyed.

Ji Lin's mother quickly persuaded her, and said with a smile: "Why are there no classmates left, isn't Xiao Lin here?"

Zheng Man's mother sighed, and asked Ji Lin again if Zheng Man had a bad relationship with her classmates at school.

"Did he get bullied?"

Ji Lin's heart tightened, feeling a little sad.

Shaking his head, he said, "I don't know. We haven't been together much since we were divided into classes."

It also caused the two mothers to sigh there, saying that you had such a good relationship when you were young, and you grew up together, how come you don't even know each other's situation when you are divided into classes?

Ji Lin was speechless.

It happened that Zheng Man pushed open the door and came out of the room.

Several people stopped talking.

During the dinner, the parents of both sides talked about it, saying that the two children had both passed the exam in S city, or why don't they go together when school starts?

Zheng Man said, "Our school start time is different. I started school a week later than Ji Lin, so I went early and had no place to stay."

Ji Lin's mother said: "Then live in Xiao Lin's dormitory for a few days?"

Before Zheng Man could answer, Zheng Man's mother said, "What can I do? The school also has dorm checkers."

Finally just give up.

Both of them went to City S by themselves, without their parents accompanying them.

Ji Lin's mother originally wanted to accompany him, but he refused.

It's too far to come and go, it's inconvenient.

Moreover, he is not a child anymore, and such things as traveling alone will only increase in the future.

Ji Lin was sitting on the high-speed rail, searching for the route from S major to T major.

It's not far, it only takes more than 40 minutes by subway.

He flicked his fingers lightly, turned off the phone again, and put it in his pocket.

If only the road in life could be like the road in reality, clearly marked from weak to strong, just where to get on, where to get off, where to transfer, and how long it takes.

Long is never the distance of the road.

It's people's hearts.

*****

Ji Lin arrived in City S at noon on the first day of registration. He booked a hotel near the school, put his things down, and started holding his mobile phone, navigating the navigation, to find Zheng Man's school.

Then outside Zheng Man's school, I bought a cup of milk tea and drank it while wandering around the outside of their school.

In the imagination in his head, Zheng Man would walk through these streets and alleys, chat with people in a certain store, and buy such things.

It was as if he was there and could see it with his own eyes.

After finishing a cup of milk tea, Ji Lin threw the empty cup into the trash can, then exhaled, and took the subway back to school.

There was a call from a mobile phone in the subway, and the ringtone was very old.

"Why can't people who love each other be together, but they are replaced by memories."

Ji Lin was stunned for a moment when he heard the voice.

Then back to the hotel, the single looped all night.

Too hypocritical.

He rants about himself.

It's hard to hide my sadness.

He lay flat on the bed, lying in big characters.

Looking at the lights, you can't see whether there is light in the future.

Early the next morning, Ji Lin went to report with a big bag.

It was the first in the class to arrive.

After confirming the dormitory, he went to the dormitory with his luggage.

On the way, I reported to a basketball club by the way.

The dormitory can't be called clean, Ji Lin felt suffocated as soon as he entered.

Open the window to let in air, then hurried out to buy a broom and mop and came back.

After finally cleaning up the sanitation, I just took a breath, went to wash my face, and was about to start making the bed when I heard someone approaching.

A boy with big eyes opened the door and exclaimed, "Wow! Brother Ya, your dormitory is quite clean!"

He admired: "I came all the way, saw so many kennels, I thought I had to clean up your dormitory."

Ji Lin: "..."

Thank you, the dormitory is clean because I just did a general cleaning for more than an hour.

The boy saw Ji Lin standing by the sink, and smiled at him again: "Hello, classmate!"

Someone outside called him: "Stop pushing there! Come and pick up something! I can't carry it anymore!"

"Shout Zhao Leti!" Big Eyes yelled, "Sister Lei, you just look at our delicate and soft Brother Ya, and carry so many things by one person?"

As soon as the voice fell to the ground, another person walked in, carrying a large quilt on his shoulders, and carrying a hot water bottle and bucket in his hand.

When Ji Lin saw that person, he couldn't help being stunned.

To put it simply, he was blinded by beauty.

The man put down the things in his hand and looked into the big eyes with a cold face: "Sun Yijun, are you courting death?"

The big eyes who were named curled their lips: "Why, are you hitting me again?"

He complained to the person who came in behind Zhao Lei: "Brother Ya! Sister Lei is threatening me again."

Zhou Ya had two boxes in her hands and a computer on her back.

I was so tired that I rolled my eyes: "You deserve it."

He was really resentful, why couldn't he think about buying a game notebook?Heavy!

Zhou Ya threw the box away, and she was useless. She pulled out a chair and sat down, panting heavily, and said to Zhao Lei, "Don't threaten, if it's a man, just beat him up. I'll be responsible if you beat him to death."

Zhao Lei: "..."

He was speechless: "What are you responsible for?"

"Responsible for burying." Zhou Ya said coldly.

He struggled to take off the computer on his back, and then noticed that there were still water stains on the table, which had obviously been cleaned just now.

So he looked at Ji Lin who was making the bed silently in surprise, and called him: "Student, did you clean the table for me?"

Ji Lin hummed without looking back: "I came earlier, so I cleaned up the dormitory."

Sun Yijun exclaimed: "A living Bodhisattva!"

Everyone: "..."

Zhou Ya smiled and picked up the empty box in her hand and smashed it at him: "Can you talk?"

Sun Yijun took the box with a smile and asked him, "Do you still want to help?"

"No need, you go back," Zhou Ya said to them, "I'll pack my things first, and I'll go play with you on Saturday."

Zhao Lei nodded: "Alright then, I'll pick you up on Saturday."

So he took Sun Yijun out.

Zhou Ya sent them out, came back, closed the door, and smiled at Ji Lin: "Hello, my name is Zhou Ya, how about you?"

Ji Lin turned around: "Ji Lin."

The author has something to say: I finally wrote the university chapter!

Yago is here!Sister Lei and probiotics are here!

The assist is in place!

[ps: These three are the protagonist and supporting roles of my first danmei book "I Don't Eat Your Way", let's link them together!If you haven’t read that book, it won’t affect your reading]

It's so sweet, it's really, really