Baiyun ambition

After more than two days, Yan Xirulai lived here for less than half a month.

At first, Yu Fangyun would ask doubtfully, "Don't you need to go home?"

Yan Xiru bluffed casually: "My dad hasn't come back yet, so it doesn't matter."

In fact, both Shen Zhi and the old lady heard from him that the child was traumatized after returning from the disaster relief in Paizhuang.They all told Yan Xiru to watch him carefully.

When Yu Fangyun left, the brocade flowers outside the courtyard downstairs were still in the form of umbrella handles, with small and thin branches, but now they have clusters of purple and red umbrellas, embellishing the monotonous summer.

It's already July, and you can catch cicadas singing in the treetops even if you look up, and the noise is everywhere.

The family was extremely dull, and Yu Fangyun still couldn't say a few words.Colleagues don't talk about those things, and they can't affect their depressed emotions to family members.Only when I worked overtime until the consultation room was empty did I feel empty in my heart, as if I had left something in Paizhuang and could never get it back again.

Thursday is the death day of Yu Fangyun's mother. They don't have complicated customs there, and the parents' graves are only cleaned every Qingming Festival.Yu Fangyun wrote a letter to his mother as usual, but there was nowhere to post it, so he stuffed it under the pillow to sleep, and when he saw it in his dream, he could hand it to her and lock it in the letter box.The thickness of more than a dozen envelopes has been folded.

Yan Xiru said that he is a person who wants to hide everything, even missing his parents.

The next day, he stayed up late to work until dawn, Yu Fangyun was not tired of complaining, but he found himself withdrawn again, and it was difficult to smile in front of Yan Xiru.

The man was also unusually quiet, hardly bothering him, as if he had experienced the joy of retirement during his company with flowers, birds, fish and insects.On this day, I went to Shen Weizhou's yard to pick up two jasmine plants.

When Yu Fangyun saw it, he squatted down beside him: "Why bother with innocent flowers and plants? Jasmine needs sunlight the most when it blooms. Our balcony is shallow, and it is cloudy in the afternoon. It is better to stay at Shen Weizhou's place to get the sun. Such a good flower plant, What a pity it won't bloom."

"The days are long in midsummer, and the shabby house needs the fragrance of flowers." Yan Xiru turned his head and said to him with a smile, "It's not a pity not to see the flowers bloom. If the flowers bloom, it would be a pity not to see you."

He pinched Yu Fangyun's two slender fingers and put them on the tip of his nose, and touched them lightly: "Is it fragrant? The flowers I planted."

It was him who asked, but it was him who heard it.Yu Fangyun sighed softly and leaned on Yan Xiru's shoulder.

This person can be number one in the world if he is gentle, but now he is more patient and follows himself in everything.But Yu Fangyun felt that such blind accommodation should not be an ideal relationship state.

Hugging and sleeping until late at night, Yu Fangyun quietly broke away from Yan Xiru's arms, groping to get out of bed, looking for a sleeping pill.Afraid of affecting the spirit of the next day, I only dared to swallow half of it dry.

He has been like this almost every day for the past two weeks.

Yan Xiru could actually see clearly in the dark, and continued to pretend to be asleep every time he waited for someone to come back.The person in his arms fell asleep because of the drug, but he opened his eyes until dawn several times, distressed or afraid, or both.

The two people's time at home is always inconsistent, either one of them works overtime or the day and night shifts diverge.It's rare to have a day off on Sunday.Yu Fangyun took half a sleeping pill the night before and only slept until five o'clock in the morning. He lay in a daze for a while, and waited until dawn to get up from Yan Xiru's arms and turn up the temperature of the air conditioner.

The daylight was very light, and Jasmine's sleepy leaves did not wake up, and there were still a few teardrops from her dream.

Yan Xiru held [-]% enthusiasm, but only [-]% ability. This jasmine plant became more and more dejected under his careful care.Yu Fangyun mixed some beer with water, and wiped the leaves with absorbent cotton.Diluted beer is a good fertilizer, but it should only be fertilized in this way during the flowering period to avoid damaging the buds.

Shou Shou crawled out of the water tank, grabbed the man's slippers, and pulled them up step by step, causing Yu Fangyun to bow his head to tease him.Yan Xiru came out of the bedroom sleepily, and came across this picture of a loving father and a filial son.

The morning light dazzled him, but it was not as dazzling as himself.

Yan Xiru came over and brushed off a leaf from Yu Doukou's shoulder, and stopped there, feeling the warmth on his shoulder. ——The villain of ice sculpture is colder when it is cold, and it is also the easiest to cover.

Thinking of the remaining half of Liu Rui's sentence, he probably wanted to say, "Seeing the universe is great, especially pity the green grass and trees", or something like that.There is no better way to describe him.

There was soy milk fritters bought by Yu Fangyun on the table, and the two of them sat down and finished eating. Yan Xiru took the initiative to clean up the dishes, trying not to let Yu Fangyun's precious fingers get wet with Yangchun water.He has been so miserable these two days that he wanted to talk to that person about everything, but he knew that there was no need to say anything.

Emotions can only be resolved by oneself, let alone this cardamom, which is a thousand times more sensitive.

Yan Xiru was washing the dishes by the sink, when he suddenly heard a "squeak" in the dining room, he ran out to see that the one who suffered was the bone china dish he bought a few days ago for the fried dough sticks.It took a few days to show off before I was willing to use it, but it was so fragile that it fell into pieces when knocked.

Yu Fangyun was kneeling on the ground to clean up.Yan Xiru's hand holding the scalpel is holding a greasy sponge at the moment, and it's not good to touch him, so he can only care: "You didn't cut your hand, did you?"

The man didn't answer him, but lowered his head and muttered: "...Isn't this your favorite plate?"

Yan Xiru was stunned: "It's just a plate, if it breaks, it breaks."

Yu Fangyun hummed, put the broken porcelain pieces in a plastic bag, tied them up, and threw them outside the door alone.Yan Xiru dried her hands, and wanted to touch his forehead as usual, but she turned her head away.

Yu Fangyun pushed his wrist away impatiently: "I'm not in a bad mood, so you don't have to give in to me in a nice way. Don't you feel tired if you do this every day?"

This was said in a rush, almost as if he was throwing a temper tantrum at him.Yan Xiru choked for a moment, and for some reason became tongue-tied.

After a while, he lifted the garbage bag: "I'm going out."

Without saying where to go, Yu Fangyun faced the closed door again, and was shocked to find that the words "have nothing to fear" had hooked up with him.Obviously, Yan Xiru is the one who shouldn't vent his anger the most, and Yan Xiru is also the one who receives anger for nothing.

——In front of him, I couldn't learn to hide my temper more and more, and just put my true emotions on my face.Yu Fangyun couldn't tell whether it was a good thing or a bad thing.

There were dumplings that Yan Xiru had brought from home in the refrigerator. He took a few and put them in the pot. After waiting for a while, he suddenly remembered the walnuts in his drawer.After being bored for so long, I don't know if it will all be moldy.But the drawer was empty, and after looking around, Yan Xiru didn't know what to think, so he put them in glass jars and placed them on the bookshelf, on the shelf that can get the most sunlight.

It wasn't so little before, he must have eaten some at random.

At this time, I noticed that there were two more copies of "Turtle Disease Illustrated" and "Turtle Raising and Disease Prevention" in the bookcase... Between the two books was a piece of shell that was replaced by Shoushou, which was washed and dried. ——When the tortoise sheds its shell, it will intermittently shed a small piece of tortoise shell. In fact, you don't need to worry about it when it moults, but Yan Xiru panicked, thinking that his godfather had grown dead under his careful care, and spent the night trying to nourish the knowledge of turtles.

A chestnut-colored corner was exposed under the cover of the book. Yu Fangyun pulled out the paper, and it turned out to be a letter with a few words written by the man without any format.

"Interview with Yun:

Probably because the weather is getting warmer, Shou Shou's shell is warped.When you were not around, he was not active all the time, probably because he was thinking about you, or because he saw that I missed you too much.

Although I have been mentally prepared for a long time, I am still very scared when it really comes to such a time.I am not afraid of you leaving, but also afraid that you will really leave. I can only remind myself that you are not a child anymore. You have long been more mature than I imagined, and more capable of being independent.

I know your goal is firm, and I know how far away the end is. You can run forward without worrying about falling, because I am always behind you.

So, there is no need to stress.

You can be a hero to thousands of people, or you can be a hero to only me. "

……

Yan Xiru wrote with the pen that Mr. Yu Fangyun put in his pocket, with their names engraved on the head and tail.Insert the pen cap when holding the pen, and the two names can be overlapped in the hand and cuddle up to each other.

Yu Fangyun held the pen in the palm of his hand, as if he could feel the temperature of his hand, and his heart must be warm.

There is another piece of paper, which is under the desk.

"If it rains later, remember to keep the windows closed. If it's sunny, it's because you've come back.

If you see these few words in the morning, good morning.If you just had lunch, say good afternoon.If it's already dark, then just wait until I get back. "

……

Today's moon is half round, and a few stars can still be seen faintly twinkling.

Yu Fangyun was sitting on the balcony with his knees hugged, and as soon as he counted the stars above his head, he heard the sound of the man pushing open the door. "Have you eaten yet? I brought back cake."

Yu Fangyun turned around and replied that he had eaten.

"The things you cook are free to eat." Yan Xiru put down the paper box, walked over and rubbed his forehead that he hadn't touched during the day.

Yu Fangyun shook his head: "I ate the beef brisket rice made by Dr. Shen. He cooked too much, so he gave me some. It was delicious."

"Then wash your hands and come eat the cake with me."

Yan Xiru walked back, but was pulled by the wrist, and Yu Fangyun pressed his palm against him.So he picked him up from the ground and rubbed his fingers to warm them up.Yu Fangyun stepped on his feet and kissed him, and said "I'm sorry" to him from the cracks in his lips.

But he needs to say sorry.

"Actually, I'm very happy. Whether it's losing your temper or burying me, you are finally willing to let go of your defenses in front of me." Yan Xiru grabbed his hand and put it in his palm, "In the future you You can lose your temper at will and say whatever you want to say, I have a thick skin and I can't get rid of it no matter what."

Yu Fangyun finally smiled easily, and he dragged him to sit down at the dining table: "Where did you go today?"

"I went to accompany my mother to the flower garden in the morning to move flowers. I went home in the afternoon and had dinner with my mother and grandma, so I came back late." Yan Xiru lowered his head and untied the cake ribbon, "Today is my birthday, and the two of them I have to watch me finish a bowl of noodles. On the way back, I saw that there was only the last strawberry cake left in the store, so I wanted to bring it back for you."

Yu Fangyun's hand froze, the fork fell into the butter, and he frantically picked it up, rubbing it all on his fingers.I was so busy that I was dizzy, and I forgot that it was already halfway through July, and it was Yan Xiru's birthday.

He regretted and felt guilty, "Why didn't you remind me in the morning, at least I should prepare for you how to celebrate today."

"What is there to celebrate my birthday." Yan Xiru said with a smile, "How old is it, and I still celebrate my birthday like a child."

"But you didn't say that on my birthday." Yu Fangyun insisted on pressing his hand and cut the first cake.

Yan Xiru didn't let go, and sucked the cream off the other's index finger: "You are different, no matter how old you are, you will always be my little friend."

After eating a few bites of the cake, the strawberries were all picked out. Yan Xiru put the rest in the refrigerator and went to wash the dishes. Yu Fangyun stood beside him and accompanied him.In fact, the time and cost of doing housework doubled at once, but no one felt that it was delayed.

Time is always saved and wasted with the people you like.

"When we met today, I felt that my mother suddenly, really suddenly, could tell her age. I didn't think so before, but today when I looked at her carefully coiled hair, I realized that half of it was newly grown white hair from the roots. "

Yu Fangyun put his head on Yan Xiru's shoulder, leaned against him, and listened to him.

"It may be because of grandma's illness, or it may be because my father and I had a fierce quarrel this time, or it may be because my mother couldn't hold back after my father came back. How long ago, she was willing to hum two songs at home. Speaking of a play, I haven’t heard her speak since I graduated. The old lady is here today, and my mother hid in the kitchen while listening to the play, and she was sad to hear it.”

Yu Fangyun rubbed the scar on his arm, and comforted him: "She is a very good mother."

Yan Xiru lowered her eyes and sighed softly: "If possible, I would rather she not come to be my mother."

The look clearly distressed, but Yu Fangyun couldn't say anything to comfort him, after all, he himself lacked experience in getting along with mother and child.

"But the old lady is in good spirits. She drank a bowl of noodle soup and said she misses you very much."

Yu Fangyun said: "I also miss grandma very much."

Yan Xiru turned her head and just touched the tip of his nose: "I have three days of annual leave in a few days, come home with me next time."

"What about this time?"

"This time I will accompany you back to Chang'an first. The day before yesterday was your mother's death day, right." Seeing Yu Fangyun nodding his head in a daze, Yan Xiru said, "Then, let's go back and see your parents first. No matter how busy you are, I still want you to talk to your mother, you miss her so much."

"……it is good."

This is how it feels to always be prioritized by others.Yu Fangyun put his arms around his waist from behind, and thought again: "Where did you get your annual leave?"

"I'm going to Zhetaki next month, and I always have to find Fang Guangming to make up for the vacation that I owe me all these years. As long as he has three days, it's not an advantage."

While taking a bath, Yu Fangyun refused the man's shameless request, came out of the bathroom and fell into his outstretched arms.Yan Xiru has never been so slow, gently touching every inch of skin, the calluses are rough, and the breath is soft.

Kissing marks on his neck and hugging him face to face, Yu Fangyun suddenly sniffled and said softly: "...I thought about it carefully, I don't have any presents to give you, and the only key has long been In your hands... I know this house is small, and you may not be used to living in it, but maybe if I work harder, I can change to a bigger house in the future."

Yan Xiru was stunned for a moment, and wiped away the wet hair on his forehead, "It doesn't matter. A house has a size, and a family doesn't matter how big or small it is."

"Then come and accompany me, and I will accompany you."

Yu Fangyun raised his head and waited for an affirmative answer, Yan Xiru gave him the answer with a deeper kiss.

The night outside the house is dark, and the spring here is gentle and turbulent.

Yu Fangyun's head was buried in the pillow, and the waves hit him one after another, so he could only hold the sheet tightly, his trembling fingers being wrapped by Yan Xiru.He finally opened up his heart with his lover, and was suddenly filled to the brim by Yan Xiru.

Occasionally, I caught a glimpse of the moonlight falling on the hands of the two people intertwined. It is the rings worn by the lovers exchanged, engraving the vow of staying together for a lifetime.

"Actually, you have already prepared the gift." Yan Xiru leaned into his ear, "Not only this year's gift, but every year in the future, I only want this..."

"I want your whole life, our whole life."

The author has something to say: the final chapter tomorrow. (Extra episode dystocia)