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Waking up the next morning, Gu Heng felt nauseous for no reason. He hung his head, put his hands on the sink and recalled for a long time, and felt that it should be caused by the thing he inhaled last night.

"What's wrong with you?" Liu Yuan walked in while fastening his clothes.

Gu Heng turned his head and glanced at him.

"Throwing up?" Liu Yuan finally came to his senses, and asked nervously, "What's wrong? Did you eat something or did you catch a cold?"

Gu Heng shook his head, turned on the faucet and flushed his face.

"Is it uncomfortable? Do you want to go to the hospital?"

"nothing."

"What do you mean it's okay? Why do you vomit inexplicably? Go to the hospital?"

"Maybe it's because of bad food." Gu Heng explained lightly, passing Liu Yuan and walking out of the bathroom.

When Liu Yuan finished washing inside and came out, Gu Heng had already put breakfast on the table, but he installed the computer himself, as if preparing to leave.

"Huh? You don't want to eat?"

Gu Heng shook his head, "I can't eat enough, you can eat."

"Is it so serious? Are you okay? I'll take you to see if it's okay?"

"It's not serious." Gu Heng sat on the stool in front of the door and put on his shoes, "It's just a little upset stomach, it will be fine in a while, I'm going to work."

After all, he opened the door with his computer bag and went out.

In the morning, Gu Heng had no class. He had a meeting and returned to the office. He felt a headache and a sore lower back, so he fell asleep on the table for a while.

This time I slept for half an hour, the air conditioner was not turned on in the office, the temperature was a bit high, the more Gu Heng slept, the hotter he got, a layer of sweat formed on his face, and then he even had difficulty breathing, and then he woke up.

He took out his phone and turned it on, and there was a text message from Xiaoyuan:

- See you at the old place at noon.

At noon, Gu Heng went to the equipment room, and found that Liu Yuan was already sitting there waiting, holding a lunch box in his hand. After looking carefully, it was brought out by the family.

"I'm afraid you won't have an appetite and won't eat at noon, so I made porridge for you." Liu Yuan smiled, patted his side, and asked Gu Heng to sit down.

Gu Heng's eyes widened when he heard the words "cooked porridge", it's really not easy for Xiao Yuan to be able to cook porridge.Sitting next to him, he saw that he lifted the lid of the lunch box, and the steaming lean meat porridge, with a few chopped green onions sprinkled on top, looked pretty good.

"I boiled it according to the recipe, you can drink some." Liu Yuan put the lunch box on Gu Heng's lap, and took out a duck egg from his coat pocket, "I also brought a salted duck egg, you drink it first Come on, I'll peel it off for you."

Gu Heng smiled, holding the lunch box in his hand, feeling the warmth in his palm, and gently resting his head on Xiao Yuan's shoulder.

"What's wrong? Don't want to drink?"

"I don't want to drink."

"As for it?...But having said that, this is really the first time I cook porridge, and I dedicate it to you."

There was a slight smile on Gu Heng's face, "Well, thank you. The stinking child is really sensible."

The next day was Saturday, and the two took time to go to the flower and bird market. Liu Yuan smiled and said that this was the place where we had our first date. Look, it's like revisiting old places.When they arrived at the aquarium, Gu Heng saw those anchovies and liked them, the two of them caught a few with a small slip-through net, bought a fish tank, and carried them home happily.

The dining table in Gu Heng's house is large, old-fashioned solid wood, solid and stable, a tank of anchovies is placed on the table, swimming and swimming, it has become a rather interesting decoration when the two share meals every day.

Liu Yuan sometimes spoiled the scenery, staring at the fish tank and saying, "You are alive and kicking, someday I will cook you up."

It just so happened that Gu Heng stewed a crucian carp today, so he scooped up a spoonful, held it up to the front of the fish tank and said, "Look, you are the same kind."

"Hey." Gu Heng withdrew his hand, wiped the spilled soup on the table with a paper towel, frowned and said, "What's wrong with you?"

Liu Yuan smiled slyly, raised his chopsticks and said, "Eat!"

Gu Heng knew that he likes to eat rice with soup, so he had already poured the fish soup on the rice, Liu Yuan picked up the bowl, and muttered while eating: "By the way, the date of our exam in Beijing is set. Next Wednesday. "

"What is the nature of your exam? Is it important?"

"How should I put it, the exam itself is not important, but it is important to have a certificate after the exam, because this certificate is better than ordinary certificates. Of course, it is not just after passing the exam. About half of our class People go for nothing.”

He talked a lot, and he always felt that Gu Heng was motionless beside him, and he hadn't picked up food for a long time. When he turned his head, it turned out that Gu Heng was picking fishbone.

"Then where did you go to live?" Gu Heng added the fish meat that had been picked out into Liu Yuan's bowl, "How many days are you going?"

Then began to pick the next piece of fish bone.

"I reckon... I have to go for about a week. The first few days are training, and the exam is after that. Hey, help me pack my suitcase on the weekend."

Gu Heng nodded.

"Don't just pick fishbone for me, eat it." Liu Yuan said to him.

"I'll eat later, I'm not very hungry."

"What's wrong?" Liu Yuan's chopsticks stopped in the air, he turned to look at him and said, "Have you felt sick to your stomach a few days ago?"

"No." Gu Heng tilted his head, picking the fishbone seriously, "It has nothing to do with that day."

He said it was okay, but Gu Heng vaguely felt that since that morning, he had often felt uncomfortable all over his body, and he couldn't keep up his spirits. He thought it would be good to slow down for two more days, but on Friday morning, the situation worsened .

Pain, Gu Heng pressed his abdomen with his hands, curled up in front of the desk, his forehead was faintly sweating.

Just now in class, I had a burst of colic and nausea, and I endured it.

He realized that something was wrong, it wasn't because of inhaling that thing, there must be something wrong with his body, he should go to the hospital for a look.

That night Gu Heng purposely had an empty stomach, and went to the hospital the next Saturday to take an X-ray. It was found to be pancreatitis. The doctor said that he would need to be hospitalized for a week, and it was best to do it as soon as possible.

Gu Heng also knew that he couldn't procrastinate, so he submitted a certificate with the school, and asked for a leave of absence quickly, thinking that it was just in time for Liu Yuan to take the exam next week and finish his stay in the hospital.

But Xiaoyuan definitely can't tell Xiaoyuan about this, as soon as he hears that he is going to be hospitalized, what if he doesn't even go to the game...

Gu Heng returned home with a heavy heart, and when he opened the door, he saw Liu Yuan sitting at the dining table, crossing his legs and drawing sketches.

"Are you back? It's so slow to go to a bank." Liu Yuan said casually, holding a charcoal pencil and brushing on the paper.

"Yes." Gu Heng changed his shoes and walked to the bedroom: "I'll go and pack your boxes."

"Don't panic, I won't be leaving for now."

"Ah? Why, what's the matter?"

"Director Chen said that the time will be postponed, and the date is still uncertain."

"Oh...that's it..." Gu Heng put the bag back into the bedroom, biting his lip, muttering silently in his heart.

"It just so happens that you're not feeling well these days, so I'll be with you."

"Oh." Gu Heng came out of the bedroom slowly, and said with a complicated expression: "That, Xiao Yuan."

"What's wrong?" Liu Yuan turned to look at him.

"Just now our director called and said that he wants to go out to study."

"What? Going to study again?"

"Yeah, listen to me—"

"You didn't tell the school that you are not in good health recently?"

"Hey, I'm fine, what are you talking about?"

"You are always like this!!" Liu Yuan suddenly jumped up.

"Okay, okay!" Gu Heng went up to press his shoulders, pushed him down on the chair, quickly smacked his hair, and said in a low tone: "Wait for me to come back, okay? It's only a few days. I have to, I can't Not going."

"You really..." Liu Yuan twisted his two black eyebrows, pursed his thin lips, and pushed aside the charcoal pencil on the table irritably, "It's all right now, I was already sick, and I'm going out before it's healed." run."

"I know, I won't do it next time." Gu Heng raised his head, his eyes were full of prayer.

He knew that playing pity was very useful for Liu Yuan, although it was not his style, but the rewards were considerable, Gu Heng has become more and more greedy for this trick, and even intensified it, he used it from time to time.

Sure enough, Liu Yuan glanced at him seriously, stretched out his hand to wrap Gu Heng's shoulders, lowered his head and asked him, "Does your stomach still hurt today?"

"It doesn't hurt anymore."

"If you feel uncomfortable outside, just tell me, and I'll rush over, huh?"

Gu Heng nodded meekly, heaving a sigh of relief, it's okay, it's okay, luckily he didn't tell Xiao Yuan about being hospitalized, judging by his posture, he really can do such a thing as not going to the exam.

After packing up his things, Gu Heng moved to the hospital the next day.

A few days ago, I didn't feel that there was a big reaction. As a result, Gu Heng started to have a high fever the day he was hospitalized. The fever reached nearly [-] degrees that night. The nurse came in at midnight and gave him an IV.

Gu Heng huddled under the quilt, his head was so painful that it was about to burst, his temples were throbbing, he was sweating all over but his whole body was cold, he couldn't sleep no matter how much he slept, he was always half asleep and half awake.

He pressed his abdomen tightly, panted heavily, and told himself that it would be over soon.

In the next few days, I will be given a drip every day, rest in bed, and eat liquid food.Fortunately, Gu Heng's room is the last one in the corridor, he is alone, and the ward is also clean, he brought a book, but he was dizzy and couldn't read it anymore, and spent most of the time under the covers, Squinting his eyes, he flipped through the phone, starting from the first text message between him and Liu Yuan.

Having known each other for nearly a year, he has been reluctant to delete so many text messages, and the phone has already run out of storage, so he bought a large-capacity memory card.

Gu Heng didn't know much about mobile phones. At that time, the owner of the digital store taught him to back up text messages.Transfer the hundreds of megabytes of sweet words and the secret thoughts that the two confided to another card little by little.

Gu Heng never had the nerve to say these things.

While turning back, he thought about Xiao Yuan's appearance. He missed him especially when he was sick, wanted to rely on him, thought of the smell wrapped in his coat, and wanted to hold his rough but warm palm.

Gu Heng shrank another inch under the blanket, blinked his sour eyes, and dialed Liu Yuan's number, wanting to call him.

After all, he still didn't press it, hesitated, and just fell asleep holding the phone.

"Patient [-], it's time to take the temperature."

Gu Heng opened one eye slit, breathing hot.

"Hey, you can't put your hand under the quilt, and you're still on an IV, don't press the infusion tube." The nurse walked to the bed, pulled Gu Heng's arm out, and clamped a thermometer under his armpit.

water... want to drink water...

Gu Heng was so breathless, his throat was so dry that he couldn't make a sound, but his head fell into a heavy sleep, his mouth was slightly open, and he kept making mouth shapes.

water……

The footsteps gradually faded away, and the nurse left.

When the door was closed with a click, Gu Heng's heart was empty, and he became even more desperate in the dark. He lay on his side for a while, but still squinted his eyes, forced himself to use his strength, stretched out his trembling hand, and raised the cup to have a look.

empty.

He stumbled and fell to the ground, got a glass of cold water, gulped it down, then fell back on the hospital bed, curled up his body like a baby, and continued to sleep.

I had a lot of dreams during this sleep, first I dreamed that I was walking on the school road and met Xiao Yuan, but he turned a blind eye to me, chatting and laughing with classmates and passing me by.Gu Heng turned his head in doubt, and wanted to call him by name, but when he turned around, he found that everything had changed, the campus was gone, replaced by the living room of his own home.The evening sun shone on the sofa, and an old man was sitting dignifiedly, with a gentle smile in his eyes, his hands folded, and the skin on the back of his hands was as wrinkled as paper.

grandmother……?

Gu Heng looked at it in a daze.

It turns out that grandma is still there.

No wonder Xiao Yuan doesn't know himself.

"Ah Heng." The old man smiled kindly, with golden lines emerging from the corners of his eyes.

Gu Heng was taken aback and opened his mouth. He had a lot to say. He wanted to tell grandma that he had been to many places this year. He saw the trees in summer, the blue waves of Qinghai Lake, and the meridians of autumn leaves. Seeing the icicles on the window, he also found a person who cooks for that person every day. He has a good life, and he thinks... If grandma can agree, he wants to be with that person all the time.No, if you don't agree, he also...must be with him...

Then treat it as if you don't have your own grandson! ...

"Grandma..." The corners of Gu Heng's eyes were slightly wet, and he didn't know where to start what he wanted to say, but he felt a stabbing pain in his abdomen, and the pain made his eyes blurred.

The smell of disinfectant in the ward radiated into the nostrils, and Gu Heng couldn't see clearly. The picture in the bedroom was fading, and the setting sun was fading, so he hurriedly called out.

"grandmother--"

Then I was anxious, and finally said something I really wanted to say.

"I'm in so much pain."

The author has something to say:

Alas, the same sentence, Mr. Gu is synonymous with forbearance