how should love continue

In the small confined space, two men were worried about another man at the same time, but their moods were quite different.He couldn't see Atobe's expression clearly, even he knew about the whole process, but he was still willing to believe in the man in front of him, a man who was capable of strategizing.But Atobe's mood was not as relaxed as it appeared on the surface, and even a little depressed.Sensitivity is his habit, which is of great benefit to him in many cases, but sometimes it is inevitable that he will be too sensitive and hurt himself.Although Atobe has been reluctant to admit that Tezuka chose to disappear for Ninaku, but judging from the current situation, the relationship between Tezuka and Ninzu has already broken through the boundaries of friends, and it is definitely not his mediocre sensitivity.Didn't you always expect Tezuka to have a good home?Why is my heart so uncomfortable?Adjust the sitting posture, just hope that the same can be relieved a little.

Shinobuzu picked up the cigarette that Atobe had thrown beside the dashboard, and Mildseven lighted one.Very soft taste, refreshing mint flavor, very similar to the feeling of Guoguang.I forgot which romantic movie said: "Write your lover's name on a cigarette, inhale deeply into your lungs, and he will stay in the place closest to your heart."

"Cough, cough..." Ren Zu was choked to tears.I have quit smoking for a long time, because Tezuka doesn't like the smell of smoke, so Shinozuzu has never touched this kind of thing since college.

Atobe frowned, "It's strange that you would choke on the smoke! I remember that you had a bad record of smoking in the toilet when you were in junior high school."

"Hey, Xiao Jing, don't always expose my scars, okay?" Renzu wiped away her tears and continued to smoke the unburned cigarette.

"If it's okay, just play the CD." Atobe put himself in the dark, and Shinobu couldn't understand his thinking.Submissively put the disc into the CD, and the distant sound of Scottish bagpipes sounded - "Braveheart".Slowly, slowly, accompanied by background music, a voice sounded:

"Jingwu, because I am the mirror of your soul, I can see your inner struggle, so I am willing to stay by your side, no matter what the situation is, no matter what mood, even if sometimes I am so tired that I don't even have the strength to speak, I never think Too much back down. I just want you to know that I will never give up on you, even in the toughest of situations. Two people who are too similar, to be together forever, a change in one side is necessary. I don't want you to accept Too much pressure, I don’t want you to lose your dazzling light, I don’t want you to suffer the slightest grievance, so I am willing to change myself! I told myself that Jingwu’s happiness is more important than my vain honor! What you can never change is Your surname, a golden surname in Japan, from the moment you were born, it means that you will lose a lot, and at the same time, someone will have to lose because of you. If you are asked to give up because of your feelings, I believe that with your personality, you will give up without hesitation and without hesitation, but such Keigo Atobe is no longer Keigo Atobe. Therefore, I choose to use my concession in exchange for a larger living space for you. As long as I can see that you get a moment of joy because of my dedication, or get a moment of relaxation because of my work, and I will feel that I am valuable. I don’t want to cover up my own light and perfect you, but I just hope to use my own I don’t mind your indifference, your negligence, or even your cynicism, but you are also in pain, right? Denying the mirror of your soul is not necessarily easier than denying yourself, especially you, Keigo Atobe, a king who is so confident that he is almost conceited. I deeply understand your loneliness, so every time I look at your back, I tell myself that if you lose me again, you will be even more lonely. I cannot tolerate this kind of thing It happened, so I choose to persist. I think as long as you don’t say breakup, no matter how hard it is, I can bear it, just because there is each other’s shadow in each other’s souls. But today, you said the breakup with your own mouth. No matter what you say For whatever purpose, I will tell you: I, Tezuka Kunimitsu, am not a mangy dog ​​pestering you Keigo Atobe. Since you say break up, break up, break up. But I hate you, not because you don’t love me, but because you When you give up on me, you also give up on yourself. So, Keigo Atobe, let’s not see each other in this life!”

Until the end of the CD, neither of them spoke again.Just be quiet and listen quietly.

"This is my last farewell message on the day Tezuka and I broke up. It was first recorded on my mobile phone and later made into a CD." Atobe seemed to have made some major decision, and an undercurrent surged between the two of them. "For 8 years, I have listened to it every day, no matter how busy or tired I am. I told myself that only the pain that goes deep into the bone marrow can be exchanged for complete sobriety, so in order to maintain this sobriety, I must personally heal the newly scabbed wound This is what I owe Tezuka. You must be wondering why I broke up with Tezuka suddenly. In fact, I know many people are surprised, but they were blocked by me and Tezuka. Today, I can tell you , but you must swear to love him wholeheartedly with your future life, protect him, and keep him from any harm."

"Xiaojing..." Ninzu felt that Atobe was a little weird at the moment, and if it was serious, it was like making his last words.

"Ninzuzu, before I met Tezuka, I loved you! It's just that Keigo Atobe at that time was far less evil than he is now, and even a little innocent. I always felt that falling in love with someone of the same sex was an unspeakable thing. I was afraid that you would look down on me. So I have always maintained a close relationship with you. In the ambiguity, we missed each other. In fact, thinking about it now, you must have loved me back then, right?"

Shocked by Atobe Shipo's shocking words, Renzu didn't react for a while.It turned out that we once stood at the closest place to each other, but no one reached out first. In the pride and reserve, we stared at each other and watched each other drift away.

"Later, I met Tezuka, posted a lot of things, and owed a lot of love. He taught me to love and be loved. It's just that when we are forced to retreat to the bottom line, there is always someone who wants to The game ended. I clearly remember that day, because of the rain, there was no training in the tennis club, so Tezuka and I went home early and accepted an interview with the reporter of "Tennis". I really wanted to have a hearty game with him The dripping game is a kind of soul duel. Only after you have played against him can you experience the feeling of addiction. As a result, under the spotlight of the reporter, he chose to fail again. You can’t imagine how angry I was at that time , even more angry than when he was injured in the third year of junior high school, not doing his best means disrespecting the opponent, disdain to fight against the opponent, the feeling of being underestimated almost burned all my sanity, but I ignored Tezuka's long-term part-time job. Not enough to support the whole game. Drag him from the tennis court to the bedroom crazily, force him to lie on his body, and abuse him severely, just to see him hurt, see him sad, see him still To what extent can he back down? From the beginning to the end, he did not make any sound. When I vented enough, his body was already bright red. Looking at him in a coma, I broke up. You will know what happened later... ...Because I didn't have enough ability to protect him at the time, and I didn't want Tezuka's future life to be completely shrouded in my shadow, so I unilaterally called to stop. Now I have the ability to protect him, but his heart is gone. Renzuka, Remember what I said a few days ago? If you can’t give Tezuka happiness, don’t play this tiebreaker! Are you going to play? Although you are very reluctant to quit, since Tezuka chose medicine instead of business, since Tezuka Choosing Renzu Hospital instead of other hospitals means that he is ready to take the wind and rain with you, and has even begun to pave the way for your future. Even if he doesn't say it, you should be able to see it. So I Respect him, how about you? What about your choice?"

Renzu took a deep breath, "I will not give up this tiebreaker, I also want to experience the feeling of addiction."

Atobe smiled slightly, "As expected of someone I trust! When the housekeeper said that you were the one who picked up Tezuka, I knew you would not disappoint me! In fact, you did not disappoint me. "

"But I don't think you trust me so much?" Ren Zu got angry when he thought of the pile of materials.

"My uncle never does anything that is not gorgeous. This time I was stalked entirely because I was attacked. Why would I always follow you? Don't worry." Atobe's INSIGHT really wasn't covered, "But it doesn't seem to be useful! If you dare to provoke me, you must have the awareness to bear the consequences!"

Seeing the rising hostility in Atobe's eyes, Shinobu immediately changed the subject: "Xiaojing, if Tezuka hadn't met me that day, what do you think would have happened?"

After rolling his eyes at him, Atobe continued to smile arrogantly, "He will be just as happy. I had already called Fuji Shusuke at that time, and it was only 10 minutes away. You should know that Fuji's love for Tezuka is by no means more than any One cent less people."

It turns out that even if we broke up, you made perfect preparations for Tezuka... Atobe, Tezuka and I saw you right!

While hesitating, Atobe's cell phone rang!Not in a hurry to answer the phone, Atobe showed the most gorgeous smile: "It's finally here! Renzu, since you decided to play the tiebreaker, then follow me to complete this life's gamble in a gorgeous way!"