In time

Time never stops his footsteps, no one has a magic wand, let time go back to the past, pick up those regretted, lost, or sad past events to make up for and change.

A very small rental house, even the lights are dim, a small window, the curtains are very thin, the curtains are gently flying when the evening wind blows, it is already late at night, there is no one on the side of the road, only occasional people and the sound of passing vehicles.

There is no moonlight, only the dim light. I looked at the curtains and remembered a long time ago. At that time, Lin Nan and I were still in the first year of high school. One side of the school classroom was a wall, and the other side was all glass windows. The school was on the side of the glass windows. There are light blue curtains on one wall. Sometimes Lin Nan will accompany me in the classroom when I don’t go home at noon. I am drawing or reading, and he will sleep quietly on the side. When the wind blows , the curtains will make a hula-la sound, and then they will float out of the window with the wind. At this time, you will see the blue sky outside the window and the very faint clouds. I also remember that the wind blows the sleeping What Lin Nan looked like when he was wearing hair.

At that time, I was young, the wind was very warm, and the sun was just right.

A painful groan//groan came over, interrupting my nostalgia, I saw Lin Nan bent down, looking very painful.

I was very anxious, I didn't know what was going on, so I quickly supported him, and after I found out it was a stomachache, I hurried to find medicine for the stomach trouble, but the medicine box was empty and there was nothing.

Lin Nan said, it's okay, I'm used to it, it's been a long time.

I'm a little angry, why can't I take care of myself?Didn't you take good care of people before?When I have a cough, I would rush to buy medicine nervously. Why can’t I take care of myself?

I stood up and was about to go out to buy medicine, but I felt a tightness in my waist, and I was entangled by a pair of arms. I wanted to break free, but I couldn't. , as if to be strangled.

Don't go, Lin Nan said.

I do not go.I put my hand on Lin Nan's arm. The hoop was so hard that I could see the blue veins on his arm. I patted him and I went to buy medicine for you.

No, don't go.Lin Nan's voice was a little low, as if something was wrong, I turned around to look, and found that his eyes were closed, his face was a little red, and his expression was a little painful. His hand was on his forehead, and his forehead was a little hot, as if he had a fever.

Thinking that it was a stomachache before, and now he has a little fever, he wanted to send Lin Nan to the hospital, but Lin Nan still held him tightly, unwilling to move a single bit.

After persuasion for a long time, and repeatedly promised that I would not leave, nor would I send him to the hospital, Lin Nan let go of his hand and fell on the bed. I sighed, took out my mobile phone and checked Lin Nan's symptoms, and it was very uncomfortable. Feeling embarrassed, I called a roommate who I had a good relationship with on weekdays. His elder brother is a doctor. After getting an answer, I felt relieved.

After cleaning up Lin Nan, he was going to cook some porridge in the kitchen outside, but he couldn't find a single grain of rice in the room, so he just wanted to go out to buy some medicine, so he just went out.

Carefully opened the door, but heard a sound behind the bed, turned around and saw Lin Nan sitting up suddenly, staring straight at me, not allowed to leave.

I was a little bit dumbfounded, in the past I promised again and again that it was just going out to buy some medicine, but Lin Nan was as awkward as a child.

"I don't need to take medicine, I don't want to drink porridge, you are not allowed to go."

I've never seen Lin Nan like this before. Could it be that he's drunk?It was obviously fine on the way back.

"But I'm hungry and want something to eat."

I had no choice but to lie to him, but I didn't expect him to get out of bed, "I'll accompany you to eat."

I patted my forehead, I really felt a little helpless, and I was sure that he must be drunk, plus stomach pain and low fever, and a little delirious, he is now in such a state, it is obviously difficult to even walk downstairs.

"Look, I put my phone and everything here, so I'll go out and buy something, okay?"

He looked at me, and I obediently put all my mobile phone, wallet and documents on the bed, and only took out a little money. He was finally relieved, and fumbled for a very beautiful and delicate small box by the bedside, opened it and took out a small box. The pocket watch was thrust into my hand.

"Only half an hour."

I looked down at the pocket watch in my hand. It was made of brass and sapphire. It was simple, elegant and generous. It was the pocket watch I bought back when I spent all the money in the card in country F that year. The surface had been rubbed out. A layer of luster, it can be seen that it is often held in the hand, even so, it is well preserved.

I blinked hard, blinked hard again, and bargained with him: "One hour."

He looked at me and tapped my left cheek, as if reluctantly: "Okay, one hour."

The pocket watch was tightly gripped by me, and the surface was a little sweaty. I hurried downstairs, bought some daily necessities and some food in the convenience store, bought some vegetables, millet and lean meat, and then went to the pharmacy to buy medicine and a thermometer, and came back It was only a little more than half an hour when I opened the door, and I saw him immediately opened his eyes and looked at me.

I put down my things, touched his forehead, and took his temperature again. It turned out to be a low-grade fever. I'd better go to the hospital for an examination when he wakes up tomorrow.

After pouring water and feeding him good medicine, he took rice and vegetables and prepared to make some porridge for him to drink.

Although there is a public kitchen outside, there is also a small rice cooker in the room. After washing the rice and putting it in the pot, when he turned around to look at him, he was already asleep.

His brows were furrowed tightly, and he didn't seem to be very peaceful in his sleep. I called softly, "Lin Nan."

He didn't answer, I yelled again, but still didn't answer, I went to the bed and sat down, stared at him for a while, then looked at the room, I couldn't sleep anyway, so I took the scattered papers and papers from the desk and bookshelf. After packing up the books, there is a beautifully packaged book on the top of the bookshelf. It looks very different from other professional books. I was a little curious. I took it out and looked at it. It was the photo album with the theme of "sunflower" back then.

The treasures that we may have looked up to in the past may be so expensive that we can easily have them now, but the precious and rare state of mind has also disappeared.

When I entered the university, my brother gave me a card, and I paid a lot of money in the card, saying that it would cover my four years of university living expenses. I don’t spend a lot of money, and I don’t live on campus, and I don’t like extravagance. I don't like to go out to play, and the only place where I spend money is the cost of going out to sketch besides simple food, clothing, housing and transportation, and painting tools and paints.

I'm rich, so to speak, and the unaffordable price tag of a teenage book now seems like nothing more than a quick meal.

I have passed by this photobook countless times, perhaps because the memory it brings to me is not good, how eager and loved I was once, and how indifferent and indifferent I have since then.

The photo book is covered with a layer of exquisite paper. Just after opening the first page, a card floated down. The paper was a little yellowed. For me the card I thought I lost.

A photo album, a pocket watch, a card, a wristwatch that suddenly occurred to me, something seemed wrong, but I couldn't remember it.

I looked at Lin Nan, he seemed to have fallen into a deep sleep, his brows were gradually relaxing, and a smile appeared from the corners of his originally tightly pursed mouth.

Seeing those thin lips, he couldn't help touching his own lips, feeling a little hot and blushing at the same time, thinking of Lin Nan's drunken kiss before, it was moist, hot and slightly sweet, which made people's brains go crazy Blank fascination, thinking about it like this, actually felt a bit of aftertaste.

He tapped his head violently, and thought of where to go. Kissing is something that only lovers do. We are just friends, maybe a little better than ordinary friends, but that's all, Lin Nan is sure It was some girl who took me, for example, the girl I met in the mall that day, so bright and charming.

Thinking of this, my heart was stuffy, a little panicked, I looked at Lin Nan again, how could he be so good-looking?The greenness of youth has faded away, the eyebrows and eyes are still exquisite, the long eyelashes on the tightly closed eyes cast a shadow on the eyes, the bridge of the nose is straight, and the thin lips are extremely seductive.

It wasn't until I walked to the bed that I realized that I had unknowingly come to his side.

My heart beat suddenly and violently, and it seemed that it was about to jump out violently. I lowered my head, looked at his eyebrows and eyes, and looked at his lips almost greedily, and wanted to kiss him very much. What should I do?

Only then did I realize that I liked Lin Nan so much, even though so many years had passed, even if he had left without saying goodbye, even if he had left me without saying a word.