The male god in the interstellar entertainment circle is poisonous

Mo Yixiao finished two hours of meditation and fitness, and walked back to the wooden house where the actors lived with sweat and tired muscles—yes, the wooden house, there is no very modern hotel here, but a three-story wooden house to keep warm The facilities are not very good, and there will be a chill at night.

However, as soon as he opened the creaking wooden door and entered the room, the young man was stunned.

"Jing Yan...?"

It is not surprising to see Qi Jingyan, after all, the real protagonists of this movie are only the two of them, and the filming has only started for three days, mainly for the two protagonists to get in touch with.

But it was very strange to see Qi Jingyan drinking heavily.

Probably because he was born in a military family, Qi Jingyan's living habits have always been very healthy.Mo Yixiao also had the embarrassing incident of eating sweets and causing tooth decay, but Qi Jingyan really didn't drink alcohol unless it was necessary to socialize, and he didn't have any bad habits, at most he liked to eat two packs of spicy sticks.

But now, that handsome man is sitting on the uncomfortable wooden sofa, gulping down the golden wine in the glass, it can be seen from the frequency of the Adam's apple on the man's upturned neck. What a rush to drink.

"Jing Yan, are you okay?"

Mo Yixiao suddenly became worried.He walked over, and in the warm light, the man with a regular figure leaned his neck and drank a cup in one go, then stopped, leaning on the back of the sofa in a lazy posture.The shirt on his body also casually rolled up the unbuttoned sleeves all the way to the elbows, and the two buttons at the neckline were unbuttoned, just casually opened, revealing the light wheat-colored smooth skin and sexy collarbone .

Although he knew intellectually that this was not an appropriate time, seeing such an impactful picture up close, the young man lost his mind for a moment and subconsciously swallowed his saliva.

There is no need to answer the question of how good-looking Qi Jingyan is, just look at the number of fans he has.

But this man rarely fluctuates in expression except in front of people he is very familiar with, so the outside world always thinks that he is the cold and handsome type. In private, although Mo Yixiao knows how contrasting and cute he is when he acts coquettishly, so The lovers who are used to look like they are either strong and reliable with an aura of [-] meters, or they are arrogant and arrogant with a flirtatious face.

But now, as if his hormonal switch was broken, he leaned lazily on the back of the sofa, his slender limbs stretched freely, one of his two long legs stretched out straight, touching the leg of the coffee table, and the other One of his arms is slightly bent, and one of his arms is casually resting on the back of the sofa, the other arm is bent, and the elbow rests on the knee of the bent long leg, holding the liquor in his hand The crystal glass that is about to run out.

A few strands of black hair stick to the cheeks messily, creating ambiguous shadows on the cheeks under the warm light.

The man's limbs were wide open, and he was obviously wearing a formal attire of shirt and trousers, but his whole body was like a prodigal son who could break the hearts of countless girls, exuding an irresistible aura of temptation.

"Jing Yan?"

Mo Yixiao closed his eyes, told himself to hold on, not to think about something when his lover was obviously in a bad mood, and then he calmed down and walked over.

The young man was a little worried whether his lover was drunk—or worse, had a fever—after all, his face was also a little strangely red, so he tentatively stretched out his hand to touch the other person's forehead.In the end, Qi Jingyan was caught before his hands touched him.

"..."

Probably because of the drinking, the man's palm was so hot that it almost gave people the illusion of being burned.Mo Yixiao was taken aback, and tried to twitch his hand, but it didn't twitch.

"Smile."

The man finally spoke.

He raised his head, his eyes were usually darker and deeper when he closed his eyes, he stared at the young man against the light in front of him through his messy hair, his eyes were so focused that there was no fork.

"If you surpass me one day..."

He paused for a long time, but Mo Yixiao didn't show the slightest impatience, he just maintained the posture of being held by the other party - even though this posture made him bend slightly - and waited.

"...Will you stop loving me?"

The other party finally confided the second half of the words.

Mo Yixiao was stunned for a moment, then the hand that was being held slowly squeezed harder, and held that hand instead.

"How could you ask such a question? When we were together, I was barely a second-tier starlet. Why did you fall in love with me?"

The youth's eyes are clear and clear, more beautiful than the clearest and brightest stars in the sky that can be seen in this unpolluted forest.

Qi Jingyan stared at him foolishly for a long time, then suddenly laughed, at first it was just a low laugh, and gradually it grew louder, but when it was enlarged, it seemed to carry some kind of unresolved sadness.

He pulled the young man's hand hard, and Mo Yixiao was forced to take two staggering steps forward, the distance between the two shrank very close, and then——

The hairy black head was directly buried on Mo Yixiao's belly.

The smell of alcohol on the man's body also became very clear, mixed with a faint smell of cologne, like a dry woody fragrance mixed with the pungentness of tobacco, it is a kind of fragrance after vicissitudes of life.

——This should not be suitable for a young man like Qi Jingyan, but at this moment, the breath around him is wonderfully integrated with this smell.

Mo Yixiao stretched out his hand hesitantly, stroked his lover's hair, and told him gently and solemnly: "I don't know why you said such a thing suddenly, but, Jing Yan, when I first saw you, you were helpless." The king of the circle of controversy, I am a vase who can only play corpses, I have already regarded you as my target; later we got together, the status was very different, but I didn't think it mattered, I believe I will catch up sooner or later You; if I surpass you in the future... I will be very happy, that is my achievement, but that does not affect my love for you."

The young man rubbed the man's hair, pampering and caressing just like a man would do to him every time.

"I am also a man with pursuit. If I can become your goal, I will be very happy."

There was a smile in his tone, comforting his lover who was obviously a little drunk.

Qi Jingyan's brain was already spinning a little slowly at this moment, he felt excited and inexplicably sad at the same time.

The conversation with Director Albert allowed him to find a little outlet, but it also evoked his depression and fatigue that had been difficult to improve in his acting skills over the years.

He has reached the pinnacle of honor that the circle can bestow, too soon, and where is his starry sky?He couldn't see it, so he could only linger on the top of the mountain, worrying about the sadness of stagnation or even retrogression.This feeling was aroused again because of today's conversation, and it came back to my heart.Only then did he realize that he had never actually gotten out of the predicament, he just suppressed it and thought it was resolved.

The pressure was hoarding in his chest, tearing, swelling, waiting for an explosion but nowhere to vent.The deep tiredness and suffocation made him choose wine tonight.

The last time when he did this because of a bottleneck, he met someone who made him sick just thinking about it, but fortunately, Xu Jiaqi helped him; but this time, only he and his favorite person were in the wooden house where the entire actor lived, and he could do nothing. Drink without vigilance and vent your feelings.

He could feel his smile coming back, he could feel that the other party was worried about him, and he wanted to express those entanglements and struggles, but he felt so ridiculous, so difficult to express——

Admit it, Qi Jingyan, you hope that in Xiaoxiao's heart you will always be a radiant man standing at the top of the circle, and you hope that there is a light of longing in his eyes looking at you.

...But your lover grows too fast, but you are stuck in the bottleneck stage and are struggling.

You are happy with your lover's excellence, but feel so shameful and contemptuous of loss and fear.

The person you love the most, your greatest rival.

...he will surpass you.He is going to pass you.

——And you thought you could accept it calmly, but it is not so natural.You are not reconciled, you are feeling sad for yourself, and you are... wary of the person you love the most. At the same time, you are also worried that you who have lost the aura of "invincible" will lose your attractiveness in his eyes.

Love, worry, unwillingness, vigilance...

Too complicated emotions, feelings that cannot be expressed.

The man almost had a sense of self-loathing, he didn't know how to explain his feelings to his lover, and in the end he could only tremble and ask the question that worried him most in the final analysis——

Will you stop loving me?

It was a question he would never have asked had he been sober.

Although Qi Jingyan can act like a baby to his young lover without hindrance, he has his pride.He would not ask this question, and his reason would tell him how cowardly and logically this question sounds.But now, drunk, among all kinds of complicated and multi-layered emotions, he still found the point he was most worried about.

...not afraid of being surpassed...

...not the unavoidable jealousy of human nature...

...It's not the bitterness of recalling the hardships of the past few years...

Rather, if I am no longer the only, irreplaceable absolute star, will you still love me as much as you do today?

And his youth said to him, "When we were together, I was barely a second-tier starlet, why did you fall in love with me?".

Qi Jingyan saw the unfeigned surprise in his lover's eyes, it was pure doubt, how could he ask such a strange question.

Even half drunk, Qi Jingyan can still distinguish the emotions of his lover - why is there such a strange question?Is there any necessary connection between our feelings and status?

The man is dumb.

Then there was the unstoppable smile—a self-deprecating smile.

What he struggled with, what he cared about, what he was worried about...in fact, they were just unfounded worries.

What he said after laughing made him feel even more ridiculous.Yes, his smile has never concealed the idea of ​​wanting to surpass him.His youth loves him, and at the same time regards him as his greatest rival.And what about myself?Although he always said that he was waiting for the other party to surpass him, he really felt that his lover had even faintly surpassed him spiritually in this movie, and he was not as free and easy as he said before.

...Is it because you have too much, but you have lost the state of mind to pursue without scruples when you first started acting?

Because we are already at the top and have no way forward, we can only guard the top of the mountain tremblingly, for fear of being caught up and surpassed by the latecomers.

...But on the top of the mountain, there is still a starry sky.

The road of chasing the stars should be one with no other distractions, and with the expectations and longings that have always remained...

Don't worry too much, don't be afraid of being surpassed.Because as long as you keep walking, you can reach your own starry sky. It doesn't matter how fast or how far others go.

On the top of the mountain, there is a bigger, bigger world.

Qi Jingyan faintly felt that something stabilized in his restless chest.The wine that was burning in the stomach became refreshing.He touched Mo Yixiao's belly with his head, then raised his head, and saw the young man staring into his eyes.Those eyes are bright, with courage and love written in them.

It's as if the stars in the entire interstellar are rubbed in the eyes, bright and vast.

At this moment, the man felt that he had found his own starry sky.

The author has something to say: Words also have worries and fears.

After all, he is the uncrowned king in the circle. After so many years, he suddenly realizes that he may be surpassed by his boyfriend... No matter how much he said before, he will still feel flustered and flustered at this time.

Originally, I wanted Xiaoxiao to enlighten me, and then Stupid Gong made another effort to become more powerful, but I accidentally turned into dog food _(:зゝ∠)_...