He and him in another life

The machine was buckled to the floor, Cao Ang touched the cigarette case and took another cigarette out to light it.

The floor-to-ceiling windows reflected his shadow, squatting alone in the darkness, accompanied by only the flickering sparks of the cigarette butt.After a long time, Cao Ang slowly lowered his head and chuckled.

"Yes. I admit it."

TB

dead end

Another weekend.

As usual, Cao Pi played two games with his brother and then went to take a bath. Cao Ang played with the active kitten outside for a while, and as if he remembered something, he took out his mobile phone and dialed the number at home.

"Dad, I've made up my mind. I want to go abroad."

The person on the other end of the phone should be explaining something to him. Cao Ang listened carefully and responded from time to time, even ignoring the kitten next to him to scratch his feet.

"Okay, I see, hang up."

Putting the phone aside, Cao Ang picked up the kitten with both hands and carried it into the nest, "I can't play with you anymore, my nose is starting to feel uncomfortable again."

Turning around, I wanted to go to the kitchen to wash my hands, but I saw Cao Pi came out of the shower at some point, sitting on the sofa with a hair dryer, presumably to dry his hair.

"It's fast, you." It was a greeting, but Cao Ang didn't pay much attention to the abnormality in his expression.

After washing his hands, Cao Ang came out to see that he was still sitting there without moving, so he couldn't help teasing, "I'm too lazy, just wait for me to blow it to you."

Walking over to sit next to Cao Pi, Cao Ang wanted to get the hair dryer in his hand, but was unexpectedly pushed away.

"You didn't tell me." Lowering his head, Cao Pi's voice was full of grievances.

Immediately, he realized that he had heard the phone call between himself and his father. Cao Ang scratched his head and felt guilty for no reason, "I wanted to tell you, but I didn't find a suitable opportunity, um... just..."

"I heard that you are going abroad." Cao Pi finished speaking for him calmly, stood up abruptly and walked away, locking himself into the bedroom.

"Cao Pi!" Cao Ang chased after him and knocked on the door, but when he heard the faint crying in the room, he felt annoyed like never before.

I'm an asshole.he thinks.

An hour passed, two hours passed.Cao Pi's door was never opened.

After all, Cao Ang was worried, found a spare key that had not been used for a long time, and opened the bedroom door.

Standing at the door and looking at the shadow curled up on the bed, he felt uncomfortable as if he had been clicked by something.

The room was so quiet that he could clearly hear his own heartbeat and Cao Pi's even breathing.

Tired of crying and fell asleep?Cao Ang thought, walked over and sat down on the floor beside the bed, staring at his arched back in a daze.

The faint moonlight outside the window comes in, and is sometimes hidden by dark clouds, just like Cao Ang's mood of flickering.

He reached out to caress the soft hair on the back of Cao Pi's head, but only for a moment, Cao Ang withdrew his hand.Leaning his head back on the bedside table behind him, he covered his face with his hands, and took a long time to remove them again.

Turning his head to stare at the person who was still in the dreamland again, seeing the outline of his body undulating slightly with his breathing, Cao Ang's eyes couldn't help but become gentle, with a trace of helplessness.

Want to touch you, can't touch you.

I don't want to leave you, I have to leave you.

Just looking at you makes you feel happy.

Just looking at you feels guilty.

Cao Pi.

really like you.

I like it to the point of pain.

"elder brother……"

Cao Pi's dreamy voice broke into his ears, but Cao Ang got up and fled.

If you don't have the courage to be a brave sinner, then you can be a cowardly and innocent person with peace of mind.

He escaped from the life with Cao Pi without looking back, trying to pass the dark feelings in his heart to distance and time.I look forward to the day when I no longer like and no longer suffer as expected.

Five years later, Cao Ang, who finished his studies abroad and found a job, thought it was time to go back to China.So he asked for leave, flew back quietly alone, and appeared at the door of the house without saying hello to the family.

It was dinner time, when Mrs. Cao opened the door and saw her son whom she had not seen for several years, she was both pleasantly surprised and excited, her eyes wet with joy, "Come, come in and sit down to eat."

"Mom, don't cry." Cao Ang dragged his luggage into the house to change his shoes, handed the gift to Mrs. Cao, and coaxed her with a smile, "Look, I bought you a gift, do you like it?"

"I like it, my mother likes everything you bought." Mrs. Cao couldn't care less about gifts when she was so focused on her son.

After taking off his coat, Cao Ang followed his mother into the dining room. When he saw Lao Tzu sitting at the dining table with a sullen face, he couldn't help but flinch inwardly, "Dad."

"You know how to come back, kid." Father Cao said unceremoniously, pointing to the seat beside him and ordered, "Sit."

Glancing at the wine utensils on the dining table from the corner of the eye, Cao Ang thought, thanks to his fortitude, he dug out the red wine in the suitcase as soon as he got off the plane, unwrapped it, and took it with him.

Walked over and skillfully uncorked the bottle and poured half a glass for him before Cao Ang took his seat and said, "Dad, what do you think of this wine?"

With an expression of "you're a smart boy", Father Cao took the wine glass and shook it a few times, tasted it, nodded after a long while and said, "Chateau Margaux from 05 is not bad."

"Dad, you can do it!"

"Stop flattering. Eat." Father Cao didn't hold back in the end, and finally let out a smile.

Cao Ang could see it clearly by observing his words and expressions, he secretly relieved, poured wine for his mother and himself respectively, and spent a peaceful and beautiful dinner time.

Before going to bed, Cao Ang couldn’t help asking his mother why Cao Pi was not at home. Mrs. Cao said while making the bed for him, “That child is like you. He moved out by himself after high school and only came back on weekends. you?"

"Ah... well, I seem to have said it, but I forgot." Cao Ang teased the grown kitten in his hand, perfunctory his mouth, but he was thinking in his heart that he deliberately didn't contact him when he was abroad. I know his situation.

"Tomorrow is Friday, why don't you go to his school to pick him up?" Mrs. Cao made the bed, straightened up and looked at him and suggested.

"Ah, I have an appointment with someone tomorrow." Cao Ang hadn't figured out how to appear in front of Cao Pi, so he found an excuse to refuse, rubbed his hair and turned to the bathroom next to him to brush his teeth, "Besides, he's such a big man himself Won't you come back yet?"

Mrs. Cao smiled, not minding that her proposal was not accepted, "You, go to bed early."

"Oh good, good night Mom."

"Good night."

After coming out of the bathroom, Cao Ang threw himself on the bed and fell asleep until the sun was up.

After eating, he said hello to his mother who didn't go to the company and stayed at home to cook for herself, and Cao Ang took the car keys and went out.

Thinking that everyone had to go to work on Friday, he would definitely not be able to get an appointment at this point, so he drove around alone in the car, ran all the places he loved to go all afternoon, and finally drove the car to his own Where high school goes.

The gate of the school has been redecorated, and it is more elegant than before. It is the time when school is over, and the gate of the school is very lively.The students who came out of there were wearing the same school uniform as the one Cao Ang wore back then. Some looked serious, some were chatting happily, and some were walking alone. He put one hand on the window frame to watch Watching them walk in different directions, I can't help but secretly imagine myself walking among the students.

It's been so many years.

Cao Ang felt a little emotional, and reached out to touch the cigarette case thrown above the instrument panel, and when he opened it, he found that it was empty.

Rubbing the back of his neck a little irritably, he rolled up the window, got out of the car and walked towards the canteen he had entered and exited countless times in high school.

Probably out of nostalgia for his student days, Cao Ang did not buy the special alcohol Sanwu he was used to smoking abroad these years, but chose Zhongnanhai, which he often smoked in high school.

Walking back while removing the plastic seal on the outside of the cigarette case, Cao Ang almost subconsciously turned in when he passed the alley. When he realized it, he was already leaning against the wall in the "old place" and taking a good posture.

Tsk, old habits die hard.

In line with the idea that what comes is safe, he ignored the gazes projected from all over the alley, took out the lighter and lit a cigarette by himself.With a flick of the thumb, the metal button cover was easily opened, accompanied by a crisp sound.I hit the steamer twice quickly, but only two sparks came out, obviously there was no fuel.

After closing the lid of the lighter, Cao Ang felt a little disappointed, and was about to go back to the canteen to buy a disposable lighter for emergency, when someone next to him suddenly handed him a lighter.

Colibri Kickstart, the taste is not bad.

While Cao Ang was surprised, he did not forget to examine the lighter, and became a little interested in its owner, but because he was embarrassed to let others hold the fire for him, he had to lower his head and light the cigarette, and then turned his head to look at the lighter. Those who make things convenient for themselves, "Thank you."

"You're welcome." He replied in a flat tone, as if the man had no intention of continuing the conversation.

Cao Ang exhaled the smoke, thinking it was a bit funny, but he didn't expect such a cold personality.

From the physique and the school uniform hanging on the shoulder bag, it is not difficult to tell that he is a high school student. Looking up, the hood of the sweater covers his head tightly, and his face cannot be seen from the side.

Cao Ang has not been so curious about a person for a long time. As for the reason, he can't explain it himself. He can only attribute it to the inexplicable attraction.Moving to the opposite wall, Cao Ang thought for a while, and chose not to face the young man, but diagonally opposite him, but unfortunately he still couldn't see his face clearly.

"You also play with lighters?" Cao Ang tried to stir up the topic.

"Hmm." The boy said in a low voice without raising his head, "It's time for your hinges to be repaired."

"You discovered all of this?" Cao Ang was even more excited after being surprised.

"You can tell just by hearing the sound." The young man Yi Yi