He and him in another life

He put out the cigarette butt on the trash can not far away, and walked out slowly.

Opening the door of the house, the room is pitch-black, only the aquarium is lit with a faint blue light, lonely and melancholy.Sima Yi reached out and fumbled for the switch on the wall, but from the corner of his eye he inadvertently saw a figure sitting on the floor of the living room, startled, he tentatively called out: "Cao Pi?"

"Don't turn on the light." It was Cao Pi's voice that responded, "Come and watch the fish with me."

14

"Do you feel that there are fewer fish in the tank?" Cao Pi tilted his head and leaned on Sima Yi's shoulder, asking suddenly.

"Ah..." Sima Yi didn't know what to think about, and he was a little absent-minded, "Is there any?"

"Yes." Cao Pi raised his finger and pointed to the blue-lighted reef at the bottom of the box, "Do you see a crack there?"

Sima Yi nodded.

"There's a saury hidden in there. I didn't find it when I bought the fish. When I found it, he had already eaten a lot of anchovies." With a soft sigh, Cao Pi retracted his hands and put his arms around his knees again. My favorite fish was also eaten."

Sima Yi noticed that there was an anchovy in the school of fish that was particularly bright in color and had a slightly larger tail fin than the other fish. He thought it was this one that Cao Pi was talking about, "Come on, get up."

"Why?" Cao Pi was puzzled when he saw him standing up.

"Get that saury fish out."

"It's useless, I tried it, it has been hiding in the crevices of the rocks, you can't get it."

"Then fish out your favorite fish."

15

Sima Yi found a small fish tank for raising goldfish from nowhere, washed it clean, threw in a few pebbles and a few aquatic plants and filled it with water, and it looked quite decent.I fished out the anchovy that Cao Pi liked from the aquarium and put it into the small fish tank. I just wanted to ask Cao Pi if he was satisfied, but when I turned around, I found that he was arched, with his hands folded in front of his chest, curled up like a feline Slept on the wool rug.Sima Yi smiled helplessly, sat cross-legged beside him holding the fish tank, and gently stroked his hair with his free hand.Cao Pi hadn't fallen asleep yet. After feeling his touch, he squinted his eyes and looked at the fish tank in his hand for a while. Without saying anything, he turned his face away and rubbed against the inside of his knee, and fell asleep again.

Sima Yi felt that he seemed to be smiling, but he didn't mean to be happy, or maybe he didn't smile at all.

After carrying Cao Pi into the bedroom and settling him down on the bed, Sima Yi sat on the floor next to the edge of the bed and looked at the calm face carefully, falling into long-term contemplation.

He knew very well that Cao Pi hadn't really fallen asleep, he was just trying to temporarily cover up and escape some emotions and some things with the simple method of pretending to be asleep.

Sima Yi didn't know what kind of day he had experienced at his father's place. He didn't tell, and he didn't plan to question him.

He knows he needs time.

In addition to love, they also have understanding and trust for each other.

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During breakfast, Sima Yi asked Cao Pi why he didn't see his car in the basement. The latter took a big bite of the sweet bean bun and hesitated for a long time, and finally he choked out three words—Che car.

Sima Yi was taken aback for a moment, then buried his head and smiled.

Knowing that he was remembering the experience of rubbing his car back and forth three or four times when the two first met, Cao Pi couldn't help but glared at him angrily, and then justifiably snatched the meat buns in his bowl as revenge.

As if venting his anger, Cao Pi took a bite of the meat bun. Cao Pi thought, don’t tell him, except that the first time he rubbed against the car was an accident, and the next few times were all intentional.

Of course, Sima Yi would not tell him that he had seen through his tricks a long time ago, but he was willing to hit one and suffer the other, and he never tired of it.

Sparks, they were born out of nothing.

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Half a month later, Cao Pi's parking space in the basement was still vacant.At first, Sima Yi occasionally asked a question while driving in the morning, but he thought he was too lazy to pick it up, and he didn't bother to fool him anyway.After a few times, Sima Yi didn't ask any more questions, as if he had forgotten about it.

Yes, Cao Pi lied, and his technique was poor.

Sima Yi understood clearly, but accompanied him to pretend to be confused.

18

As the winter vacation approached, the research project that Cao Pi was doing with his tutor had ended, but he became busy instead. He often went to school with Sima Yi in the morning, and couldn't find anyone in the afternoon.Several times, Sima Yi drove to pick him up but was in vain.When asked afterwards, he said that he found a job in an outside magazine, which was very interesting, but he was a little tired.

Sima Yi listened, and couldn't help slandering, every day at eight [nine o'clock, he fell asleep, how could he be tired?Look at this posture, the work of the entire magazine has been taken care of by you.

But seeing that Cao Pi himself seemed to be enjoying himself, he couldn't say much, so he could only tell him to pay attention to rest.

As a result, Cao Pi's workload became heavier and heavier, and the time to go home was getting later and later.

If you like it, you like it, Sima Yi thought, do you need to work so hard?

After Cao Pi came back late again, Sima Yi finally made up his mind to drag the extremely exhausted him from the bed.

Cao Pi looked confused, hugged the pillow and nodded, muttering that there was something he couldn't talk about tomorrow.

Pulling the pillow away from his arms, Sima Yi put his hands on his shoulders and leaned over to look at him, "Cao Pi, tell me the truth, a job just for fun, why are you playing with your life like this? Are you short of money? "

"Lack of money?" Cao Pi, who was half asleep and half awake, couldn't help but widen his eyes when he said this, as if he had heard some incredible remarks, "How could I be short of money? I just like this job. After a while, it will dry out and it will naturally subside.”

"Really?" Sima Yi questioned.

"It's cooked, alright teacher, please spare me, I'm almost sleepy." Cao Pi closed his eyes, broke away from Sima Yi's hand, hugged the quilt and quickly fell asleep with humming.

Sima Yi looked at his blue eyes, couldn't bear to wake him up again, turned around and turned off the light, stood outside the balcony to smoke a cigarette by himself.

19

Cao Pi's car is missing, but he himself has been vague.

A stack of Cao Pi's credit cards was thrown under the sofa at home. Sima Yi found them out while cleaning. On a whim, he called the bank and was told that the cards had been frozen.Every card is.

The working status of working for survival and working for life is completely different, but Cao Pi is trying to survive under the guise of living.

After he came back from his father, there were too many abnormalities. The more abnormalities he had, the deeper the doubts in Sima Yi's heart.Now, he connected everything together and got a general idea, but he couldn't get confirmation from Cao Pi.

He believed in Cao Pi and believed that everything he did had a reason.

But he didn't know whether Cao Pi could give him equal trust.

Waiting became his only way.

A cigarette had already burned to the end, Sima Yi felt a burning pain in his finger, and instinctively shook his hand.Looking back at the red sparks falling down the stairs quickly, he thought apologetically, hoping that there was no one downstairs.

20

There seemed to be fewer fish in the aquarium, but the anchovy that was treated specially was able to sit back and relax every day, blowing bubbles to its precarious companion in the aquarium every day.

Sima Yi, who came back from get off work alone, looked at it and thought boredly, wondering if you were showing off or feeling lonely.

After having dinner alone, Sima Yi went into the study as usual, but instead of picking up books from his own bookshelf, he abducted to Cao Pi's bookshelf on a whim.

Poetry collections, anthologies... probably I will never read these things in my life.Sima Yi thought so, but reached out to Cao Pi's favorite book.Pulling out the book that was tightly stuck in the middle by other books, before Sima Yi had time to turn it over, he saw the pages that were sandwiched somewhere were brought out and scattered all over the floor.

Reluctantly putting the book aside, he bent down to pick up the papers one by one, but his expression changed after seeing the contents clearly.

TB

stockholm lovers

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The room was so quiet that the ticking of the wall clock and the operation of the aquarium's circulation system could be clearly heard.

It was getting dark outside, and Sima Yi was sitting on the sofa by the floor-to-ceiling windows, staring at the small fish tank on the coffee table with a dull expression, thinking about something.The anchovy in the fish tank was standing still in the water alone, without the fresh vitality in the school of fish at all. It turned its head towards Sima Yi's direction, moved its mouth slowly, spit out a string of tiny bubbles, and then It slowly sank into the aquatic plants at the bottom of the tank.

A phone rang, breaking the dead silence in the room.

Sima Yi was taken aback. When he came back to his senses, he raised his hand and hammered his aching head, and got up to answer the phone.

Cao Pi's voice came from the other end of the phone. It sounded like he was in a good mood. No wonder he didn't have to work overtime, so he had no reason to be unhappy.

Hearing Cao Pi's upbeat voice that he hadn't heard for a while, Sima Yi unconsciously twitched the corner of his mouth, "I'll pick you up, let's have dinner outside."

"No, I'll be home soon." Rubbing his nose that was red from the cold with his free hands, Cao Pi continued, "I haven't eaten at home for a long time, and I want to eat your cooked noodles."

Sima Yi felt stuffy in his heart. After a brief silence, he said, "Okay, I'll wait for you."

After hanging up the phone, Sima Yi stared blankly at the fish tank on the coffee table for a while, and finally walked over to pick up the fish tank and poured all the contents back into the aquarium, then turned and went into the kitchen.

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When Cao Pi arrived home, Sima Yi was still busy in the kitchen.With a unique cold breath in winter, Cao Pi got into the kitchen and grabbed Sima Yi's shoulder from behind, looked at the seafood soup boiling in the pot with his head, and then tried his best to