embrace the moon

"Why haven't you left yet?" Gu Yu asked.

Jian Qiao joked, "I'm not very satisfied with your tone."

"No." Gu Yu smiled.

"I haven't said goodbye to you yet, I'm waiting for you to come back," Jian Qiao said, "Did no one teach you to say goodbye before leaving?"

Gu Yu closed the door, walked towards him, and said in a low voice, "Yes, no one taught me."

Jian Qiao pulled him to sit down beside her, and patted his shoulder lightly: "Did you finish eating so soon?"

Gu Yu thought of what Lele said just now, and he was a little dazed. He said with an air: "Yes, I ate abalone, sea cucumber and big crab, which is super luxurious."

Jian Qiao didn't even think about it: "Aren't you not allowed to eat seafood?"

Gu Yu blinked, but did not answer.

Only he remembers.

Jian Qiao was also silent, reaching out to hug him.

Gu Yu dodged back subconsciously, and Jian Qiao had no choice but to withdraw his hand.

"I'll see you off." Gu Yu said, getting up and grabbing his suitcase.

Jian Qiao nodded, turned around and walked out, Gu Yu silently followed behind him.

They didn't speak. The distance from the gate of the courtyard to the gate of the community was quite long and tormenting for them.

Jian Qiao didn't think about anything, and Gu Yu didn't think about anything either. He followed Jian Qiao and looked at his back silently.

It was delivered all the way to the gate of the community, Jian Qiao suddenly turned around and looked at him, Gu Yu stopped in his tracks.

Jian Qiao stretched out his hand, wanting to take the suitcase from Gu Yu's hand, their hands were all on the pull rod, Jian Qiao pushed hard, Gu Yu pushed it even harder, and pulled it towards him.

Jian Qiao had no choice but to let go of his hand and said, "We're almost at the door."

"It hasn't arrived yet, and I didn't say where to send it." Gu Yu said.

"Oh," Jian Qiao looked at him and smiled, "Where are you sending it?"

"It's been delivered to where you live." Gu Yu replied.

Jian Qiao was stunned.

It has to be said that during the few months of getting along with him, Jian Qiao was teased by his words several times.

Especially looking into his sincere, innocent eyes, as if nothing happened.He is always so simple, he can't hide all his emotions, like giving you all the sweetness and tenderness that can't be suppressed.

Seeing that he was distracted for no reason, Gu Yu patted his shoulder and opened the pocket of his coat.

Jian Qiao understood, and put his hand into his coat pocket.

Gu Yu moved closer to him, put his hand in his pocket, and held Jian Qiao's hand.

Jian Qiao didn't speak, and walked side by side with him silently with his head bowed, slowing down his pace.

"Will you miss me?" Gu Yu asked.

Jian Qiao didn't answer right away, but said: "Sometimes I admire you quite a bit, and you can say a lot of things logically."

"Actually not," Gu Yu said, "Actually... there is nothing more I want to say."

"Then I want to hear it." Jian Qiao said.

"I don't," Gu Yu turned his head and snorted, "It made me lose face."

Jian Qiao joked: "Maybe if you say 'I don't want you to go', I really won't go?"

"I don't want you to go." Gu Yu said very simply.

This answer surprised Jian Qiao, but it wasn't too surprising. After thinking about it, it seemed that only this sentence was Gu Yu's speaking style.

"Big liar," Gu Yu lowered his head and kicked a stone on the road, and said to himself, "Your words don't count, you scumbag."

Jian Qiao laughed: "Nervous."

"Qi Zirui and I can only choose one, which one do you choose?" Gu Yu asked.

Jian Qiao turned to look at him.

"Long Qing and I can only choose one?" He asked again.

Jian Qiao still didn't answer.

"Then..." Gu Yu also looked at him, "Where are Leng Qing and Qi Zirui?"

Jian Qiao thought for a while: "Your three questions should be placed in different situations. If it's about painting together, I'll choose deserted; if it's about making money, I'll choose Qi Zirui; for you..."

Gu Yu looked at him expectantly, but Jian Qiao couldn't come up with a suitable answer, after deliberation, hesitantly said: "Sleep?"

Gu Yu laughed, and after a while, he suddenly asked solemnly and cautiously: "Am I really useless?"

Jian Qiao was silent.

Gu Yu's eyes turned red all of a sudden, he immediately turned his head away, and said in a deep voice, "You don't need to answer."

Jian Qiao didn't know how to comfort him, so after taking a taxi, they sat side by side in the back seat, separated by an awkward and unfamiliar distance.

The hand that had been warmed in his pocket just now was surrounded by cold wind.

Gu Yu was staring out the window in a daze, the cold winter wind blowing in through the gap of the car window, messing up the hair on his forehead.

Jian Qiao looked at him, then turned to look out of the window, remembering the scene when they were sitting on the bed chatting.

"You can try to communicate with your parents calmly," Jian Qiao suggested, "Maybe you will find that you can forgive them slowly?"

Gu Yu paused, did not answer immediately, but told him a story.

"One time my dad didn't come to pick me up, so I walked home by myself. When he came back from overtime, I was hungry and angry. My dad couldn't stand me, so he pushed me out the door in a fit of anger and told me to get out of bed." stay away.

"It was winter, I only wore one piece of clothing, it was cold outside, I knocked on the door for a long time, but he ignored me.

"A big dog ran down from upstairs. I was very scared, but the dog didn't bite me, so I hugged it. It was so warm. During that time, the elevator opened and closed and opened again. We sat in the stairwell behind the door and no one saw us.

"In the middle of the night, my dad finally remembered that I was still outside, came out to look for it, and took me home. I was reluctant to part with that dog. I said I wanted to take it back, but my dad slapped me and said I didn't recognize my father. Recognize the beast."

As Gu Yu spoke, he leaned back, leaned his head against the head of the bed, and smiled lightly, as if he was telling someone else's story.

"From then on, I realized that he was impatient with me, so I didn't dare to tell him anything. I was sick the next day and was very uncomfortable. My dad said he would go to school by himself if he didn't get up, so I had to Got up from bed.

"I didn't know that if I was sick for a long time, it might become more and more serious. I just felt that I had a fever for several days, and then I coughed very badly. The teacher took me to the hospital, and I got pneumonia.

"The doctor put me in the hospital and gave me an infusion for a week. I was very happy because my dad came to accompany me. He cared about me very much and even poured me hot water to drink. Even my mother called me to ask how I was doing.

"But he only stayed with him for one day, and a nanny came the next day. My dad never came to see me until I was discharged from the hospital.

"For me, it was a relief to come to my grandparents, and for my dad, it was even more of a relief.

"At first I didn't dare to do anything, I didn't dare to talk, I didn't dare to run, I didn't dare to watch TV, I was afraid that my grandparents would not want me, and I would really have nowhere to go.

"But my grandma is so kind to me, she even helps me keep my clothes warm every morning.

"When I was celebrating my birthday, my grandma asked me what present I wanted. I asked if my parents would come. Grandma didn't answer me.

"I didn't ask anymore, I asked her very carefully, can I have a dog, a big dog that can protect me and make others afraid of me.

"Grandma agreed, and I have a golden retriever named Huang Huang. Huang Huang has been with us for ten years. Not long after grandma left, he also left. Grandpa wanted to give me a new dog. I said, Grandpa, Let's stop raising golden retrievers.

"So we had Labrador Gu Meiniang. Who would have thought that she would end up with a golden retriever and gave birth to a bunch of little golden retrievers."

Jian Qiao smiled and patted Mei Niang's head.Gu Meiniang lay on the bed, raised her head, and wagged her tail at Gu Yu.

"We kept Gu Laifu because he is the one who looks the most like Huang Huang among the four cubs. I believe Huang Huang must have come back to find us, just like grandma never left."

Jian Qiao didn't expect that there was also a story about these two dogs, a sad story about a helpless little boy.

"My existence will affect my mother's ability to find the next man and my father's dream of becoming the big boss," Gu Yu said. The manager has become the kind of dignified person who hugs left and right at receptions."

"I also...have a good life," Gu Yu said, "I don't love them, I don't want to hate them, and I don't need them. We just settle the matter."

Gu Yu stared at his fingertips, as if in a daze, and said, "So Jian Qiao, you just asked me..."

Jian Qiao immediately said, "You don't have to answer."

Gu Yu was silent for a moment, and then said: "You want me to forgive them, and I want to too. But I don't know, if I greet them with a smile, how can I be forgiven by myself back then."

The scenery outside the car window quickly reversed, and there was Gu Yu's reflection on the glass of the car window.Jian Qiao looked at his shadow, and remembered the calmness when he said those words that night, and the coldness of him covered in moonlight after turning off the lights with his back to her.

——Am I really useless?

If he hadn't been in contact for half a year, he wouldn't have known that this ruthless academic bully, after shedding his disguised pride, was still burdened with heavy self-doubt and self-denial, as heavy as shackles, dragging his wings to soar.

If Gu Yu always wanted to ask this question, Jian Qiao would answer it time and time again, telling him: No.

The taxi passed by an alleyway, and there were a few children playing around inside, like a boring tease.Gu Yu suddenly patted on the car door: "Master, stop!"

Jian Qiao didn't know, so Gu Yu had already opened the door and strode out.

Jian Qiao paid the money, got out of the car and turned around to see that Gu Yu had already rushed into the group of boys and raised his fist without hesitation.

Jian Qiao immediately dropped her luggage and ran over.Several young boys were beaten black and swollen, and another boy huddled in a corner with disheveled clothes.

Gu Yu's appearance was cold-blooded and ruthless, and his beating force was not small, Jian Qiao hurriedly pulled him back: "Gu Yu!"

If the beating continued like this, something might happen, Jian Qiao pushed the beaten boy away, hugged Gu Yu and backed away: "Enough! Be sober!"

Gu Yu withdrew his hand, still panting.The disheveled boy was probably also frightened. He got up from the ground, said "thank you" to him several times, turned and ran away.

Jian Qiao hurriedly dragged him away, and the taxi was still waiting for them by the side of the road.

"I said young man, I didn't take any luggage!" The driver turned around and gave Gu Yu a thumbs-up, "There are often little boys playing around here, and this is the first time I've seen someone yell when they see an injustice on the road. Young man, do what is right for you!"

"People often fight, why don't you stop it?" Gu Yu asked coldly.

Jian Qiao closed the car door and glanced at him.

"If it was your son who was beaten, wouldn't you care?" Gu Yu asked again.

The driver was speechless now, turned his head and continued driving in silence.

Jian Qiao didn't speak, but patted his shoulder lightly.

After getting out of the car, they walked silently on the road until they reached the place where Jian Qiao lived.

Gu Yu was absent-minded, thinking of those messy things many years ago.

It was a parent-child sports meeting that day, and he waited for a long time, but no one came to him.From waiting for his dad to come to participate in the sports meeting to waiting for his dad to pick him up when he is free.

After a long time, no one came.It was already dark, and the security guard urged him to go home quickly.

The little Gu Yu had no choice but to put on his schoolbag and leave the seat, and walked home by himself.

The road passed a long alleyway, the alley was very quiet, some boys were playing football.

The ball flew towards him suddenly, and Gu Yu was staggered by the impact.

"You don't even have parents!" A boy snatched his schoolbag from behind, unzipped the zipper, and emptied all the books inside, "You are the only one in the sports meeting class, and you will be ashamed to death during the competition! "

Gu Yu hurriedly squatted down to pick up his homework, and jumped anxiously: "Give it back to me!"

The little boy threw the empty schoolbag to another person and shouted, "Why should I give it back to you? The handwriting is so ugly!"

"Why do you blame him? He has no one to teach!" Another boy laughed and reached out to catch his schoolbag.

Gu Yu was anxious and angry, and rushed to grab his schoolbag. The boy threw the schoolbag far away, and the boy behind ran up and kicked him from behind.

He suddenly fell to the ground, and the books in his arms were scattered all over the ground, covered in dust.

Two men in suits and leather shoes happened to pass by, Gu Yu raised his head and shouted: "Dad!"

The boy looked at him condescendingly, stepped on him, and cried out in novelty, "He actually called Dad!"

Gu Yuzhun blushed and yelled, "Dad!!"

The man in the suit turned his head and glanced at it. When their eyes met, the man turned his head, talked with the big boss with a smile on his business, and walked away at a faster pace.

Now Gu Yu was dumbfounded and never called him again.

"You bastard with no father or mother, you still call someone else's father!" The boy picked him up and pushed him against the wall. "Scream again! See if he ignores you!"

Gu Yu angrily pushed him away, the boy was pushed away, and then pushed him harder.Gu Yu's back slammed into the wall, and the boy approached and grabbed him by the neck.

"Aren't you studying? I won't let you read any books!" The boy tore his textbook in half and threw his pencil into the trash can.

In the evening, the street lights were dim and dim, and the light was ambiguous. Looking at Gu Tianbai's leaving back, his heart fell into the abyss.

In the ten years since that day, Gu Yu never called him "Father" again, not even a word.

Later, I don't know which kid playing football said: "It's almost time, let's go, he is very poor."

The few boys left slowly, and when they all left, Gu Yu put all the books in his schoolbag, and reached into the trash can to find his pencil, he knew that Gu Tianbai would not buy him a new one.

Later, when he was in class, he took out the crooked textbooks glued together with transparent glue. After class, the teacher asked him if he was being bullied, and said he would call his parents.

He thought for a while and said, "Teacher, no one is bullying me. There is no need to call my parents. He is very busy, very busy."

It was that alley, that evening.

Everything he has suffered is repeated over and over again in every corner of the world.

And those who passed by, those who talked about business, even the person who was his biological father, why didn't they stand up and do something for him?

Arriving at Jian Qiao's residence, the room was dark.Jian Qiao closed the door, Gu Yu reached out to find the switch, Jian Qiao suddenly held his hand in the dark.

He was afraid of this darkness, this unreliable, unreal darkness, which was full of nothingness.

Jian Qiao came closer and hugged him from behind.

"Gu Yu, you are not worthless, nor are you unworthy of being loved," Jian Qiao said softly, the sound of breathing gently lingering in his ears, "In my heart, you are outstanding, and I love you very much."

Gu Yu paused for a moment, and finally couldn't restrain himself, and shed tears.

The author has something to say: I hope every kind child can be loved and treated kindly. :)