embrace the moon

As the snowflakes fell, Gu Yu turned around, only to see that quiet figure under the street lamp, looking at him affectionately.

Gu Yu's eyes were red, his smile was half a smile, after reminiscing countless times, he said: "I like you, listen to you, treat you well, why don't you want me?"

Jian Qiao was speechless, with a sore nose, strode forward and pulled him into his arms.

Gu Yu leaned against his shoulder, his eyes were covered with a thick layer of mist, but no tears fell after all, and he still asked, "Why don't you want me?"

Jian Qiao put his arms around his waist tightly, smelling his breath, it was different from five years ago.The split-second decision made them miss each other's life for five full years.

"...I want you," Jian Qiao replied, holding him tightly in his arms, and muttered, "I only want you."

what is love?It is the wonderful bond that arises after encountering the oceans of life by chance, it is the only answer that countless timelines and possibilities interweave regardless of everything, and it is the indescribable inexplicable incomprehension of a dazed life that goes round and round.

Gu Yu raised his hand and gently wrapped it around his waist.The fantasy of five years suddenly turned into a drowsy reality at this moment.

The lights on the side of the road stretched the shadows of the two people very long, and the snowflakes fell one after another.They walked side by side, a short distance apart, sharing a pair of headphones.

The melodies played in the earphones were the same ones they had listened to when they fell asleep together five years ago. When the music sounded, it seemed that they were in the snow, but returned to those summers of laughter and slapstick.

At the door of the house, Gu Yu took off the earphones, took out the key and opened the door.

Originally, Gu Yu felt mixed emotions along the way, hesitating to be alone with Jian Qiao in a room, not knowing what to do, but eagerly looking forward to it.

At the same time, he was always worried that he would have nothing to say to Jian Qiao, so he kept silent all the way, and when he returned to the claustrophobic small apartment, where would he have anything to say?

Gu Yu walked in the door neatly, unbuttoning his suit, raising his neck and loosening his tie, a series of movements were done skillfully and in one go.

Jian Qiao followed behind him and closed the door.Gu Yu bent down and put the slippers in front of Jian Qiao, then took off his shoes and went to the bathroom barefoot.

Jian Qiao put on his slippers without a word, instead of looking at everything in the room, he stared at Gu Yu's back without taking his eyes off it.

Gu Yu had already put hot water on the other end, and shouted in the dense water vapor: "Come take a bath, the shower gel is next to you. I'll find you a pajamas."

When he finished speaking, he suddenly realized that because it was an all-in-one apartment, he was usually alone at home, so there was no shower curtain, and he only needed to close the curtain when taking a shower.

Through the glass, Gu Yu could vaguely see a thoughtful look on Jian Qiao's expression.He turned off the hot water in embarrassment, exited the bathroom, and said in a deep voice as he walked out, "I'll go to the supermarket."

"No need," Jian Qiao stretched out his hand to hold him, "take a break."

"...Then I'll watch TV." Gu Yu took clothes for him, sat down on the sofa, and casually watched Russia's No. [-] Channel on TV.

The clothes over there were taken off, and the quilts were still on the chairs outside the bathroom one by one, and the sound of the water inside could be heard.An indescribable anxiety welled up in Gu Yu's heart.The host on the TV was still chattering about the news, Gu Yu lay on the sofa tossing and turning agitatedly, and faintly heard two light coughs from there.

Gu Yu couldn't bear it anymore, and picked up the cell phone that was thrown beside him. The earphones just now seemed to have the same temperature as Jian Qiao had worn them.

Crazy and dying.Gu Yu gritted his teeth and began to search for songs.

Purify the heart curse.

He put on the earphones and stared at the TV screen, with a very serious expression and a stern look on his brows.

Very peaceful and holy music is playing in the earphones——

Namo Xiangyun Gai Bodhisattva Mahasattva, Namo Master Sakyamuni Buddha...

Which bodhisattva can come and accept this wild man who is impetuous and unrestrained.Gu Yu sighed, and the glass door of the bathroom was suddenly opened.

Jian Qiao came out with warm steam, wearing his pajamas, his hair was wet with water dripping from the tips, and smiled at him, "Is there a towel for wiping your hair?"

Gu Yu raised his eyes and looked over, dazed in a daze.Seeing that he didn't respond, Jian Qiao leaned over to take off his earphones, and repeated, "Is there a towel?"

Through the neckline, Gu Yushun looked down at his slender and fair neck, and suddenly came back to his senses, pulled off the earphone on the other side as if waking up from a dream, and hurriedly lifted the quilt to stand up, "...ah, yes, yes. You wait I."

After walking two steps in a panic, Gu Yu threw a towel to him and went to take a bath by himself.

Sitting on the sofa, Jian Qiao wiped her hair, and glanced down at the mobile phone whose screen was still on.

...Pure Heart Curse?

He froze for a moment, picked up the earphones and put them on.The player automatically cuts to the next Sanskrit chanting.Jian Qiao frowned, paused the music, and looked back.When he caught sight of Gu Yu's invisible back, he suddenly turned his head, sighed lightly, and clicked the button to continue playing.

The two of them didn't have much to say that night.Gu Yu turned off the light, and said in a low voice, "You sleep on the bed, I sleep on the sofa."

Jian Qiao had no choice but to agree, and after lying down on the bed, he stared at the ceiling in a trance in the darkness.

When it was late at night, Gu Yu was still silent, probably already asleep.Jian Qiao fell asleep drowsily, and this night, he began to dream again.

He dreamed of the residential building that was almost abandoned, and there were only a few families living in it.The roof top floor was scorched hot by the sun.The weather is fine and sunny.

A figure stood on the rooftop, looking from a distance, but his sight was blocked, except for the gray residential buildings stacked next to each other, and the indelible dust covered by time, he couldn't see anything clearly.

Jian Qiao rushed to the top of the building, the man turned around, sat down on the fence, looked at the sky, and laughed, "Jian Qiao, the sun is so nice today."

Panting, Jian Qiao stopped after a distance, and said anxiously: "Zi Rui, come here, come here quickly."

"The sun is good all over the world." Qi Zirui was wearing a hospital gown, but his body was covered with a layer of dirt and dust.He is still looking at the sky, looking at the flowing clouds, entrusting all his long-cherished wishes and unspeakable secrets, but in the eyes of others, they are just scenery after all.

"Zi Rui..."

"Jian Qiao, do you know why I agreed to your father's charity and went to learn painting with you?"

No, that's not charity...

"Actually, I'm not doing it for you. I just want to get away from there, as far away as possible. When I came to this city, I also wanted to escape. I even quit school because I couldn't stand it anymore. I wanted to stay as far away from the crowd as possible."

Jian Qiao stood not far away, not daring to get too close, and could only watch him silently.

"Everything I did was wrong. I told you blindly that you lost Jian Mingyue, threatened you to help me draw, to steal Leng Qing's notes, deliberately asked Xu Manyi to destroy your paintings, and revealed to the media that Gu Qianfan's posthumous works... are all wrong."

Qi Zirui raised his hand, the sun passed through his thin and yellowed fingers, reflected in his eyes, but there was no trace of bright hope.

"I just don't want anyone to have a good time, I want to overthrow the whole world, I want everyone to go back to the primitive age and live respectfully again," he said in a deep voice, "Do you still remember that Gu Yu? I once told him that as long as he accepts all his mistakes, as long as he leaves you, I will treat you well."

Jian Qiao's heart was agitated, he opened his mouth, but no words came out.

"He agreed, and he agreed to all my requests. Jianqiao, do you know that you are the only one who treats me well," Qi Zirui chuckled, "It was only later that I found out that I, this made you As the only me in my life, I can't do as much for you as he does."

He raised his right leg and propped it on the low wall.The bare feet were covered with mud, and the bony ankles were lifeless.

"Zi Rui, don't be stupid, come..." Jian Qiao almost collapsed, approaching him as if pleading.

"Stop!" Qi Zirui interrupted him, "Don't stop me anymore, you have stopped me for more than ten years!"

Jian Qiao had no choice but to stop, feeling tight in his chest and struggling to breathe, and repeatedly persuaded him to come to his side.

Qi Zirui looked at the sunlight between his fingers, and then at his yellow and thin back of his hands, his almost shapeless skin and bones, his eye sockets became moist, but his face remained expressionless.

"It's sunny today," Qi Zirui lowered his eyelids, looking at the narrow and cramped building that seemed airtight, two lines of tears fell down, "But why is it raining in my sky? It's raining so heavy, so heavy... ..."

"Zi Rui, it's raining and I'll take a shower with you, it doesn't matter if you get wet, it will always be sunny, right?" Jian Qiao's eyes turned red, and she begged over and over again, "Come here, I'm still here ah……"

"I can't hold it any longer, Jian Qiao," Qi Zirui finally couldn't hold back, he choked and sobbed, tears gushed out of his eyes like a burst embankment, "Why did they treat me like that, why..."

Nothing is ever fair in this world.

Some people are born without parents, some people sit in the palace with a golden spoon in their mouths; some people can't catch a little hope even if they try their best, some people can have everything without any effort; some people's love can be proud of the world, Someone's love can only hide and be afraid of all strange eyes.

He has no home, no background.Even his only possession and concern have never been said.

He has nothing, hiding in the darkest corner, what he wants is either salvation or relief.

He also wanted to be free at a young age, but there was still a person who took his hand to walk out of the haze.

He also curled up in a ball longing for salvation, but wanted to leave forever in the gloom again and again.

Until later, he was diagnosed with a serious illness and turned upside down day and night, just wanting to get rid of it once and for all.

"I'm sick, Jian Qiao." Qi Zirui bit his lips tightly, the smell of blood oozing out, his hands propping up the wall and trembling uncontrollably, "Finally..."

"Zi Rui!" Jian Qiao felt breathless, tears dripping down his cheeks and onto the skirt of his clothes, "I understand, I can understand. Even for me, hold on a little longer until the illness is cured..."

Qi Zirui shook his head desperately, all thoughts were lost, the world no longer had any color.He didn't want Jianqiao to see him haggard from the pain, and he didn't want to go on in a world where there was no hope.

"Thank you. Fortunately, you were here along the way." Qi Zirui stretched out his hand to cover his heart, grasping desperately, his fingertips almost embedded in the skin.The plain hospital gown was twisted into a mess by the huge force.

"But I hurt...Jian Qiao, I hurt, it hurts so much..." He bent down, almost tore off his coat, his nails stuck in his flesh, tears came out of his eyes, his voice was hoarse, he felt suffocated and couldn't speak.

"Jian Qiao, the world is very good..."

"No, Zirui, I beg you, don't..."

no no no--

"Jane Bridge?"

Come back, come back quickly...don't!

"Jian Qiao, Jian Qiao!"

His eyes opened suddenly, his head sank on the wet pillow, like a drowning person finally surfacing, he opened his mouth to take a big breath, even the breath trembled uncontrollably.

Gu Yu crouched in front of the bed and looked at him nervously, holding his icy hands that were clenched tightly on the quilt so that the knuckles were turning white.

Looking at the face in front of him and the strange apartment, Jian Qiao breathed a sigh of relief, loosened the quilt slowly, lowered his eyes, and saw Gu Yu holding his hand tightly, and the old and simple mechanical watch on his wrist.

It wasn't until he moved that Gu Yu realized that he was still holding his hand. Following his gaze, he withdrew his hand in embarrassment, stood up and said casually, "Did you have a nightmare? Breakfast Well, get up."

Hearing this, Jian Qiao sat up and stared ahead, his eyes dull and empty.Gu Yu walked towards the dining table, then suddenly paused and turned around.

"By the way, your watch." Gu Yu took off the watch from his wrist and gently placed it on the quilt, "I'll return it to you."

Jian Qiao lowered his head, picked up the old watch that had been repaired many times, and put it on his hand skillfully but unfamiliarly.

It would be great if everything lost can be like this watch, and it can be returned to my hand after losing it.Life is always like this, you can't get rid of what you want to forget, and you can't get back what you want to have.

Jian Qiao lifted the quilt, went to the table and sat down.The breakfast is very simple, with a funny combination of Chinese and Western, preserved egg porridge with toast.

Gu Yu glanced at him, took a coat from the sofa and hung it on the back of Jianqiao's chair, sat down beside him, and quickly turned on the computer.

"Don't you want to eat?" Jian Qiao put on his coat, which still smelled of him.

"Oh, you can eat, don't worry about me." Gu Yu stared at the computer screen, and the sound of clicking the mouse was clear and loud.

Jian Qiao drank two mouthfuls of porridge, suddenly realized something was wrong, and asked, "Have you lost your voice?"

"...Ah," Gu Yu paused for a moment before replying, "I'm fine."

I guess I caught a cold last night.You don't know if you don't sleep, you don't know until you sleep.The sofa was so cold, overnight he once again experienced the power of Moscow, the minus [-] degree winter ruled over arrogant young people who thought they were physically fit.

Before Jian Qiao finished eating, Gu Yu quickly put away the computer and prepared to go out, "I'm going to work first. It's still early, if you're sleepy, go to sleep. Lock the door when you leave."

Gu Yu was avoiding him.

Gu Yu is not the same as before.In the past, he could say anything, but sometimes he was so blunt and reckless that it made people blush and heartbeat.

But instead of saying anything now, he said nothing.Or it's not that she didn't say anything, but she was expressing something tactfully in a way that Jian Qiao didn't even notice.

There was a sound of the door being locked, and Jian Qiao put down the bowl, curled up into a ball, and lay down on the table.

The author has something to say: the chapters of the previous reunion have been slightly changed, and chapter 54 has been rewritten. Those who are in a hurry can go back to Kangkangha~