There's a gust of wind coming from the south

When checking in, Zuo Xiaodao actually thought about opening a single room by himself.But after all, Jia Sisi is right next to him, so it's not easy for him to make it too obvious to make people feel like he's having trouble with Feng Xiaojun.So he could only obey the arrangement silently, followed Feng Xiaojun back to the room top-heavy.

Beijing in midsummer has no intention of cooling off even at night.

Feng Xiaojun was sweating all the time, the first thing he did when he entered the room was to find the remote control of the air conditioner and press the switch.He took off the thin shirt outside, and only wore a small gray vest.I wanted to be shirtless, but when I turned around and saw Zuo Xiaodao sitting on the bed, I swallowed my saliva and gave up.

As if seeing through Feng Xiaojun's series of psychological activities, Zuo Xiaodao showed a trace of sarcasm in his eyes, took out a pack of cigarettes from his pocket, went to the window to light it, slowly exhaled the smoke, and said coldly: "Take it off when it's hot, It's not that I haven't seen you naked before. Don't worry, I'm not that hungry."

When alone with Feng Xiaojun, Zuo Xiaodao became the boy with barbs all over his body again.

Feng Xiaojun was a little embarrassed, touched his nose and smoked a cigarette to cover up his unnaturalness.He opened his mouth, trying to find something to talk about with Zuo Xiaodao, but after thinking for a long time, he didn't know what to say.

Looking at the other party again, it seemed like he was too lazy to talk to him, he could only lick his lips and smoke without saying a word.

"Your girlfriend didn't come with you this time?" Zuo Xiaodao asked without looking back at the shadow of the old locust tree outside the window.

Feng Xiaojun was stunned for a moment, and said, "Are you asking me?"

Zuo Xiaodao sneered and turned around: "Why don't you ask a ghost?"

Feng Xiaojun: "Oh..." He flicked the cigarette ash, "She went to Guangdong for her college entrance examination, and she still had contact with her at first, but then the contact became less and less, and then, nothing happened."

After Feng Xiaojun finished speaking, he swallowed his saliva again, and added a superfluous sentence: "Anyway, I'm single now."

Zuo Xiaodao ticked the corner of his mouth, but didn't speak.

From Feng Xiaojun's point of view, the light from the desk lamp at this time happened to outline a layer of soft light for Zuo Xiaodao's figure, making his facial features more delicate and fair.

Long time no see, Zuo Xiaodao seems to be looking good again.

Feng Xiaojun suddenly came back to his senses, startled by his own thoughts.He hastily glanced back, lowered his head and sucked hard on the cigarette holder twice.

Here it comes, that abnormal throbbing feeling is fucking back.

Zuo Xiaodao put out the cigarette butt, and raised his chin at Feng Xiaojun: "Do you wash first or should I wash first?"

Feng Xiaojun was taken aback by Zuo Xiaodao's sudden question, and stammered, "Ah, you wash first."

Zuo Xiaodao nodded his head lightly, turned around and walked into the bathroom and closed the door.

The room fell silent for a moment, the only thing that could be heard was the sound of running water from the bathroom.

Probably because of the heavy drinking, it's a bit over the top at the moment, even though Feng Xiaojun has turned down the temperature of the air conditioner several times, he still can't stop feeling hot.

There was a thin layer of sweat on his forehead, and his throat was so dry that he always wanted to drink water.Feng Xiaojun took the mineral water provided by the hotel and unscrewed the bottle cap, and downed half the bottle in one go.The cold mineral water temporarily relieved the burning flame in his heart, he took a deep breath and threw the cigarette into the ashtray.

The cigarette butt was still slowly smoking upwards because it had not been completely snuffed out.

Feng Xiaojun looked at the smoke, his eyes became distracted.

It probably started when he learned about Zuo Xiaodao kissing a man by the river that night, a strong sense of fear rose in Feng Xiaojun's heart.

At first he thought it was Zuo Xiaodao that he was afraid of, but when he met him again after the second-model exam, he suddenly realized that what he was really afraid of was not Zuo Xiaodao, but himself.To be precise, it was because he was afraid that he did not know when he would have a different feeling for Zuo Xiaodao.

To say that people's emotions are actually quite complicated, for example, the desire to possess, conquer, and protect will also appear in friends and brothers. Feng Xiaojun did tell himself that at the beginning.

Until he picked up the collar of the left knife by the river and questioned him sharply, he happened to meet the other party's eyes mixed with anger and fragility.He suddenly realized that he could no longer lie to himself.

He wanted to kiss him, kiss his mouth.What the hell kind of brotherhood is this? !Rather than saying those words were questioning Zuo Xiaodao, it would be better to say that he was questioning himself loudly.

What the hell are you thinking? !

Kissing between men and men is too perverted, right? !

Are you sick? !

Feng Xiaojun who found all this was even more frightened, he couldn't face himself like this.In the past, he would always say "Hao Erlang, he is full of courage, he loves the country more than the beauty." He actually wants to kiss his brother?This is ridiculous!

Therefore, Feng Xiaojun firmly believed that he must have not been in love with a girl for too long, and that's why he had all these terrible thoughts in his spare time, and Zuo Xiaodao happened to be a bit good-looking.

Just in time for Sun Qianqian to confess her love to him, Feng Xiaojun decided to take this opportunity to correct his crooked thoughts again.But the facts told him that you are too naive.

On the night before Zuo Xiaodao left Liu County to go to school in Beijing, when I saw him again, the throbbing feeling in my heart that had disappeared for a long time surged out again, and became more intense than before because of the mix of previous thoughts.

Seeing the other party disappear into the corridor with the computer in his arms, he almost wanted to run over immediately and hug him tightly.

But he knew it wasn't right.The feelings for Zuo Xiaodao completely overturned all Feng Xiaojun's three views and cognitions.He couldn't help but started to deceive himself again, maybe when they really separated, he would become normal again?Maybe Zuo Xiaodao will also become normal?In this way, when they meet again after many years, they will still be good brothers like before...

When Sun Qianqian went to Guangdong and met new people to start a new life, she once expressed her apology to Feng Xiaojun tearfully.But what surprised Feng Xiaojun himself was that instead of feeling annoyed, he was relieved.

As he went to Ancheng, his circle of contacts continued to expand. Feng Xiaojun did meet a lot of nice girls later on, and a few of them happened to fall in love with him.But for some reason, he couldn't find the excitement he used to have.

There is a place in my heart that is locked, and the people who live in it can't come out, and he can't drive them away.Feng Xiaojun didn't want to admit this person's status, but he had to admit it.It's just that until now, he still can't accept it.

A wisp of smoke suddenly floated in front of my eyes, with the smell of burning tobacco.Feng Xiaojun was startled, and looked up.

I saw Zuo Xiaodao standing in front of him with wet hair without saying a word, looking at himself expressionlessly.

"What episode has it been?" Zuo Xiaodao held a cigarette in one hand and wiped his hair with a towel in the other.

Feng Xiaojun glanced elsewhere, and said stiffly, "What episode?"

Zuo Xiaodao: "Inner drama."

Feng Xiaojun snatched Zuo Xiaodao's bath towel, hurriedly stood up and rushed into the bathroom, saying: "I'm taking a bath!"

Hearing the bathroom door being slammed shut from the inside, Zuo Xiaodao narrowed his eyes slightly.

……

When Feng Xiaojun came out again after taking a shower, Zuo Xiaodao was already lying on the inner bed and fell asleep.

The light in the room was dim, only a small night light by the bed gave off a faint light.Zuo Xiaodao reserved it specially for him.

I remember when they lived in the old library, sometimes Feng Xiaojun came back late, and Zuo Xiaodao would leave him a lamp alone before going to bed.In the past, I didn't think much of it, but seeing all this now, Feng Xiaojun couldn't help feeling warm in his heart.

Even if the relationship between the two has become very stiff now, keeping the lamp is still Zuo Xiaodao's habit, a habit developed for him.

Feng Xiaojun tiptoed to Zuo Xiaodao's bedside, and looked down at Zuo Xiaodao's face through the night light.

Zuo Xiaodao's expression softened when he was asleep, and he was no longer as distant as when he was awake.

There was a faint smell of shampoo on the freshly washed hair, although Feng Xiaojun also used the same shampoo, but he always felt that Zuo Xiaodao smelled better than himself.

It's been a long time since I've seen Zuo Xiaodao like this, Feng Xiaojun pressed his face closer and closer as if bewitched, trying to get a closer look at the other party.

The heart was beating endlessly, and Feng Xiaojun heard that his own breathing also became heavy.

What to look at the Great Wall, but it is all rhetoric.He came here this time to see Zuo Xiaodao, and he also wanted to test it out. It has been so long, has his illness healed in the end.

But the answer is, no.

He found himself thinking about Zuo Xiaodao when he couldn't see him, and even more when he saw him.

Feng Xiaojun felt that he was finished.

……

"Feng Xiaojun..." Zuo Xiaodao blurted out with his eyes closed.

Feng Xiaojun was terrified again, he immediately straightened his back and stood at attention on the spot, almost saluting.

Zuo Xiaodao turned over, pulled up the quilt again, and cursed in a nasal voice: "Grandson, you're going to freeze me to death!"

Feng Xiaojun felt that his face was getting hot, swallowed, and said to himself: But I'm about to die of heat.

……

Early the next morning, Qin Zhong first picked up Huizi by car, and then went to the hotel to pick up Feng Xiaojun and the others.I took everyone to a fried liver restaurant in the north for breakfast.

The reason why I chose this place is not because of how good their fried liver is, but because there is a wonton shop nearby.If they are not used to it, there is an alternative.

Sure enough, as Qin Zhong expected, except for Jia Sisi, everyone including Zuo Xiaodao finally chose to eat wontons.

"Look, it's still our policeman who knows how to eat!" Qin Zhong gave a thumbs up, "Try to challenge Douzhi next time?"

Jia Sisi waved her hand with a dissatisfied expression: "No need to drink next time, just drink now! Sis is not full yet!"

"Come on!" Qin Zhong got up, went to buy another set of soybean juice and coke rings, and put them in front of Jia Sisi.

Huizi covered her nose instantly: "Oh my god, what's the smell?!"

Jia Sisi's eyes glowed green, picked up the bowl and took a sip angrily.She smacked her lips and said with emotion: "It's delicious! Drinking this stuff is addictive!"

Huizi was amazed and couldn't help feeling: "Iron-boned! You are a tough guy!"

Zuo Xiaodao has never eaten much for breakfast, and now he feels that he is almost full and there is still more than half a bowl left.

If he wanted to put it aside, he would pour all the food he couldn't finish into Feng Xiaojun's bowl, and then sit on the side to watch him gobble it up.

But now, he doesn't want to do it anymore.

Feng Xiaojun looked at Zuo Xiaodao's remaining half bowl of wontons, as if he was expecting something.But seeing that the other party hadn't taken any action, he finally put it in front of him with a straight face, buried his head in silence and ate it, and sweat began to break out on his forehead after eating.

Feng Xiaojun: "Don't waste it."

Jia Sisi and Huizi didn't pay much attention to Feng Xiaojun's behavior, and Huizi even nodded in appreciation and said, "Look! Look at our comrade Xiaojun! How thoroughly we have implemented the spirit of thrift and no waste!"

Zuo Xiaodao watched all this silently, and suddenly felt a little choked up in his heart. He took out the cigarette case and walked out of the breakfast shop, and said to everyone, "I'm going out to smoke a cigarette."

Qin Zhong saw it, and hurriedly stood up: "Wait for me, wait for me, I'll go too!"

Feng Xiaojun frowned, and drank the last bit of soup at the bottom of the bowl.

……