I still don't want to go to school today

"Then—then what about your college entrance examination? Will it be affected? Do you still want to take the exam?"

"Why didn't you take the test?" Zhou Linya's staring eyes made him feel guilty for no reason.He turned sideways, "I'm going back to the classroom first."

After walking a few steps, there was the sound of footsteps pattering.Zhou Linya caught up with him, "When did it happen? Why didn't you tell me? Your mother—your mother...was it an accident?"

"No. It's cancer. I was hospitalized for a few months before."

"Cancer? God—why didn't you tell me anything before...I just said how you were so—then you...do you still like men?"

He suspected he had heard wrong. "What?"

"That——I went to the Internet to check, those men who like men are so pitiful...I'm sorry before. If you really can't change the man you like...don't change it, yourself, yourself It must be fine."

Zhou Linya seemed to be unilaterally forgiving him after being unilaterally angry with him.He thought about it and thought it was okay, so he didn't refute it.

"Understood, thank you. You go first, and I will clean the rest."

Zhou Linya was still not reconciled: "Then let me buy dinner for you?"

He replied: "Thank you. Buy two copies if you must."

The examination rooms for liberal arts are all arranged on the first floor.After the exam, Xu Zhijian went to pick up the car in the shed, Fu Luojia walked down from the fourth floor, and happened to meet him at the school gate.

In recent days, he talked more, but the conversation with Xu Zhibian became less.

Maybe because the local oxygen is limited, there will be fewer words to say.

Went to a hot pot restaurant that Xu Zhibian had just found—the shrimp slippery there was handmade by the owner himself—after dinner, he went back to school to pick up books, thinking that he could go home after tomorrow’s holiday, but on the blackboard I saw a new notice written on the blackboard on the Internet: "From the evening of the 18th to the afternoon of the 29th, classes will be held according to the weekend schedule."

I don't know who wrote it, but everyone saw it after returning to the classroom.

Fu Luojia was as incredulous as everyone else who was still in the classroom.After chattering and discussing for a while, some threw their bags over their shoulders and pretended not to see anything and strode out of the classroom, and some collude with one another to encourage the class leaders present to ask for clarification.

There is also a risk of shamelessness coming to ask him.

He said: Ask Ye Qin.However, before the class cadres were urged to leave, Teacher Ye came over by himself, looked at Fu Luojia and said, "Remedial classes are voluntary. Students who feel that they should seize the winter vacation time and try to surpass them remember to report the day after tomorrow afternoon."

Fu Luojia glanced at the calendar placed by Rudy, the 29th is already the 28th of the twelfth lunar month.

"Are you making up?" Tang Cheng poked him with the tip of his pen. "You make it up and I make it up."

He wondered when Tang Cheng had a community of destiny with him, and immediately denied it: "I won't make love."

"Ah, you don't make it up? Then I'll make it up, just in case I need to talk about knowledge points."

"Are you brain-dead? You'll finish the knowledge points in one round of review." Rudy said to Tang Cheng, but he looked at him, "I'm not here to make up. These teachers in the county are too rubbish. My dad Mom knows Shengshi's super teacher."

He zipped up his bag and stood up. "Fake perfume again?"

In order to fight back, Rudy didn't even care about the logical coherence of the next sentence: "What about you, are you going to have sex with someone again?"

"Are you secretly in love with Xu Zhijian, and you are too embarrassed to mention his name?"

"I have a crush on your mother—"

"You should have said it earlier, now she can't refuse you."

Teacher Ye showed a smile that he thought was very kind when he passed by.He nodded, turned around and put away all expressions.

The results of the second clinic will be released after a week, and the answer has already been found online.He read all the answers to the objective questions in liberal arts to Xu Zhiyan, and then asked how many mistakes he made.

Xu Zhijian didn't say it directly, but just shook his head: It's not good.

"...Give me an idea?" He couldn't help asking.

Xu Zhijian refused again, he just pulled the question paper and read it by himself.

In the same volume of English arts and sciences, Xu Zhijian did almost as well as him - he made almost half of the gestalt mistakes, and Xu Zhibian made one more mistake than him.

"Others, the geography multiple-choice questions are all wrong...is it bad?"

Xu Zhibian cautiously said, "Forget it...? A total of eleven."

"Is it difficult?"

"Actually, no, I just don't remember the knowledge points of these few exams."

"Can I go to 520?"

"...hanging."

He knows he's been weird lately.After he overturned his car, Xu Zhijian followed him. Not only did he not heave a sigh of relief, but he became even more anxious. He even came up with Teacher Ye's theory: "The second clinic sees the college entrance examination——"

"I'm sorry, I'm... really not in a good state recently." Xu Zhibian said. "Will you be disappointed if I don't do well in the college entrance examination?"

Because every time he did not do well in the exam, he used the same sentence structure as the previous sentence to Mr. Ye, and his first reaction was to doubt the authenticity of this sentence.

"I won't - I just think that you deserve better. It's me who should try to be consistent with you - it's my fault." He has no right to "hope" Xu Zhiyan to do anything, and he doesn't Qualification "disappointed".He should not deliberately bind people who are still in the process with a specific result.Maybe he shouldn't pursue that result at all - the important thing is that Xu Zhilian gets what he deserves, and he can still be happy.

He had a sudden urge to tear up all the paper in sight—examination papers, textbooks, workbooks—to shreds.

If everything can be stopped, why must these continue?It's just because other than that, he has no reason to let Xu Zhijian stay for a while longer.

"Why are you in a bad state? What do you want...what do you want...can you be more happy? Do you want to have|sex? I'll clean up the back...don't wear a condom this time, okay?"

Xu Zhibian added another sentence before nodding in a daze: "You seem to have changed a little bit."

For the better or for the worse?He dared not ask.He wished he hadn't said the word "love" - ​​hours before saying "I love you", he regretted it.

How dare he say that?

Those things that Xu Zhibian dared to forget without mentioning them, and now he pretended not to remember them - how he once thought of Xu Zhibian, what he said and did to Xu Zhibian.

If Xu Zhilian loved him because of those things, then Xu Zhilian's love was also his fault—even his sin.

——I don't have time to play tracking games with you today, don't follow me.

——I told you not to follow me!How can I explain if my family sees you?Say I'm playing with a kid who's out of his mind?

--you are annoying!Why are you like a dog skin plaster?Well, even if you must follow, walk away and don't let me see, okay?

If it wasn't for the knife pulled out from the waistband of the trousers, if it wasn't for the person who suddenly rushed out from the side, that day would have been a very ordinary day. He and Xu Zhijian had an ordinary conversation for them.

The open scars ooze foul-smelling pus, and the uprooted dead grass reveals its rotten roots.

What were we like before?

Not what you think, but you are fine.

——I bring someone to beat you, which means I hate you.

—But I like you.

——So you still like me?So you still like me?What about this?You are a monster, why don't you cry out in pain?

"Open your eyes."

He shook his head desperately.Even with his eyes closed tightly, cold sweat seeped in.

"No." Xu Zhijian straightened his head, suddenly lowered his upper body, and licked his eyelids. "If you don't look at me again, I'm going to bite you."

"Please……"

After today, tomorrow is the next.Everything goes on again briefly.

Next is-

"Where's my mother? I'm going to see her."