I still don't want to go to school today

Fu Luojia took a step back after opening the doorknob, and glanced back quickly.

His mother asked, "Who?"

Fu Luojia turned his head to look at Xu Zhijian again, but after trying several times, he still couldn't make a sound.

Before he had the idea of ​​simply closing the door that made him feel at a loss, Xu Zhijian stretched out his hand to hold the door frame, and raised his voice slightly: "Hello, auntie, I'm here to deliver today's test paper to classmate Fu Luojia."

His mother didn't answer, and the sudden silence made Fu Luojia feel very at a loss.

"I'm coming in." Xu Zhijian stepped over the threshold, the plastic bag in his hand rustling.Fu Luojia lowered his head, and found that there were indeed test papers sorted in document bags inside, and stretched out his hand to take it.

"you are?"

Fu Luojia's fingers flicked and then retracted - his mother had already stood in the shadow of the corner of the hall at some point, and asked such a question out of the blue.

"I'm the one who picked up Phroka when his leg was injured."

Xu Zhibian didn't say his name, but his mother intends to find out this time. "May I have your name?"

Xu Zhibian was obviously a little surprised, his gaze swept across Fu Luojia lightly. "I'm Xu Zhibian. Maybe you've heard of me before?"

"You are that Xu Zhijian. I know you, come in and sit." His mother turned and walked away, "Do you want juice?"

Fu Luojia heard the sound of the refrigerator door being opened, stepped forward and yanked the plastic bag from Xu Zhibian's hand. "Thank you...you go back quickly." It seemed that he hadn't spoken for a long time in his life, his voice was hoarse and unpleasant.

"You have a cold again?" Xu Zhijian reached out to touch the top of his head, "Do you have a fever?"

Phroka felt his heart come to his throat at that moment—one step further and he could have vomited it out due to nausea.

The range of his dodging movements was so large that even Xu Zhijian was stunned.

"She..." Fu Luojia closed her eyes, "You should leave quickly."

"Why isn't classmate Xu coming in? What are you doing standing in the foyer?"

"Ah, good." Xu Zhijian put on his shoe covers and walked in, Fu Luojia stood on the spot for a while before following him.

"Student Xu and Fu Luojia are not in the same class, right?" His mother put two glasses of fruit juice on the table and smiled at Xu Zhijian.

"Yeah. But no one in his class knows where he lives, so I'll drop by."

"Thank you, classmate Xu, you have helped us so much, and now you are here to deliver something to Fu Luojia——"

Xu Zhiyan frowned imperceptibly, and soon smiled again: "It's okay, we're all classmates, and it's not too much trouble after all."

"Drink juice." His mother pushed the cup forward, "It hasn't been in the refrigerator for a long time, and the temperature is just right."

Xu Zhibian nodded, picked up a cup, dipped his lips, then put it down.

Fuck staring at the glass. "Don't you like it?"

"Ah, no," he took another gulp. "tastes good."

Fu Luojia dragged the mop to the bedroom, but was stopped by his mother. "What are you doing?"

"...mopping the floor. The bedroom hasn't been mopped yet."

"Why didn't I see you so active just now? Your classmate is sitting here and you are in a hurry to mop the floor. Why don't you just say what's wrong with you?"

Fu Luojia retreated, Xu Zhijian looked at him, and he lowered his head.

"It's all for you." His mother pointed to another glass. "do not mention it."

"pay--"

"He won't drink. It's all yours."

Fu Luojia still didn't look at him.

After a long time, there was the sound of an empty glass being gently put down.

"Student Xu still has classes tonight?"

"Well, evening self-study starts at [-]:[-]."

"Then stay for dinner?"

After such a while, no one should want to stay here anymore.When Xu Zhibin said "No thanks, Auntie", Fu Luojia felt a fleeting relief, like a three-ton stone mountain sinking a pebble into a lake.

"Auntie, can I use the toilet?" Xu Zhibian stood up.

When Fu Luojia was about to wash the two cups, Xu Zhijian in the toilet suddenly said, "Excuse me, which one is the switch for this light?"

"Right." Mom answered.

"Well, there's no switch on the right—"

"Foraka, go and prescribe it for him."

When Fu Luojia entered, Xu Zhijian did not stand in front of the switch, but leaned against the sink.He obviously wanted to say something, but Fu Luojia pretended not to know, and turned to look for the switch on the wall.

Obviously very conspicuous.

"When are you going back to school?"

The heat source approached from behind, and the exhaled air sprayed on his side cheeks.

He didn't dare to look back all of a sudden, and he didn't press the switch for a long time.The evening light was already very dim, and the two shadows on the wall were blurred as if they had no boundaries.

"I don't know." He said angrily.

"Why did you delete my WeChat again?" Xu Zhibian also began to speak angrily, and couldn't hide his excitement when he asked this question.

"..." Fu Luojia suddenly felt a burst of fear. "Don't contact me again."

"What's wrong?" Xu Zhijian could be heard trying to calm down. "Why not?"

Fu Luojia finally pressed the switch, and the soft silver light spread out gently. "...the toilet paper is in the blue box next to it."

"I'm not here to go to the bathroom. I know where those things are - it's not like I haven't been there. Why can't I contact you?"

"She—" Fu Luojia shook off Xu Zhijian's hand around his waist as if being scalded, and explained stammeringly: "She will know."

Xu Zhibian understood in an instant. "Is your phone with her?"

"...It's all with her." Fu Luojia finally raised his head and met his gaze.

This evening seemed to be no different than usual.Lying down quietly on the bed around 02:30 in the morning, he took out from the crack of the bed what Xu Zhijian stuffed into his trouser pocket.

It is obviously very light in the hand, but before it has time to find a place to hide it, this thing is so heavy that it seems to fall at any time, and you have to be careful of the shape of the thin trousers stretching out of the pocket.

But at least he proved that he could still accomplish one thing - so he was quite willing to be tossed and sweated profusely, and he didn't even touch the blade under the pillow all day today.

a cell phone.

It was the same brand as his phone but a different model, and the lock screen was a black dog with a rivet boot in its mouth.

...it should be called "Black Mi".

"All passwords are '6666'."

"you--"

"I still have an Android phone, you can take it first. If someone asks for it, don't bother. Those social accounts—" Xu Zhibian paused for a moment, "If you want to use mine, you can use it. If it's not convenient, you can log in to your own. If it doesn’t work, tell me, I’ll buy a card to help you register a small account. My mobile phone number is the first in the address book, remember to reply to my message.”

"I don't really need to—"

"I need."

Xu Zhibian's various social platforms are very quiet. Only when he opened the app did he realize that he has basically set the Do Not Disturb message for everyone and all groups, and there are countless red dots in the message bar.

Fu Luojia was a little at a loss. The word "privacy" flashed by, anyway, these things that should not be seen by him will inevitably become a burden.

He wasn't used to anything being exposed.

Xu Zhibian sent many text messages to this mobile phone, and then told Fu Luojia that his other WeChat account was called "731".

After adding this account, Xu Zhijian asked him why he returned home.

Fu Luojia thought for a while, "A relative passed away."

"Ah, sorry."

"It's okay. Everyone thinks it's okay, and few people are sad."

"How are you feeling recently?"

"Fortunately."

"You look very pale, do you feel unwell?"

"No. It's fine."

"Do you want to go to school next Monday? I'll come pick you up."

Fu Luojia replied, "I don't know."

……

The sense of existence of that mobile phone in the future is much lower than Fu Luojia imagined.He hardly thinks about it during the day, trying to indulge himself in the lengthy TV shopping advertisements, the knocking of dishes and chopsticks, and the misty water curtain of the shower.As long as you pay attention to these, time will no longer be the enemy.

Then at night, instead of taking out the blade, take out the mobile phone, and find something that can also engage people, such as recording a piece of audio and playing it back.Then he discovered that the deafening howling of the wind to his ears was just a faint rustling on the phone, and the piercing scratching sound that made his heart beat was only a distant vehicle that was barely audible on the phone. driving sound.He made this comparison endlessly, until the voices overwhelmed him again.

He always responded to Xu Zhibian's messages on time, and most of the time he was able to do so with ease.But when Xu Zhijian said something like "I want to see him", he still had no choice but to reply "I'm sorry".

Just in case, he was already learning that he no longer needed Xu Zhijian.