I still don't want to go to school today

……

Fu Luojia had a dream.

Originally, there was nothing to say about this, everyone can dream—it is worth mentioning that he dreamed about what happened when he was studying in Linshi.

For more than four years, he lived with his parents and grandma, and his mother came to see him once in a while—just as often as they visited their grandpa.The family of three will go out to the next restaurant, and at the dinner table, the mother will ask in detail what happened at home and school within a week.At this time, Dad's words will become very few, and he will only smooth things over when his mother is not satisfied with one of his answers.

Compared with what actually happened, the mother will always pay more attention to the sentences followed by vague words like "seems" "should" and "as if".To answer these questions, you have to use a steel brush to scratch your head desperately, dig out more specious things, and then forcefully draw a conclusion.

Maybe it wasn't like this earlier.But after his senior high school entrance examination, since his mother noticed Aunt Lin's existence, life became extremely sad.

Dad stopped going out with them after his mother dropped bowls in two stores, and the three-person dinner became a two-person meeting.

"We're going all the way," said his mother. "Fu Yun is a liar. Let's deal with him together."

At that time, when he was young, because he really liked his father very much, he was really afraid that his father would bring home a beautiful little girl with braids one day—"When your mother was pregnant with you, I always hoped to be a daughter" , Dad told him this.So he listened to the fuck and went to find his father's cell phone.

At that time, WeChat was not yet so popular, and my father's mobile phone that had not been changed for many years was not even a full touch screen.He also didn't have the habit of deleting text messages. Fu Luojia pressed the down button until a piece of paint fell off before reading all the messages.

After reading it, Fu Luojia fell into sadness, and this sadness has nothing to do with his mother-only about himself.

To be honest, he felt that it was natural for him to become indifferent after being estranged for nearly three years, just like the junior high school monitor who swore to the sky that he only loved him in his life fell in love with the sports committee member after not being at the same table with him.He has no sympathy for the relationship between his mother and his father that is about to break up-it's just that he was relatively naive at the time, and he couldn't accept that he, who had been staying with his father all the time, would also be the one who was abandoned.

He and his mother will be replaced by others at the same time.It was what the fuck had been making him believe.

Of course, Dad couldn't handle the attack of the two of them.So he went away, left the house where Voraka and Granny were.

Where he went is self-evident.

Fu Luojia didn't dare to make any more moves.Only then did he realize that his goals were not the same as his mother's. He only wanted to keep his father, and his mother wanted more.

So he was silent.

He dreamed that his mother was holding his hand and walking quickly on the streets of Linshi on a winter night.

They want to find the father who disappeared for three days.

In fact they finally found her, followed by standoffs, arguments, another door slamming and glass shattering on the tiles.Fu Luojia huddled in a corner, silent like a cicada.

Dreams subtly distort reality.They never found him, the street never ends.Finally his mother Ken stopped, he felt a pain in his shoulder, and his mother lifted him into the air.

He kicked his legs comically through the air.

"Don't even think about leaving."

At this time, Dad appeared under the street lamp, heaved a sigh of relief, and said thank you, Jiajia, fortunately to have you.

Then Pharoka woke up.

There is no knocking on the door, no noise, no police siren, only the slight wind when the air conditioner is running - because of the good sound insulation, you can't even hear the sound of insects here.

The room is surrounded by a serenity with a soft touch.

Xu Zhibian's sleep was very shallow, Fu Luojia turned over a little and he opened his eyes: "...what's wrong?"

"It's nothing." He looked at the highly designed ceiling lights on the ceiling, and his tone was flat. "I'm awake anyway, I'm going to take a shower."

After suffering from insomnia for so long, he never expected to fall asleep after touching the pillow last night.The long-sleeved shirt that was drenched with sweat again and again was still being worn, which was a bit uncomfortable.

Xu Zhibian changed into pajamas and pajamas, he didn't seem to mind it at all, at this moment one arm was still around his waist. "Okay. Can I wear my clothes?"

Fu Luojia doesn't care. "Long-sleeved will do."

"What time is it... Wow, this sleep is okay, it's already afternoon." Xu Zhijian took the phone, covered his mouth and yawned. "This phone... looks familiar, is it from your Teacher Ye?"

Fu Luojia's originally sluggish sense of crisis awakened instantly.He just knew it.That dream was the most lucid vision of the future—

never mind.Then he thought again.A good night's sleep resulted in a clear decision: the next step is to go to the train station, no matter what.

"There are text messages. She let me see the call back." Xu Zhijian looked at him. "Do you want me to come back?"

"Go back. Just say..." He lowered his eyes, "Just say you haven't seen me."

He went into the small bathroom in the bedroom and turned on the faucet to wash.The sound of drizzling water was mixed with Xu Zhijian's voice, and occasionally people could hear words like "um", "okay" and "I see".

He stared blankly at the person in the mirror.

Thick dark circles, ugly complexion.

Shaking what, he thought, what's so scary?You can leave now.

go to another place.anywhere.As long as it's not here.

If he wants to be together—

"Foraka."

He turns off the tap. "...Huh? What's the matter?"

"Your mother has been transferred to another hospital. I went to the provincial capital overnight, and your grandmother followed me."

"……Oh."

"Ms. Ye also said that your grandmother went to school once. She didn't know where you were and was always worried."

Xu Zhibian then added, "Ms. Ye just told her that you are here with me."

He doesn't quite understand. "Why……?"

"Ms. Ye asked if we are really together now."

"……what."

"I say yes."

The thick blackout curtains were pulled open, and the countless green plants on the window sills were lush.

"Then she hung up the phone." Xu Zhibian sat on the edge of the bed and sighed, a piece of sunlight happened to hit his bare kneecaps.

Fu Luojia looked at him blankly. "I went to the provincial capital... what do you mean?"

……

Fu Luojia went back to school on the first morning after that mock exam.

Xu Zhibian lived in a rather large community, and outside the building he lived in was a green garden.After diving in, he walked around the central flower bed for half an hour, and finally left the complex through what should be the most hidden door in the entire community.

That exit is facing a dirt road leading to a barren mountain, and no bus taxis pass by.So he backed away again, and happened to run into Xu Zhijian who was chasing after him in pajamas and slippers.

"Are you really going to school today?"

Fu Luojia looked at him, and took a step forward to remove a small dead branch hanging from his hair. "Go and see."

"I thought—" Xu Zhijian raked his disheveled hair, and took a deep breath. "You should call me when you wake up."

"Go back to sleep." When he came out of the room to pick up the water at three o'clock last night, Xu Zhijian was still leaning on the deck chair on the open-air balcony and looking at his phone, looking in good spirits.

"...I haven't set an alarm on this phone, and I forgot about it last night."

Fu Luojia was silent for a while, "How early did you get up before?"

He also just discovered that the place where Xu Zhibian lived was in two directions from where he lived.But Xu Zhijian said before that he was going along the way.

"Don't think too much." Xu Zhijian squinted his eyes and smiled, "The county is only as big as it is, and you can go back and forth by bicycle a few times an hour—"

"...You'd better go back to sleep. Just borrow your bicycle."

When I arrived at the school, half of the first class had passed—the main reason was that Xu Zhijian still insisted on being with him, so I spent some time waiting for Xu Zhijian to go upstairs to change clothes.

As soon as he entered the school, there were still crowds watching. He tried his best to walk through the crowd upstairs and into the classroom without changing his face.

There is no way to sit back quietly - my desk and chairs are full of things, many of which are takeaway boxes.

He stood beside him for a while, before Zhou Linya had any reaction and couldn't bear the eyes of the people around him glued to his back, he reached out and tapped on the table.

Zhou Linya's shoulders trembled, he quickly tore off the earphones, and looked up again in surprise.

"Fuck, you're back?"