I still don't want to go to school today

There is actually a traffic light at the intersection, which turns red when Fu Luojia rides over.

Although there were no cars or people, he stopped.

"You used to come here every week?"

"Uh...about the same." Xu Zhijian couldn't hear any emotion in his tone, "What I said before, it's not that I didn't tell you on purpose—"

"You don't have to say." He bowed his head.In the gutter by the side of the road there was a shadow that the street lights couldn't illuminate. I don't know if it was a dead mouse or a squatting one.

Xu Zhibian said again, "You won't like it, so I won't tell you. And I don't think you will care about these—"

The little green man started to move, and he was dazed for a while before continuing to ride forward.

"why?"

"……what why."

"Why did you come here all of a sudden?" Xu Zhibian didn't wait for an answer, and leaned his head on his back again. "If it's because of me—I'm almost happy."

"Are you happy?" he asked. "What are you happy about?"

Then he felt Xu Zhibian's head rub against his shoulder blade.

There should be sweat in there.

Xu Zhijian was shaking his head.

"I do not know either."

Then he started laughing, "It doesn't matter what you think of me, if you're even a little bit curious about me—or if you can feel me, acknowledge me, it doesn't matter."

"As long as you're still here.

"Actually, I wish you were always like this."

Fu Luojia suddenly started tinnitus.He shook his head, and the front of the car wobbled, the front wheels slamming sideways into the pavement.

He could have corrected his center of gravity before he fell, but the sudden pain in his wrist made him blink.

The words just now stuck in his ears strangely, repeated over and over again, but he still couldn't hear clearly.

He propped his hand on the ground and turned his head, "What did you say?"

The street suddenly became brighter—the small lanterns lit up one after the other from far to near, and the empty bottles were whirling on the ground again. Music sounded.

no answer.

On his right, a light box with the words "Dingjia Fitness" lit up, and a brightly colored door emerged from the darkness.He turned his head again, made sure he didn't see anyone, got up and walked over, pushing it away.

……

"He really has a mental problem-what rumors did I make? Why did I make rumors? I have no grievances or enmities with him-you must know more than me, he is like this now, you can't know how to answer All right? Go and see for yourself his hand, wrist, both hands, he scratched himself - he mutilated himself, my God! Didn't you already know?"

Fu Luojia guessed that he should have frowned—a hand immediately covered his exposed ear, and a voice very close to him said, "Shut up. Don't say these things here—"

He was already awake, but he didn't open his eyes.But Xu Zhijian didn't know, and stretched out his other hand to block the light in front of his eyes.

"There's also his left hand, lift up his sleeve and have a look, he definitely didn't hurt himself just a few days ago! I was so fucking scared to death," Li Xin seemed to have knocked over something, and there was a loud noise on the ground, "It's the first time I know he's like this—he looks weak? In the end, he almost pierced my stomach with my arm. I yelled to stop him as if he didn't hear it, and started a fight with my crazy neighbor. The illness is exactly the same!"

"I said shut up."

"Can you let someone finish the sentence? He cut his wrist in front of me for no reason! I didn't provoke him, but he took out a knife and cut his wrist! Silently, I turned my head and saw his hand Blood, he still has no expression on his face!

"Don't you think it's creepy, and I will show you self-mutilation after asking you to the rooftop?"

Xu Zhibian was silent for a moment. "Why did he let you go to the rooftop?"

"Because," Li Xin paused, "Because...how would I know! What do I think about my insanity—"

"Get out."

"Is this your attitude? You dragged me to find someone at night, and then told me to go away when I found it? Am I a dog? Do whatever you want me to do? You fucking—"

"Did you have some misunderstanding?" Xu Zhibian was very calm, "I have always had this attitude. Go out now, you can stay and wait, it's better to go now."

There was silence, and then there was a slamming door.

Fu Luojia held his breath and concentrated.

Xu Zhibian might still be looking at him, or maybe he was looking at other places.The hand on the ear moved away, and the cuff of his left hand, which he didn't know where, was suddenly gently picked up.

He tensed his muscles, and pressed a few fingers on the cuff without any trace.Xu Zhibian gradually increased his strength, pulling each other and wrestling with each other, until finally he fell into an embarrassing deadlock.

It was Xu Zhibian who let go of his hand first.

"Are you awake?" In a nonchalant tone. "are you hungry?"

It would be a farce if you don't open your eyes at this time.He sat up, and Xu Zhijian handed him a glass of water.

He's still in this pool room.It's just that the crowd who stood together in twos and threes and whispered before disappeared, the fluorescent lamps were turned on, and the original chaotic atmosphere was completely expelled.

In the corner were several empty beer crates bearing the same brand logo as the dozen empty soda cans scattered in front of him.

Xu Zhibian bent down and picked them up.

"...How long have you been sitting here?" He brushed the cigarette ash off his chest, and his eyes flew to the old calendar on the opposite wall.

"It's not that long. I wasn't the one sitting here before."

Xu Zhibian used a teasing tone.

He looked at the bright red peony on the calendar, "I have a little impression...he said he was——the art teacher of the small town?"

"Ah, I know him. He has a son who is about the same age as us." Xu Zhijian smiled. "It's not just him, there are five or six cans down here."

"Yeah...and he doesn't seem to smoke." He frowned. "The one who smokes has dyed hair."

"It's Liu Bing. He was doing business outside, but he came back after he was diagnosed with illness."

"There's another... in a dress. Long hair and high heels."

"Zhang Yong. Lived with his sister and fell in love with his brother-in-law. He was the one who called me after you fell asleep—he thought you were drunk."

"Is that so." He closed his eyes as if recalling. "...It seems that there are such people."

"Did you say something?"

"They told me... about you. A lot—" Asked about his relationship with Xu Zhijian, speculated on the roles of the two, and some explicit self-promotion.

"What do you think of them?"

He opened his eyes again. "Disgusting. Nasty. Abnormal."

"And me?"

He felt that this might be the first time he looked into Xu Zhibian's eyes in many days. "...are you among them?"

"Yes."

Dazed wrapped around him like a shroud.

"Forget it—" Xu Zhijian stretched out his hand to wipe his tears, and the movements were quite proficient. "I'm just a little angry. You said you were going home first, but you came here alone—"

"...I'm alone." He tilted his head.

"Yeah, you're alone. What's the matter?"

"It's nothing."

"Why did you suddenly think of coming here?"

He wiped his face with the back of his hand. "Li Xin told me—"

Xu Zhibian grabbed the hand.He realized something and immediately struggled, but Xu Zhibian moved faster.

"It's just a scratch—"

The sleeves were taken off little by little, and before Xu Zhijian had time to say anything, he leaned over and kissed him, getting rid of the unreasonable smell of tobacco and alcohol in his mouth.

The door opened.

He reached into the hem of Xu Zhijian's brand new school uniform T-shirt and adjusted the angle.Now the peony should be in Xu Zhibian's field of vision, and he can look at the person standing at the door.

The door was slammed again.