I still don't want to go to school today

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He lowered his eyes and wiped away the unknown liquid hanging from his eyelashes. "……no."

"It's very unfair. If you touch me, I'll react. I like you so much..." Xu Zhibian wrapped his arms around his shoulders, shifted the weight of his whole body, and hung on him. "When we first met, you didn't hug me, and you spoke coldly. I just do what you said, walk away, and wait for you to recover—"

"That's not what I meant." He couldn't stand anymore. "You don't have to force..."

"I have a headache. Ah, it really hurts." Xu Zhijian arched his head, his hair stuck to the side of his face. "Please stop talking."

"Hand out."

He does.Xu Zhibian touched the scars that had healed not long ago, and said after a while: "You should pinch me next time, I bought a neck brace. Or if you don't want me to cling to you anymore, that's okay." Okay, but you have to make sure you still like me first. Do you still like me?"

"...I'll give you another chance," Xu Zhibian's voice suddenly became hoarse. "Just say you like me."

……

There are only two lower bunks in the dormitory - the lower beds of the other upper bunks are tables, and there are no mattresses or sheets.Fu Luojia hugged Xu Zhijian, let him sit on the chair next to him, then tiptoed and tore off the whole set of things on his bed.

Holding the cold quilt and turning around, he realized that Du Ran sat up at some point, staring at this side.

He stood with his neck stiff for a while, and heard Du Ran say: "Remember to take protective measures, brother, don't just because you can't help it for a while..."

"Shut up." Xu Zhibian said these two words out of his mouth like a triggered automatic answering machine.

"...Do you want to take another bath?"

no answer.Fu Luojia went out, stretching his arms straight in front of him.

He lowered his head to let those two hands wrap around his neck again, and half hugged and half mopped the man onto the bed.

"What else are you going to do?"

"I'm going to wash up." He whispered in Xu Zhibian's ear. "Can you relax for a while?"

There was no hot water, so he simply took a cold shower.After coming out of the shower, Du Ran and Xu Zhijian didn't move. He stood in the middle of the dormitory and thought for a while, then took out a spare sheet from the cabinet.

He originally wanted to shake Du Ran awake, but when he got closer, he found that Du Ran's eyes were open and his eyes were clear.

"Inhumane, you guys." Du Ran pulled out a smile. "Sure enough, what Jin Yong said is correct, the joys and sorrows of human beings are not connected—"

"..." He didn't correct the source of the words, but only said: "I'm sorry. ——You don't feel comfortable sleeping like this. Make a bed first?"

Du Ran leaned against the bedpost, was silent for a moment and then said: "Brother Jia, do you know that my sister's professional teacher is the retired old dean of Shengyin, and this year only my sister is accepted..."

"She would have been able to get into a good school and continue dancing...but I ruined all of that..."

Fu Luojia didn't speak, and put a pack of toilet paper on the bedside.

Du Ran sobbed and lay down again, and soon began to blow his nose.

Fu Luojia turned on the lamp on the wooden table under the bed, and sat in front of the table to relax.

……

"Please try your best to hand in your English homework. There is also the class test last time. Those who did not hand in the paper and those whose scores were less than [-] must..." Fu Luojia glanced at the note in his hand, "Write another composition .More than a hundred words."

He didn't know why Mr. Ye suddenly implemented punishment measures - those who didn't hand in the test papers would naturally not hand in the composition.

Probably more of an attitude.

In the second class, Tang Cheng honestly handed over the homework, and the number of homework received by dinner time was still 1. After a while, he handed over another one from a distance. The name on the cover was Zhou Linya.

The seat next to him was already empty, including people, tables and chairs.There was a lot of noise when Zhou Linya moved away. At that time, Teacher Ye hadn't left the classroom yet, and asked her what she was doing with a frown.She replied stiffly: I want to find a clean place to study hard.

Teacher Ye was not too angry. He only said that due to conditions, everyone cannot sit alone at a single table. The key to cleanliness depends on the state of mind.

He was very confused by Zhou Linya's actions, but he accepted it after a few days.After no one spoke, the time in the classroom passed smoothly and quickly, and his attention was almost all spent on the endless topics in his hands.

After doing the questions, he found that although he was able to concentrate, his memory had deteriorated considerably.Many old questions that have been done several times are in front of him, and his mind is more empty and pale than the snow.

As a result, my usual test scores were much lower than before, and I was a little disappointed at the beginning, but I got used to it after taking more tests.

What's more urgent is Teacher Ye.

"You shouldn't be like this...have you ever thought about what's wrong and haven't adjusted yet?"

"Don't go back to the state of last semester, time is running out..."

On the contrary, he couldn't recall what state he was in last semester.

"How is living in school, are you used to it, is there anything missing?"

Things are not bad, and there are two more people quietly.Xu Zhijian from the life department had already called, and I don't know if Teacher Ye would know, and what would be his reaction if he knew.

"Your mother, she..."

He lowered his head according to the situation, making a bleak and silent look.Teacher Ye was touched, sighed and waved him away.

He didn't know much about Xu Zhibian's schedule during the day—he was on sick leave, didn't have to attend classes, and didn't go home, but he didn't seem to stay in the dormitory all the time, and he even borrowed his clothes and shoes.But every day during the lunch break and evening break, Xu Zhijian always came back before he arrived, playing with a tablet nestled on the bed.

He accidentally saw the screen, probably sorting out the photos he took in Hoh Xil during the summer vacation.This reminded him of what he should return to Xu Zhijian, and after careful consideration, he decided not to return it for the time being.

It's hot and crowded for two people to sleep in the same bed, but for some inexplicable psychological reasons, a large piece of skin sticking together and sweating can give him a great sense of security. He even deliberately didn't ask Xu Zhijian if he wanted to sleep. Another bed.

Fortunately, Xu Zhilian was also willing to torture each other with him, and when he got angry, he would always pester him to help him resolve it, and by the way complained about the drugs that calm people's minds and make it difficult to easily arouse their desires.

"Will I make you uncomfortable?" he asked cautiously.

Xu Zhibian was not very happy, "This is the first time, don't ask again, I have already said——"

"...I'm sorry. I want you to be happy, and if spending time with me makes you feel..."

"Am I not happy right now?"

He could only change his words: "I hope you are happier than you are now..."

He was sure that it would be hard for others to feel comfortable with himself like this, but hearing Xu Zhijian deny this time and time again, he could always feel a deformed pleasure.

"One day I hallucinated that you disappeared, and I thought I was getting better—I felt very relaxed all of a sudden." He whispered to Xu Zhibian amidst Du Ran's snoring, "Would you be like this?"

"You just feel relaxed?" Xu Zhibian bit his finger. "I won't. It won't be easy unless I make|love me with you."

"I feel relaxed...but I'm also sad. Thinking about it, it's okay if it's not easy."

"...I can't bear to be sad."

Because Zhou Linya no longer sat next to him, he didn't know in time that the news that "Xu Zhijian lived in a dormitory with him" had spread.When he discovered this, the scene was extremely embarrassing: the day when Xu Zhibian started class happened to be Monday, and the flag was raised in the morning, and two people who should not have appeared at the scene because of their respective force majeure appeared at the same time in the dilapidated chairman. on stage.Xu Zhibian was the host, and he was going to receive an inexplicable award. Teacher Ye also specially told him not to be absent.

There were not many people at the bottom, Xu Zhilian read his name, and he walked onto the stage according to the procedure.

The coat on Xu Zhibian's body belonged to him, and there was no handwriting on the cuffs.When passing by, he smoothed out the folds on Xu Zhi's coat.

"Wait a minute," someone said on the speaker.Both he and Xu Zhibian had a microphone in their hands, but neither of them made a sound, it should be someone in the sound control room speaking with a microphone.

Xu Zhijian stopped in his tracks.He and Xu Zhijian were the only ones standing on the stage.

The stereo actually started playing music, and the first paragraph was "Dang-dang-dang-dang-"

No one has never heard of it.

wedding March.

At first he was very strange, just thought it was some kind of accident.However, there was a sudden commotion in the audience, and the team of less than a hundred people made a movement of ten thousand people.

It was booing.

After he realized it, he still found it inconceivable—as a prank, it was too stupid and deliberate, as if it was written by a preschooler.

He stood there numbly.Half a minute later, the music was cut off, and the booing was still overwhelming.

"What are you arguing about?! Quiet everyone!! What do they all sound like?!" Chen Feng yelled into the microphone, "They're all crazy, right?! Tell everyone to remember!!"

He just wanted to leave immediately, but his body seemed to deliberately contradict him, and he was frozen in place, falling into a long-lost state of stupor.

He really didn't understand why this happened.Neither the meaning nor the possible consequences of this incident frightened him. He even thought it was ridiculous, but the loss of control just happened.

He inhaled slightly, but gradually lost control of his lung muscles and began to lack oxygen.

The crowd became a mottled pattern in his eyes.Those gazes—too many gazes, undoubtedly looking at him—implanted countless lead wires in his bare|exposed skin, and the blazing temperature brought by the emotional expansion is about to ignite them——

Suddenly someone grabbed his arm and forcibly turned him around. The other hand reached out to his armpit, posing in a half-arm, half-hug pose.

"Can you go?" Xu Zhibian asked.