I still don't want to go to school today

He can't understand. "What's the meaning?"

"That is to say... If I can be like you or simply become you, I don't need to think about you all the time." Xu Zhibian lowered his eyes, as if he had made up his mind, and spoke in a cautious tone. "It's a fallacy, but it worked for me at the time."

"Me? How did you—"

"At that time, I was very familiar with your habits. For example, the tone of voice, favorite gestures and mantras."

It's just... unbelievable.

Fu Luojia hesitated before continuing: "...you can remember."

"Of course I remember." Xu Zhibian's speech speed suddenly became faster, "It's not just words and actions... everything I can find in you. I like them all. And it's not just me—"

"You were popular the way you were then, and you have been for years. I know best. Didn't you say those people 'liked' me? It was all about liking you, because I followed you."

"That's not right." He blurted out. "Wrong. How could..."

"You are yourself," he reached out and touched Xu Zhijian's earlobe, "You don't have to follow anyone else's example."

Xu Zhibian's eyes were still calm and even clear, without showing any danger.

He winked at Fu Luojia.

"...I just want you to know that you are very important to me, before and now. This is my own business, and you should not be burdened."

"It's not fair to yourself..."

"Okay, okay. Didn't you want me to be happy? Then close your eyes—one, two, three—look!"

He almost missed the rhythm.Xu Zhibian stuffed a vinyl record into his arms, and he looked at it for a long time before he recognized the three striking words on the yellowed package as "Wang Jingwen".

"You don't have a machine to play it, so you can put it on the bookshelf for fun." Xu Zhibian said.

It actually deserves to be framed and hung on the wall.Even if he didn't know much about this before, he probably knew that the price of the first edition of Diva's records could be marked in several digits when they were changed hands.

"do not like?"

His smile came a little late.Xu Zhibian looked at the record that hadn't been picked up, and frowned.

"No, I was just thinking... What do you want? I want to give you something too."

Xu Zhijian only dragged the end and said: "You are absent-minded."

"I didn't." He hugged Xu Zhijian.

Xu Zhijian raised his hands over his shoulders and hung them above his back: "Look, I said that you are the one who hugs first every time."

He meditated quietly for a while in the scent of shower gel.

"What were we like before?"

he asked suddenly.

"It's the same as now. I'll go wherever you go."

……

The questions for the first consultation were more difficult than those of previous years. Fu Luojia failed to complete the comprehensive analysis, and the elective part on the back of the answer sheet was basically empty.

Because it is a test paper issued by the city's teaching and research institute, most of the questions are original.Many people went to the toilet a few times—should have met with someone to discuss it, but when they came back, they were still gloomy and frowning.

He is very calm: the gap between himself and those who are really outstanding, between the county and the provincial key points, between the western mountainous area and the southeastern coastal area is not limited to these.

After Xu Zhibian asked where he was going in the future, he spent some time studying these.Originally, there was no need to worry about it, the variable was Xu Zhijian's first diagnosis.

Liberal arts is more likely to be a dark horse.He understands this truth, but the fourth place in the county still makes him feel confused.

"It's really an accident," Xu Zhibian said while eating ice cream, "This time the math is very simple, and I don't get points; I don't know why the comprehensive scores are so high."

There are still two report cards on Teacher Ye's desk.She didn't draw a picture this time and didn't give him an analysis. Fu Luojia went to study the ranking and admission situation of liberal arts in Xia County over the years.

He told Xu Zhiyan that this result was enough to meet the national special program score line of F University.Xu Zhibian didn't react strongly after hearing this: what kind of school is F University, and where is it located?

"How many universities do you know? Domestic ones." Fu Luojia couldn't help asking.

Xu Zhibian wrote down Tsinghua University and Peking University on the paper, but after holding his head and thinking for a while, he wrote about Z University, S University and a teacher's college in Linshi.

This was the first time in Phroka's life that he saw these schools appear on the same page at the same time—even in the same row.

He rubbed Xu Zhijian's head and sighed.

"Do you want to study abroad?"

"You want to go abroad?" Xu Zhibian was surprised.

"No... I'm asking you. I think you might be able to—"

"I'm with you."

Recently, I always talk about this sentence.Fu Luojia clearly saw the unequal things between them, and felt a kind of powerlessness.

The difficulties encountered in choosing a gift for Xu Zhiyan added to this frustration.

He wasn't even sure what Xu Zhilian liked.Little things like not eating onions, not eating chili in vegetables, liking sweets, etc. did not help the choice-but they were all he knew.

In the end, he picked out a green switch keyboard, placed the order on the computer in the office, and filled in the address as the school.

Xu Zhibian was very happy when he received it.

But he was wondering if Xu Zhijian would have this reaction if he gave him anything: What is the difference between that and not giving anything?

He gave the merchant a good review, and pulled out the newly printed mock roll from the printer next to him.

Teacher Ye stood in front of a pot of money trees with a watering can. After a while, he turned around and said to him: "If you think the classroom is noisy, the self-study class is also in the office. I will give you a key. You can come if you want to come on Saturday." Can come."

"When you come, water these flowers, grass, and flowers by the way."

"……it is good."

Inexplicably, he thought of the green dill at home again.Maybe dead, maybe not.

The call is connected.

"Your mother is doing well today..." Grandma was very happy, "Come on, let me give her the phone—"

He intuitively felt that there was going to be a gasping sound that irritated the eardrums, so he took the receiver away.However, he only heard a very faint call: "Furaka?"

He was taken aback.Then there was no sound over there. He looked at the screen and found that the phone was hung up.May be a mistake.

He didn't call again.

Sun Qiya changed classes, and Teacher Ye asked the school personally.He quarreled several times, and once Fu Luojia was present.

"Li Tingting and Zhao Yifei went to open a room outside the school! Zhou Linya and Li Wenjia kissed outside the men's room! Fu Luojia also told her mother to have sex with Xu Zhijian every day! Why don't you care about these people!!! Why are you biting us? Hold on—"

Except for Fu Luojiazai, who was still surprised by Zhou Linya's matter, the faces of the others who were named were ashen.

"Take care of yourself first! You know how to compare with others, why don't you compare your grades first? If I were you, I would have felt ashamed, and I would go home and reflect on myself! Shameless!"

Sun Qiya called her a bitch|dog.Teacher Ye kicked him, his mother just arrived in the classroom, and he didn't fight back.

His mother also came to the podium, rolled up her sleeves and gave him a slap, much more imposing than Teacher Ye.

Teacher Ye watched for a while, probably because he felt that the podium was sacred and inviolable, and it was inappropriate for someone other than the teacher to lose his temper, so he invited both of them out.

Fu Luojia thought that the matter was over, but when she was studying in the office the next day, she saw Zhou Linya being led in by her father, and Zhang Tingting from their class.

Representatives of several of the couples mentioned that day were present.The other two looked puzzled, wondering why he was the only one sitting.

The female principal said: "There are students studying by themselves inside, let's go out and talk about it."

Zhou Linya's eyes almost stared holes in him.In the end, she and Li Wenjia were fine, because no trace was found in the surveillance, and Li Wenjia also denied it.

"How could I like her."

After the last evening self-study get out of class, he went back upstairs to pick up his textbooks.There are people in the classroom, but not Li Xin.

Zhou Linya lay prone on the seat.The shoulders kept shaking.She raised her head when she heard footsteps, tears streaming down her face.

Fu Luojia didn't know what to say, so he took the book and prepared to leave.Zhou Linya suddenly said, "Is there any paper?"

She grabbed a stack of papers from Fu Luojia and covered her face, then began to cry.

Fu Luojia heard nothing for a while, and wanted to leave again, but after hesitating for a while, she pulled the chair beside her and sat down.

"I'm not sad because of that psychopath!" She exposed her mouth, her voice hoarse, "I'm sad about my grades...why ahhhh—"

"..."

"You guys are no good! I'm going to be gay too--fucking woo-woo-why do you like men?! You don't know what to do-"

"Ye Qin is not a fucking thing—"

After she had scolded almost everything she could, she finally calmed down and turned to look at him.

He was inexplicably nervous.

Her raised brows had a tendency to recede a little bit, as if she was ready to ease her attitude and have a good talk with Fu Luojia.Suddenly someone knocked on the window.

"Aren't you going for a run today?" Xu Zhijian stretched his head forward, and the brim of his peaked cap hit the window sill. "oops."

Signs of détente evaporated.Zhou Linya pushed him away: "Hurry up and roll—"