Zhehua

It’s another year of new snow, and I wake up with the sound of falling snow. Recently, I have been sleeping very lightly, but I have many dreams. When I fall into a dream, I can see some old things from my youth.

Fifty years have passed since then, and the glory once conceived in my heart has now been fully displayed on the mainland. How to make it better depends on future generations.

I have never had a family in my life, and occasionally I heard folk songs, talking about how the empress dedicated her life to the mainland and to the people.I can only laugh, noncommittal.

Some dedication is born from the heart, while some dedication can only be a kind of passivity, a kind of escape.

Last night, I dreamed of her again. When she left, the golden red was flowing red, and the light feathers covered the sky. She was so beautiful, and she was so shocking when she appeared in front of the world.

Her brilliance has never been dusted, whether she was injured and fell into the Huangshan Mountain, or in the palace made of pearls, she lost the past and lost her memory, and never lost herself, she is so firm A girl, a girl who always knew exactly where she was going.

I can't keep her.

I have thought about it countless times, and if I think about it, I will let her hate and misunderstanding lock her by my side for the rest of my life.But after all, I never did this, I couldn't bear it, and I couldn't.

When the phoenix bird broke the seal and sang loudly in the heaven and earth, and was worshiped by all the creatures in the world, I knew that I couldn't, I was just a mortal, even though so many experiences, maybe I had a Illusion, thinking that if I am stronger, as long as I am stronger, I can protect her firmly, and let her clear and clean eyes be full of me, whether I love it or hate it.

But I didn't after all, the destiny that she carried on her body was destined to separate me from her, and I was once her destiny.

When ascending to the throne of emperor, one should sit down mountains and rivers for thousands of miles.Unify the whole territory, and thousands of people worship.At this time, people are always easy to be shocked, to be infected by this magnificent world, and to be infected by this piety of the hearts of all people. At that time, I can forget, forget who I am, and once I forget who I am, I can Forget who I love.

But in recent years, I have slowly started to think about it. The first thing I think about is how to arrange for the next caretaker of this mountain and river. I have never married a family in my life, so I have no heirs, and no one can inherit my previous foundation. people.

I chose a child from a collateral clan. He was a very smart and hard-working boy. I saw the light of peace in his eyes, a kind of clarity that would not get lost no matter what position he was placed in. I have only seen eyes like this in one other person in my life.

Over the years, the child that I have single-handedly raised is already capable of taking responsibility. His strength is already sufficient to govern this continent in peace and well-being. .

On the [-]nd day, I was surrounded by his personal soldiers and passed on the jade seal with a smile.He also smiled, and raised his hand to take it respectfully. At the end, he asked: "Your Majesty never blamed me." It was a determined tone, not a question.

When I heard this, I stopped walking back to the palace, turned around, and looked at those eyes again, those eyes were clear and clean, and had not been stained with a trace of power desire so far, but the owner of these eyes made a move to lead the army. After all, I know that the pair of eyes in my heart are irreplaceable, but I haven't thought of it yet, and I still don't want to remember who I am.But now, all the heavy responsibilities have been unloaded, and it's time for me to slowly pick up everything from the past.

I told him that everything was just arranged by destiny. He is the successor I believe in. If he doesn't do these things today, he will still take over this country in the near future.

After saying that, I took the maid and left without looking at the frost-like sadness on his face.

He was behind me, speaking in despair, he asked me why I didn't punish him?

He said that all the rebellion he did was just to make the teacher look at him one more time.

He said that he knew that in the eyes of his mentor, he had never really been there.

But I'm tired, and in this case, I can't make any waves in my heart, not even the kindness and sympathy that a teacher should have.My heart was frozen and sealed with dust on the day she left me. Even if there were thousands of enemies in front of me, I couldn't arouse any more emotions.

I am fearless, I have no worries, I am neither sad nor happy, because my sorrows and joys, as early as many years ago, with the departure of one person, all of them left me.

After the new emperor ascended the throne, I was moved to another palace to recuperate.Although it is another palace, the expenses for food and clothing are not degraded, but these are not important, and these have never been important to me.There is only one thing that I hate from him. I asked him for [-] pearls to decorate all the other gardens in the palace.

In just a few days, everything was decorated.

I stayed here, away from the country, away from the disputes, away from the important responsibilities of the emperor, and I began to change back to myself. Recently, the things in my dreams are all about my youth.

The scenes of old Chen, Xuanshang, Huangshan, and Mantu's old places are vivid in my mind, and they are extraordinarily vivid in my dreams.The noise of birds, gurgling water, chirping and chirping, sky light and cloud shadows, cold springs and flowing pools, like illusions, slowly passed by like a long river in front of my eyes.

At the end of that memory, I saw her.

She is wearing a goose yellow skirt with light sleeves, her blue hair is rolled up, and she wears a jade flower, with a smile in her light brown almond eyes, and she is looking at each other across the water from the far side.

I looked at her still beautiful face, suddenly relieved, I pursed my lips, and called her name.

I called her: "Mingshu."

The past that has been dusty in my heart for a long time, the old lady who is always smiling and weeping every time the hard-working empress thinks about it, this time, I saw her in my dream, and I have never parted from her again, I know, we will be together soon To be together again.

How insignificant is the life of a mortal. No matter the emperor or ordinary people, time and time treat everyone fairly. The empress who once had such a magnificent feat is also getting old. I haven’t looked in the mirror for a long time. I can’t remember Just as I can't remember how old I was, I can't remember what I was like when I was young.

In my heart, she is the one I remember most, and she is the one I never mention in my life.

I will return to her side, and when my life is over, she must come back to pick me up.

Although in the short years of living in another palace, in those silent dreams, she never came forward or talked to me.But I know that her eyes have never changed.

It was night, the palace was suddenly full of fire and flames, and amidst the chaos, one knew that there must be a fire accident somewhere.Many years ago, there was such a big fire. In that fire, she chose to come back to me.

I lay quietly on the couch, feeling the passing of life. Gradually, my limbs became floating and light, and I threw off all the heavy restraints in a trance, but my breath became heavier.

Suddenly, I saw her, at the other end of the long river, so peaceful, smiling at me.

I laughed too, and held out my hand to her.

This time, I finally touched her, after such a long time apart.

I can hold her in my arms, like many times before, whispering in her ear, but tears flowed down my cheeks, I said: "Minger, you are still so beautiful."

She raised her head, and in those eyes were snow-capped mountains and cloud peaks, Lingling Taoxi.She pursed the corners of her lips, raised her hand and gently brushed a strand of messy hair on my cheek, and said, "Let's go back together, Yin Taki."

"Ah."

The moment I was about to leave, I lowered my eyes and saw the stream under my feet, and the shadows poured out were the two young people.

The world has been floating like a dream for several years, and the white head falls to the frost and returns together.

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