Kill me Heal me

Freud, the founder of psychoanalysis, divided personality into ego, id, and superego, and he also proposed three levels of mental activities: consciousness, subconscious, and preconscious.If the id is the most primitive desire and longing, then the superego is the moral restraint and ideal self, and the self sandwiched in the middle is constantly coordinating the relationship between the two. If one day the self is sick, the contradiction will disappear. Intensified, people will also have various problems.If the consciousness is the tip of the iceberg, then the subconscious is the huge part hidden under the iceberg. No one knows how big the iceberg is under the deep sea. The subconscious is infinite, but the preconscious is mixed in between the two. The process of mental activity that has passed without being noticed, the things in the subconscious will be put into the consciousness after the review of the preconscious, and the preconscious sometimes dozes off——

Cay-z pulled out a pencil, took out a handkerchief and wiped the freshly splashed blood on his sunglasses, it was still warm, he wiped the blood off his face, and licked it, "Well, it tastes good." He went to the faucet again After washing the pencil, it was just an ordinary wooden pencil. The graphite at the nib was shining coldly under the LED light. It was this nib that just stabbed a young girl’s heart. When it was pulled out with a swoosh, it was bleeding splash.

Cay-z was an artist, and he put his pencil in his pocket and left with a fresh sketch.The girl in the painting had an angelic smile. Only Cay-z knew what a dirty deal they had just made, but it was worth the money. He stabbed the girl's body with a pencil and took it away. took her life.He was wearing a three-piece retro suit, round sunglasses, a ponytail, and a pair of specially-made coin earrings on his ears. Who would have thought that this artist had just killed someone?

Cay-z came home, closed the door, took out a pencil sharpener and began to sharpen pencils, as if he was treating all works of art with care, the bloody pen barrel was cut off, he collected it, put it in a bowl and burned it, and put it in a bowl. Ashes rushed down the drain.The work just completed still needs to be polished. He carefully traced the outline of the shadow with a pencil. There was no blood on his body. He just wore an apron, and this apron was already stained with blood.

Finally finished the painting, Cay-z hid the drawing book in the cabinet under the bed so that no one could find it, he breathed a sigh of relief, changed into his pajamas, lay down on the bed and closed his eyes, good, this The day is over.

When Cai Zhao woke up again, he found that his three-piece suit was outside. Well, let's wear this today.

Chen Qiushi was extremely depressed, he was thrown into a nursing home by his mentor, and he suffered from depression again.I can't blame him. First, one of my visitors committed suicide because of depression, and then his parents died in a car accident. Anyone who is put on him should be taken by the dog. Fortunately, Chen Qiushi hasn't, he is just too depressed, depressed After self-mutilation several times, he was finally discovered by his mentor and thrown into this nursing home.The environment of the nursing home is good. It is surrounded by mountains and rivers. To put it bluntly, it is in a ravine, so you cannot escape.Fortunately, the food was good, and Chen Qiushi was quite satisfied with the food, but he felt that his taste buds were almost out of taste.

Chen Qiushi started to lethargy, he would sleep ten to fourteen hours a day, that is to say, he would sleep for less than half of the time, more than half of the time, and sometimes half of the time.In addition to lethargy, he also began to be slightly anorexic. He was originally a foodie, but even food couldn't bring him happiness. Eating became a task, a task to survive.He didn't know why he was still alive, maybe only the shell was alive, and his soul had long since died.If it really died, then he wouldn't have to suffer such pain, no, he wanted to be a dog again.

Chen Qiushi is a psychological counselor. The rationality of the profession reminds him that you are already depressed and you need treatment, but your sensibility is saying that you are almost done. How can you survive if you fail like this?The dean is a friend of his mentor, and when he was admitted to the hospital for treatment, he was given a [-]% discount on the medical expenses and the hospitalization fee. By the way, he also arranged the best ward for him, and he prepared the medicine himself.Chen Qiushi swallowed pills of various colors, but he knew that these were only temporary, and the pills could not bring him real happiness. He needed freedom, spiritual freedom.He looked up at the window. There was an iron fence outside. With his strength, he couldn't break it at all. The road to the roof was also blocked, cutting off his thoughts of jumping off the building.

"What should I do? I really want to be free!!!" Chen Qiushi hugged the quilt and cried helplessly.

When the police rushed into his house, Cai Zhao was wearing big slippers, a T-shirt and shorts, and was sitting on the sofa eating vegetable pancakes. On the TV, a short soap opera from mother-in-law and mother-in-law was playing, "You——what are you doing? You will be sued!" Cai Zhao swallowed a mouthful of vegetable pancakes, staring at a special police officer who entered with a gun.

"Cai Zhao, right? You've been arrested." The leading police officer took out his ID card. "You're involved in multiple murders. Here's a search warrant. Okay, come with us."

Cai Zhao was taken away for no apparent reason, along with his pencil and picture book hidden under the bed.No matter how much evidence and video materials were put in front of him, Cai Zhao firmly insisted that he did not kill anyone. Although the police could file a public prosecution with the procuratorate, Cai Zhao never admitted it, saying that he was wronged no matter what.

This made the police officer handling the case suspicious. Could it be that they really arrested the wrong person?Cai Zhao's character is a bit meek, he is a photographer, and his painting skills are average, not as detailed and full of tension as shown in the album. It is indeed not the style of a serial killer, but all the evidence points to Cai Zhao, even he The murder weapon, the pencil, was also found. It was impossible to be wrong. During the days when Cai Zhao was kept in the detention center, he was watched by surveillance cameras every day. Finally, Officer Fang discovered the clue.

Cai Zhao changed his hand when eating once, and he used his left hand, and the murderer was indeed left-handed, but Cai Zhao himself was right-handed, he was very sure.After consulting relevant experts, the experts gave a possibility-multiple personality disorder.

Officer Fang hesitated for a moment. He had only seen this kind of situation in movies. He heard that there were some cases in foreign countries. Cai Zhao never let go. The progress of the case trial was slow.The expert went in for about two hours, and finally came out shaking his head, "Officer Fang, it can be confirmed that he has multiple personalities, and - he has at least three personalities, this is what his sub-personality told me. The main personality is Cai Zhao, the murderer is Cay-z, I think he has anti-social tendencies, and another personality should be a child, he was frightened by you, temporarily sleeping, I did not wake him up."

"Is that so? Then I have to report to my superior." Officer Fang nodded, "Things are beyond our expectations."

"That's the only way to go. Our suggestion is hospitalization. Cai Zhao himself has no motive or willingness to kill someone subjectively, and Cay-z... I can say that he is an artist and a madman. He is dangerous." The expert tweeted He touched his glasses on the bridge of his nose and shook his head.

Chen Qiushi's condition has improved recently. The symptoms of anorexia have been alleviated a lot under the control of drugs, and the joy of eating has gradually returned. He asked the nurse to help him bring a lot of snacks that he likes. eat.Although the TV show is still not very interesting, at least he can watch it.The weather was fine that day. He opened the doors and windows to ventilate the air. The small building he lived in was built later in the nursing home, and the conditions were the best. They were all small single rooms, European style, beige paint, and looked very comfortable. Chen Qiushi heard a burst of noise outside. Ring, huh? !Does he have a new neighbor here? !

Because the building was newly built, there were not many people living there yet. The director arranged him on the second floor. Apart from the nurse on duty, Chen Qiushi was suddenly curious, what kind of neighbor was here?The little nurse came to inform Chen Qiushi that the newcomer was actually a murderer with multiple personalities, and asked Chen Qiushi to stay in the house honestly and not come out. The nurse specially helped him lock the door.

Chen Qiushi lay on the side of the fence and watched. Because he was able to eat normally recently, his face became ruddy a lot, and even the flesh that disappeared gradually grew back, and his face returned to a round and plump appearance.This was the first time he saw Cai Zhao. Cai Zhao was wearing the hospital gown of their nursing home. He was tall and burly, with handcuffs and shackles. I can know his helplessness. The earrings are very special. Chen Qiushi has never seen them before. After a second look, there is really only a thin line between an artist and a lunatic.

Cai Zhao also saw Chen Qiushi. He lowered his head slightly and looked at his only patient friend through the gap in his sunglasses. He lived next door to Chen Qiushi.Cai Zhao smiled at Chen Qiushi friendly, but when Chen Qiushi saw him looking over, he immediately lay down, leaving only a pair of eyes and a furry head, like a frightened little rabbit, oh yes, he is now a murderer , and multiple personality disorder, it is normal for him to be afraid.Cai Zhao laughed at himself, lowered his head and entered his room.

The room is very transparent and comfortable to look at. It would be even better if the fence outside the window and the iron gate at the door can be ignored.Cai Zhao sat on the bed, asked the police to help him remove the shackles and handcuffs, and then quietly started reading. He brought in a lot of books, as well as his own camera. His information has been handed over to the hospital. Someone will come and give him medicine.

"Hey, what are you doing?" Chen Qiushi ran out of the room and squatted at Cai Zhao's door, he suddenly became interested in this guy, multiple personality disorder, this is a research object that can't be met, and his occupational disease has committed another up.

"Me? Reading. What do you want?" Cai Zhao put down the book, walked to the door, and followed Chen Qiushi's example and squatted down. "Are you next door?"

"Yeah, I came here after suffering from depression." Chen Qiushi pointed to his room, "If you need it, you can knock on the wall, I can hear you."

"Oh, yes, thank you." Cai Zhao smiled, showing his big white teeth.

"It's okay to look at you? Multiple personality disorder? Can you tell me?" Chen Qiushi observed him curiously. He had heard some information about Cai Zhao from the nurse just now, and they were so noisy. I also heard a lot.

"This... Actually, I don't know too well, can we talk about something else?" Cai Zhao stared at Chen Qiushi's toes, avoiding his sight.

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean it, but I was too excited. I'm doing psychological counseling. I'm a little curious. I offended you. I'm sorry." Chen Qiushi apologized repeatedly, and took out a small bag of potato chips from behind, "Here, It's a meet and greet."

"Thank you, what's your name?" Cai Zhao took the potato chips, oh, they smell like barbecue.

"Chen Qiushi, nice to meet you, I know your name is Cai Zhao." Chen Qiushi stretched out his right hand, and shook hands through the iron gate.Cai Zhao's hand was very warm, a little higher than his body temperature.

"Chen Qiushi, this name is very nice, thank you, I am also very glad to meet you." Cai Zhao tore open the packaging bag in his hand, took out a few potato chips and handed them to Chen Qiushi, and then took a few more chips himself, "Come, for us Two patients, cheers."

Chen Qiushi lightly touched the potato chips with him, "Cheers." It's been a long time since I've been so happy. It's not through medicine, but the joy I really feel from my heart. Maybe I have another person to accompany me. Life will never be like this again It's hard.

While sleeping at night, Chen Qiushi suddenly heard a noise from the next door. He put on his coat and followed the sound to the next door. The nurse on duty had already fallen asleep, and Chen Qiushi didn't dare to call her.

"Cai Zhao? Cai Zhao? Is that you?" Chen Qiushi lay beside the door and called out in a low voice.

"Cai Zhao?" The person inside the door stopped moving, "I'm not that idiot, my name is Cay-z, cutie, don't admit it wrong." Cay-z pulled out a naughty smile, opened the door, and Tiemen grabbed Chen Qiushi's hand, "What's your name? Do you live next door to me?"

Chen Qiushi was taken aback, and immediately realized that this was his second personality, "Hi, my name is Chen Qiushi, Mr. Cay-z." This is the legendary murderer Cay-z, who has already killed six girls.

Chen Qiushi was terrified by his stare, and wanted to withdraw his hand, "Can you let me go?"

"No! Yes!" Cay-z pinched his fingers heavily, "Your hands are so soft, as soft as those girls'."

Chen Qiushi was so frightened that his hair stood on end, "Are you planning to kill me?"

"Hahahahaha, no, I don't intend to do anything to you." Cay-z let go of his hand, "After all, you are my only patient friend, and you are also a companion after all." He said, touching Chen Qiushi The raised hair, "Good boy, the hair is so soft."

Chen Qiushi flinched, "So I'm your pet?"

"If you think so," Cay-z nodded, "it doesn't seem too bad."

"Doesn't your hand hurt?" Chen Qiushi didn't hide anymore, he was afraid that if he hid again, he would really die, yes, he didn't want to die at all right now, the sound he heard just now should be Cay-z smashing the wall, The skin on his hands was torn, revealing spots of blood.

Cay-z froze for a moment, looking at the broken skin on his hand, "It's okay, but it hurts a little after being reminded by you." He stretched out his hand, "Lick it for me, it will be fine if you lick it." It doesn't hurt anymore."

"Forget it, I'll get you the medicine." Chen Qiushi ignored him and went to his room to find some disinfected iodine and a few band-aids.

When Chen Qiushi came back, Cay-z's hand was still stretched out, "Maybe it hurts, bear with it." He took out a cotton ball with tweezers, dipped it in iodine and carefully cleaned the wound, "Why did you come out, Cai Zhao?" ?”

"Cai Zhao fell asleep. I've been bored for the past few days, so I just came out for a walk. I didn't expect them to lock me up here." Cay-z pulled his hand, "Take it easy, it really hurts."

"Oh, good." Chen Qiushi weakened the strength in his hand. He was disinfecting while observing Cay-z. There was no difference in appearance between him and Cai Zhao, but Cay-z was left-handed, and Cai Zhao used to use his right hand. "Listen Say you're a painter?"

"Yeah, why, do you want me to take a portrait of you too?" Cay-z raised Chen Qiushi's chin, "Little cutie, you look good."

Chen Qiu pressed down hard with a cotton ball, "Be more honest." He turned his head away, put away the iodine and cotton balls, and wrapped him in a Band-Aid.

"You're hurting me so much." Cay-z withdrew his hand, put it on his mouth and blew twice, "If you want a portrait, you can come to me. If you want...it's free."

"Oh, then I really thank you." Chen Qiushi ignored him and packed his things on his own, "Go to bed early, don't get your hands wet, I'm sleepy, good night." He picked up his things and returned to himself s room.

"Heh, what a cute kitten." Cay-z looked at the cartoon Band-Aid in his hand, "Even the Band-Aid is so cute, so cute."

《KillmeHealme（照实）》胡紫薰kkkk^第2章^最新更新:2017-03-0509:37:42晋江文学城

Chen Qiushi was lying on the bed, not feeling sleepy for the first time, Cai Zhao's situation really didn't look good.The way Cay-z stared at him just now made him very uncomfortable. He also intentionally helped him deal with the wound just now. Although it was somewhat flattering, he also wanted to see what kind of person Cay-z is. .Arrogant, disrespectful, cynical, slutty, violent, that's how he feels about Cay-z, but how did he become a murderer?Chen Qiushi couldn't help but want to find out. He had heard the news before. The victims were all young women from different places. The youngest was 19 years old and the oldest was 28 years old. They were all killed in hotels. There was no hair on his body, no trace of sexual activity, and the method of death was the heavy bleeding caused by the heart being stabbed by a sharp object and then pulled out.

It's been a long time since I used my brain like this. Chen Qiushi felt a sense of freshness that he hadn't seen for a long time. The more he thought about it, the more excited he became, and he seemed to be unable to sleep. Chen Qiushi reached out and knocked on the wall. There was only one wall between the two beds. .Soon, there was also a voice from the other side, the voice seemed a little hurried, Chen Qiushi still put on his coat and walked to the next door.

"Cay-z, you haven't slept yet, have you? Let's chat." Chen Qiushi tried to push the door inside. The door is two-story, with an iron fence door on the outside and an ordinary wooden door on the inside.

"Didn't you go to bed? Why are you here again?" Cay-z opened the door, put on his coat, leaned against the door frame, and looked at him frivolously, "I can't sleep as much as I think?"

"Really," Chen Qiushi nodded, "I'm just curious, I'm curious about you and Cai Zhao."

"Oh, that's it, then I have no comment." Cay-z wanted to close the door.

Chen Qiushi pushed the door firmly, "Wait a minute, I made several mistakes today, and I did the same to you and Cai Zhao, but I was really just curious. I'm sorry, I offended you." Chen Qiushi took out another A bag of potato chips, "Here, as a gift for you, I also took a picture of Cai today, it's mustard-flavored. Hehe."

"No, you can eat by yourself." Cay-z didn't appreciate it, and closed the door anyway.

"Wait, why don't you just talk to me?" Chen Qiushi looked up at him, Cay-z took off his sunglasses because he had to rest just now, "Wow, you look like Rain—"

"Huh? Who is that?" Cay-z heard this name for the first time.

"A Korean star, very handsome." Chen Qiushi knew that he was interested, and started chatting with him on this topic. He knew that Cay-z was very defensive, so he didn't talk a lot about him , but chatted with him about art and some popular things nowadays.

"Chen Qiushi, are you still not going to bed?!" The little nurse was woken up by their voices, and hurried over to take a look. When she saw that Chen Qiushi had chatted with the murderer, she was startled, "Go back to sleep, otherwise You won't get up again tomorrow."

"Oh, good." Chen Qiushi nodded, "Goodbye, Cay-z." He waved to Cay-z under the startled eyes of the little nurse, "Let's talk another day."

"Okay, let's talk another day, good night." Cay-z blew him a kiss, closed the door, watched him return to the room, and then lay down and went back to sleep.This little cutie is really interesting, Cay-z hasn't met such an interesting person for a long time, and for the first time, he fell asleep with a smile on his face.

Chen Qiushi had a dream. He hadn’t had a dream for a long time. This time he actually dreamed about his dead parents. Freud said that dreams are a kind of fulfillment of latent desires. It seems that he really misses them too much. Cai Zhao talked a lot with Cay-z, which made him feel belonging and attachment again.His parents were still the same as before, healthy and lively. Chen Qiushi chatted with them with a smile. He knew that this was just a dream. Comforting, his father also patted him on the shoulder, encouraging him to become a man.Crying and crying, the dream woke up.

Chen Qiushi wiped the tears from the corners of his eyes, still immersed in the dream and unable to extricate himself.He took out his mobile phone and checked the time. It was already past nine o'clock in the morning. The thick curtains blocked the sunlight, and the room was still dark.He got up and poured a glass of water to replenish the water lost in his body, then took a brief wash, and went to the little nurse to get his breakfast and today's medicine.

He suddenly thought of Cai Zhao next door, "Oh, did Cai Zhao eat?"

"Oh, he's already eaten." The little nurse put down the phone, "He's gone out, don't go looking for him, it's too dangerous, I'm going to ask the dean to change my place!"

"Ah? Don't leave, I'm so bored when you leave." Chen Qiushi took a sip of soy milk, "Why did he go? I mean Cai Zhao."

"Oh, he was taken away by the doctors, saying he was going to take a test." The little nurse started playing the mobile game again, "Oh, to be honest, if he is not sick, I will definitely chase him, how handsome!! ! That head, that physique, just looking at it gives me a sense of security.”

"Hey, you think too much, sister." Chen Qiushi threw the disposable paper cup in his hand, "Can't you think about me, look at my height, my face, my physique... um, also Not bad."

"Doctor Chen, I didn't say—you are too—childish, I don't think depression is a problem, I just think you are immature." The little nurse looked at him in embarrassment, but Chen Qiushi was actually pretty good, But she regarded Chen Qiushi as a friend, not as a senior or a patient.

"Oh, forget it, I didn't see you anyway." After Chen Qiushi finished speaking, he grabbed the steamed buns and pickles and went back to the room, leaving only the little nurse with a dumbfounding expression.

Chen Qiushi went back and slowly ate some steamed buns and pickles. He didn't know what happened to Cai Zhao. Is he now Cai Zhao or Cay-z?It’s fine if it’s Cai Zhao, but if it’s Cay-z—should he be worried about his colleagues?Chen Qiushi couldn't help being anxious again, he quickly took the medicine, and he has been living on the medicine these days.After taking the medicine, he felt better, but he still couldn't help worrying about Cai Zhao. This kind of nursing home is no better than their consultation, and the methods are often simple and rude. Neither Cai Zhao nor Cay-z should be treated Treat it that way.

Fortunately, Chen Qiushi didn't worry for long, and Cai Zhao came back.After the doctor sent him back to the ward, he locked the door again.Chen Qiushi waited for them to leave before sneaking over.

"Are you Cai Zhao or Cay-z?" Chen Qiushi squatted by the door to look at him again.

"I'm Cai Zhao, who is Cay-z? Is it my other personality?" Cai Zhao also squatted down and leaned over to talk to him.

"Yeah, yes, it's normal for you not to know." Chen Qiushi nodded, "What did they take you to do just now?"

"Oh, it's nothing, just doing a quiz." Cai Zhao took out his camera, "Let me take a picture for you."

"No, no, don't take pictures." Chen Qiushi covered his face with his arms, "When did you leave? I don't even know."

"Don't take pictures, forget it." Cai Zhao took out his mobile phone and looked at the clock, "I left at eight o'clock, and you probably haven't woken up yet."

"Oh." Chen Qiushi checked the time on his phone. It is now [-]:[-]. Cai Zhao left at [-]:[-] and came back at [-]:[-]. How could it be possible that Cai Zhao only did a few hours in the past three hours? test? "What kind of test are you taking? Answering the questions or looking at the pictures?"

"It seems to be there, I don't remember very clearly..." Cai Zhao rubbed his temples, "Strange, why don't I remember?"

"Huh... I probably know what's going on." Chen Qiushi stretched out his hand and patted him on the shoulder, "Don't think too much, it should be Cay-z who came out."

"What?!" Cai Zhao rubbed his hair, "You mean - he came out just now?"

"Yeah, you'll lose that memory because you didn't experience it, but you'll know it because your sub-personality, which is Cay-z, experienced it, he experienced it, and then left it in In the subconscious, the subconscious is shared by you, so you will feel it.” Chen Qiushi tried to explain to him, “If your body is a house, then different personalities live in different bedrooms. When controlling the body, he is in the living room of the house. Some people know that there are other rooms and people living there, but some personalities don’t know it. They will secretly spy in the bedroom, and some even want to occupy the entire room." Chen Qiushi thought about his professional knowledge, and the direction of his research is not abnormal psychology, "DID, Dissociative Identity Disorder, also known as Multiple Personality Disorder To put it simply, after separation, you don't know yourself anymore.

"Well—it's scary to be told that by you!" Cai Zhao supported the door frame and sat down on the ground, "Then what kind of person is Cay-z?"

"He is an artist, but he has violent tendencies. You know that. He has anti-social tendencies, but it can be seen that he is a gentleman with a high IQ and a very charming personality." Chen Qiushi glanced in the direction of the little nurse and motioned for her Don't come here, "Cai Zhao, I know that you are not the one who committed the crime, but have you thought about it? If your problem has not been resolved, you may live here for the rest of your life. I know there must be a reason for your multiple personalities. But if you don’t want to face it, that’s the only way to go.”

"No, I—" Cai Zhaoqiu put Liu Hai in front of his forehead, "Qiu Shi, I also want to be cured, but now I don't know how to do it. As far as I know, there are very few researches in this area in China. .”

Chen Qiushi nodded, "Indeed, there are very few reference materials available abroad, but in multiple personality disorders, there are also people with antisocial personality and murder, but the data are really pitiful. And - the recurrence of this disease is also frequent Yes, many people will inspire new personalities when they are in a new environment, and only when you are strong can you stop them, do you understand?"

"I know." Cai Zhao lowered his head, "Really...is there no cure? Like in the movie?"

Chen Qiushi thought for a while, "There was a Gina who was cured, and she later married a physician. She could recall when she had a different personality and actively cooperated with the treatment."

"Is that so? I—I can't remember at all." Cai Zhao patted the back of his head, "I often find things have changed when I wake up, but I haven't noticed it. If it wasn't for this time If something happened, I wouldn’t know that I had this problem. I used to have headaches, but I couldn’t find the reason, and it would be much better after I slept. I thought it was because I slept too much. I often found myself sleeping It was very early, but it was already seven or eight o'clock when I woke up, I went to the doctor, but there was nothing wrong with it."

"Then can you recall when you had this problem?" Chen Qiushi finally found a breakthrough.

Cai Zhao was silent for a while, "It was about when I was a teenager, and I hadn't graduated from elementary school at that time. My parents divorced at that time, and I belonged to my mother."

Chen Qiushi hesitated. If he really wanted to be treated, it would be a long and arduous process, and in the process, he would constantly dig out the darkness and scars buried in Cai Zhao's heart. The pain he was unable to face now, he began Reflecting on my own behavior, I came to him because of a momentary curiosity, and then said those words to him, but now I am retreating.

"What's the matter with you?" Cai took care of him suddenly lost in thought, with some doubts.

"No, it's okay, Cai Zhao, I suddenly feel a little sorry for you. In fact, I have no ability to heal you. After all, I am also a patient, and I have no relevant qualifications." Scar, "I have depression, and it became more serious some time ago. Don't look at me now, it's all controlled by drugs. In fact, I'm still very unhappy. I finally got better recently, and I don't want to commit suicide. .”

Cai Zhao took his arm and looked carefully, the scars were new and old, criss-crossing, looking very frightening, "Did you cut it with a blade?"

"Well, I can't control it. If I don't swipe a few times, I can't help but commit suicide." Chen Qiushi nodded, his expression becoming depressed.

Cai Zhao suddenly found a feeling of sympathy, yes, there were only the two of them in this building, and Chen Qiushi seemed normal, but in fact he was even crazier than him. "Doesn't it hurt?" He gently rubbed the scars with his fingers, "There are so many scars, and they weren't all made at the same time."

"Well, it's okay, it doesn't hurt, and I'll wake up a bit if it hurts." Chen Qiushi pulled up his sleeves, "Otherwise I want to die, but I can't die, do you know what is the most painful thing in our business? "

"I don't know." Cai Zhao shook his head.

"Watching the client suffer but I can't do anything. I tried my best to help others, but I couldn't do anything. It's like I wanted to help you at the beginning, but I found that I didn't have the ability." Chen Qiushi covered his eyes, tears seeped from between his fingers, he hadn't cried for a while, and the tears had been drained to the point of numbness a few days ago.

"No, you can help me, I need you." Cai Zhao tried to reach out and stroked Chen Qiushi's hair, "Don't cry, you are great, if you can, I hope you can cure me."

"Then what if I can't do it?" Chen Qiushi leaned against the iron gate, getting closer to Cai Zhao.

"It doesn't matter, it shouldn't be worse than it is now, anyway, they have already come in." Cai Zhao smiled self-deprecatingly.

"No, this process may be very painful, and I have never learned hypnosis and abnormal psychology..." When the book is used, the hatred will be less, and Chen Qiuzhen has a deep understanding now.

"It's okay, I trust you." Cai Zhao patted his hand, "It's okay, you can use me as a test subject, I am willing to donate myself to you."

"It's still a donation, do you think it's a dead body?" Chen Qiushi was amused by him, "It won't go to the level of an experiment. I'm also a patient now, so let's heal each other."

"Okay, let's heal each other." Cai Zhao smiled, and the two sat back to back. Cai Zhao began to listen to Chen Qiushi talk about his experience of depression.

Probably those who suffer from depression are good people. Chen Qiushi is a Virgo, introverted, strict with himself since he was a child, kind, soft, and willing to help others, so he chose this career. Depression was first diagnosed in high school. Yes, the academic pressure is high, the parents have high expectations, and they are strict with themselves. Cai Zhao feels very depressed after listening to it.After going to university, the situation began to improve. The relaxed learning environment made Chen Qiushi feel much better. After active treatment, he was able to adjust himself.It wasn't until this accident that Chen Qiushi completely collapsed. Grief and pressure swept over him like a flood, submerging his whole body. If he was sinking in the deep sea before, now he just came up occasionally to bubble up, at least he could still take a breath Air, not suffocating.Cai Zhao laughed at him, why haven't you become a mermaid yet?Chen Qiushi rolled his eyes at him, that also requires an evolutionary process.

Depression can be regarded as a cold in the soul, but it can be mild or severe. Chen Qiushi felt that this time he had a bad cold. No matter how many medicines he took, he had to wait for it to heal slowly.Fortunately, his mentor will come to talk to him once a week, but the grief of losing a loved one is not so easy to get over.Chen Qiushi knew that he also had some stress reactions, so he could only wait for time to heal slowly.

Cai Zhao passed out in the evening, but Chen Qiushi heard the noise next door, so he hurried over to check, only to find that Cay-z had come out again.Chen Qiushi thinks that the transition between Cay-z and Cai Zhao is regular. For example, when it is dark, Cay-z will come out, and Cai Zhao will start to sleep, so Cai Zhao has never noticed the existence of Cay-z. There are also reasons for this.

"Hi, cutie!" Cay-z waved his left hand, "My injury is much better."

"Oh, that's good. Where's Cai Zhao? Did he go back to sleep?" Chen Qiushi saw that the band-aid had been removed from his hand, and the wound had scabbed and started to close.Cai Zhao also asked him about the wound today, and he was very specific