Junior, come to the bowl

Chapter 21 Qi Tian's past.

Qi Tian felt his heart stop suddenly, and then started beating violently again.This is the only warmth he has felt for so long.He stretched out his arms to wrap around Jun Le's slightly thin shoulders, and rested his head on it.His shoulders are thin but seem so thick, as if they can bear the past that gushes out from his heart.Jun Le patted him on the back with comforting meaning, Qi Tian couldn't see his tenderness and gentleness, but could feel his warm palm, rhythmically, with a sense of peace of mind.

The night that has already entered the early winter is already cold, a gust of wind blows and rolls off large leaves, making a rustling sound, and the withered yellow is full of fiery warmth under the dim light.The warmth of the heart resists the coldness of the temperature.

Qi Tian has been strong and independent since he was a child. His parents work in the United States on the other side of the world, and they only come back two or three times a year at most. In his impression, the number of times he sees his parents is very few.Qi Tian doesn't blame them, he knows that he can have such a good life because of his parents' hard work, but he has never expressed his love for his parents, and his parents look at him with guilt, but he doesn't know Whether they love him or not.

But even though he didn't express it, the love in his heart was more turbulent than others.He yearns for the love of his parents, but he has learned early on that nothing in this world can come true. If he doesn't say anything, it doesn't mean he doesn't want it.

When he was young, his grandparents lived with him to take care of him. Grandparents loved him very much. It had nothing to do with money. Their love was like the love of all old people to their grandchildren. Not by his side, it is almost obedient to him.

His original definition of love comes from these two ancient and rare old people.His childhood was not barren, but when he encountered questions like my father or my mother when writing essays, he always had to hand in blank papers.Although he was called to the office by the teacher every time, he always kept silent, his mouth was tightly pressed, and he didn't say a word. In the end, the teacher gradually became impatient and stopped paying attention to him.

Grandpa would pick him up after school every day, and he still remembers his silver-white hair and loving smile under the warm wrapping of the setting sun.He hunched his body and stretched his neck to look for his own figure among the children. The expectant and gentle eyes were the temperature he still remembered in his dreams.After receiving him, grandpa took his little hand and walked slowly. Occasionally, he was greedy and wanted to eat some snacks. A bunch of candied haws or a box of whistle candies.Then he ate slowly, holding Grandpa's hand, and the daylight lasted for a long time.

After lingering and returning home, grandma poked her head out in the kitchen and asked him to change his shoes in a gentle voice, and there was always a glass of water on the table waiting for him to be dried to just the right temperature.It didn't take long for the hot food to be served on the table. Grandma called him to wash his hands in the kitchen, and then took out the chopsticks from the chopstick cage. He carefully checked out three pairs each time and put them on the table side by side.Perhaps because of the heavy population of the elderly, the dishes fried by grandma are always very salty, and he has to pour a large glass of water every time he eats, but he thinks it is the most delicious food in the world.

But he lost this kind of warmth not long after he had it. After graduating from elementary school, his grandfather passed away due to illness, and his grandmother couldn't bear such a blow, and she also fell ill. She went with her grandfather not long after. The guilty and distressed gaze burned his heart.Although he has parents, he feels like an orphan.Grandpa and grandma supported his whole world. Since then, there has never been a slightly stooped figure waiting at the school gate, no one who will buy him snacks while nagging, and no one who is going back home. There is a glass of warm water waiting for him at home, and there will be no more salty dishes fried by grandma but delicious dishes he eats...

His parents, whom he only saw once or twice a year, came back to take care of the funeral, but he only looked at them as if they were strangers, not letting them approach, not letting them touch, leaning tightly against the coffins of grandparents, like If you leave, you will have nothing.

On the day of his grandparents' burial, he jumped into the grave, lay on the coffin and wept uncontrollably, hugging the joint coffin tightly and never letting go. In the end, his father forcibly pulled him up.

His parents wanted to entrust him to his grandmother to take care of him, but his grandmother was old and lived alone, so she couldn't afford to take care of another child.He also thought about taking him to the United States, but he refused.He didn't want to leave the city with his grandparents, and he didn't want to be without even the last bit of comfort.He left. Grass grew on the graves of grandparents. Who will clean them up? No one will burn paper money for grandparents on Ching Ming Festival. What if grandparents run out of money underground?He would rather believe that there are souls in this world, so that he can comfort himself that his grandparents still exist.Just in another world.

At a young age, he calmly asked his parents to find an honest and reliable part-time job, and he lived alone in a huge house.The hourly worker would come to clean the house and cook his meals every day, and spent his teenage years like this.The handiwork of the part-time worker is very good, and the sheets he washes are very clean, but every day he misses the very salty dishes cooked by his grandma, the smell of sunshine on the sheets washed by his grandma, and the warm white water after returning home from school every day, not now. Such a room is cold.

He was afraid that the time he spent alone would be too long, so he began to learn music, etiquette, and everything he could think of. He began to make friends at school, ran for class leaders, and formed a basketball team.He called friends and wanted to drive away his loneliness with lively days, but his parents would always satisfy all his requirements out of compensatory psychology.

In this way, he changed from a slightly indifferent child to the present Pian Pianjia who is knowledgeable, mature and stable.

But his heart always felt empty.

To the girls, Qi Tian is like a real-life Prince Charming, handsome, well-educated, and well-off, so there will always be some Yingying Yanyan around Qi Tian.It's not that he doesn't want to find someone to hug each other to gain warmth, but every time he wants to take the first step, he feels that it's better to be short than to be indiscriminate.

It was only later that he discovered that the reason why he hadn't met a girl he liked all these years was because he actually liked boys.

At first, he felt that he was not normal. He secretly browsed a lot of information on the Internet and went to gay bars secretly. After a long time, he gradually accepted it calmly.If there is one person who can walk with him for the rest of his life, whether it is a man or a woman is not that important. As long as there is one person who can stand with him through thick and thin, walk side by side, and never leave him alone, then what does gender matter? relationship.

If being together is just to continue the incense, and ignore him after giving birth, it would be better not to have the baby in the first place.

Compared with girls, boys are more likely to have pure emotions.

But it wasn't until he was 22 years old that he was about to graduate from university that he met the first person he liked.He approached cautiously, touched him cautiously, for fear of scaring him away.But for such a person, the warmth he gave him was like sunshine, warm but not blazing.

Qi Tiansheng didn't dare to use force as if he was afraid of crushing him, he just hugged him lightly, the two exchanged body temperature, even Jun Le's troubles caused by Li Ran before disappeared.

Qi Tian was afraid that if he continued to hug him like this, he would not be able to help confessing his love to Jun Le, but he knew that now was not the time, and if he scared him away, the gain would not be worth the loss.After hesitating for a long time, Qi Tian let him go gently, and said with a satisfied smile, "Thank you, Jun Lebao."

In fact, Qi Tian didn't tell him that the reason why he called him Jun Le Bao was because he felt that Jun Le was his treasure from a long time ago.

Jun Le blushed belatedly, and when the cool evening wind blew, only the roots of his ears were still red, which could not be seen without careful attention under the dim light. He wrapped his coat tightly, raised his head and said to Qi Tian : "Senior, it's getting late, let's go back." He felt that Qi Tian seemed to be comforted and calmed down, maybe the senior had his own idea, so he didn't say any more.

The misty moon shone with clear light, as if there was an unknown flower fragrance coming from afar, with a sweet and rich aroma, or someone's illusion, it felt like this cold night was filled with flowers like spring.The two walked slowly on the way back to the dormitory, chatting one after another, and the early winter night didn't seem so cold.

After returning to the dormitory, it was already past ten o'clock, Jun Le lay on the bed after washing, and couldn't help but slipped to Senior Qi Tian's body again.He was thinking, how could senior Qi Tian, ​​a proud man of heaven, be as insecure as himself.Later he laughed at himself, probably because happy families are alike, but every unhappy family has its own misfortune.

"Boss, don't play cards." Zhao An took out a few decks of playing cards from under the pillow and greeted him.He rolled over from the bed and agreed with a smile.

On weekdays, he has no time to chat with his brothers in the dormitory because of his part-time job, but he thinks that the people in the dormitory are very good people, and he is not the same as alienating them, so he tries to participate in any activities, and the roommates are also very friendly. In order to be considerate of his difficulties, I also take care of him a lot, and always choose some activities that do not cost much in group activities.

Playing cards is their daily program, and the six of them just play enough.

While playing cards, Wang Junjie, the old five, asked him with a wicked smile: "Boss, life is very nourishing recently, and I look fat."

Jun Le pinched the flesh on her legs, only to realize that she was indeed a little fatter.Zhao An continued to play cards, and said nonchalantly: "It's good to be fat, and you will be able to get out of the circle during the Chinese New Year. When the time comes, my brother will give you a stamp."

The fourth child scratched his head.Followed by playing cards: "Old Zhao, what kind of stamp is it?" Zhao An moved to the side, giggling: "Quarantine passed."

Only then did Jun Le come to her senses, chasing after him and hitting him.The fourth child didn't understand yet, the eldest brother Li Qing gave him a white look: "Stupid, those who have passed the quarantine after leaving the circle during the Chinese New Year are pigs."

The dormitory was bustling with activity, as if my heart was warming up.Jun Le felt that it was his luck to meet such a group of people.It would be great if this warmth can be shared with seniors.

The moon was outside, quietly poking out its face from the clouds, and sprinkled a bright light on the ground.