[Danwanron Hakomae] Hope synaesthesia

The time flow of Komaeda's spiritual world is much faster than that of the real world, and the seedlings will guide him back to the normal life after he is almost recovered from his illness.Although Komaeda was young at this stage, he was entangled in a lot of troublesome things, such as some matters that had to be handled by the family members alone after the memorial funeral hosted by the government for the deceased in the air crash, such as the huge inheritance he inherited, For example, he had recuperated for a long time and was not very willing to get along with outsiders. Seeing that more than half a month had passed, Sapling began to feel worried, so he silently agreed to go back to school.

During those days, Sapling was very fulfilled and satisfied, even though his life was not easy.

When they first entered this world, seedlings should be considered very preferential treatment.The direction of the world is influenced by Komaeda's subconscious favor, and has been leaning towards him.This is not only reflected in the active appearance of Komaeda himself in front of the seedlings, but also includes some common sense laws.For example, when Naegi chooses to go out to work in order to make himself seem gregarious in this world, he may just step out of the house in the morning light and walk to the company, and the sun will completely set in less than 10 minutes, and everyone puts on their faces. After a tiring day at work, he quickly dispersed, so Naegi naturally had no choice but to go back home, and opened the door to see Komaeda, who had just finished school, sitting obediently on the sofa, shaking his short legs, and said to him with a smile, "Welcome." Come back," the bright eyes flashed with joy.

Sapling never thought that he would still have the opportunity to spend time with Komaeda in the past that he had no chance to participate in. Even if it didn't change any real memory, he was happy enough.

Because the sapling at this time is different from the real self in the same timeline. Although he is only considered an adult in terms of age, he is just a young man who has just left school, but sapling's experience and bearing are far superior to those of many elders. He has many grown-ups.

Desperate events in the past led to the collapse of the ivory tower named Peak of Hope overnight. He has witnessed drastic changes in the environment and the betrayal of his companions. Therefore, after going through disasters without changing the heart of a child, the heart becomes more gentle and tolerant.

For him, it is a very fortunate thing for him to have the opportunity to guard his past lovers as an elder and gradually grow up.

It's just that the unreasonableness of the dream world is gradually disappearing at a slow rate that cannot be ignored.

The young Komaeda and the older sapling cuddled together for a period of tenderness. It seems that as the boy grows older, the world becomes more real and clear, and the number of illogical encounters decreases day by day. In the four seasons of summer, autumn and winter, the sun rises in the east and sets in the west, and the days and nights are similarly long. Neighbors and passers-by with vague images gradually have clear facial features and personalities... In contrast, the time flow of dreams becomes more and more different than reality. Big, the four seasons cycle in the dream can't match the real sun rise and moon set.

"According to the prompt of the anti-lost program, you have passed the seventh day since you entered Komaeda Nagito's dream world."

AlterEgo's voice sounded in Sapling's mind without warning.

It happened to be big at that time, and there had only been a heavy snowfall during the day, the snow was covered with frost-condensed branches, the asphalt road that had been cleaned was black and wet, and the cold wind made people exude a cool chill from their muscles and bones .

He was walking towards the shrine with Komaeda. There were many people on the road, most of them were wrapped in thick coats, and many were wearing traditional kimonos. As they gradually approached their destination, the crowd became denser.

Komaeda keenly noticed that the smooth and loose steps of the people around him suddenly stopped for a moment, the subtle pause was not noticeable, but he still raised his eyes and took a look, taking a full view of the absent-mindedness on the other person's face that he had no time to conceal.

"What's the matter?" He asked softly, his eyes darkened, and he called him, "You don't look well, sir."

Seedling didn't speak.

After a while, he shook his head, smiled, and said he was fine.

Komaeda didn't say anything, just stood still and looked at him, the bright lights in the distance shone over, casting light and shadow on the seedling's face, those clear eyes happened to fall in the shadow, the eyelashes fluttered slightly, like is hiding something.

"Let's go."

The air was silent for a moment, but it was Naegi who took Komaeda's hand and led him to continue walking.

The lights of the long street stretched the figures of the two people extremely long, and they seemed to be very similar from a distance.

Seedling was quite happy when he went out. At this time, he didn't want to spoil his mood, but he still fell silent because of his preoccupation.

He remembered that since he entered Komaeda's dream, the flow of time had been somewhat unusual.

In the beginning, Naegi's first two days in the dream world were equivalent to a day in the real world, during which time he found Komaeda and decided to live with him.

On the second day in the real world, he perfected his identity with the assistance of AlterEgo and the completion of the world self, and completely settled down the life of Tong Komaeda. It took nearly half a month in the dream .

On the third day in the real world, he felt as if he had experienced a realistic horror movie that reproduced "Death Comes".For a whole year in the dream, Sapling somehow experienced countless coincidences and dangerous crises.He thought that he was finally rejected by the world consciousness, and his mood was still calm, but Komaeda had been frightened a lot.After all, even if the sapling deliberately kept him from knowing, but because the other party's observation skills were too keen, even if it was concealed for a while, it was inevitable that some clues would be found out afterwards.At this time, Komaeda always hugged him in fear, and refused to speak sullenly.Let sapling blame himself for his incomprehension, which made his childhood lover more and more insecure, and guiltily indulged the other party to become more and more dependent on him.

Day [-] of the real world...

Day [-]...

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The time flow in the dream world is getting faster and faster, but for the people in it, it should be that the time in the real world is getting longer and longer.

Seedling recalled that the last time AlterEgo reminded him of the real world seemed to be three years ago, which really made people feel unreal.

He sometimes couldn't help thinking, if he stayed in this world forever, wouldn't the real world only have a few dozen days until the end of Komaeda's life?That being the case, it seems like a good choice to stay temporarily.

Several years have passed since the first meeting in the dream. Seedling has watched Komaeda grow up from an immature child to a boy of fourteen or fifteen years old, with elongated height, handsome and thin silhouette, clear and sharp eyes, Gradually changed into the most familiar appearance in his memory.

So he looked at Komaeda's face more and more frequently, and fell into a daze, thinking about them in this world, who had spent more time together than in reality.Seedling was a little bit reluctant, but seeing the time for the recruitment of the 77th batch of Hope Peak was approaching, he felt infinite anxiety in his heart.

Sapling knows that he came here to wake up Komaeda, and hopes to find the shackles that have been trapping Komaeda in this world.Among them, the former is actually not too difficult, and it is the latter that really makes him feel helpless.Because the closer the direction of this world is to the time when he and Komaeda met for the first time in the real world, it shows that he has less and less chance to change from Komaeda's past, and if he is helpless about Komaeda's past, The reality also proved that Komaeda never really let go of his knots when he was with him, so what should saplings do?Accompany him to spend his whole life in the world of dreams?

This world has gradually become almost the same as reality, and even Naegi himself is not sure whether he can really guarantee that he will not get lost in a long time, and even regards Alter Ego as a dream.

Komaeda and Naegi followed the crowd towards the shrine.

The climbing steps were piled up with broken snow. They were not in a hurry to go to the gods and Buddhas before snatching people, and they walked steadily and slowly.Komaeda knew that Naegi was absent-minded, and the joy of the two of them celebrating the New Year together gradually faded. His eyes were dim, but he could not resist leading the other party forward.

Drink Tusu wine, eat herring roe, listen to the [-] strikes of the ancient clock, and brilliant fireworks are set off on the other side of the river below the mountain, and the dark night sky is brilliant and bright for a while.

Komaeda took out [-] yen to buy a New Year's lottery for himself and the saplings. He opened his own and saw that it was as good as ever. He tied the lottery to the branch next to the temple without any thought, and then went to see the sapling's lottery. .

"Moji."

Seedling also had a not-too-surprised expression on his face.

It's his luck, it's good when it's good, and it's really unlucky when it's bad, so Sapling has drawn any kind of lottery since he was a child. Daji has had it too, and it fits the position of an ordinary person.

Komaeda raised his eyebrows, and asked him with a smile: "Tie it up or take it back?"

The drawn tag can be blessed by being tied in the shrine, so people who don’t draw the central symbol will choose to tie it on the branch here, especially those who have won the fierce one.

Seedling started to think about Sueji's lottery, although there was an auspicious character in it, it was not a particularly good omen, should I take it back...

It happened to be the shrine's shrine master who was handing out the ticket next to him. The old man looked over cheerfully and looked at the seedling's lottery: "There have been some twists and turns in my stable career, but it's not a big hindrance. Love and marriage are very good. Go back and find a beautiful girlfriend."

"Thank you, but let's forget about the girlfriend." Seedling blinked and smiled sheepishly, "I have someone I like."

"Really?" the old man asked kindly, "How long have you known each other?"

"Hmm... maybe more than eight years." Seedling still had something in his mind, so he didn't think too much about it for a while, and subconsciously used himself as a benchmark to add the time in the real world to the time in the dream.

Eight years, almost two years before this man adopted himself.

Komaeda at the side came to the result reflexively, he was stunned for a while, then clenched his teeth, his cold and sharp eyes were stained with a dark color.

Seedling is always patient, gentle and kind to the older elders, because he has been well-educated by his family since he was a child, and his gentle and soft temper can easily win the favor of others.

For a while, he chatted with the abbot, and after a while, Naegi suddenly remembered that Komaeda, who had gone to buy drinks, hadn't come.

"Nagito...ah, you're back."

Miaomu was a little pleased to find that the handsome young man was standing under a streetlight not far from him, with deep eyes, looking back at him with a quiet smile, holding two cups of steaming hot cocoa in his hands, not knowing How long did you stay.

Komaeda sometimes seems to have a very casual attitude, with a casual smile and no emotions showing, but there is actually a bit of picky willfulness inside.Seeing him showing a slightly carefree expression, Naegi saw that he didn't seem to want to stay here anymore, so she smiled apologetically at the abbot, politely said that she would visit again in the future, and then hurriedly asked Komaeda go.

"Sorry for keeping you waiting, why didn't you call me?"

Komaeda handed the hot drink to sapling, the young boy turned his head and explained his behavior just now lightly.

"I saw that you had a good chat with the abbot. I'm sorry to disturb you rashly. It doesn't matter if you stand for a while."

Komaeda was always thoughtful and considerate, so Naegi accepted the hot cocoa without doubting him, and took a sip slowly. The sweet and mellow cocoa taste was mixed with the steaming heat, which made him exhale comfortably.

"It's okay for me not to worry about you so much." He bent his eyes and said in a caring tone, "What I hope most is that you can be happier."

Seedling has been distressed by what happened to Komaeda when he was young since he fell into a dream, and his support and companionship will inevitably bring out two or three parts of conniving emotions.

Hearing this, Komaeda lowered his eyes and only smiled slightly.

He also held a cup of hot drink in one hand, his slender fingers looked white and slender, and the beautiful fingertips were infected by the slightly scalding heat, giving off a clear light pink, like cherry petals on the branches in early spring.

"You dote on me too much, sir." He said softly, the ending sound on the tip of his tongue ambiguously, and his tone was light as if he was acting like a baby, "Such words will make me think that I am your favorite person. "

Seedling couldn't help but also smiled: "Isn't this a matter of course?"

He always felt that Komaeda's dream was really interesting. Compared with the reality that the other party was always mature and considerate to him, the feeling of being so unabashedly dependent and intimate by him was also very good, which made him feel novel and cute.

Komaeda's heart skipped a beat for a moment, but he hid it well so that it didn't show up.

The wind was silent, and the piercing chill everywhere merged with the burning heat that filled his heart and body. He quietly looked at the warm and satisfied smiling face of Miaomu from the corner of the light in the dim light, and felt his chest was melted by the turbulent emotions. He was so sore that he had to exert all his strength to restrain his trembling breath.

"Because... because you seldom tell me about yourself." He said in a low voice, cautiously, as if he was afraid of something, "I don't know if this question will offend you, I want to know ...do you have any other relatives?"

Seedling didn't expect Komaeda to ask this suddenly, and was startled unexpectedly, his clear eyes dimmed.

"I, my parents have passed away. There is also a biological sister..." He said, glanced at Komaeda, then looked away, "She is not in this world either."

Komaeda couldn't help but breathe lightly.

"In this world, I only have you." Seedling said.

Komaeda stared at his lost face, and after a while, said slowly: "I only have you."

How nice it is that they only have each other.

But Komaeda could hear the sneer in his heart, he knew it was just a ridiculous illusion.

Relatives... He used to think that this was the most beautiful relationship in the world. The ties of blood connected them who had never met before. By my side, from now on, we will never leave each other.

But as Komaeda grew up slowly, he realized that this was just wishful thinking.

Relatives are not a stable and only relationship with each other, and even if it is the case now, it will not be the same in the future.

In other words, Komaeda is so lucky to be able to have and desire to maintain the status quo, but for saplings, it will be a real misfortune if such an absolutely closed relationship continues to be maintained.

He thought indifferently, Naapuki just regards himself as the only remaining relative in the world, and he cherishes himself, which is natural, but this by no means means that he does not expect a person to appear in the future—preferably the one he has been with since before he met himself. The person you care about - spend your life with him.

Komaeda didn't want to do that.

However, what position does he have to think so?

Komaeda looked at sapling, his caregiver, time has indeed treated this person very favorably, and his appearance hasn't changed much over the years... maybe he's a little taller, and he's no longer as young as he used to be, like a freshman The youthful youth, the corners of the eyes and eyebrows are the unique temperament of Makoto Naegi, reserved and calm, with a bright but not particularly dazzling brilliance. As he grows older, he undoubtedly belongs to the kind of person who is becoming more and more popular.

For such a person, Komaeda understands him better than anyone else, and also knows how he treats himself better than anyone else.

He is too sensible and sober. From a very young age, he dug out the wound and held it in front of the person he liked in order to keep the person he had a crush on. Sapling didn't know that such a young child at that time would deliberately Not only did he say those weak words to gain his pity, but there was actually another kind of cold thought flowing in his heart.

He instinctively felt that he had a good impression of this person. If the other person was also close to him, it would be great, but if he met a bad person, Komaeda, who has a deep understanding of his own talent, also felt that he had nothing to be afraid of. Bad people will always die badly.

The child's thinking was still too narrow, and he didn't start to suffer until Komaeda was really sensible and his mind gradually deepened.

Seedling has kindness to him. Seedling is a relative who is connected with him by blood. After losing his loved one, seedling resolutely gave up everything abroad and came back to take care of him... Even if he never said it, Komaeda knew that he had paid for himself Too many, no one in this world is supposed to revolve around others, even if there is, it shouldn't be for himself.

Seedling was so kind to Komaeda, and this kind of warmth and love that seemed to pour all of his body and mind gave birth to absurd thoughts that shouldn't have sprouted.

He...to saplings...

Komaeda's greedy eyes lingered on Sapling's body for a long time, and suddenly he looked away as if he had been burned, and he closed his eyes tightly, suppressing the sadness welling up from the bottom of his heart.

It seems that if he doesn't look at it, he won't think about it again. He doesn't want the seedlings to be contaminated by such dirty and despicable thoughts.

Probably because of the heavy topic mentioned, the atmosphere on the way back was a little low.

When he arrived at the door, Naegi glanced at Komaeda who seemed to be still in a trance, suddenly smiled a little playfully, took out an envelope and handed it to the other party.

"Here, lucky money."

Giving Komaeda the New Year's money for juniors, if this is the real world, Sapling feels that he may never experience such a happy experience in his life, and the reverse is almost the same, and he can't help but thank Hinata-senpai, who is a programmer with full marks, for giving him the money plug-in.

Alter Ego: "..."

Komaeda recovered, blinked, and slowly reached out to accept it.

Seedling happily said to him, "Happy New Year!"

Komaeda sighed inwardly, "Happy New Year."

At this time, even the TV live broadcast of the Red and White Song Concert has come to an end, and the two of them who usually live a regular life can't help but feel tired.The clock on the wall was ticking until midnight, and Naegi, who came out of the bathroom wiping her hair, saw that Komaeda, who had finished washing earlier, was already lying on the bed, reading news on the Internet with her mobile phone in one hand, lazily Squinting his eyes, he looked sleepy.

"Why don't you go to bed first?"

"Can't sleep."

The boy who said so sat up without any support from his arms, found the hair dryer and plugged it in, and pulled the seedlings to sit by the bed to dry their hair.

Komaeda's fingers were very cold. He seemed to be born with a relatively cold body. His delicate and soft fingers gently played with the seedling's hair, and the warm wind was blowing. Soon the seedlings became drowsy, and then Komaeda led On the bed, the other party got up to turn off the light, returned to the bed, wrapped his hands around the seedling's waist, and lay down quietly.

A long time ago, Komaeda and Sapling lived separately, and then Komaeda himself forgot what he seemed to have done, anyway, he coaxed Sapling to sleep with him.He had done so much in the early years of this kind of behavior of encroaching on the other party's attention by showing weakness that even Komaeda himself didn't bother to remember the details one by one, as long as he achieved his goal anyway.

Sapling had always been very comfortable with his closeness.

Such intimacy made Komaeda too familiar with him. In the dark, he lay peacefully with his eyes closed, listening to the sound of sapling's breathing gradually becoming slow and regular, and patiently waiting for the other party to fall into a deep sleep before opening his eyes. squinted.

He slowly raised his hand in the pitch black, vaguely outlining the outline of the sapling's side face from a distance of a few centimeters, this movement was too ambiguous, not like what he should do to his guardian, Komaeda in the daytime I never dared to do this to the seedlings, and I refrained from crossing the threshold in the dark, for fear that it would be irreversible if I crossed the line.

But this kind of patience not only failed to make Komaeda let go of those thoughts of giving birth, but instead rebounded repeatedly with the suppressed emotions, making the depths of his eyes reveal painful emotions uncontrollably.

He was so close to him that he could touch it with his hand. The sweet scent of shower gel came from the same source as his body, and the strands of scent were inseparably intertwined, adding a bit of ambiguous and seductive atmosphere at night.

But he knew it was untouchable.

It's dangerous now, they are already the closest relationship, and continuing to push forward will destroy everything they have worked so hard to build for many years.

After repeated persuasion by reason, desire is still clamoring for dissatisfaction.

Komaeda's eyes were heavy, and he slowly tightened his fingers, his nails sinking into his palm.

I don't know where I read such a sentence, saying that all the happiness and misfortune in this world come from people's wishes.

Fate rotates, he has some experience and understanding, he is used to belittle the many gains and losses and the comings and goings of people, he thought he was used to it, but he was still young and frivolous.

He doesn't care what other people are like, only seedlings are different to him.

Komaeda, who has not lost his memory in the past, can't let him go, and now Komaeda, who has made a fresh start, is suffering because he can't get what he wants.

His suffering is rooted in unsatisfied desires.

Komaeda couldn't help staring at the sapling like a demon, and felt that his soul was clamoring to possess this person. The uneasiness since Ming finally came to a sense of solidity.

How strange that he breathed a sigh of relief. It turned out that this was the misfortune that finally came after enjoying the warm life with the seedlings for so many years.

It really deserves it.he thought.