Reflection fireworks follow the water flow

A few days ago, I went to Suzhou with a friend I just met for a short time. Although it was only a short trip, I learned a lot. That friend was a boy, the most ordinary type among most people. Not an outstanding appearance, not a rich family background, but a heart tainted by the world.

Suzhou is a city that makes people calm down. There are not many high-rise buildings in the old city, but most of the old houses are well preserved.

My unfamiliar friend and I spent a short few days in peace and harmony. It may be ordinary, but it has gained a lot.

"Douzi, I feel that your daily life is very simple and very happy." Many friends around me often say a word to me.

My friend who went to Suzhou with me, Zhouzhuang, which is colorful in the dark, also said similar things to me.We had just had dinner at that time, and we were standing by an unknown small bridge not far from Shuangqiao, surrounded by pedestrians walking or stopping.I sat on the bridge and stared at a certain place quietly.And he stood quietly beside him.

Later, I chatted with him a lot, and talked about ideals. He talked about how difficult it was for him for so many years, and said that he had experienced a lot in so many years.I learned a lot about him from his narration. That friend was not much older than me. He said that he always felt like a string that was stretched. After graduating from college, he never relaxed. He works very hard, works very hard, he has worked as a host, odd jobs, and many part-time jobs. He was born in a not-too-rich family, and he has an older brother. His old parents have already turned gray, and He also couldn't bear the hard work of his elderly parents.

I listened quietly from the side without saying much. Maybe I looked calm on the surface, but in fact my heart was already turbulent. Compared with this friend, I turned out to be too heartless. My life in the first 20 years was too depressing. Many things I liked and wanted to do were never fettered. Over time, I seemed to gradually get used to the days without ideals and pursuits.

That friend answered a call halfway. His mother, who was far away in his hometown, only got a general understanding of the basic situation because he spoke the local dialect and because he didn't understand the language well.My friend is almost 30 years old this year, and getting married and starting a business is about to usher in, but now he has not even got the down payment for the house, and he didn't complain on the phone, just comforting his family. old mother.

After that, his low voice and the noisy environment around him gradually became inaudible.

At that time, I still had some good friends around me. Although I was poor, many friends around me were either rich or expensive.An important member of a government unit, a second-generation rich man, and a local boss who runs a business at home.But the friend next to me is actually very rare.The price of a car bought by friends around me is even twice as high as the down payment for buying a house. There is no contempt, no contempt, and some only praise and appreciation, because in my heart, I rely on my own hands to give myself what I want. Those who have a better life are the most beautiful. These are things that many people who can get a lot with one mouth will never understand.

That's when I started to change my opinion of my friend, and it became more and more profound later.

That night was one of the rare times in the past few years that I opened my heart to someone I didn’t know well. I have always been a person who doesn’t like to talk, because there are many not-so-good things in my heart. I would rather let it rot in my heart than all Tell me frankly, I don’t want to add too much bad mood to my friends, and I don’t want to strip myself away, because even if I have nothing, I don’t care too much, but I still cling to those ridiculous self-esteem in my heart, which is far away and self-esteem.

He asked me, "What is your biggest dream?"

I smiled and said casually: "Eat, drink and have fun."

That is what I have been striving for all my life. Eating, drinking and having fun is my most lofty ideal.

I thought he would laugh at me, laughing at my lack of ambition in my pursuit. A very good friend of mine once asked this question, and I answered him with the same sentence at that time, but he only responded with a sneer , with a touch of incredible.At that time, I was not good at explaining, and I was unwilling to explain.Just like what Liu Tong said: "We are all human beings, but we are not the same kind of people."

I have been struggling to find my kind of people, although the results are not very good.

The friend smiled, he didn't quite understand me yet, but he respected me, and that was enough for me.

He said: "I hope you can continue to live in such a simple way, and I hope you can always keep this simple beauty."

And I also replied to him: "You too, I hope you can continue to work hard like this."

Many people around me, including my family, don't know much about my practices. They think that I can work properly and properly, but why I always think about it.Friends around me always criticize me, put aside my good work, and go wandering around.

But I always just smiled and said nothing. After all, there are so many people like you in this world. Most people in this world are doing things they don’t want to do, saying things they don’t want to say, and occasionally Complaining, crying occasionally, but never thinking of changing.

And as a person who has not gone too far in life, there are still so many things that I can't understand. At the beginning, I wanted to seek the approval of others, and I wanted to try many things that I had never tried before. Later, I fell too much. There are too many injuries, and you don't learn until later.You don't expect too much anymore, you don't plan too much anymore, many well-planned things will eventually disappear like passing clouds, leaving no trace, and the only thing left is your own lonely.

After pursuing too many things, because I can't get it, I want to be recognized, but I am rejected again and again after all.So you are depressed all day long.So there was a trace of sadness in that young face.The smile on his face gradually disappeared a lot.So you are forced to ask to change.

Later you fell in love with traveling, falling in love with being alone, falling in love with a life that doesn’t need others, and gradually you started to talk to yourself, to persuade yourself, so that you can be happy.

Later you learn to be good, you don't ask for anything, you don't pray for anything anymore, with a hint of forced evasion.Why is there so much pressure and desire in this world that makes you breathless, makes you want to laugh but dare not laugh, makes you agree even if you don't want to.

All troubles come from desire. If you want more, you will become more and more restless. If you want more, you will find that your world is becoming more and more complicated.And if you don't desire too much, it will be relatively simple. If you want less, there will not be so many who are right and who are wrong.

Happiness is what I have been pursuing and longing for.As in my not-so-successful life, happiness is really too precious.I have been learning, learning from many simple people, and I have been pursuing the days when I want to laugh and laugh.