Fast-wearing tricks to death

I'm Lu Xiang, the founder of a bug repair company. The Lu family is a big family in their main world. I have many brothers and sisters. I can't tell their faces when I see them on the street. To a certain extent, because my father and my mother are themselves a political marriage, they play their own ways without interfering with each other.

This led to someone knocking on the door of my house every now and then, holding or holding the child and crying at the door. Every time I encountered this situation, I would turn around blankly and leave directly into the room.

These fathers and mothers can handle it, but they just want to get some money. Yes, although I am only less than five years old, going through this process every day makes me a little numb. It is nothing more than crying first, and then asking for a price.

Sometimes my father would even humiliate those children in front of me in order to prevent me from thinking too much, for example, you are just bastards or you are just an accident, etc., and finally threw the check in their faces as the end, looking at those one A woman with heavy make-up, twisted buttocks and chest, the satisfied expression after taking the money is very different from the pear blossom with rain, which is pitiful. I will hold back the nausea from my stomach, watch this farce with a blank expression, Under his father's appreciative eyes, he returned to his room indifferently.

Sometimes even after school ends early and I go home and open the door, I will see all kinds of men lying on my mother's body panting hard, sweating profusely, and my mother will always push those men away in a hurry, and then ask me How did you come back so early.

At the beginning, I always couldn’t understand what was going on, and I would wave my arms with no strength to hit those naked/naked men, warning them not to bully my mother, and those men would not resist, just Keeping your head down, you can't stop retreating to avoid my attack.

But my mother wrapped the blanket around her body casually, took my hand and said softly to me: "Lu Xiang, he didn't bully my mother, please go back to the room first."

At that time, when I was young and ignorant, before I went upstairs, I would stare fiercely at the man standing on the side with his head down, but the number of times was too many, and I was tired. Now, every time I open the door, I just stare at him without squinting. I went upstairs directly, completely ignoring the entangled figures on the sofa, and even the slight groans/groans of my mother couldn't arouse half of the waves in my heart.

I know I'm sick, I have a disease without emotions, I can't be half interested in anything, and I don't have the emotions that ordinary people can easily express, I'm like a robot, step by step every day I'm doing everything I'm supposed to do.

As I grew older, I gradually understood what kind of relationship between my father and mother and those men and women. I also knew what a shameful but unscrupulous thing I saw in the living room. The things in front of the eyes of young children.

When I was 12 years old and saw my father having sex with someone in the garden again, looking at the woman's white thighs and the cock that was shaking up and down due to the impact of the father behind her, I felt disgusted for no reason, and ate my lunch with a wow I vomited out everything that went in, and even felt nauseous all the time. In the end, I could only vomit yellow, bitter bile.

My father got down from the woman, pulled his clothes to cover the important place and asked me what was wrong, smelling the extremely strong fishy smell on my father, the desire to vomit became stronger, my father frowned and told me that if I was sick You must go to the family doctor quickly, and then you can't wait to go back to the woman who has been urging and start moving.

I didn't dare to lift my head. I seemed to be walking calmly, but I fled back to the room in embarrassment. I lay on the toilet and retched for half an hour. I felt like I was going to vomit all the organs in my stomach.

Slowly, after school, I will always stay at school for a while, leaving enough time for my mother to get dressed. At home, I will close the door and not step out of the door, leaving enough room for my father to play.

I am very smart, I just need to touch something once, the teacher often praises me in the class, praise me, do you think I must be the most popular boy in the class who is rich and smart, no, not in the class No one dared to talk to me, because the air around me felt too cold even to the housekeeper grandpa who raised me.

I was being avoided, I was unhappy, no, I didn't even know what it was to be unhappy, I felt that such a smart and emotionless self was more like a robot.

I thought I would never get better, and my whole life would be spent like this without emotion.

Until I met that boy, he was like a light in my life, like an existence that I could never reach.

That night, my father and mother held another party for some reason, and the living room was full of elegant gentlemen in suits and noble ladies in dresses, but the faces of those people were so familiar, I had seen them more than once Nothing is on, naked/naked, flushed and ugly.

I felt a little noisy, so I found a quiet place in the garden to read a book. The sky was already dark, and a shadow was cast on the book. When I looked up, I saw a pink face in front of me, too close. I was so close that the breath of this delicate boy like a porcelain doll fell on my cheek, and I, who was not in contact with people often, took a few steps back, and the book fell from my knees to the grass.

I was a bit at a loss. I hoped to make a friend before, but no one was willing to approach me, and I didn't know how to get along with people. Later, I didn't want to make friends.

But in the face of this beautiful and outrageous boy, I suddenly wanted to make friends again. Just when I was hesitating whether to speak first or reach out to hold it first, the boy bent down and picked up the book and handed it to me with a face on his face. Suddenly, a gorgeous smile like summer bloomed, and I couldn't help but stare a little dumbfounded.

The boy's voice was soft and cool, and he said with a smile, "What's the matter, are you scared by me?"

I quickly took the book, nodded and shook my head immediately, looking completely stupid, I was so sad, the boy would definitely hate me.

Who knew that the boy was sitting directly next to me, with his shoulders close to mine, and I could even feel the coolness of the boy's skin, and his heart beat faster. I wondered if I was sick, otherwise how could the heart beat so fast? ?

The boy looked at the reddened clouds in the sky, and asked me: "Why are you here? It's very lively in front, and there are a lot of delicious food." The boy who turned his face thought of me grinning and blinking his eyes.

I was amazed how a man could have such a rich expression on his face that he even forgot to answer his question.

The boy flicked my forehead, pouted and said, "Why are you ignoring me?"

I hurriedly lowered my head to hide my hot cheeks, thinking that it must be very red now, and said in a low voice, "I don't know how to talk to people."

The boy raised my head and made me look at him. He tilted his head and asked me suspiciously, "Do you have no friends?"

I am a little embarrassed, will the boy dislike me, open his mouth to speak but can't speak.

The boy burst out laughing.

She looked at him in surprise, not knowing what he was laughing at.

The boy turned his face away and said, "You are so funny, let me be your friend, okay?"

I was so excited when I heard this sentence, maybe I still know what excitement is, I never thought that I would have friends, even such a beautiful friend, I think the boy is simply the most dazzling existence, why? Would you make friends with such a dark self?

The boy turned his face and said to me seriously: "We must be good friends forever."

Seeing my reflection in the boy's big clear eyes, I nodded blankly and said, "Okay."

After that day, I found out that the boy is called Qi Nian. He has only a father and no mother, but his father treats him very well.

Qi Nian often invites me to his house as a guest, and introduces me to his father and his friends, but no one can stand my withdrawn and weird personality except Qi Nian, so I still have no other friends.

Qi Nian, Qi Nian, I later found out that Qi Nian was referring to Father Qi and his wife who died of dystocia, while my name was Lu Xiang, and what I was thinking was that the husband and wife would not interfere with each other from now on.

I don't know if it's Qi Nian who sees me as pitiful or something, he often refuses other friends to come to play with me, every time I just stay on the sidelines and listen to Qi Nian, unable to interject a word for a long time, but he Still speaking happily and dancing, my heart is also full of satisfaction.

When I was young, Qi Nian said that if you still have no emotional ups and downs, you can try to study a real-life simulation online game in the future. You try to play a role by yourself and experience other people’s lives, so you may have emotional fluctuations. .

I hold every sentence Qi Nian said firmly in my heart, and this sentence is of course no exception, so when the dispute about whether the novel world needs to be replaced, I quickly seized the opportunity and created this bug repair company. company.

It's just that during that time I was really too busy, and I didn't even have a chance to hang out with Qi Nian.

Although Qi Nian didn't say anything, he was very dissatisfied.

On the day the company was established, I invited Qi Nian to dinner to make amends, and I didn't go outside, just at the house I had already moved out of.

Qi Nian is always a pistachio, even if I don't feel happy, but I am very comfortable with him, this meal was very late, and I drank a few bottles of wine to celebrate.

He leaned in front of me with a flushed face, and said congratulations to me, you can go and play with nothing in the future.

The faint smell of alcohol sprayed in my nostrils, with the unique scent of mint on Qi Nian's body, which made me sink for a while, and my capacity for alcohol is not good. Looking at Qi Nian who was shaking in front of me, I stared at him for a moment With sparkling eyes and bright red lips that glowed with water, his brain was a little hot, so he gnawed it directly.

When I woke up in the morning, I pressed my head that was still hurting. I drank a lot last night, shook my head, propped up my upper body, and suddenly found that the bed was a mess. I was a little panicked. My eyes gradually moved up, and I saw the brow Qi Nian wrinkled and closed his eyes.

Suddenly, those pictures from last night appeared one after another in my mind. I grabbed the quilt and fell off the bed in fright. At the end of the picture, I seemed to see my father and my mother.

Looking at Qi Nian's slightly trembling eyelashes, I thought he was about to wake up. I looked down and saw that I didn't have any clothes on me. I casually picked up the scattered clothes on the ground and put them on without looking at them. I hurried out of the house. , went directly to the company.

After a brief cleaning in the apartment downstairs of the company, I went upstairs, my head was still groggy, and my eyes were always frowning and a little painful expression just before Qi Nian fell asleep. Many people greeted me along the way , but usually I just have a paralyzed face, so they didn't find anything wrong with me.

All morning, I didn’t do anything, I spread out the files and my mind was full of Qi Nian’s faces, the ones from when I was a child, the ones who grew up, and those who were under me last night. After washing my face in the bathroom, I stood in front of the mirror and looked at my rosy face. I stretched out my hand to touch it, and the temperature couldn't be lowered by cold water.

When I walked out of the bathroom and walked to the corridor at the end of the office, I saw Qi Nian, who was tightly wrapped, standing at the corner watching my approaching step by step, waiting for me, my mind was agitated, it seemed that my mood had changed, but I didn't think carefully , I looked around and saw that no one else was paying attention, so I quickly pulled him into my office.

Qi Nian's face was filled with resentment, he looked at me and asked softly, "What do you mean?"

I didn't dare to look him in the eyes, for fear that he would blame me. After all, what my father and mother did was wrong, so I said submissively for a long time: "I don't mean anything."

Qi Nian's voice suddenly rose an octave, and he said, "Then what are you going to do?"

what to do?Hearing Qi Nian mention this, I immediately wanted to take off his clothes and put him under me like last night, but I couldn't, if I did, wouldn't I be a dirty person like my parents, How can I be friends with Qi Nian?

I whispered, "Nothing."

Listening to his gasping more and more, I can even feel Qi Nian's anger that is about to overflow, but the sound reached my ears and it all turned into his out-of-tuned moaning/groaning last night , I didn't know how to explain to him, so I crossed my hands and lowered my head to look at my toes and didn't speak. In front of outsiders, I will always be the vigorous and unsmiling Mr. Lu, but in front of Qi Nian, I have always been just a The child who was afraid of making mistakes and being abandoned anywhere, then heard an ear-splitting sound of closing the door, and when he looked up, Qi Nian had already gone out.

He was still angry, and his heart was a little blocked, but what made me feel the most humiliating was seeing Qi Nian's face flushed red because of anger, and the red marks on his neck that were not covered by my sucking even though he was wearing thick clothes , I was hard, almost the moment I saw him.

I lay back on the sofa dejectedly, thinking about Qi Nian's face to help myself out, looking at the white turbidity on my hands and spurning myself, Lu thought, you are so dirty.

Since then, I have been hiding from Qi Nian, making sure that I do not appear in front of him, and even more so that he does not appear in front of me, because recently my breasts have become bigger and bigger, even looking at Qi Nian's photos Hard, every time I would compromise under the filth, calling his name over and over again, thinking about the scene of him crying under me that day and the scene of helplessly clinging to my neck begging for mercy, and then falling into endless In the middle of self-blame, but next time will make the same mistake again.

Qi Nian regards me as a friend, but I regard him as the women under my father.

I don’t know how many days have passed, the days without Qi Nian are like walking dead, just living step by step. When I was about to go home that day, Qi Nian blocked me at the door of the office. He has come to me several times, but I always avoid him perfectly, but I don't know how I ran into him today.

He grabbed my arm and his voice was a little hurried, he seemed to be angry or anxious, but I couldn't quite tell it. He asked me: "Do you want to be friends with me?"

The temperature in my arm rose rapidly and spread to my whole body. I saw that evil root was about to stand up again, and I tried my best to press it down. The pants I wear today are relatively thin, and it is easy to see the clues. Don't be found out, how can you know what Qi Nian said.

I just heard that I liked you for so long, but you dare to do it or not?

Who likes who, who did what, I don't know anything, my attention is all on the hand that Qi Nian used to grab his arm, with slender fingers, as white as green onions, that's the kind of hand I'm talking about.

Just when I was thinking about how comfortable I would be if this hand helped me get it out, I am afraid that I would be willing to let me die, Qi Nian suddenly stopped, and my heart skipped a beat. Knowing this, he raised his head anxiously, not daring to meet his eyes, but only pricked up his ears to listen to his movements.

From the corner of the eye, Qi Nian saw what Qi Nian was holding in his hand, which seemed to be the latest electronic product, and said word by word: "Lu Xiang, the one thing I regret the most in my life is talking to you that day. Let me tell you, I will seal up all my memories with you now and never remember them again, if you let me meet you again and fall in love with you, it would be better to just let me die."

I finally recognized what he was holding. It was the most popular recently but still in the trial period. It can change the nerve center and set the program in the human brain. It seems that Qi Nian just set it up. Forget about me and programs that never want to see me again.

Sure enough, he hates me, does he already know my dirty thoughts about him, my heart is empty, but I still have no feelings.

Looking at the back of Qi Nian leaving resolutely, a drop of water passed by the corner of his eye, and he touched it with his hand, it was wet and a little cold.

I didn't go home that day, I directly handled business for myself in the company, and went to various small worlds to search for emotions. Maybe after I have emotions, I will understand why I have such dirty thoughts, and I will understand How can we reconcile with Qi Nian.

In the shuttle again and again, I seem to gradually have emotions, I will cry, laugh, be happy, and be sad, but I have lost something, I don’t remember much, I think the design of this company is still not good, there is still something Defects, for example, if you do not return to the main world for a long time, it may cause energy loss and cause some memory loss.

I think I must improve this bug when I go back, but I even forget why I am in these small worlds.