Unlucky

The rain lasted until the next morning. It was rainy and windy at the beginning of spring, and it was a bit cool in the morning. Tianxiang opened her eyes, got off the bed, put on a coat, walked to the window, raised her hand and opened the wooden window, Wisps of wind mixed with moisture poured into the house, dispelling the confusion of just waking up. She leaned against the window and looked into the distance.

The raindrops caused ripples on the surface of the lake, and the trees on both sides were lush. It really is the spring rain that moistens everything.

Feng Suzhen came here with an oiled paper umbrella in such misty rain, walking lightly and at a constant speed, dressed in plain white men's clothing, her figure was like a jade tree, elegant and clean.

Tianxiang couldn't help sighing softly, this is the most beautiful woman in the world, Feng Suzhen.

Then he turned around and went to wash in front of the bronze mirror. As soon as he was dressed, he heard a familiar voice from downstairs, and then the footsteps on the wooden stairs got closer.

Counting one, two, three in my heart... There was a knock on the door, "Tianxiang, it's me, are you awake?"

Tianxiang smiled slightly, and got up helplessly. As soon as the door was opened, she met the handsome face in white clothes outside the door. Her smile was like jade, beautiful and charming, and her tone was bright. what for you?"

Tianxiang cast her eyes on the paper bag she sent to her, smelled the sweet fragrance, and showed a happy expression, "What is delicious?" While speaking, she turned her body sideways and let Feng Suzhen enter the room.

The two sat down around the table, Feng Suzhen spread out the things she brought in front of her eyes, Tianxiang's eyes lit up, showing a child's excitement, "These are...Su-style pastries?"

Feng Suzhen nodded, smiled and signaled her to try it, Tianxiang nodded and eagerly brought a piece of jujube cake to her mouth and took a bite, the soft and sweet taste immediately spread on the tip of her tongue.

Although the imperial chef in the former palace had done these things to please her, the taste was still not as authentic as this Suzhou city.

The sweets delivered early in the morning undoubtedly brought Tianxiang a good mood, and then she began to taste the pastries next to her, mincemeat cake, bee cake, flower cake, chess piece cake...

Feng Suzhen looked at her with a smile in her eyes, and poured a glass of water for her from time to time, "Seeing that you have been holding sugarcane, I guess you should like these sweets."

Tianxiang nodded, wiped the corners of her mouth, picked up a piece of pastry dumpling and brought it to Feng Suzhen's mouth, "I know you don't like sweet and greasy food, this one is neither sweet nor greasy, try it."

Feng Suzhen smiled and shook her head, "Eat, I'm not hungry."

Tianxiang nodded, "Okay, you weren't greedy for these things at first, they are all mine, and I won't keep them for Susu."

Seeing her as a child, Feng Suzhen shook her head and smiled, a doting that she hadn't noticed flashed in her eyes, "We must have a good relationship in the past, otherwise how could you remember my preferences so clearly."

When Tianxiang heard this, she paused for a moment, then responded softly with her lowered eyes, "We were indeed very close in the past."

Feng Suzhen didn't notice her sudden downturn, but her heart was unprecedentedly at ease and warm. Ever since she met Tianxiang, she had this feeling, and she no longer felt that she was the only one living alone in this vast world like before.

After finishing the food brought by Feng Suzhen, Tianxiang lay contentedly on the table, a little lazily, she turned her head and smiled and looked at the people beside her, "Did you come here on purpose to bring me delicious food early in the morning?"

Feng Suzhen smiled, "I also brought medicine to Miss Susu, besides, I was in a hurry yesterday, and I wanted to chat with you more."

Tianxiang squinted her eyes when she heard the words, and said leisurely, "You take this hero to visit the world-famous Suzhou city, and I can chat with you casually."

Feng Suzhen took a sip of tea and clasped her fists obediently, "I'd rather be obedient than respectful."

Tianxiang smiled and looked at him like a son, and couldn't help cursing, "Are you used to being a man? Why do you still look like this?"

Feng Suzhen showed a bit of embarrassment when she heard the words, and explained, "I'm ashamed to say it, and I don't know why, only when I wear men's clothes and act like a man, I feel more at ease and relieved."

Tianxiang didn't answer the words, she turned her head and looked out of the window, the rain had stopped at some point.

The room fell into silence for a moment, and the two of them looked out the window and looked at each other until Susu's voice sounded outside the door.

"My lord, I've brought breakfast."

Tianxiang hiccupped, sighed, looked at Feng Suzhen and opened the door, "What's for breakfast this morning?"

"Porridge and side dishes, my lord, you have eaten too many wandering souls recently, which is not good for your stomach, so it's time to lighten the taste."

In the morning, the girl's voice was soft and contained a hint of coquettishness, and the body in white clothes in the room moved slightly without turning around.

"Hey, Mr. Feng is here too."

Tianxiang nodded, "Susu, I'm not hungry anymore, you can eat this porridge and side dishes by yourself."

"No, I borrowed the inn kitchen to make this for you!"

"what--"

In the end, Tianxiang invited Feng Suzhen to eat together half-begging, proud of keeping her stomach from being too full.

Since Susu entered the room, Feng Suzhen obviously became less talkative, Tianxiang only thought that she was such an unfamiliar person before and didn't think about it.

More than half of the morning passed in the atmosphere where she occasionally teased Susu with a few words.

After the meal, Feng Suzhen took Susu's pulse, and when she was bored, she went to the backyard of the inn for a walk to breathe.When Tianxiang returned to the room, the rain outside had stopped, Feng Suzhen had already felt Susu's pulse, put away the medicine box and saw Tianxiang leaning against the window with a peaceful expression, with a touch of melancholy in her eyes.

Feng Suzhen was curious. The person in front of her had known her before, but even though she lost her memory, she could still feel what happened between them.

"Do you want to go out for a walk?" Tianxiang turned her head, Feng Suzhen was already standing behind her and asked her with a smile.

Tianxiang took a breath of the moist breath after the rain in the air, and after a moment of refreshment, she became interested and nodded, "Okay, you are more familiar with this place than I am."

Feng Suzhen smiled and said, "I will definitely let the smelly hero have a good time."

"Humph."

Looking at the two people in front of the window, Su Su felt a strange feeling in her heart. She felt that the two of them standing together were a bit of an eyesore, so she stood up and said, "My lord, I want to go too!"

Tianxiang was about to nod when she heard the words, but Feng Suzhen persuaded her first, "Miss Susu is just recovering from a serious illness. It's still cold outside after the rain. It's better not to go out for now."

Miss Susu was frustrated and annoyed when she heard the words, she lowered her head and stopped talking. Tianxiang shook her head helplessly and walked up to Susu, put her hands on her shoulders, and comforted her patiently, "Stay in the room and rest for a day. , I’ll go out to check some places, and I’ll take you there again if there’s something interesting to do, and what’s more, can you play the piano for me when you come back tonight?”

Hearing the words, Su Su was very useful, and nodded with a shy smile, "Okay."

Feng Suzhen cast her eyes out of the window at some point, the wind blew a few strands of hair across her cheeks, her pair of beautiful eyes were extraordinarily deep.

Tianxiang's urging voice sounded, she nodded and followed her out of the Yuelai Inn.

Both of them were dressed in men's clothes and walked on the streets of Suzhou, and they both looked handsome, which inevitably attracted passers-by to watch.

Tianxiang tugged at the corner of Feng Suzhen's clothes, leaned close to her ear and whispered, "What did you say to that girl who was recruiting relatives yesterday?"

Feng Suzhen watched a trace of embarrassment flash across her face, and said honestly, "I said I already have a beautiful wife."

At that moment, Tianxiang only felt that everything in the world was no longer important. The two of them seemed to have never been separated or separated.

But in the end, it was just that moment, and it would be calm after that. She raised the sugar cane and poked him in the heart, "Why do you like lying and deceiving people so much?"

A trace of disappointment flashed across Feng Suzhen's face, "I don't remember everything about myself, so what's the difference if I say anything in itself is a lie." After saying this, Tianxiang left behind and walked forward.

Tianxiang looked at her thin back and sighed, "Feng Shaoming..."

The two ate lunch at a riverside tavern. They ordered some Jiangnan special dishes. Tianxiang ate to satisfy their hearts. They drank sweet-scented osmanthus, which was warm and delicious.

After the meal, Feng Suzhen took her on a punting tour of the lake, and the two of them sat on the boat in a simple boat, with fluttering clothes, clear water and blue sky, so romantic and wanton.

"Tianxiang, tell me about the past." Feng Suzhen sat at the stern of the boat, rowing the oars slowly, Tianxiang sat at the other end, eating sugarcane while watching the lake. looking at her.

It took me a long time to speak slowly, "You don't remember, you were still 'Feng Shaoming' when I met you..."

Feng Suzhen's hand holding the oar stopped for a moment for some reason, quietly looking at the person at the bow, waiting for her to tell more stories.

The surface of the lake was sparkling, and the east wind gently brushed against her cheeks, Feng Suzhen's eyes became more and more charming, and she pieced together bits and pieces of her past in that story.

It was only after a long time that she knew everything that she began to think about what kind of state of mind the person sitting in the bow and telling the story had in describing such a moving picture for her.

Such a touching, such a brilliant lie.

The story of Tianxiang is actually very simple in summary, it is just that Feng Suzhen disguised herself as a man to clear up her father's wrongdoing, and she and Li Zhaoting have no regrets and love each other.

The Tianxiang in that story is too unimportant, she is smiling in that Jiangnan sex, downplaying herself in Feng Suzhen's past to the point of being a passer-by.

When the night fell, the two were walking in the crowded street, and the lights were already lit everywhere. Tianxiang stopped and looked up at him, "Feng Suzhen, memory is like water poured in the palm of your hand. Whether you spread it or not, it will flow from your hands." Let’s go, it’s okay to forget, let’s move on.”

Feng Suzhen looked at her with both eyes. This person who suddenly appeared in her blank life knew why she felt flustered standing in front of her.

really.

Tianxiang tilted her head, looked at the lights in the distance, and smiled, "In a few days, I will leave here and go to see other worlds."

Feng Suzhen didn't say anything, but stretched out her arms to hug her, not light or heavy, with cherish, "I can't bear you."

Tian Xiang patted her on the back and whispered softly, "Shao Ming, I can't bear you either."

But what to do, Shao Ming, I have no reason to stay.

The two parted on the street, Feng Suzhen watched Tianxiang turn around, the lights were dim, her back was thin and lonely, making people want to hug.

Finally couldn't help calling her, "Tianxiang!"

Turning around that day, in the light, the tears on her face were shining, and Feng Suzhen had come to her, "Why are you crying?"

Stubbornly asking the same words as in Bird Yixiang that day.

Tianxiang shook her head and grabbed her skirt, "You have to be Feng Suzhen well."

After saying that, he pushed her away, turned and ran away.

Feng Suzhen's arms were empty, and she was unwilling to leave for a long time, but she spoke but did not make a sound.

She wanted to say, Tianxiang, I don't like being Feng Suzhen, you have portrayed Feng Shaoming so well, can I always be Feng Shaoming?OK?

I know, in which story, you finally buried a corner and refused to let me see it.

You didn't even tell me how you met me, you didn't even tell me who you were other than your name.

How can I pretend to be indifferent and let you be like this.

Tianxiang ran all the way back to the inn, Susu's room was lit with lights, presumably the piano had been set up waiting for her to come back and play.

Tianxiang didn't disturb her, but quietly went back to the room, took off her shoes and socks, threw herself into the bed, and fell asleep with her head covered.

Go to sleep, maybe it will be a new world when you wake up.

Susu waited in the room all night, but she was disappointed after all.

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☆, be honest

Tianxiang didn't expect that when she opened the door in the morning, she would meet Miss Shang Susu's red and swollen eyes. The girl's soft crying in the morning was like cold water pouring on Tianxiang's heart that had just relieved from yesterday's fatigue.

Sour, shocked, but empathetic.

"Young master, you said you wanted to listen to me playing the piano."

Tianxiang pulled her into the house, with an apologetic expression on her face, "I was too tired when I came back yesterday, so I fell asleep, I'm sorry, Susu."

The girl was crying beside her, "My lord, will you lose your element one day?"

Tianxiang sighed, pulled the girl to sit opposite her, and said earnestly, "Susu, I will not abandon you, but you are a little girl after all, you will meet someone you like in the future, and then leave me to marry him, right? "

Susu shook her head violently when she heard the words, her expression was more stubborn than shy, "No! The person I like is right in front of me, and I won't marry anyone else!"

Although she already had such a cognition in her heart, Tianxiang still felt surprised and annoyed when she actually said it from Susu's mouth.

She was surprised that she was not Feng Suzhen, and she was not at all chic and gentle when she pretended to be a man, so how could there be women who would like her;

But no matter what, Tianxiang is not Feng Suzhen, and she will not follow the old path of the past. She cannot make up lies, cannot hesitate, and must simply cut off the emotions that should not exist.

Minimize damage.

So Tianxiang made up her mind, with a smile on her lips, she immediately got up and turned to Susu, took off her outer shirt, and then took her one hand and pressed it to her chest.

Her heart was beating, just like she unwrapped Feng Suzhen's chest cloth layer by layer with her own hands that year, the injury was always severe and sudden.

As if she had touched the edge of a knife, Su Su staggered back in astonishment, her face paled for a moment, "You...you...how could you be like this?"

Tianxiang looked guiltily at the shocked and shocked girl in front of her. She wanted to comfort her but found that she had nothing to say. The hurt was real, the deception was real, whether it was intentional or unintentional, a mistake was a mistake after all.

"Susu, you can't think about me like this, because I'm a woman just like you."

Forgive me for letting you know the truth in such a direct way, maybe one day you will be grateful to me for letting you wake up when you are in deep water, unlike me, the day you know, you are already in deep water.

Those past, those emotions are the wounds in the heart that will never heal, festering, and the medicine stone is ineffective.

Susu cried and ran out of the room, Tianxiang followed out worriedly, but met Feng Suzhen's handsome figure in white clothes.

She didn't know how long Feng Suzhen stood outside the door and what she heard, but she just suddenly remembered the past and the knot between the two of them.

Tianxiang faced Feng Suzhen with an indifferent expression, even her tone was cold, "I'm sorry, I'm not in the mood to chat with you today."

She turned around and was about to close the door, but was held by a hand. The man's eyes were silent and pierced into people's hearts, "Don't blame yourself, you just stopped Miss Susu's wrong emotions at the right time."

Tianxiang's body shook violently, and there was a pain in her heart for a moment, her face turned pale, and the hand holding the door frame was pale and hard, then turned around and asked him word by word, "You said, that's the wrong emotion ?”

Feng Suzhen was stunned, not knowing what was wrong with her, she then asked, "Is it absurd for a woman to fall in love with a woman?"

Feng Suzhen remained silent, she reached out to support Tianxiang's crumbling figure, but was pushed away with all her strength, Tianxiang let out a breath, and turned her back to her, "Feng Suzhen, go back, act as if you've never seen me before."

The door was closed heavily, separating the two worlds inside and outside the house for a while. The hands outside the house were still half-raised, and the five fingers were tightly curled in the void, slumped, and the eyes were ashen, unable to see the slightest light.

The person in the house fell down on the cold ground with his face full of tears. She thought that in the past four years, she had never given up on waiting for her to give an answer, but the answer was so cruel.

Huiji will be hurt.Love is deep, life is not long.If you are strong, you will be humiliated.Is that what it says?

Tianxiang didn't know when Feng Suzhen left that day, she only knew that she was exactly as she said, and she never came back after that day.

It turns out that persistence has always been Tianxiang's business alone.

For Feng Suzhen Tianxiang was a little desperate, just like that year when she chased Zhang Shaoming back to the grove outside the capital, she used the excuse of chasing Zhang Shaoming just because she wanted to meet him again, to be sure again.

It's not that she doesn't have the awareness to let go, it's just that there is a barb in her heart that cannot be pulled out. She secretly made up her mind that as long as Feng Suzhen has the slightest thought of staying with her or taking her away, she will go with her no matter what. She didn't care about Li Zhaoting or her daughter's body.

However, Feng Suzhen didn't, she stood beside Li Zhaoting, the two were in love with each other, and even joked about matching Tianxiang and Zhang Shaoming together.

Tianxiang got up, moved the stool, walked to the window and sat down, looking at the bustling Suzhou city with her head up, feeling peaceful in her heart.

At that time, Zhang Shaoming was kept, but it was not for himself, it was an imperial father's decree, Zhang Shaoming had to stay to assist the new emperor, if he couldn't keep it, he would be killed, Tian Xiang didn't want Zhang Shaoming to die , She really wanted him to stay and assist her brother, the emperor who had just succeeded to the throne.

For Zhang Shaoming, it would be false to say that he is not moved, how could he not be moved, a person who loves himself without asking for anything in return, is willing to abandon freedom for himself, and has not even married yet.

She also worked hard to accept him and wanted to live happily with each other, but it was too difficult. They walked side by side in the streets of the capital, so natural and so ordinary, that they lacked all the psychological and emotional qualities that a lover should have. affection.

Finally the man stopped where he was, with disappointment in his eyes but still full of tolerance and admiration, he raised his hand and gently placed it on her shoulder, speaking slowly, "Tianxiang, there is no need for this, we can wait a little longer, okay, wait for you to understand this On the day when the world is truly hopeless, on the day when you no longer expect it, you will come to me and let me try to give you happiness. Now is not the time."

It was the first time that Tianxiang shed tears not because she was not Feng Suzhen, but because of the man in blue shirt who treated her above everything in front of her, because of his deep love.

Really nothing to repay.

... That day Tianxiang sat by the window of the inn until dusk and sunset, thinking about many things in the past, alone and lonely.

Su Su finally pushed the door open and walked in with the afterglow of the setting sun, her figure was slender and graceful, her eyes were still red and swollen, but clear and calm.

Tianxiang raised her eyes and waited quietly for her to speak.

"From now on, I will still be by the son's side."

She turned and left, Tianxiang called her, "Susu, the world is so big, what you see in front of you is nothing, I will show you more and better scenery."

The woman didn't make a sound, and nodded with her back to her. The setting sun elongated and separated the two figures, like an orange river.

In the next few days, the two traveled all over Suzhou City, tasted some delicacies, and saw some beautiful scenery.

Finally, at dusk one day, Tianxiang decided to leave Suzhou, but before she left, she still couldn't control herself and wanted to say goodbye to Feng Suzhen.

It's just that she didn't expect that once she left, she didn't leave.

☆, not leaving