[An Lei Tongren] Flower Acquisition ※Flower Sickness

[An Lei Colleagues] "Flower Harvest"

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The morning breeze blew across the grass, playing a rustling melody.

It is said that after lying down in this grass, you will not see your shadow at a glance. Maybe so, An Mixiu and Leishi are only three meters apart, and they sleep in the same place. Mixiu didn't realize it either.

Looking at the distressed expression on An Mixiu's face, Lei Shi naturally understood in his heart after listening to his words.

Pain began to spread in his heart.

"It's yourself, you don't dare to face it. You are afraid of your own sincerity, because what you really want is the evil party that represents the evil."

Leo told the truth.He looked directly at An Mixiu's trembling eyes, as if he was judging a sinner, trying to see through An Mixiu's heart.But An Mixiu, who was being judged, showed his fear and hesitation even in his heartbeat. He wanted to escape, but he had nowhere to escape, and he was very embarrassed.

Lei Shi looked at An Mixiu's embarrassment, he thought that he would be furious, mad, and scold An Mixiu for his cowardice, but in fact, he just looked at him blankly, It's just that my heart is secretly aching.

Lei Shi: "In the past few days, I haven't done anything that would violate your bottom line. I even disappeared from everyone's eyes for a while. This is already my performance." Lei Shi's eyes moved.

"how about you?"

An Mixiu was choked up all the time, tears kept dripping down Lei Shi's face.He didn't dare to face it, really didn't dare to face it, didn't dare to face the fact that he fell in love with Lei Shi.Therefore, how could he have an answer.

"Lei Shi!" An Mixiu roared hoarsely, showing a determined look, and suddenly opened his mouth, as if to bite down on Lei Shi's neck.

Lei Shi's heart skipped a beat, and anticipation flashed in his purple pupils.He was looking forward, really looking forward to it.What An Mixiu does is fine, as long as he dares to face it, as long as An Mixiu dares to face it, then Lei Shi can give up his identity as an interstellar pirate from now on.

However, just as An Mixiu's teeth bit the skin of Leishi's neck lightly, he stopped.Just froze at this level, for a while.After a long time, An Mixiu gently raised his head, and slowly closed his mouth.After a long time, An Mixiu only left a light kiss on Lei Shi's neck, so light that no trace was visible.

Lei Shi's pupils were completely extinguished.

Lei Shi: "I won't do anything for you again that I wouldn't do. It's not worth doing for a coward."

An Mixiu bit his lip fiercely, and then he ran away.

An Mixiu escaped.

The sun rises, and when it rises, it emits extremely bright sunlight.The light shone on the grass, dispelling the haze, and naturally, it also shone on Leishi.Maybe the sun is too bright, which makes it dazzling.When Lei Shi closed his eyes, a tear was caught on his slender eyelashes, and then covered by Lei Shi's arm, it was wiped away.

"coward."

An Mixiu escaped all the way, escaped all the way, escaped far, far, so fast, it seemed that even the wind and time could not catch up with him, he wanted to escape from his heart, and stretched out behind him Those hands called "true hearts" came.Suddenly, he felt a pain in his heart, and then his knees softened, and he fell face-to-face, hitting the ground hard.

An Mixiu was stunned for a while, then suddenly laughed, laughing loudly.He knelt on the ground, raised his head, tears flowed from his eyes, and a bitter and dry laugh came from his throat, it was impossible to be half joyful.It might be that An Mixiu kept laughing like this, hurting his throat, but suddenly he felt his throat itch, and then coughed violently.The coughing was very hard, as if the lungs were going to be pierced by coughing.He involuntarily bowed down, pinched his throat, closed his eyes, and his eyes were dark, so he couldn't see anything.

"Why did you come this far?" An Mixiu was lying on the ground. Before he passed out, he seemed to see a purple petal in the distance in his hazy eyesight, and he only thought about it in his heart. thing.

"If you can, I hope, forget everything."

"From the very beginning of my birth, my beliefs, my persistence, and the only value of my existence have been to 'eliminate the strong and support the weak, and support justice'. I have always fought against evil forces from all sides. Only in front of them, Even I can't feel the temperature of my own blood, and the sword in my hand has become extremely cold. I only have to eradicate them, and then I will return to people with the joy of victory and accept their praise. Appreciating their smiles, feeling my heartbeat and the warmth of my blood. This is the reason I live. For the evil, I will only draw my sword coldly, and for the evil party, I will not hesitate to attack it... ...I've lived for this until now. So, so, so... It was a mistake, an unforgivable mistake indeed."

"I shouldn't like him."

"It's only now that I finally dare to admit that I've been thinking about him for the past nine days. It's been so hard, so hard..."

An Mixiu even lost the strength and courage to laugh at himself, closed his eyes, tears fell silently.

……

"An Mixiu."

"..."

"An Mixiu, open your eyes, it's time to wake up."

The screams in his ears gradually became clearer, and An Mixiu's consciousness finally came back gradually, and he felt the weight of his body more clearly at this moment.He felt that he was in a standing posture with his head down, but he seemed to be floating in the air, his whole body was empty, there was nothing but air and emptiness.

That voice... An Mixiu raised his heavy eyelids and opened them.He raised his head and looked around, only to see that there was a blank space around him, as if he was in a space isolated from the world, and there was nothing but him and the air.

An Mixiu became more vigilant.The tense nerves sensed that there was someone behind him. As soon as the person lifted his foot, An Mixiu's body turned around like an arrow from the string, and opened the distance at the same time.But when he turned around and looked, An Mixiu was startled, and indeed he was a little startled.

"What?" The man approached An Mixiu with a smile on the contrary, he didn't care about An Mixiu's attitude at all, and he seemed calm and calm.It's just those red eyes, those red eyes that always catch people's attention, always glowing with... a light that makes one's chest feel tight.

Then, the man stopped, stopped firmly, and said: "Do you remember, what you made yourself forget."

"Remember quickly, what you let yourself forget."

The voice that appeared in his mind perfectly overlapped with the voice at this time, An Mixiu opened his eyes and became hoarse.

Same height, same voice, same face, same brown hair, white shirt, black pants, red shoes—this, this is like looking in a mirror!exactly the same!If it weren't for the red eyes and the cold expression on his face, even An Mixiu would have hesitated whether the person in front of him, who even spoke in the same tone, came out of the mirror.

An Mixiu was vigilant: "Who are you, where am I? The dream I had just now... what is it!"

The man seemed to find it interesting, and smiled leisurely, looking into An Mixiu's eyes, trying to appreciate the ever-changing changes in his eyes: "I am another 'you', in simple terms, 'I' is 'you' '. My name is 'An Mixiu', here is the sea of ​​your memory, and what you dreamed just now was the nightmare given to you by the giant silkworm monster outside. If I didn't wake you up, your Consciousness may be immersed in it forever, until in reality, you may die because of the poisonous hands of others, or die of thirst, starve to death, or be eaten by monsters."

"What nonsense!" Sure enough, An Mixiu was furious, and pointed at the person, "Is this a sea of ​​memories? I really don't know what I am now. Exactly the same appearance, I don't deny that this kind of thing will happen. However, this does not mean that there is another me in this world! You are so nonsense, it is not worthy of my belief!"

An Mixiu's expression was very serious, but his arms were trembling, obviously, he was shaken.

"Oh, you are so funny." "An Mixiu" said without thinking.He smiled, but it made An Mixiu feel chills down his spine, without a trace of a smile, he began to approach An Mixiu step by step.

An Mixiu's nerves might be too tense, so seeing the man approaching so reassuringly, he was at a loss as to what to do, his hands dropped halfway involuntarily, and his aura became so weak.

"An Mixiu" slowly raised his hand, stretched out a finger, and stretched it towards An Mixiu's face.An Mixiu didn't know what this person was going to do, but he just looked at the fingertips that were getting closer and closer, but he couldn't move his whole body, and he couldn't move it even if he wanted to. It must be that the person in front of him did something.However, the finger staggered away from An Mixiu's cheek, as if pressing some switch button, and stopped behind An Mixiu's ear.

An Mixiu felt cold all over.

"Turn around and take a look."

When talking, An Mixiu turned around uncontrollably long ago, but found that countless small squares appeared behind him at some point, like projections, playing the past of An Mixiu and Lei Shi, like Movie playback.And the one that "An Mixiu" met was An Mixiu who broke down and ran away in the forest.

An Mixiu froze for a moment.His mouth was trembling constantly, and he always felt like he was about to cry.

"Do you know why this place is blank?" "An Mixiu" took two steps forward, shoulder to shoulder with An Mixiu, looking at the clip together, "Because, this is the memory that you let yourself forget—you look up Watch!"

"An Mixiu" suddenly burst into an angry voice, pulling An Mixiu, who was still trying to escape in his heart, raised his head, forcing him to look at the scene in front of him.

"The dream you had just now is your past! It's the memory you let yourself forget! The giant silkworm monster is actually nothing special. It only grabs the memory that humans don't want to face, and then makes it a nightmare. Let the person involved be immersed in sad and painful memories forever, until the person’s body in reality dies. The last time Leishi met a monster, it was not dead, it was just dying, and turned into a white butterfly. Seek revenge from the Thunder Lion after the injury, and it will follow you and hide in the autumn forest. Watch it carefully!"

That video played until An Mixiu was kneeling on the ground, eyes closed, coughing loudly for the first time, after he escaped from Leishi.He was pinching his throat, and was coughing uncomfortably, when suddenly a purple petal fell out of his mouth with a certain sound, and then drifted away with the wind.And it was after it fell that An Mixiu fell to the ground, half-closed his eyes, as if he saw a petal blowing in the wind in the distance.

"You fainted afterwards. Tsk, you are really lucky. The first person who saw you fainted was the girl who gave you Su Shenghua. Of course she would not shoot you, so she asked her companion to move you away Medical hall. When you woke up later, you were in a medical room with only a few medical robots. But, but, but! When you woke up, you forgot everything! You forgot everything! Hehe , you managed to make yourself forget everything, and then when that girl asked you what was going on, you could still answer with a smile... Maybe you are too tired?"

When "An Mixiu" said these words, he was very excited all the time, and became more and more excited.Yelling too loudly made his throat hurt and became hoarse.As for An Mixiu, following his words, his memory began to clear up. Tears filled with many different emotions followed his forced endurance, but a few whimpers still flowed out.

"Are you tired? Why are you tired? How tired are you? You easily forgot everything. When you stood up again and met Lei Shi, weren't you in good condition and only cared about attacking him? Well, Lei Where's the lion?"

"Does Lei Shi still remember all this?! He immediately realized that you must have forgotten all of this. You selectively and specifically forgot about him!" "An Mixiu" was too angry, Seeing that An Mixiu was still shaking his head and chanting, he was really furious and pushed him hard with both hands.An Mixiu was unsteady, staggered a few steps, and bumped into the wall of this memory space. "An Mixiu" strode forward and grabbed his collar, forcing him to look up again.

"For you, Lei Shi, even though he didn't do any good things during those nine days, he didn't do anything that could be called 'evil'. He restricted his own freedom, and he did whatever he wanted. For you, He even wanted to kill himself for the cowardly you! Even Paley, that silly dog, found out that something was wrong with him! But what about you?! What have you done?! Coward, coward! Even happiness is afraid , A coward who wants to escape even his heart! You trash!"

"An Mixiu" punched the sluggish An Mixiu, and An Mixiu spat out a mouthful of blood.If it wasn't for "An Mixiu" still holding him tightly, he would definitely have fallen to the ground.

"An Mixiu" looked at the blood and tried his best to calm himself down a bit.Then, he continued: "Actually, even if you let yourself forget about this, you will find that you can't help yourself when you come into contact with Leishi. Look—"

"An Mixiu" moved his finger, and a clip automatically came to them.An Mixiu raised his head in a daze, and looked at it.

At that moment, Lei Shi held Thor's hammer and said expressionlessly: "An Mixiu, let's fight."

And An Mixiu looked at Lei Shi and frowned.

There is no other meaning in his frowning, but on Lei Shi's expressionless face, he can see his hatred for himself from his eyes.At that time, An Mixiu felt that Lei Shi was hurting Camille because of himself, and he hated himself in his heart.In fact, An Mixiu guessed right, but Lei Shi had another reason.And at that moment, An Mixiu actually knew clearly in his heart that he was not obsessed, but simply wanted to agree to Lei Shi's request.

Thinking about it now, he felt distressed.Reasons are all excuses to escape.

Later, one of them answered the punishment given by Daniel. On the way to Qiulin, he took the initiative to talk to Lei Shi. He carried the flower seeds by himself, but gave Lei Shi the stars. After searching for a long time in the woods, he could not find any small animals. His body was covered in leaves, and he went to catch fish for grilling when he was dirty... Of course, this is because his own chivalry is good, and what I said before is also the real reason.However, An Mixiu couldn't deny that the previous reasons were not [-]% golden.

Remember how they looked at each other but turned away from each other?Lei Shi remembered everything, so he avoided it, which is understandable.But why did An Mixiu, who didn't remember anything, avoid it?When An Mixiu saw the thunder lion falling from the top of the pavilion, he was frightened out of his wits, and finally managed to catch it, so he dared to breathe a sigh of relief.

Whether it is as a failed friend who wants to live in peace, or just a knight who abides by chivalry, this kind of mentality, no matter how you think about it, is too exaggerated, or in other words, too weird, or even ambiguous.And besides that, there are many, many more.

Perhaps, the answer is already clear in the heart.

When An Mixiu hadn't dared to face his true feelings, when he made a decision, he couldn't help but think of Lei Shi.Just like on that ninth night, when he saw the purple sky, he couldn't help but think of Leishi. He was aware of his situation, but he chose to sleep to escape.But he never imagined that even though he had already fallen into a deep sleep and had a dream, in his dream, he still thought about Leishi. For this reason, he dedicated his first sleepwalking in his life and bought a bottle of The purple ink was watered to the pot of Su Shenghua.Just like at that time, perhaps, even if An Mixiu chooses to let himself forget that memory, in his subconscious, he still prefers Lei Shi, and will still look towards Lei Shi, so he will agree to Lei Shi's request, Even if it was a capricious request, or that request was a mistake.

Even though An Mixiu has forgotten his memory, he still loves Leishi.

An Mixiu finally knelt down on the ground and coughed again.However, he didn't cough up anything.

"An Mixiu" squatted down slowly, looked at An Mixiu, and said: "Dreams are memories, and memories are the past. Even if you abandon the memory, you have experienced it, and it cannot be changed. An Mixiu, if you I don’t understand, if you don’t dare to love Leishi, then give me your body, and I will love him! I love him the same as you, I love him as much as you love, and you have as much as I love you Much love. Just—"

He stretched out his index finger, stabbed An Mixiu's heart hard, and said solemnly: "I will not escape, I can even change myself for him. What people say is true, cowards can even be happy Fear, you will be hurt when you touch cotton, and sometimes you will be hurt by happiness."

"An Mixiu"'s eyes darkened a little bit, and instead of the gloomy light, there was a shimmer without warmth.He calmly let an image come over, and then, after a pause, he suddenly showed that sinister smile.

He said, "Look, this is the thunder lion still lying in the grass after you ran away."

Hearing Lei Shi, An Mixiu finally looked up in a daze.

"Did you see, he was crying." Seeing this scene, "An Mixiu"'s eyes softened, showing a heartache, "How can he cry, he is a proud pirate. See - After he closed his eyes, a teardrop was cut off from his eyelashes, how hard he endured it." "An Mixiu" looked at the image, and his whole body suddenly became soft beyond words.

"Have you noticed that your contact during this period is very similar to before. In many places, it is like a repeat, and how uncomfortable this will make him. Lei Shi even said that for you, even if you give up the Star Pirates It doesn't matter what his identity is, but if he really gave up, then he gave up more than one identity. So, An Mixiu, shouldn't you go back and apologize to Lei Shi." "An Mixiu" finally Going to the last step of my plan, I started to induce An Mixiu, let his eyes and thoughts be all in that illusory image.

As for An Mixiu, he was already out of his mind.

"Look, Leishi is so distressing—come on, reach out, go in, and hug him." "An Mixiu" smiled, but his eyes were filled with distorted joy.He was just waiting, just looking forward to it.

He watched An Mixiu stretch out his hand slowly, and tremblingly stretched into the image, the more ecstasy in his heart, which could not be restrained showed on his face.

"Cough...cough..."

The author has something to say:

PS: I’m here at last. Seeing that if I update fast, then it’s almost over. So far, I’ve found a lot of bugs, or found something better like that, so I have something to say. Originally I just plan to wait until the end to spit it out, so wait.

"Cowards are afraid of happiness, they will be hurt when they touch cotton, and sometimes they will be hurt by happiness."

——[Japanese] Dazai Osamu "No Longer Human"