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Lianqing episode

The earliest memories that Lian Qing can recall are the gentleness of the sea breeze blowing on his face and the never-ending, crashing sound of the waves.He stepped on the fine sand with bare feet, pouted his buttocks and picked up shells and beautiful stones. The sea was so blue and so green. His father was holding his trouser legs, smiling and watching him running around and frolicking on the beach.

He was five years old then.His father, Lian Jiang, was also a well-known photojournalist and magazine columnist.He took him to stop briefly in one country after another, appreciate the local customs, leave some photos and texts, and then go to the next destination.

Lian Qing liked that kind of life when she was young.Opening his eyes every day is a different scene, and new things happen every day, and Lian Jiang will patiently answer his questions one by one, and then order him his favorite cheeseburger and French fries. Sitting around the dining table, watching the pedestrians on the street outside through the glass.

If it rains and they don't have an umbrella, Lian Qing can rush into the rain and step on the puddles on the ground according to his mood.If the rain becomes heavier, Lian Jiang will take off his wet sneakers, put him on his shoulders, and run wildly in the rain at a speed of [-] meters.

Decades later, most of these memories have been blurred to the point where there are only frozen pictures and pictures that look like others, but the joy and satisfaction can still be recalled, but it is difficult to understand.

At the age of eight, Lian Qing experienced the first "transformation" in his life in a foreign country.It was the day before he and his father Lian Jiang flew to the Antarctic continent. He had been looking forward to this trip for a long time, and with the greatest enthusiasm of a child, he recited it on his lips and remembered it in his sleep.At first, he was just weak and inexplicably weak. He thought he was sick, so he went to bed early, hoping that when he woke up, those little ailments would disappear intelligently.

At dawn, the heat swallowed him like a stream of lava, and his patience was betrayed.In the heavy snow, Lian Jiang was awakened by him, carried him on foot for a few kilometers, and sent him to a clinic for strange animals.

In the blur, the quarrel between father and others gradually faded away.Lian Qing was terrified, and suddenly found that he had turned into a monster.Something fully awakened inside him.He howled and struggled, trying to destroy everything in sight.The anger and resentment that originated from the depths of the soul seemed to have been accumulated for tens of thousands of years, so strong that it could not be ignored.He was frightened by himself.His remaining consciousness struggled to resist the erosion of another species, but it was in vain. In less than 10 minutes, he completely turned into a beast.

The world is dark, and he keeps falling, without end.He longed for someone to save him, but what he reached out to grab was emptiness and darkness, coldness and loneliness.He was too tired to think, and only the most basic sensory awareness remained.

After tens of thousands of years, he finally opened his eyes and returned to the real world.

The doctor sat by his bed, soothing his panic and confusion.He told Lian Qing that as a strange beast, he experienced the most precious first transformation in his life.

If one wants to deeply analyze a certain meaning, then it can be said that this transformation symbolizes the beginning of another life for him.

When looking at the distant mainland from the small window of the plane, the young Lian Qing didn't know that this departure was a permanent farewell.His long-awaited trip was never mentioned again.He followed Lian Jiang back to the country and lived in a very big house.The house is hidden in the mountains, so big that it seems that you can never get out.An ancient wooden building, I don't know how many years it has spent in the mountains and forests.There is a decaying and silent atmosphere everywhere.The servants were quiet and dutiful, no one dared to look up at him.He has no playmates, and there are countless lessons waiting for him every day.Lian Jiang would come sometimes, wearing a long and complicated robe, with a gloomy expression, as if he had lost his soul, his face was dull and lifeless, only when he faced him, the eyes that were always happy and excited in Lian Qing's memory would leak out. The slightest different emotion.

When she was a little older, Lian Qing knew that that emotion could be called guilt.He was taught a lot of new knowledge.He knew the responsibilities and obligations represented by the name "Young Master", and he also knew that he belonged to a secret and huge group.This group has been lurking under the majestic material world, they have their own laws and rules, and they believe in unknowable mysterious powers.They divided all the people of the tribe into two categories according to another form: male and female.And most other knowledge that needs to be understood is closely related to this.

He absorbed the information and silently observed the people around him.He left the barren and terrifying big house in the deep mountains and moved into the city.He returned to North America and was sent to the most prestigious private college in his family.One day of vacation a month, and two long vacations a year to go home and visit my parents.

Speaking of parents, Lian Qing is not close to her "mother".He is completely different from what he imagined when he was a child.When he and Lian Jiang were the only ones in his world, he once compared his playmate's mother and imagined a general appearance in his mind.She should be slender and soft, with gentle, shining eyes, long and curly hair, she would touch his bruised knee, shed those beautiful tears, give him a kiss on the forehead, and comfort him with her arms uneasy.

But his "mother" was a man.men in ordinary society.But in his group, no one thought there was anything wrong with it.Among the alien beasts, male and female only represent the difference in their reproductive organs in human form, and because they do not determine reproduction, they are insignificant.What really differentiated within the group was the sex of their bestial forms, female and male.

His birth name was Lian Xun, and he called him Daddy.He is a head taller than Lian Jiang, and his body is as strong as a moving hill.His eyes are narrow and sharp, and he always has a straight face, reprimanding him for what he did not do well, for a certain behavior that crossed the line, and for what to do in a certain aspect.

He hates him, but it's more of a fear.He made Lian Qing feel small and unlovable.The rebellious years of his youth - although it was not obvious, but he did experience it - even bred resentment for why he was born.He hates himself.Hate the people around him.Hate everything that comes his way.

The first half of his boarding life was full and rigorous, which was passable.Compared with the dullness of Lian's old house, there is at least something else there.He likes parties and parties, and a group of people get together to discuss a theory, sometimes he meets new friends, they are funny and energetic, some of them will try to make friends with him, and he is always patient at first Temperament responds to the other party's kindness, but after a while, he will get tired of it.

After several years, Lian Qing was still alone.He is not withdrawn, and he is quite gregarious. Other young beasts in his age are interested in him, but they just can't make friends with him.At that time he was already tall, his body was very strong, his arms were strong, his abs were hard, he could break a silver spoon with a pinch, and he could also punch those bastards who tried to provoke trouble.Most people have the same changes as him.

The counselor in the infirmary told them that this is one of the manifestations of entering adolescence.During puberty, their bestiality becomes sexed, and their reproductive organs begin to develop and mature until they are finally ready to reproduce.Some of the beasts will awaken their abilities at this time, while others will delay until adulthood.

The duration of puberty varies from individual to individual, ranging from three to five years to a few months to a year.Once the animal body has truly matured physically, they enter adulthood.

The young teacher is like a prophet.In less than three months, everything Lian Qing was familiar with seemed to have changed.There are fewer large group gatherings, and students of the same age are no longer interested in sports.They began to change their hairstyles, clothes, and grooming, wandering around, eyes wandering, everyone is looking, as if a restless anxiety spread in their bones, it seems that tomorrow is the end of the world, and before that, they You must find something tangible to prove your existence.

They flirt and hang out everywhere, and some even do some bold behaviors in public regardless of their eyesight.Older animals are naturally divided into two categories—male and female.A small number of people become gentle, restrained and calm, they are male; more people, like Lian Qing, are physically stronger and more excitable, they are aggressive, reckless and aggressive.Every male and female is looking for in another group. With their inquiring eyes, they screen and identify one by one, and find the one they belong to, or the one that belongs to them.

Lian Qing’s roommate, Lian Jian, is an enthusiastic and outgoing young man who likes to play football and talk loudly about political and economic issues. No matter what he says, his tone is firm and firm, which makes people doubt whether he really has no doubts about what he said , and never timid.He took a fancy to an impassive blond male in the lower grades.According to him, the other guy is very sought after, and I don't know how many people want to climb into his bed. He wants to prove to the other party that he is better than any other guy.

They later established a relationship.Lian Jian clings to that male named Lian Jian every day.But it's not just the two of them.Lian Qing has also seen Lian Jian and other females in intimate poses and in an ambiguous atmosphere.He even bumped into them doing that shit in the bathroom.

Lian Qing felt angry.But his anger has no way to vent, and there is nothing to talk about.

Lian Jian publicly admitted that there are four boyfriends.Lian Jian did succeed, Lian Jian chose him, but he was not the only one.

Lian Jian got along pretty well with the other three females.They are a small group, often whispering together, or laughing with their heads up.They share little secrets and even choose the right sweaters for each other.They would discuss Lian Jian in private, and Lian Qing had overheard it a few times, in a tone that seemed to be talking about a god who was holy, undefiled, and attainable.This kind of conversation can last for several hours, and several people are still full of energy and never feel tired.

Lian Jian would often take Lian Jian to their dormitory.And that indifferent and handsome male didn't apologize for his rash intrusion at all.They would make love all night long, the bed would creak, and Lian Jian would scream. It was refreshing and joyful at first, and then it would slowly become painful.He would beg him, plead with tears, but the other would be unmoved.

After Lian Jian left, Lian Jian would lie in the room for a long time, and usually he would get up to wash his hair and hair unkempt at noon.

He has occasional bruises on his face but never breaks on his body.Lian Jian gradually stopped laughing, and would shrink into a corner when there was a party.

Lian Qing didn't know what to say.Every time he tried to talk to Lian Jian, he would always be perfunctory by the other party.He wants to tell his roommate that if you don't like it, you can take the initiative to break up.But in the end, he hesitated again and again, and chose to remain silent.

Many nights, like Lian Jian, he was tossing and turning, restless and restless. He could feel that the monster hidden deep in his soul was returning little by little.Tyranny is its form, blood is its desire, it roars and howls, it wants to tear up, it wants to destroy, until the end of all things.

The peaceful campus life suddenly becomes boring and suffocating.Lian Qing was horrified to find that he became more and more like those females.The abstract theories are obscure and the words in the books are meaningless. He can't help but pay attention to those males—they are delicate, soft, and beautiful, exuding a peaceful and warm smell, even if they just walk beside them, the star in their chest The heart that is about to go crazy will also be slightly relieved.

The raging beast voluntarily lowered its proud head, the whispers day and night stopped wanting to move, and all thoughts converged into a clear goal-it wants to protect that kind of peace, it is greedy for that kind of warmth, it wants to To be conquered and ruled, it can pay any price, as long as it can get the mercy and love of the gods.

But that's just an illusion!There are no gods in this world, and there is no eternal peace.If they cannot overcome the animal nature of their bodies, they will fall into chaos and repeat the tragedy that their parents experienced.

Lian Qing regards the awakened female instinct in his body as a scourge, he is full of vigilance, strict restraint, every time the males smile at him, and when he wants to bow his head from the bottom of his heart, he will suddenly wake up and push Driven by the huge temptation that was close at hand, he staggered away alone.

For Lian Qing, compared with this instinctive impulse, what is more difficult to deal with is the estrus period.There will be dozens of days of torment every two months.He has no appetite, his body is hot, and he can't concentrate at all. He just wants to find someone to fuck himself.He tried some props, but nothing worked, so he could only lock himself in the room, gritted his teeth, and resisted with what little willpower he had left.

It makes no sense at all!

Lian Qing frantically smashed the books off the shelf one by one.Among the flying paper pages, he sat on the ground exhausted, crying with his head in his arms.

In the tenth grade, there were almost no singles in the grade.There are couples everywhere.A male usually has three to five females for sex.The females compete for the rare males, taking care of them and pampering them, just like treating some rare treasures.They actively hand over the dominance of their bodies, allowing them to control their behavior and change their dressing and even their hobbies for them.Under this irresistible trend of change, Lian Qing has even fewer people who can speak up.

Once, Lian Jian took the initiative to talk to him. In a noisy party, Lian Jian took the initiative to lean against his side, put her ear on his neck, and even wanted to reach out and touch his thigh.

He was taken aback—then he felt sick and angry, at Lianjian's natural response and his body's enthusiastic response.His body prepared silently, but swiftly, the stick swelled, and the liquid leaked out of the acupoints.He fled in a panic, and came to the balcony alone, falling into great confusion and irritability.

That night, Lian Qing sat on the bed, the moonlight poured in from the window, and the branches divided the moonlight.He looked at the white snow outside the window, thinking quietly.

Why can't he be like them, he asked himself?Why can't you follow your instincts?Why can't I happily find a male for myself, open my body for him, and enjoy the joy of physical union?

Why, does he feel dirty? !

The faces of Lian Jiang and Lian Xun jumped into his mind.He covered his eyes.He thought of the atmosphere at home—alienated, cold, suffocating, suffocating, and the servants Lian Jiang later married back home.

When he didn't know anything, he actually liked Lianjiang's servants quite a lot.Lian Sen is handsome and knows a lot. He is patient and can play games with him for hours; Lian Feng likes to be busy in the kitchen and can cook all kinds of delicious dishes without limiting the amount of food he eats; Lian Xun, who is often invisible, is much more amiable.Lian Qing, who was in the third grade at the time, wanted to get close to them from the bottom of her heart.

But then he discovered the adults' secret.Lian Sen and Lian Feng would take turns going to father's bedroom at night.Occasionally the two will be together.They served his father with their bodies, humbly and contentedly.And the man in his memory who was always gentle would be extremely ruthless.He looked at them as if he were looking at a thing, an object, he was assessing the value, weighing the pros and cons.

Lian Jiang wouldn't look at Lian Xun like that.To Lian Xun, he is more like a submissive.His eyes are soft, his lips are fresh and tender, he can't help curling up the corners of his mouth, his eyes are bright.Similarly, Lian Xun will be reborn at that time.He was so relaxed and stretched, intoxicated by another person's kiss.They would sleep in each other's arms, holding hands until dawn.

But such scenarios are becoming less and less common.When Lianqing was in sixth grade, it never happened again.And he has never caught a glimpse of other alien beast families.

A family of alien beasts usually consists of one male and several females. Males are usually full of wisdom, alertness and calmness. They will go out to work, support their families, and comfort the animal nature of females to keep them rational; , They raise offspring, serve males, resist foreign enemies, and protect the weak.Over thousands of years, due to the increasingly disparate sex ratio, ethnic groups have gradually lost their balance.Males who are easier to adapt to industry and technology have mastered resources and the right to speak, while females are attached to males and become their real-name registered property.

In the process of the continuous evolution of the human species, violence and conquest remained, while warmth and intimacy disappeared.Perhaps this group whose original posture is a wild beast will never be able to get rid of this animal nature.

When she was 11 years old, Lian Qing completely started to go her own way.He had no one to talk to, no one to confide in, and lived alone.He focused on course credits, stayed up all night working on a paper, and stopped going to fraternity parties or even trying to fit in their topic circles.He naturally broke away from his original group and became a well-known "heterogeneous" in the school.

During the summer vacation of the 11th grade, he asked Lian Jiang to change schools.It took him a lot of hard work. He checked a lot of information in advance and made all preparations, but Lian Jiang just watched him quietly for a while before agreeing to his application.

He transferred to regular high school for his final year before university.He feels relaxed and attuned to the society of ordinary people.He doesn't have to think about the meaning behind the gender of "female". Here, he is a man, the one who holds the dominance.He can do anything without unnecessary worries and stress.

A year later, he got an offer from the target school.At the same time, his former roommate Lian Jian contacted him and said he wanted to meet him.

Compared with two years ago, Lianjian has changed a lot.It is obviously the same face, but it looks like two people.The cheerful and lively boy Lian Qing knew and liked disappeared.Appearing in front of him was the father of two children.His children are clean, tidy, and sensitive, in addition to being extraordinarily curious.Once the father's attention left them, he would cry loudly, and Lian Jian had to obediently pick up his children, pat their little backs, and coax them softly.

Lian Qing has only been separated from the ethnic group for a short year, and the world that once troubled him has gradually become distant and blurred in the new environment. He can recall what happened, but it is only a memory and description.To be honest, the appearance of Lian Jian troubled him a bit.He felt something revive in his mind, and he tried his best to suppress and escape.

Lian Jian told him about his life after he left: he had an unexpected pregnancy, and Lian Jian married him; logically, he gave up his studies and concentrated on raising children; he cooked breakfast, washed clothes, and cleaned the house for Lian Jian; he was admitted to university, He still has to continue his studies; he comes back later and later; he feels that he is going to lose him.

What about the rest?Lian Qing knocked on the table and asked.Different from the confusion and confusion a few years ago, he was taciturn and had sharp eyes, and something terrible was brewing in his eyes.Lian Jian didn't know what it was, he was just terrified, but also vaguely excited.

Excited about what?Even Jian couldn't tell.He went on to talk about the other three companions.One broke up with Lianjian and continued to hang out in various social situations. The males secretly laughed at him, but turned around and asked him to dance and have sex with him; the other followed Lianjian every step of the way, and Lianjian was bored with him; The other fell in love with a lower-grade male, and the two were having an affair.

After separating from Lian Jian, Lian Qing wrote an email to Lian Jiang that night.

"I want to stay in the United States to study. This is my choice. No matter whether you approve it or not, no matter what father's opinion is, it can't stop me from realizing my dream. Maybe my dream seems ridiculous to you, but this is In my life, I should have the right to choose."

Lian Qing heard from Lian Jiang that his biological father objected to his studying abroad.But not many.Lian Jiang and Lian Xun have completely opposite views on many things.Regarding his request, Lian Jiang finally said YES, regardless of Lian Xun's opinion, Lian Jiang is still the one who decides the family.

Lian Qing was thus free for another four years.free.He loves the word.In the first eight years of his life, he was free. There were no rules, no obligations, and nothing he should or should not do. He could express his opinions as he wished, say what he wanted to say, and listen to what he wanted to hear.But not anymore.There are countless people scrambling to tell him what he should do and what kind of person he should be. If he can't do it or can't do it well, he will be punished and scolded.He felt that he was a bird whose wings had been clipped, kept in an ornate cage, and died slowly.

The most frightening thing is that he subconsciously agrees with the rules and meanings imposed on his mind.If he defies, he is even anxious, fearful, restless.He struggled like this throughout his teenage years.

He had to seize this last chance.

He didn't want to go back, didn't want to be willing, didn't want to bow his head, and didn't want to accept his fate!

Four years later, another six years.He went to graduate school and then to a Ph.D.His greatest hobbies are reading and thinking. He observes people, asks questions, and looks for answers.He graduated without a hitch, and he's doing well.Colleagues and friends congratulated Lian Qing. He was proud and proud in his heart. He thought he had accumulated enough strength and courage.

He decided to return home.

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