The hero does not look back!

Chen Yuan put on his clothes hastily and left, complaining a lot. When he left, he looked at Lu An apologetically and said that he would be back soon. Lu An smiled at him reassuringly, and waited for Chen Yuan's figure to disappear behind the door panel. At that moment, Lu An's smile finally collapsed.

Compared to being entangled with Chen Yuan, Lu An actually wanted to be alone a long time ago.On the balcony, bright flowers and plants were placed by the careful second brother, which looked chic and peaceful. Lu An stared at the stars on the window sill. The sky here is vast and the air is clear. Even the night sky seems farther away than other places.Lu An sat on the chair by the window sill, thinking of nothing, thinking of Xue Rong.

Lu An thought, Xue Rong really can't stand up?Lu An thought that he planned to watch the house and live in depression for the rest of his life?Lu An thought, he is really haunted.

Lu An didn't know when he fell asleep. He slept deeply in the recliner, but the wind also blew, and he felt dizzy when he woke up in the morning.Chen Yuan didn't return all night. When he came back, Lu An had just taken some cold medicine and fell asleep again.Seeing that Chen Yuan's expression was not good, Lu An didn't ask any more questions, and simply hugged him tiredly, rubbed his temples and lay down on the bed.Looking at Lu An's lazy back, Chen Yuan sighed after all, and went straight back to school.

Lu An has something on his mind.

Chen Yuan drove away from this quiet town, watching the familiar scenery gradually fade away, the melancholy and loss in his heart, there is no second person in the world who can know.That annoying peacock asked Chen Yuan a question last night, and Chen Yuan was overwhelmed by the question.

does he love you

Chen Yuan didn't have the confidence to affirm it confidently, and felt that denying it all at once was not suitable for the facts, but he knew in his heart that Lu An didn't love him.

That's not love.

After many years, just like ordinary lovers, there is freshness of acquaintance, enthusiasm of falling in love, and peace of mind of staying together, but it is not [-]% love.

Lu An has something on his mind, even if those old things are destined to rot in his heart for a lifetime, even if those people and those things will never be exposed to the sun, there is always a person in his heart who is engraved in his bone marrow, this person will not die, no It will disappear, it won’t even fade, it will be like a curse between the two, sometimes it will turn into a confused look, sometimes it will turn into a small sigh, sometimes it’s even a murmur in a nightmare in the middle of the night .

Chen Yuan drove back to the school and met the old professor when he entered the laboratory. Chen Yuan greeted him with a smile, pondered for a while, and said, "Professor, how did you gain courage? I mean you and your lover."

The old professor shook his head mysteriously and smiled, and said: "No, no, not that brave. Doubt and wandering are always inseparable from courage. There are also times when you are angry and tired. Hey, young man, the point is, in our eyes only Seeing each other, yes, I have vision problems, I can only see him, you say, what can I do?"

Chen Yuan smiled and said, "Thank you, Professor."

Chen Yuan took care of everything in school, even booked the air ticket to the United States, and then notified Lu An, and didn't even go back to the town, just made a phone call, Chen Yuan said: "Lu An, I have to go gone."

Lu An was taken aback, and asked, "What, where are you going! Chen Yuan, please speak up, the child is playing with a toy car, it's too noisy!"

Chen Yuan smiled, the smile was as gentle as ever, with deep nostalgia and love, but Lu An couldn't see it.Chen Yuan held the phone tightly and said, "To the laboratory in the United States, tomorrow's air ticket."

Lu An was silent, Chen Yuan told him about the airport and the flight, what he wanted to say, but felt that it was better not to say anything more.

The next day at the airport, Lu An, who had been waiting early, met Chen Yuan. Chen Yuan hugged Lu An and said, "I'm glad you can come."

Lu An's cold was even worse. After receiving Chen Yuan's notice, he felt a little bit overwhelmed. He felt dizzy with a stuffy nose, and said, "Why didn't you tell me in advance."

Chen Yuan looked distressed, but said calmly: "Let's separate."

Lu An was silent, Chen Yuan's eyes were sore.

They both understand each other very well, and even when this day comes, no one is surprised. He wants to be [-]% pure and focused, but it's a pity that it's just an episode in the end.

Chen Yuan originally wanted to say, if you want me to come back or come to find me if we are separated for a while, I will wait for you all the time.But he looked at Lu An who was silent, and he didn't say the hypocritical words after all.

Chen Yuan just left.

Lu An's cold was always bad, and within a few days, it turned into pneumonia.

After all, Chen Yuan wanted to lighten his weight in Lu An's heart. In other words, Chen Yuan's unilateral departure hurt Lu An's vitality.

Passers-by come and go in life, there are people who can’t be kept, and there are people who can’t stay, the banquet is separated, the old friends are no longer, it consumes heart and blood, the bamboo basket is empty, who is to blame?In the end, what you think is separated by two layers of people's hearts, you can't get in sync, and you miss expectations.

Chen Yuan left alone for many years, he did not look back, nor did he wait for Lu An.Many years later, when people around him asked him if he regretted it, Chen Yuan, a scholar who had been honored on the other side of the ocean, smiled gently and affectionately, but he did not answer.It was already a long time later, whether it was him or Lu An, they had already found their own world after struggling.