The whole world prevents me from jumping into the river

"Don't be so serious." There seemed to be insects crawling on her body, and there was an icy coolness on her back, and an uncomfortable sticky feeling. She smiled lightly, as if ordinary people couldn't taste the taste of tea, "I mean our column , Aren’t you going to participate in the competition, I thought about it, and I think it’s more suitable for you to be the team leader.”

"Eh? Team leader, don't say that. You are very capable, and we will all listen to you." Cao Dong sat upright.Pulling the chair, she bowed her body and looked at her straight. She was flustered by the stare, and said softly, "Excellent personal ability may not be suitable for a manager. Zhou and I I'm not very familiar with Peng. I heard that some people want to join? It's better for you to be the master, and you belong to the student union. Submit the list, do you think about it?"

"Okay." Cao Dong straightened his back suddenly, "Then I won't be modest, but you are the backbone of our team, and we have to rely on you at critical moments."

"Yes." Tao Anan agreed, "I'll be leaving first."

"Don't, the chairman asked me to watch you."

looking at her?She turned her head in surprise, Cao Dong knew he had made a slip of the tongue, and waved his hand, "I'm going to have dinner with us later, I'm afraid you will run away."

The superfluous words made her think a little more. Su Ruanruan is not blind. It can be seen that standing by the river is not just enjoying the wind, looking at the scenery and enjoying life in the rain——but a real decision to leave this world, Su Ruanruan. Ruan Ruan didn't say anything, but her heart was as bright as a mirror.

It was always difficult to hide her thoughts in front of Su Ruanruan. Tao Anan felt that she was eaten to death by Su Ruanruan, but she was still a little persistent. Even if she hadn't been reborn many times, her original scruples and persistence were still there.

I don't know when I will be overwhelmed by such a wave of emotion and lose my original calmness and self-control.

"Then I'll go to the bathroom first, and I'll be here later." Tao Anan made the best second choice, went to the bathroom, turned on the faucet, and patted some water on his face. It was cold and sharp, and penetrated a little bit. Some bewildered eyes came.

The self in the mirror is pale, not very complex, the most obvious expression is that the lip color is very pale, so pale that there is no trace, there is cracked dead skin at the corner of the mouth, she pulled it, suddenly pain came, the corner of the lip stained There was blood, and a small spot was stained red.

"Hee hee hee..." Someone chuckled in her ear, the voice seemed to be coming from the toilet cubicle inside, she walked in, the sound was swaying, more and more like it was in her ear, the toilet compartment inside The doors were all open, no one was inside.

"Hee hee hee hee..." The voice rang in my ears unyieldingly, lingering in my ears, flashing past, hula hula, huh huh, huh huh... The voice became more and more eerie, grotesquely looking for it from reality No such noise.

Tao An'an slightly turned her face away, thinking it was her own hallucination, she was the only one in the mirror who opened her eyes blankly, she was disturbed by the sound, and forgot to turn off the water, the water was splashing, she turned off the water, silently, It seemed that he couldn't hear the chaotic and grotesque laughter, and the sound disappeared when he left the bathroom.

Even though she was a little scared, she still looked indifferent in the end. She rubbed her temples, and someone brushed past her, talking and laughing as usual, and no one seemed to hear the weird sound.

The unique voice of the dead?Tao An'an gave an explanation on his own.

The voice never appeared again, so she attributed it to her hallucinations of the dead. The hallucinations of the dead were small pink flowers blooming in the tombs, blooming a soft light in the dark and quiet night.

She thinks that this kind of metaphor should be used, pretending to be a dead person, drinking hot milk, sitting in an office with fully air-conditioned, her head suddenly became dizzy.

It must be because of the rain, she was still thinking about it before she fell asleep. In a big dream, there was a protracted heavy rain, and the strong wind also hit the world. The tree without roots was shaken in the wind, shaking left and right The pendulum could not find a place to dock.Later, she landed on shore inexplicably, leaning on the reef to stand firm.

Later, when she opened her eyes, the water rippled with intoxicating light, splashing, although the light was soft, it still woke her up from her dream, only then did she realize that the ceiling was patterned like water waves, lying down and looking at it as if she was in the seabed.

Su Ruanruan just turned her head and saw that she was awake. She handed over a towel and wiped off the cold sweat from sleep: "Not feeling well? Go upstairs and lie down for a while, I'll chat with them for a while."

"It's okay." Su Ruanruan's thoughtfulness made her feel flattered, Su Ruanruan's soft tone was too long-lost, her eyes filled with tears, she waved her hand, so Su Ruanruan stepped aside for her, and everyone sat down to eat together.

There are so-and-so, so-and-so, and so-and-so in the private room, and Xu Zhihuan is also here. A group of people who are doing the summer party are here, chatting with each other, drinking and drinking. It's noon, and I guess there is nothing to do in the afternoon things come.

Suddenly someone asked Su Ruanruan, "Hey Chairman, aren't you going to study abroad? When are you going?"

This is the first time I've heard of this matter. Tao An'an, who had lowered his head and ate slowly, suddenly raised his head and looked at Su Ruanruan. Su Ruanruan waved his hand slightly: "It's not sure whether we will go or not. It's about family matters. I'm still thinking about it myself."

A few more fluffy words, and the topic shifted to a girl's performance at the drama festival, which was really great.

Lowering his voice, Tao Anan leaned into Su Ruanruan's ear: "Are you going to study abroad?"

"Aha, not necessarily, why? You care about it too?"

"Fortunately, I haven't heard of this before." Tao Anan tried his best to keep his tone calm and indifferent. He lowered his head and took the chopsticks, which fell off with a clang.

"Do you think it's better for me to go or not?" Su Ruanruan took the chopsticks and handed them over again, as if joking, also lowered her voice, in a secret atmosphere, looking at Tao An'an, but Tao Anan didn't go over.

"You decide for yourself, this kind of thing...if you leave, when will you come back?"

"I don't know, because of the relationship between my parents, I may stay there for a long time, hey, I let you be a staff officer, do you have any objection?"

"As long as you think it's good, I don't understand either." Tao An'an smiled, looking into Su Ruanruan's eyes, "I don't care too much."

"You don't care about Ang, okay, okay, hey, who is that?" Su Ruanruan suddenly pointed at the person passing by outside the door. Tao An'an hooked his fingers, and then smiled.

It was Qiao Xilu, Qiao Xilu happened to be here too, Tao Anan wanted to get up and talk to her, but Su Ruanruan dragged her roughly: "What do you mean?"

"what?"

"You know that she and I don't like you and you're going to rebel at this time, don't you?" Su Ruanruan looked rampant again, her green hair looked strange under the blue light, but her face was good-looking, and good-looking Justice, Tao An'an was pinned down on the seat by her.

"It was you who reminded me that she was here. I'll go say hello, say hello." Tao An'an succumbed to Su Ruanruan's clutches.

"Choose one, me and Xidaqiao." Su Ruanruan simply used the nickname for Qiao Xilu, and now she buried her head in eating and chatting with others, leaving her aside.

"Don't do this." Tao Anan wanted to get up, but Su Ruanruan ignored her.

"I'll come over just to say hello to her." Tao Anan asked tentatively.

Su Ruanruan and Xu Zhihuan talked about the game the day after tomorrow.

"..." Tao Anan waved his hand apologetically at Qiao Xilu, lowered his head to eat, and Su Ruanruan immediately interrupted the heated conversation with Xu Zhihuan.

"Good job." Su Ruanruan showed a triumphant expression.

"Why?" Tao An'an was very puzzled.

Su Ruanruan didn't respond directly to her, but peeled a shrimp for her and put it on the plate: "Eat more."

"You can't do this next time."

"I'm very happy that you chose me." Su Ruanruan looked at her with her face propped up, "Next time, there won't be a next time, I won't remind you that she is there."

"Eat yours." Tao An'an said indifferently.

"So fierce? Are you still so fierce to me?"

"You're sick." Tao Anan lowered his head to eat, and turned his face away, feeling panicked. Su Ruanruan was going to study abroad, and the distance between her and herself became further and further away.

These are just minor problems.

Su Ruanruan is testing her, what does Su Ruanruan testing her mean?Su Ruanruan treats her well, but she never gives in because of feelings, and never has the courage to take a step forward. What does Su Ruanruan mean?Leave after teasing?Tao An'an got angry because of this, but felt that he was unreasonable.

Choose Qiao Xilu or choose Su Ruanruan, for her she will always choose the latter, this is a different emotional weight, on the balance, the rest is Su Ruanruan's size.

She wasn't angry because of this matter, but she was addicted to the fact that Su Ruanruan was going to study abroad and refused to tell her about it.Finally, her original emotions were left. She couldn't eat when she was angry, and she put down her chopsticks. Su Ruanruan made people feel both love and hate - she just sat beside her, the closest position.

"Don't be angry, I was wrong, I shouldn't let you make such an embarrassing choice."

"No, let's eat." Tao An'an calmed down, thinking that he was clearly a dead person, but caring about these empty things, what's the point?Even during the period of her rebirth, what's the point of seeing Su Ruanruan face up to her own feelings?

She was suddenly relieved, she knew that once in her life, it would be nice if someone liked her, even if the degree of liking was not as important as her liking for her, but she was not alone when she came to Ludao University, all she knew was this matter I can have tears in my eyes.He finally shook his head, revealing a somewhat bitter smile.

Su Ruanruan also fell silent, and finally sighed: "I was really wrong."

"It's ok."

"What do you want to eat, don't be angry." Su Ruanruan took the chopsticks to pick up food for her, but Tao Anan lost his appetite and no longer wanted to eat. He raised his eyes to look at Su Ruanruan, tears streaming down his face involuntarily. Papapapa, she sniffed, Su Ruanruan immediately panicked.

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