The whole world prevents me from jumping into the river

It was only dusk, and the night couldn't wait to smudge the sky. I touched the little succulents planted by Qiao Xilu by the window, sprayed a little water, and drew the curtains.

"Are you still working?"

"Ah, I'm packing boxes for Chen Liu's house today, are you out of class?" The mother's voice sounded far away.

Tao Anan imagined the scene where her mother took off her white gloves while carefully holding her mobile phone to send WeChat messages, and asked softly, saying that she would send money back next month, but her mother routinely refused, saying that she was the only one there, and there was no need for it. How much money, she routinely persuaded her mother to be self-sufficient in tuition fees and living expenses, so she didn't have to work so hard.

"Hey, you are a student who is studying, study hard, and don't ask for money when you go out to eat with others. You are so tight that you are afraid that people will look down on you. You are promising, so don't let others look down on you."

"..." She wanted to refute, but she felt that it was meaningless. She responded with a few words and asked her mother to take a good rest. She unconsciously fiddled with her left hand, knocked over the water glass with a slap, and the hot water splashed halfway across the table. , she hurriedly went to find a towel to wipe, and there was the sound of howling wind in her ears, accompanied by laughter.

"Hee hee hee..." It was that familiar laughter, a meaningless sound, unable to hear the meaning, she hung up the phone in a panic and perfunctory, and knocked on the head hard, but the laughter became more and more clear stand up.

hallucination?No, this is not an illusion.

She cleaned the table and rubbed her temples in a panic, but she became quiet in a panic. The laughter calmed down, dissipated, and ceased to exist. She doubted that she had never heard that weird laughter, but it was It was so real—the dividing line between reality and illusion was blurred, she jumped up and rushed out of the dormitory, the phone in her hand buzzed, and Su Ruanruan called.

Su Ruanruan startled her.

"Look at the sky outside." Su Ruanruan's opening remarks were inexplicable. Through the window, she saw the sky was dark and dark, like ink falling to the ground, heavy, as if it was about to rain like ink .

"Ah."

"It's about to thunder." Su Ruanruan said it still inexplicably.

"Okay." Tao An'an smiled, wondering what Su Ruanruan was doing now, the thunder was rumbling, and it was about to expose the weak Su Ruanruan, but unfortunately she couldn't see it now, nor could she see Su Ruanruan before. The exposed soft belly, curled up appearance, raised sleepy eyes, Su Ruanruan couldn't help laughing like that.

"What's the matter? What are you doing?" Su Ruanruan's voice was quiet, with occasional clicks of clicking the mouse.

"It's nothing." Tao An'an looked up at the sky outside, strand by strand, the clouds seemed to be torn apart, and her idea of ​​jumping into the river was also torn apart. With Su Ruanruan forcing her to say good morning tomorrow, she began to hesitate, thinking that it might be a good thing not to jump into the river.

What is the purpose of jumping into the river?To live again in another way?That's all well and good, but what's that laughter?

The voice that urged her to jump into the river did not appear.

The question in Tao An'an's mind seemed to be roaring out, the voice was very loud, if that voice could hear her inner thoughts, she couldn't remain indifferent, she felt more and more that she believed that voice, maybe it was some kind of self-righteous judgment ——But now no matter what, you can't jump into the river, and you must do what you promised.

"Is the West Bridge not here?"

Josie Road?Tao An'an subconsciously turned to Qiao Xilu's bed, and said blankly, "Not here. Do you care about her so much?"

"How could it be? Are you wise? Well, well, I was wrong. I'm afraid she will speak ill of me."

"Are you afraid that she will speak ill of you?"

"Aha, it's okay to tell others, but the mouth is on her face, and I can't tear it off, because I'm afraid to tell you the truth and make you misunderstand something."

"Oh, so it has a dark history? The kind I can't know?"

"Hey, you got the point wrong again—it's not black history, it's that kind of shameful thing, and it's not the same as my personality."

Human design?Tao An'an laughed again: "Are you afraid of thunder?"

"No, I'm not afraid, not at all." The voice from Su Ruanruan's dantian was heavy, it didn't seem like a lie, it was completely different from the Su Ruanruan she saw in that rebirth, but Su Ruanruan usually If you speak, your dantian will become angry, and you won't be able to tell a lie, "Why do you ask this suddenly?"

"I'm a little afraid of thunder, come and accompany me." Tao Anan said softly.

The moment she said it, she suspected that it wasn't the request from her own mouth. When did she take the initiative to talk to Su Ruanruan?Is it because I know Su Ruanruan is afraid of thunder in a certain time and space, so I want to accompany her with compassion?But to put it so directly, she is the one who collapsed!

"I'll wait for you at the gate of the school. I don't want to go to the dormitory. It's not good to see Qiao Xilu." On the other end of the phone, there was a fading wind from not far away, and Su Ruanruan seemed to have gone out.The towering trees at the entrance of the dormitory building were blown by the wind, and the canopy shook violently. The crowd wrapped their coats tightly and rushed in and out. It was a sign of heavy rain, and it was going to rain again.

Because of the wind, there was no one at the door. The security guard poked out his face in the guard room to see her, then retracted to chat, starting from which leader changed the car again, to his wife and children warming up on the kang.A total of five people passed by the guard room, two cleaners and aunts, walking arm in arm, looking like they came back from a dance over there, a girl who was broken in love and crying while walking, babbled for a long time, at the door As soon as I stomped my feet, I seemed to shake off the little things in the past like dust on my feet, and immediately walked in with high spirits.

The fourth one is Tao An'an. She eats popsicles at a small grocery store not far from the door. She sits on a small horse and looks in Su Ruanruan's direction. Su Ruanruan hasn't come yet. With a pack of cigarettes, he looked down and saw Tao An'an shivering like a little chicken, laughed out loud, lit a cigarette and held it between his lips: "Hey, An'an, why don't you go back to the dormitory in such a strong wind?"

Yo, someone else's male god is here.

The director of the Student Affairs Office was smoking a cigarette, and leaned down to look at her: "Hey, didn't you hear me talking to you?"

"Hello, Director." Tao Anan stood up, nodded restrainedly, and turned to go out.

"Why is the other brooch I gave you missing? I said it's pretty, but you still don't believe it. This chest is bare, so ugly."

"I lost it..." She remembered that Su Ruanruan looked down at herself, and coldly untied the brooch and threw it into the sewer. At this moment, she desperately needed Su Ruanruan's existence. She didn't have the courage to fight against anything, so she could only Selective forgetting is like forgetting a brooch on your chest.

"Hey, did you quarrel with your roommate? The wind is so strong, come sit in my office for a while." He snuffed out the cigarette butt, hooked her arm with his backhand to take her out, she tried her best to shake it, and the man's smile didn't decrease but increased , "Let's go, don't be polite to me or anything."

The author has something to say: the style of this article is still very similar to Yu Sheng, and it is a story pieced together from a little bit of memory killing, gradually revealing the original appearance of the matter.

The difference is that this article has to be rewound non-stop—and it won’t be as detailed as the rest of my life... (I was in a bad mood when I wrote it, so I was not very satisfied with the ending. I was too anxious to finish writing or I would feel very bad... ...)

This one will be easier! (compared to my other articles) but not in a funny style (because Andu is such an old-fashioned and boring person) (righteous)

By the way, I am working hard towards a goal where the dialogue is also worthy of scrutiny!

(Every time the little green characters are written upside down and do not express the meaning...)