The whole world prevents me from jumping into the river

"That is to say, you saw someone burning paper by the river?" Su Ruanruan lowered her head when she was packing up the dishes, her hair that had been disheveled earlier fell loosely on her shoulders and fell in front of her temples.Tao An'an fixed her hair, but felt that her hair was also messed up, stroked her hair, and responded softly.

"I am very concerned about that river." Two bowls were stacked together, and Su Ruanruan tapped the edge of the bowl with chopsticks, "I don't know if the burning of paper is related or not. The origin of that river is very wrong. The school was renovated in Fifteen years ago, the entire land island was being refurbished and rebuilt. There were preferential policies. The school really wanted to dig the river, so it would not be so stupid. It had to wait five years before digging. Not sure, maybe just trying to make a fortune, who knows."

"Well."

"I'm more concerned about the previous history of this river. There have been more than one deaths in this river before. However, such things as campus legends are true and false. They are well-spoken, with characters, places, and time. There are a few, but the river is so shallow that no one can die—" She looked at Tao An'an at this point, "Ahem, it's my fault that you can't swim, I'll teach you when the time comes."

"If you can't swim, you'll drown, right?"

"Ahem, look, you insist on putting your hat on yourself. I didn't want to say it. That river used to be a small pond in the school. I don't know if you know it. It's stagnant water. After a long time, it's actually quite shallow. Although It was dug, but the river in the middle of our school is relatively high, and there is a lot of sand and sand in the upper reaches. There is no way to submerge your head, but it rained yesterday, and the water level was higher than usual, but drowning people, and drowning people again and again, I always feel something is wrong, no matter how stupid you are, you can’t know how to hold rocks, right? There are quite a lot of stones at the bottom of the river, and there are a lot of them, and they come up when you step on them..."

Tao An'an ignored Su Ruanruan's stupid words with a smile on his face, but instead recalled the process of jumping into the river to die again and again, did he see a pile of stones at the bottom of the river?I can't remember exactly, why the river in my memory is as wide as the Yangtze River, making people feel hopeless to live?

Have you really looked at that river seriously?Or were you scared by the river?In the illusion, I regarded this river as a bottomless river, so I lost the courage to seriously examine the place where I was buried.

"Well."

"There are too many miscellaneous histories in the school, and the words from the previous sessions are a little clueless. If you want to be sure, you can only find the information in the school archives, but the archives are generally closed. Who can find out the things from years ago, and they may not be able to write them down. After all, dead people are disgraceful things, and there are many scandals in colleges and universities—forget it, don’t mention it, there are probably two people anyway. The one who jumped into the river died, one from the Department of Physics and one from the Department of Fine Arts, the one from the Department of Fine Arts was from the 04 class, the details are not clear, the one from the Department of Physics seems to be from the 09 class? I’ll go back and ask, a group of people said I don't know, there is always something wrong." Su Ruanruan continued to knock on the bowl, and in the countryside, she would be ridiculed as a beggar, meaning a beggar, and the posture of fooling around is always unattractive, but Tao Anan didn't stop her She, listening to the results of her inquiries about this matter, "It can't all be drowned in the river. I'll go jump tomorrow to see if the river can drown me."

"Don't make trouble." Tao Anan, who was frightened by this sentence, stood up, Su Ruanruan smiled nonchalantly: "I'm joking, you take it seriously again."

"How can jumping into the river be a joke." Although there was still some resentment in his tone, his voice softened. Tao Anan felt that Su Ruanruan's temperament might really go back and jump. He didn't believe in evil, and he said so much, Su Ruan Ruan believed in something, but he didn't know yet.

But Su Ruanruan was able to trouble her with such an idealistic thing, she felt more or less comforted, but she couldn't explain it in words, so she had to emphasize that she was not joking, so that Su Ruanruan felt that she was not. Suddenly, he ignored his own life, but faced the inevitable end of death, and had to be reborn more than 90 times.

"Okay, I'll ask again when the time comes, but what the previous students said is always off the mark. I'll see if there is anyone in the archives, but the teacher probably won't let them in. If it works, look in the archives. See if there are any records related to that river, you said there is a system, if there are traces to follow, that would be fine, maybe we can break the system.”

"Again."

"It's not trouble—" Su Ruanruan knocked on the table, "Since the system is a system, in the novel, where is the system at the end? The system is always controlled by people, and the name is called system, so it must be controlled by people." , This is a controllable thing. You can’t leave a very strange little tail and don’t look at it? You are with me now with the mentality that you will die in 98 days anyway. I can’t, you leave me One, this is too bad, I can hardly have the courage, so I want to continue this time, I have to find the loopholes in your matter, even if there is no, I have worked hard for this matter, It’s hard to say, you’re really gone, gone, and left me alone, then I can at least say that I’m glowing, right? When I’m old, writing a book won’t be full of words like regret.”

"Some things can't be controlled, and you always feel that you can control everything."

"What if it's possible?" Su Ruanruan smiled, propped her face up and looked up at Tao An'an, who was pale, "You see, destiny is something that is used to fight, and it has never been written in textbooks that a great man succumbed to fate and lived on. For the rest of your life, you can control what you can control, just like you have to study hard now in order to have a better life in the future. This is all control.”

"We will not be great men, never have been, just ordinary people."

"Don't say such things that don't look like you, do you think that great people are also working people? You see that you worked hard before, didn't you really have the intention to stay in Ludao? You are always like this, saying that you don't care, go back to your hometown Ah, in fact, don't--don't pinch me, ah, I'll wash, I'll wash, you put it down..." Su Ruanruan got up staggeringly, and went after Tao Anan who was washing the dishes.

"Anyway, I must intervene in this matter. You spend the rest of the time well, just do what you want, don't keep running to the river, just happen what should happen, tell me if there is any abnormality, and I will solve it. I can solve it, although I don’t believe in gods and ghosts, but I always feel that something is covered and I can’t see it, I have to see it, otherwise there will be something covering the top of my head, and it will still be uncomfortable after all.”

"Just relying on a few people who jumped over the river before?"

"This is called an analogy. I still need to know other things. There are still 98 days, you said." Su Ruanruan raised her chest and turned her face slightly, "Maybe I don't understand a lot of things at all, and I don't know What exactly did you go through, but I figured out a lot of things because of you jumping into the river, so I'm going to do it."

"What did you figure out?"

"I will not tell you."

"childish."

Tao An'an commented softly again, she spoke softly, as if a gust of wind had blown by, she remembered that Su Ruanruan's ear was a mysterious switch, so she pinched her ear with her hands, and only smiled when she saw that the cold goddess in everyone's eyes blushed : "If you can't find anything, you don't need to investigate. You can live as you want, and just pretend that there is no such thing."

"Hey, are you disciplining me?" Su Ruanruan puffed up her chest, her tone was very unhappy, her flushed cheeks betrayed her, "How could you do this..."

"how?"

"You weren't like this before, how could you tease people like this before..."

"I used to be like this too. It's just that you didn't pay attention to me at that time." Tao Anan lowered his eyes, "I like you very much, you are far away, you don't talk much, you are very busy, I follow you, and you don't talk much, say Talking too much will bother you."

"..." Su Ruanruan lowered her eyes, was speechless for a while, and heard King Kong whimpering a few times.

King Kong's ears are very sensitive, but they don't seem to be useful now. It hasn't come out for such a long time, and it's still lying on the stomach, as if sick. It was only when Tao Anan passed by that she rubbed her trousers. presence.Now it barked, and the two of them hurried over.

King Kong was very clever, he went around and around, and finally, whining was telling the two of them that he was going to shit.

Finally took a shit, and it seems to have recovered quite a bit.

Tao Anan guessed that King Kong might have smelled the shit of other dogs by the river, so he was very jealous.

The author has something to say: Andujun, age 18, height 1.5 meters, weight cannot be said.

I took a look at the private messages on Weibo yesterday, and found that someone actually left me a message.But the latest is already March... (I failed everyone's love) (Andu never thought that someone would leave a message for me...) Ah, so if you want to communicate with Andu, you can do it in Jinjiang Yes... If you send a private message, you must remind me, because I am a fool... Only smart people can see the private message (falling to the ground)