The whole world prevents me from jumping into the river

There is a big bowl for each person, enough to put your head in, the light is yellow, and the slate table below is quite interesting.

Su Ruanruan has no appetite. She stared at the girls who might have been starving for ten days with her face stretched. They got out of the car and bypassed the mighty traffic to eat here. It was indeed a place recommended by the driver for the long distance. The shop is steaming, the noise is endless, the shop is small, the inside is full of fragrance, the fragrance is overflowing, shouting: "No.

"You don't eat? It's a waste of everything..." The girl raised her eyes, Su Ruanruan shook her head, the disposable chopsticks were not even broken, the girl took the chopsticks away, and took her bowl to snort to eat, it was so spicy that she burst into tears.

"My name is Su Ruanruan. We were looking for news about Wu Yun and found out about you, so we were very surprised and wanted to ask you to meet. Some things don't make sense, so I'm sorry." Su Ruanruan crossed her fingers and raised her eyelids , and started her own formal conversation, she can't take this girl of unknown origin back to the hotel, her heart is not so big.

"Miangui's surname is Tan, so call me Old Tan—who are you Wu Yun?"

"...Sister."

"Wonderful, then I am also your senior sister, so you can't call me Old Tan, Tan Fuyu, my father's surname is Tan and my mother's surname is Fu, Yu is the one in Love in the Rain, I can't remember that word."

"Hello, senior."

"what do you wish to ask?"

"You eat first." As soon as she opened her mouth, it should be about the topic of death. Su Ruanruan thought about it for five seconds, sat upright, and put on a serious posture, "Are you traveling?"

"It is."

"For Wu Yun?"

"Ah, yes."

"Does the family know that you are coming out?"

"I know, hey, you don't have to be so serious. I feel like I've been interrogated. You look like a leader. There is at least a vice-chairman in the student union, the one in the courtyard or the school? These days, the children are very bureaucratic."

Su Ruanruan was ashamed for two seconds, and lowered her head: "In the yard, Chairman. Let me ask another question, do you want to eat something else?"

"Do you still have money?"

"Enough to eat."

"Two bowls of ice powder, put more raisins." Tan Fuyu ate with peace of mind, "Miao ah, the school started to pay attention to Wu Yun?"

"It's nothing personal." Su Ruanruan got up, came over in a while, held two bowls of ice powder, and handed over the spoon, "You have been traveling on the road in 11, what should you do along the way?"

"Just travel, what can I do?"

Sensitively capturing the emotion in Tan Fuyu's words, Su Ruanruan temporarily shut up.

"I also think I'm quite strange—" Tan Fuyu propped her face, holding the chopsticks as if she couldn't bear it, "You said Wu Yun has been away for so long, why am I still on the way? Why haven't I returned Where's home? Why can't I forget her—"

"Hmm." Su Ruanruan wondered in her heart what the relationship between the two was.

"I'm very surprised—but children nowadays are much more tolerant of homosexuality." Tan Fuyu took a sip of fans, "Wonderful—supporting homosexuality these days is still politically correct."

"Not surprisingly."

"After she left, I couldn't take the blow for a while." Tan Fuyu paused, and raised his eyes to linger on Su Ruanruan for a long time, "You are quite beautiful."

"Thank you."

"Aren't you afraid to come out so late?"

"It's okay. I have learned Sanda, and I usually do fitness."

"Where is this enough... Hey, do you have a boyfriend?"

"No." Su Ruanruan said truthfully, "Now it's you asking me."

"What's the matter? You get information from me, and I want to know about you."

"Right."

"Back to school tomorrow?"

"Tomorrow is the weekend. If I can't find you, I'll play here all day."

"Wonderful—then why did you interview me? How did you find Wu Yun? What does it have to do with you?"

Tan Fuyu's eyes gradually narrowed, and those fox eyes looked dangerous when narrowed, as sharp as knives, which did not match the appearance of eating foolishly.

"I want to know the river behind Mingde Building."

The knife is gone.

"You also think there is something wrong with that river?" Tan Fuyu narrowed his eyes and smiled, "I still want to eat two biscuits."

"What does 'also' mean?"

"The biscuits are delicious, I heard people say—"

"I see." Su Ruanruan stood up again, the phone on the table lit up, but there was no sound, Tan Fuyu glanced at it and ignored it.

When Su Ruanruan came back, the screen went dark.

"Thank you, I'm so hungry, please eat fried yogurt and use up my life savings."

"Life savings can be returned to you."

"Don't look outside, tell me about the river."

"Intuition—it shouldn't drown people." Su Ruanruan still mentioned the word "death", which seemed to be a switch, which set Tan Fuyu on fire.

With a slap, the chopsticks slapped on the table, and Tan Fuyu narrowed his eyes: "You mean dead? No——no...that's not the case."

It's not like this?Su Ruanruan kept silent.

"Did someone jump into the river next to you? Or you—"

"My girlfriend—she, in short, insists on jumping into the river..." Su Ruanruan felt that the explanation was not clear, so she said in a sentence, "I can't explain it clearly. People jumped into the river and died...I want to see...if there is a commonality." Su Ruanruan stepped on the ground as if there was a sewing machine under her feet.

"Have a girlfriend? That 'ah'?" Tan Fuyu smiled intentionally, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry."

"Her name is Tao An'an." Su Ruanruan paused, "Can you tell me, what does it mean that you are not dead?"

"I feel like Wu Yun is alive. Another way—death is not the opposite of life—have you read "Norwegian Wood"? That famous line."

"I know." So it was understood from a literary point of view, not literally. After a false alarm, Su Ruanruan wiped off the cold sweat from her forehead.

"Miao, Miao—then you can probably understand, I feel that she is always beside me, and she is trapped, can you understand that feeling?"

"The living are moved, or influenced, by the obsession of the dead."

"No—it's the kind of ethereal existence, the kind, you just feel that she exists, and she is struggling with something, and she can't get rid of it." Tan Fuyu put down her chopsticks, and the fact that Su Ruanruan had a girlfriend made her feel kind, so There was also a smile on her face, even though Su Ruanruan restrained the bewildered expression on her face, she saw it, but she was not annoyed, she spread her palms, "It seems to exist in another dimension - she can see you, You can't see her, that kind of presence."

"Spirit?"

"No, it exists objectively, but if spirit is also material, then what you said is right." Tan Fuyu picked up her chopsticks again, and the fat sausage on her chopsticks did not seem to scare Su Ruanruan so much.

Looking back, did my question make Tan Fuyu nervous?So no answer?She thought for a few seconds: "I don't know what commonality there is between An An and... Wu Yun. I hope I can get some information from you."

"Well."

"Some time ago, I saw someone burning paper by the river—"

"Oh, I know, I had it back then."

"you recognize?"

"It was discussed at that time. It was a gardener in our school, surnamed Wang. I don't know the specifics. It's weird, but the leader doesn't care about it, so let him go." Tan Fuyu raised an eyebrow, seeing Su Ruan Ruan had a very serious young face, and chuckled, "Do you think it has something to do with that river? I think that these strange things should be found in the direction of strange things. Look at the river. What is there to find is a small pond, which was dug ten years ago, and anyone can fall into it."

"It's a line, that's all." Su Ruanruan sullenly said, "Is the burnt paper by the river the gardener surnamed Wang? No one else?"

"No one is idle talking about going to the river to burn paper, just this one—"

"Last time An'an said that she wanted to meet this person, and she replied, 'Do you want to die?'." Su Ruanruan thought for a while, "There was a person by the river, and she was pushed into the river. I was beside me and rescued her. , but I don’t know what that person looks like.”

"Murder?" Tan Fuyu seemed to finally get serious, and pushed all the trays to one side, "Wonderful—is she not looking for death now?"

"Do not."

"You do trust her."

"I am very strong, and I must let others do what I want-but An An is different, I can't control what she does, even if she is lying to me, I can't say anything, what I can do , just trust her and tell her I can do a lot for her and we can do it together—”

"Miao—" Tan Fuyu interrupted her, "You're panicking when you tell me this."

"..."

"Is she alone now?"

"Correct."

"Let me guess, since you guys are looking for me - she is in Chongrui City?"

"Correct."

"She called you just now."

"Ah!" Su Ruanruan reached for the phone, paused for half a second, and put it back.

"You can call her."

"Thank you, I'll just send you a text message."

"How long have you been together?"

"About two weeks." Su Ruanruan's ears turned red, "Have you known Wu Yun for a long time?"

"long time."

"What should I do next? After the three hundred locations are saved enough, what should I do?"

"Maybe I went back to my hometown to get married. That's probably what happened when backpackers couldn't walk." Tan Fuyu smiled with a smile on his face.

"... Wonderful." Su Ruanruan couldn't help but use Tan Fuyu's catchphrase.

"It's written on your face that it's the end of the topic, but you can't think of what to ask—you probably have the same idea as me when you come here, go to the fuck and do it first, and whether there is any result, in fact, you don't know. clear."

"Sorry, I think I should ask more."

"Don't worry, I'll leave you my phone number. You can call me when you're free." Tan Fuyu dragged out a notebook from her bag, stacked it thickly, and there were photos and letters in the middle of each page. Shake, swipe a string of numbers.

"Thank you."

"I can call you 'ah'. You have to support her at this time, because she is also doubting her life. I guess she is not going to die now, it is more because of you." Tan Fuyu crossed his fingers on his chin Underneath, "I guessed wrong and irresponsible. If I go back five or six years, maybe things will change at that time."

"Maybe—no, it will definitely change." Su Ruanruan thought of Tao An'an who had been reborn again and again, got up, dialed the number she had memorized by heart, and turned around, and there was a crowd of people standing in front of the octopus ball shop just outside the corner. students.

"Hey, Ruan Ruan—there's a man who says he's in charge of Wu Yun's Penguin, I'm not sure yet, I didn't say anything, your side—uh...uh—" The voice stopped abruptly.

After hanging up, there was a short sound. The desktop wallpaper was unavoidable. Tao Anan smiled at her on the wallpaper, gentle and restrained.