The whole world prevents me from jumping into the river

The water flowed by the river was turbulent, and the end of summer was irritating, but the rain washed away a lot. Tao Anan looked around, and there was a couple walking towards this direction. If you don't pay attention, you can't see it. For lovers, the class bell rings immediately, and things happen for the hundredth time for the first time. If you don’t go to class this time, your mood is not as heavy as it was at the beginning. The heavyness in the past is because you haven’t experienced that kind of relaxation.

Anyway, just don't go to class.Tao An'an waited for the couple to leave before taking a deep breath, and leaned into the river, but because he had been frozen for too long, he was drenched in the rain, and soon the world news came quickly, he sneezed, rubbed his nose, Sneezes happened in succession, and the tip of her nose was red. She turned her head slightly, but saw a touch of white, a white baseball uniform and black pencil pants. There, a head of green hair was faintly visible. When she looked carefully, she thought it was Su Ruanruan standing not far away. I looked at myself everywhere, and after a closer look, I realized that it was not.

It was the back view that I had misunderstood at the beginning. The girl was walking on the road, and the back image was very similar to Su Ruanruan. She rubbed her nose and did a good job of psychological construction. This construction came and went, but the final outcome was the same, but every time They all had to find a different reason, added to the so-called excuse of eliminating resentment, some things can transcend life and death, on top of these things, she can give up the things she cherished before.

Jumping into the river, the river is cold and the river is rushing, washing her away again.

Stretching his legs, staring, rolling his eyes, suffocating, and struggling into a hideous posture.

Life is trivial, and death is not as easy as in the storybook. In the happy life of Jianghu, death is death. You can die with a knife on your neck, as if there is no pain. But when he opened his mouth to speak, Xing Tian lost his head, with his breasts as his eyes and his navel as his mouth, he could still fight as usual.

In Chopin's biographical film, the most painful thing like tuberculosis was not expressed, only coughing a few times, as if the spirit was strong, and it should not be regarded as a disease. Everyone is a spiritual giant...Tao Anan needs to do it every time in his psychological construction. After waiting for a long time, I thought in my heart that I must die, otherwise I would cease to exist. I had no strong hope in this life, so I had to pray for peace in the next life.That is to say, every time I jump in, I feel the fear of suffocation for a long time, and the river water chokes in the nostrils, and I have to wait for a long time before I can breathe.This feeling is extremely terrifying, as if rolling through hell all the time.It is often not the great reasons and brilliant achievements that destroy people, it is the trivial life that can wear down the will with the softest power.

5 minutes.

"Let's go, let's go, class starts in 5 minutes." The young junior and junior girl Sa Yazi ran from behind, and the trajectory was still the same as before, as if someone had become a clock, and I looked at the clock here to know that I had lived it again.

Tilting her head, the green-haired girl walked by from a distance. She was mistaken for Su Ruanruan by herself. She disappeared in the woods. The bell rang for class, but no one showed up. The trajectory changed again. I also stayed in the rain for a long time, and I forgot what was going on in class.

Indeed, no one came to stop her from jumping into the river. Instead, she felt lost and empty in her heart. In the end, she still stood by the river and jumped.

The river was cold enough to submerge the top of her head, and a force came from her wrist, pinching her and struggling towards the bank. She didn't struggle, and it was exhausting to open her eyes in the water. She would choke on the water, but she seemed to be stuffed in a cold pot , couldn't breathe, the blood poured back, top-heavy, and then still choked on a few sips of water, and then lost consciousness.

"Why did she jump into the river?"

"Oh, you confessed to me and I rejected it, so you can't think about jumping into the river. It's okay. I'm responsible for it. You can go back to class. I'll just watch."

"Oh. How about yesterday's class?"

"Full attendance, don't make a fuss, it's bad for my reputation." Su Ruanruan crossed her legs, lowered her head to play with her mobile phone, and parted her hair, "Don't let people laugh at me, this responsibility will cause problems in the performance appraisal next month .”

"Oh, I see." The other party replied, seeing that she was still playing with her phone with her head down, the screen was brightly colored, I don't know what she was studying, it didn't look like some social software, "What are you looking at?"

"Collaborate with people to make an app, and I will go to the background to take a look."

"Oh. Then I'll leave if there's nothing wrong here. Call me when she wakes up. The director is so frightened that she keeps asking me."

"Her meeting is over?"

"No. I'm going first."

"Bye." The green-haired girl didn't look up, rubbed her wet cuffs, took off her jacket and shirt, the bottoming shirt was thin, revealing the outline of the underwear inside, indistinctly, in short, there are no outsiders here, an independent compartment In the middle of the room, there were nurses in a hurry outside. It was only two bus stops from the school. They ran here with a girl on their backs amidst the sound of rain. The doctor was so frightened that they thought it was a robbery, or the story of a female ghost on a rainy night in urban legend. On my own head, I looked carefully and found that I was drowning. She was rescued in time and underwent artificial respiration, but the girl never woke up, so she just stayed here and fell asleep. The place is spacious, and she can lie down as she likes.

The nurse kept looking inside, but after looking at it for a long time, she could only see through the tail of the curtain that the girl sitting on the stool had folded beautiful calves, smooth and fair, with the heels of her shoes down, hanging casually. Nothing can be seen clearly.

Suddenly the nurse saw the man stood up and walked this way.

With a swipe, the curtain was pulled tightly and airtight.

"Tch. Is there something you don't want to see, really." The nurse put away her curiosity and pricked someone with an needle, but it stuck on her own finger.

"..." The patient stared at her, she stared back, then turned her head to look at the small cubicle, the cubicle was like a tomb, quiet, there was no movement, she lowered her head annoyed to get the needle, not thinking about the beautiful What the hell is the girl doing.

A good-looking girl has an eight-point appearance, the boy next to her has a seven-point appearance, and the girl behind the boy has a vague appearance, which is about two points.

The eight-point girl got up, pulled her shoes and sat casually by the bed, staring at Tao An'an who had jumped in like a dumpling after being fished out of the river.

Tao Anan opened his eyes.

"Are you awake? Do you know what's wrong?" Su Ruanruan crossed her arms and threw her phone on Tao Anan, pinching it between her legs through the quilt.

The other party was dumbfounded, opened his eyes and glanced at her, then stared at the phone, picked it up carefully, and turned on the screen to check the time.The time above showed that it was Thursday, but the day passed without a sound?Her resentment value is still one hundred and one...

Being stupid, I ignored the phone and asked Su Ruanruan to take it away from my hand. The fierce Su Ruanruan was beside the bed, which meant that this was not a dream, there would be no Su Ruanruan in the dream, the thing I wanted the most He never appears in the dream, and the other party is always indifferent in reality, and treats her fiercely, calling her mentally retarded or insane.

So it must not be a dream to appear in front of her eyes, she did not die.

"Who told you to check my phone?" Su Ruanruan's voice was even and steady, with a fierce look in her eyes, she checked the phone: "What do you do when you wake up in broad daylight?"

"...Then I wake up at night?"

"You——you're so mad at me, why don't you jump into the river if you're okay? You said who bullied you, I'll take someone to kill him? Why can't you think about it?"

"Oh——you saved me." Tao An'an patted his forehead belatedly, "I'm leaving."

"...Don't move." Su Ruanruan pushed her down, threw her on the bed, covered the quilt and threw it on her face, sat on the side, lowered her head and checked her phone over and over again, "Tell me what's the matter."

"It's nothing."

"It's okay, you jump into the river?"

"I sprained my ankle."

"Sleep."

"I missed a lot of classes... You're wet, you jump down to save me?" Tao An'an pinched her bottoming shirt, which was thinly wet. The outline of the underwear made her blush, and she withdrew her hand. , "Sorry."

"It's okay, don't tell anyone when you go back. I said it was because I jumped into the river and died."

...Why did I jump into the river and die because of you.

Tao An'an slandered for a long time, but didn't say anything. Su Ruanruan's narcissism level has risen a few levels, and she probably took the responsibility again, and put on the posture of being the number one in the world. She can take any responsibility, what a scapegoat Tao Anan was worried that this would overwhelm Su Ruanruan, but Su Ruanruan is the foolish old man who carried forward the spirit of moving mountains and filling seas. Sitting there and making noises made people feel at ease. , so fierce to her, as naive as a primary school boy, but many times what Su Ruanruan said is right.

No one would try his best to jump into the river and die, it would be ridiculous to say the reason, like a fairy tale.

There was her own textbook beside the bed, it was rare that Su Ruanruan still took care of her own book, picked it up and flipped through it, the pages were mostly wet, but they were already dried and crumpled, after turning a few pages, the notebook was gone .

"Hey, you also helped me get the textbook."

"Waiting for you to take notes." Su Ruanruan took out the notebook from the jacket she took off as if conjuring, "I took it away."

"Okay." Su Ruanruan always grabs her notes, although there is nothing to remember.

"Don't go to the river next time, the guide is very concerned about you."

"I know." Anyway, Su Ruan Ruan doesn't know the next time he jumps into the river.

"This month's scholarship distribution list is down."

"Oh."

"Why don't you care?" Su Ruanruan frowned, and got used to the gender and hair. She seemed to be in a stalemate, and the picture froze. She became stiff and looked down at her phone.

"Oh, is there me?"

"With you." He breathed a sigh of relief, "I'll go out for a while."

"Suit up."

"It's wet, I don't want to wear it." Having said that, she still picked it up and took it out, put it on her body when she went out, leaned against the wall to make a phone call, and kept arranging various things, asking about the progress of various things, the nurse in front of her Always staring at her with a motherly smile.

She felt panicked and turned her back to face the wall, holding the bottle holder in her left hand.

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