[Hokage] The Spring and Autumn Dream of Reverse Wear

On my birthday, I ate hot pot with my roommates. It was a break-up meal this year. After the exam, it was winter vacation. The boss had already bought the train ticket for the day after tomorrow.Xiao Si and I both decided to play for a few days before going home.

After eating, we went to ktv and carnivaled until ten o'clock in the evening.I was a little surprised that Xiao Chen came here uninvited.The boss hurriedly explained that she invited Xiao Chen to come over.

"Don't you welcome me?" Seeing me a little surprised, Xiao Chen's face darkened.

"No!" I quickly explained, "I thought you wouldn't talk to me anymore."

"It seems that if I don't look for you, you won't take the initiative to look for me." He smiled wryly.

"I'm busy with exams recently." I excused myself.

He reluctantly accepted.Although we all know that is just an excuse.

After Xiao Chen came, the atmosphere became a bit subtle. The original cheerful atmosphere settled down, and everyone stopped making noise and just sang quietly.

Xiao Chen sat down beside me and handed me a bag.

"Eh?"

"Happy birthday. I couldn't give it to you last Christmas." He acted nonchalantly, "I waited downstairs for a long time last Christmas, and I didn't see you coming back."

"I'm sorry...and, thank you." I felt very guilty.

Inside the bag is a beautiful and elegant dark blue box with a logo printed on the box, which is a brand I don't recognize.It turned out to be a mechanical watch inside. Although I don't know anything about watches, I can tell that it is very expensive.

"Xiao Chen." I said after deliberating, "This gift is too expensive, I can't accept it."

"You don't need to be stressed, I have no idea about you." Xiao Chen lowered his head and said.

"..."

"Liu Jie told me that you have a boyfriend." Liu Jie is the name of the boss.

I can't tell him that it's not my boyfriend, it's like implying him not to give up on me.

"Yes... yes." So I had to admit it.Anyway, Itachi isn't here, I hope he doesn't mind me using him as a shield.

"That watch was bought for you. I can't give it to other girls. No one wants to receive a gift that was originally sold to others. Just keep it. It can be sold when the living expenses are gone. Hua, haha..." Although he was smiling, I could see that the smile was forced.

"I'm sorry." I don't know what else to say.

"Don't blame yourself..." He shrugged indifferently, "It's like I never liked the school girl who chased me."

"Emotional matters cannot be forced." Finally, he said so.

Xiao Chen only stayed for a while before leaving. He bought a train ticket for tonight and had to catch the train.

Seeing that I was a little sad, he comforted me and said: "Don't hide from me in the future, we are still good friends, and I will cover you when you are in trouble."

"Yeah." I smiled gratefully. "As long as you don't think I'm annoying."

That being said, we haven't been in touch since.Until graduation, never said a word.

Everyone loses a few friends, maybe more.Although I feel sad, but sometimes I figured it out.At certain ages, loss is inevitable.

And I'm not a person who will take the initiative to fight for something. I have always waited for others to contact me, so it is understandable to lose friends.Thinking about it carefully, I have always been extremely passive since I was a child. What kind of road to take and what kind of friends to make are all waiting for others to arrange.I only took the initiative once, and that was to Itachi.Regardless of whether he has the will to know me or not, I just follow him by my side.A bit cheeky though, though he might hate me.But I can't help myself.I want to do this.

Later, when everyone got tired of singing, they all stopped, and I was the only one who persisted.

"I love you very much, so I am willing, willing to let you fly to more happy places."

"Loving you is not two or three days, but I miss you many times every day."

"I am willing to be for you, I am willing to be for you, I am willing to be exiled to the sky for you."

"As time goes by, I only care about you, and I am willing to infect your breath."

I sang all the songs that can sing a little bit of my mood, and my voice became hoarse until the end, but I still didn't want to stop.I'm in a low mood, I don't know if it's because of the guilt towards Xiao Chen, or the sadness that I couldn't ask for Itachi.

I didn't know until I saw the back of Xiao Chen leaving that I actually longed for Itachi.I may not be content with just being quietly by his side.

I ended up getting so drunk that I was forcibly dragged away by my roommate.

When I was approaching the school gate, I broke away from Xiao Si and stumbled towards Itachi's residence.

"What are you doing, Xiao Wu!" Xiao Si ran over and grabbed my arm.

"I'm going to him."

"Are you crazy?" The boss asked me, "Last time it was because the access control time had passed, what about this time?"

"I..." I looked at the boss, my mind was extremely clear, but my tongue was uncontrollable, "I...I want to see...see him."

"I don't want to care about you." The boss looked very serious, "You are already an adult, we don't care what you want."

"I... I'll go see him..." I laughed haha, but I couldn't stop, because I can't help crying and laughing when I'm drunk.

"I'll come back as soon as I see him..."

"Boss, let me take Xiao Wu. I will bring her back." Xiao Si said.

"Okay." The boss was a little helpless.

"Thank you, Xiaosi." Along the way, I hugged Xiaosi and kissed him several times.

"You're disgusting, you're drool all over my face." Xiao Si avoided me in disgust.

"Hey Hey……"

"Stop looking at me and giggling, it makes me flustered."

"hey-hey."

"The wine taste is too bad for you!" Xiao Si was speechless to me, "Think about it, if you appear in front of him like this for a while, there is no guarantee that he won't hate you because of it. Because you don't know that you seem to have What a fool!"

"Really? Hehehe." I pinched Xiaosi's face.

"Yes!" Xiaosi avoided my clutches.

"At that moment you block me, don't let him see my face."

"..." Xiao Si was completely speechless.

It was naturally difficult for a thin little girl to walk with a drunkard, and finally reached Itachi's place.When Xiaosi knocked on the door, I suddenly woke up, and then vaguely recalled that Xiaosi said that I am ugly now, I wish I could rush downstairs now.But it was too late, the door was already open.I had no choice but to hide behind Xiaosi and dare not come out.

Itachi was a little surprised to see Xiaosi when he opened the door, but he quickly saw me hiding behind Xiaosi.

Xiaosi explained helplessly: "She insists on coming..."

"What's wrong?" Itachi asked.

I hid behind Xiaosi and didn't dare to move, I knew I must be ugly now, I would slap my face whenever I drank, and now my face was so red that I couldn't bear to look directly at it, and I couldn't speak fluently.I don't want him to see me in such a mess.

Xiao Si smiled: "It seems that Xiao Wu of our family has been cowardly again, obviously just now he was clamoring to see you."

"Did she drink?" Itachi asked.

"Yeah. I don't know why I went crazy, I ordered so much wine in the KTV, and I ended up drinking like this."

"Give her to me, you go back."

"Ah?" Xiao Si and I exclaimed at the same time.

"Is something wrong?" Itachi asked.

"No, no." Xiao Si shook his head, "Then I'll leave her to you, and I'll go back."

Itachi pulled me over from behind Xiaosi, helped me into the house, I covered my face with one hand and followed him, and from the corner of my eye I caught a glimpse of Xiaosi looking at me with a smirk.

After putting me on the bed, he went out to send Xiaosi back to school.

When I saw him go out, I dared to move my hand away.Lying on the bed, I felt dizzy and dizzy, and my head hurt a little.Now most of the alcohol is gone, and the courage in my heart is gone.I can't say why I insisted on seeing him.I just wanted to see him so much, so I came here willfully.

But now I just want to run away quickly, for fear that I will say what I shouldn't say on the spur of the moment.

While thinking wildly, the door opened, and I heard familiar footsteps, I hurriedly covered my head with a quilt and pretended to be asleep.

"Are you asleep?" he asked me.

I didn't answer.

He thought I was asleep, so he sat down beside me.

The room was very quiet, and I didn't dare to move, for fear that he would find out that I was pretending to be asleep.However, it was difficult for me to breathe with my whole head covered in the quilt, and I couldn't stand it after a while.Just about to lift the quilt, I heard him speak suddenly.

"Happy birthday, Little Five."

The hand I just raised froze, and tears welled up all at once. I didn't dare to wipe it, so I had to let the tears flow across my face, and soon fell on the pillow and soaked the whole piece.

At this moment, I suddenly understood that I insisted on coming to see him, probably because I wanted to hear such a sentence from him.

I don't know why, but on my birthday I'm always extravagant. Even though I'm pretty careless on weekdays, when it's my birthday, I'm sensitive, sentimental and lonely.Probably because I'll never get what I crave.

I've never been able to tell people what it is that I really long for.Every birthday I feel extra lonely.From the time I fell in love with him at the age of 13, I knew what it meant to be lonely.

Getting what you want is probably the hardest thing in the world.

In the past, I never dared to imagine that I could hear him say happy birthday on my birthday.Now, I feel that all this is like a dream, very unreal.But the tears rolled down my face, and I could feel the temperature.

"Are you awake?" After a long time, I heard Itachi's voice from above.

I lifted the quilt and saw him looking at me in astonishment.

"Why are you crying?" he asked me.

"I..." I rubbed my eyes, thinking about how to answer him.

"Did you have a nightmare?" He handed me the towel.

"Yeah." I replied bluntly.

"No matter how scary the nightmare is, you have to wake up." He comforted me.

"Yeah..." I was a little lost, "All dreams will wake up."

"What's wrong with you, it's not the same as usual."

"I'm fine." I smiled, "I'm just thinking wildly."

"Children's mind." He said, "Only children can think wildly."

"I'm an adult, Itachi." Dismayed, I told him again, "I'm an adult here. And even if I'm an adult at 20, I'm 20 today."

"..." He listened helplessly to my arguments.

"Besides, won't your lord stop thinking about it?"

"Adults don't have the right to fantasize. Many things are beyond their control. They should be very clear that even fantasies are useless. All they have is 'reality'."

"What you said is too pathetic. I'm still a student now, and I may indeed not understand the sufferings of people in society, but is it so terrible?" I didn't understand.

"It's not scary, just get used to it," he said.

Just get used to it.This sentence makes me feel that being an adult is too painful.

I was wondering if what Itachi said had something to do with his past experience, he always said that people can't live by themselves, whether it's because he lives too unfreely.I don't know his past, but I always feel that it will not be a bright life.If he has a little conscience, he will have a miserable life.But judging from the current relationship, he is obviously not a person with only a little conscience.He is more considerate, gentle, and understanding than most.For example, he knew it was not safe during this time, so he insisted on sending me home every night.Even Xiao Si, who had never met her before, would do the same.Obviously he is a person who will protect others and does not want others to be hurt.

This is also revealed in the comics.I remember a story, after Kisame subdued Four-Tailed Jinchuriki, he still didn't let him go, and Itachi persuaded Kisame not to hurt him again.

How hard he must have lived all these years.

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