Thunder can't catch fire

When Zhou Yan returned home, the house was pitch black.Ding Yizhao's shoes were still at the door, but he was not in the living room.Zhou Yan glanced out and found him sitting on the recliner on the balcony with his back to Zhou Yan.

Zhou Yan turned on the light first, then walked over.

"He's gone?" Ding Yizhao didn't look back, his voice was flat.

"Let's go." Zhou Yan moved a chair and sat down beside him, "Are you still sleeping on the sofa today?"

Ding Yizhao didn't answer right away, he was silent for a while, and then smiled silently: "When you went out to add vegetables, I chatted with him. I told him that we were together; I also told him to stay away from you point."

Zhou Yan looked at the distance through the fence without saying a word.

"You're so smart, you should have guessed it a long time ago." Ding Yizhao turned his head and glanced at him, "Actually, I've been pestering you so hard for so many years, have you already been annoyed?"

Zhou Yan frowned: "What's the point of saying this again?"

"Yeah, what's the point..." Ding Yizhao muttered to himself, looking up at the dark blue night sky.

In these years, his mind has never been sober for a moment, and he always thinks about many things over and over again, most of which are about the year Luo Jinchen passed away and Zhou Yan was imprisoned.Thinking about how I lowered my head under my father's stern gaze while clenching my fist tremblingly, how I resolutely refused to testify for Zhou Yan in court.

His father was a lawyer of the Luo family and had good friends with the Luo family, so from a very young age, he played with the children of the Luo family. Later when Zhou Yan came, others regarded Zhou Yan as an intruder from outside. He, with just one glance, knew that they belonged to the same category of people.

Luo Jinchen was originally hostile to Zhou Yan, but this kid was too powerful. I don't know when, Luo Jinchen suddenly disarmed, and began to show kindness to Zhou Yan behind his family's back.So later, only Luo Jinchen knew about himself and Zhou Yan in the whole family.

When Luo Jinchen was dying, any method of treatment and prolonging his life became torture in disguise. He knew that he could not rely on his family who only wanted to let him "live", so he had to ask Zhou Yan to help him end his life early.

It is against the law to help others to euthanasia. He was also there when Luo Jinchen begged Zhou Yan desperately. He advised Zhou Yan not to be impulsive. If Zhou Yan really did this, the Luo family would not understand, let alone let him go .

Ding Yizhao regretted it for a while later. He still didn't know enough about Zhou Yan. He never thought that Zhou Yan would really do this.

At that time, Luo Jinchen could only live for a month at most, and the Luo family, who could not vent their anger after the incident, took all their grievances on Zhou Yan, and Zhou Yan had almost no room for refutation.

He knew that his testimony was very useful. As long as he said in court that Luo Jinchen was soberly begging Zhou Yan to end his life early, Zhou Yan would most likely receive a light sentence.

But he didn't.

"Do you think that the Luo family didn't know that Jin Chen was living in pain, so they wanted to get rid of it early? If they were willing to let go, this matter could be reduced to a small one, but they refused. Their purpose is to find someone to give Jin Chen They are too resentful to be backers. Stay at home for the next period of time and don’t say anything. This matter has nothing to do with you, and you don’t need to go through this muddy water.”

What his father said to him still resounds in his mind many years later, and it is deafening.

Zhou Yan spent four years in prison, and he applied for visitation countless times, but was rejected.He knew that Zhou Yan was very, very disappointed in him.

After that, he suddenly insisted on changing his major, boldly disobeyed his father, and went abroad to learn how to cook Western food.

He left for a few years, and when Zhou Yan was released from prison after returning from his studies, he followed Zhou Yan all the way to live in his country house.

It can be described as quite shameless.

Ding Yizhao didn't know if Zhou Yanming understood that he had long lost any dignity in front of him.Perhaps from the moment he refused to testify in court, Zhou Yan's heart was completely ashamed. In Zhou Yan's eyes, he was a cold-blooded animal/beast.

Later, Ding Yizhao didn't remember how Zhou Yan agreed to live in him. He only knew that the monthly rent he paid was enough to rent a small apartment in the city center.

And every day in the past, Zhou Yan never spoke to him more than ten sentences.

They are like two trapped beasts entangled, waiting for the other to make the first effort.

The feelings in it have nothing to do with love, but more like a kind of...salvation.

Ding Yizhao left.

Zhou Yan didn't know when he left.He just fell asleep in a chair, and when he woke up he was alone in the house.

The chair was low and the back was narrow. When I got up, my neck was stiff and it hurt when I moved.

Zhou Yan went to the bathroom to take a shower, lay back on the bed, feeling like his whole body was falling apart, tired everywhere.

He lay with his eyes closed for a while, still sleepy, but unable to fall asleep.My mind is full of unspeakable pictures with Han Zheng before. ——Hey, at that time, the lights were out of control, the two of them were too involved in the drama, and I don't know if they were seen by anyone.

In fact, he hasn't come back to his senses until now, and it feels like a dream.

——Han Zheng... How could it be possible for Han Zheng, a straight man with cancer and his fiancee, to like men like him? !

If Han Zheng hadn't told him himself that he was just like him, he would have blamed himself to death, thinking that he had led a straight man into a ditch.

Zhou Yan felt that he couldn't blame himself for being stupid. Han Zheng had hidden it before, and it was indeed impeccable.He didn't pretend to be "gay Da", so he didn't find it reasonable.

Now, of course, another question was at the forefront of his mind.

Why did Han Zheng kiss himself?

What does that kiss mean?

Before that kiss, Han Zheng had just asked him if he liked him, and Zhou Yan also admitted it.So, can he interpret it affectionately as: Han Zheng also likes him.

But in this case, what the hell is Ling Ying?Isn't she Han Zheng's fiancee?Or are they just... "formal marriage"?

At that time, Han Zheng didn't explain anything after he said that earth-shattering sentence, Zhou Yan was still in a state of confusion, so naturally he didn't ask anything.Looking back now, there are too many problems that I didn't figure out.

Zhou Yan stared at the ceiling in a daze, thinking that this world is really a "sucker", only unexpected, nothing can't be done, everything can be reversed, and it's even better than the bloody eight o'clock.

The more he lives now, the more he feels the taste of life. Everything is linked together. If his mother hadn't "sold" him to the Luo family, Luo Jinchen would have died naturally, and he would have died too. He won't go to jail, and he won't spend the rest of his life alone in an old country house at a young age, so he won't save Qin Feifei and meet Han Zheng.

The words "butterfly effect" are too scary, every step he takes now is trembling with fear, maybe he will burp accidentally, even if he burps himself, he is afraid of hurting innocent people.

Just like Sun Xiaozhen's disappearance, he still feels to this day that it has nothing to do with him.

Maybe it was because Zhou Yan thought of Xiaozhen before falling asleep, and the first thing he thought of after waking up was to find a doctor to take Xiaozhen's mother to see.

After Zhou Yan washed and changed, he went to the sesame seed shop at the entrance of the alley to buy two sesame cakes, two fried dough sticks, and two cups of soy milk. After buying, he ran to Xiaozhen's house with a fried dough stick in his mouth.

Xiaozhen's mother usually earns pocket money by doing bead-wearing handicrafts. She sits at the door of the house, chatting with the old men and women in the neighbors from time to time, with a smile on her face. Normal.

Zhou Yan gave Xiaozhen's mother's breakfast to her: "Auntie, you can eat whatever you want."

"It's 08:30 now." Xiaozhen's mother frowned, "We have to have lunch later."

The grey-haired old lady next to her showed her only two teeth with a smile, and said vaguely: "Mom Zhen'er, I get up at four or five o'clock every day to make breakfast..."

Zhou Yan was taken aback, and said to Xiaozhen's mother, "Auntie, what are you doing up so early? I think you go to bed late at night." Sometimes he came home late after get off work, and the light was still on in her room.

Xiaozhen's mother pursed her lips and smiled: "My lamp must always be on for my daughter."

These words were enough to hurt my heart. As soon as I said them, the people next to me looked at each other in blank dismay, and none of them could take it.

In fact, it is very obvious at this point. Zhou Yan has been seeing a psychiatrist for a long time after he was released from prison. He knows something about this aspect. It is an indisputable fact that Xiaozhen’s mother’s mental state is indeed problematic. .

Zhou Yan was still thinking about how to proceed with this matter when his phone vibrated suddenly, notifying that he had received a WeChat message.

The wechat was sent by Qin Feifei, a voice message.

"Brother Zhou Yan, my brother made sweet and sour fish and red wine stewed beef today, remember to come over for dinner!"

The girl's voice was sweet and sweet, which made Zhou Yan get goosebumps.

He pressed the voice button and replied to her: "No, I work late today, and I will get off work very late."

A few seconds later, Qin Feifei returned him with a crying expression.

***

"Brother! Brother Zhou Yan won't come! He said there is a night shift..." Qin Feifei ran to the kitchen with a sad face on his mobile phone, and complained to Han Zheng who was busy washing vegetables and chopping meat, "I don't know if it's true or not."

The tap water was rushing to wash the vegetable leaves. Han Zheng filled the basin next to the frozen beef with water to defrost it, glanced back at her, and answered casually, "Got it."

"That's it? Is that how you reacted?" Qin Feifei stared at him, took an apple and gnawed it, "Aren't you going to invite someone to dinner? It's so dishonest."

"This apple hasn't been washed." Han Zheng frowned, took the apple from her mouth, rinsed it under running water for 20 seconds, "help you peel and cut into pieces."

Qin Feifei tugged at the corner of his clothes, and asked persistently, "Brother, when can we see Brother Zhou Yan again?"

"I went to see him yesterday." Han Zheng paused, his eyes wandering a bit.

"Ah?! You really went!" The day before, Qin Feifei told Han Zheng that Zhou Yan hadn't left the city yet. He didn't expect him to move so fast...

Qin Feifei had a rough time with Han Zheng in the kitchen for a while, Han Zheng finally let go and said that he would take her to "Xilai" for supper at night, and Qin Feifei left satisfied.

Sitting on the sofa with his legs crossed, eating potato chips and watching variety shows, he was in a good mood. Seeing his granddaughter so happy, Mr. Qin was also happy.

"Feifei, are you in such a good mood? It's been a long time since I saw you succeed like this."

Qin Feifei chewed the potato chips until they were crispy, and his eyebrows were curved: "My brother finally agreed to go to Zhou Yan's for supper with me!"

Mr. Qin nodded slightly, shook his head a little dullly, and said in a low voice, "Ah...Xiao Zhou..." He coughed and said casually, "The relationship between your brother and him seems to be getting better and better."

"Um……"

Qin Feifei didn't know if he heard his words clearly, and answered vaguely, without taking his eyes off the TV screen.

Mr. Qin's eyes swept across the TV screen, and finally fixed on a photo placed beside the TV.

That photo was developed by Qin Feifei not long ago. It was taken when he went to the mountain for a barbecue that day. It was a group photo of the two of them.Han Zheng and Zhou Yan stood in the middle, and the others were laughing wantonly with their shoulders crossed, but the two of them didn't.

But the way they stood together was surprisingly harmonious.

Old Master Qin sighed, stood up tremblingly on crutches, moved to the TV step by step, and took the photo away.

Qin Feifei finally came back to his senses, looked at him with wide eyes, and asked, "Grandpa, what are you doing?"

Mr. Qin put the photo upside down next to her, and waved his hand: "Take it to your room, and put our family portrait in the living room instead."