[Black shield and white tank] A line of sea and sky

After the assassination temporarily came to an end, Steve did not leave Stark Tower.This made Tony a little annoyed, he didn't want to see the wounded Steve, let alone see him changing his dressing, it made Tony feel an unknown anger in his stomach.

He thought of his own Steve.He hated thinking about those things.

He rarely talks about his Captain America to Captain Hydra, not because of the identity of Captain Hydra, even in his own world, it is Tony's forbidden zone.He didn't tell Pepa, he didn't tell Rhodes, and he even forced himself not to think about it.

Because as soon as he touched it, there seemed to be a huge whirlpool pulling him down under his feet.Remind him all the time that he has done too many evil things.

The world's data shows that Steve and Tony have been together since the beginning of the formation of the Avengers.They seem to have been having some conflicts, stalemate with each other and unwilling to make concessions.This contradiction accumulated too much until the civil war broke out.

In his world, however, things are completely different.

He hardly ever saw Steve confronting himself head-on.He didn't know if it was because he was too tough at the beginning, or because Steve was too confused. Tony Duck has always been the absolute leader, deciding everything about Captain America.

They never really hooked up, yes, they kissed, did ///ai, lived together like lovers.But it's all Tony pushing, and Steve hasn't pushed him away from the first time he offered to kiss Steve.When he lures Steve to the bed, he doesn't let him into him either, he does the opposite, the way he's used to.

Maybe from that moment on, Steve decided that Tony had a relationship with him, but in Tony's mind, it was just a whim.

Steve is good-looking, good-looking, decent and high-status, and Tony always likes to take off these glittering things and put them in the vault.So he took Steve off, too, and displayed it like a trophy on a trophy stand.

But he was never just Steve.

Even when the other party thought it was a relationship, Tony was still in contact with different people.Still doing ///ai with men or women, still taking those glamorous people to various occasions.

Captain America may or may not be there.But Iron Man will always be Iron Man, no matter who is standing next to him.

The first time Tony saw Steve's weakness was when Steve formally proposed to him to clean up these messy relationships.

He quarreled with Steve, even though Steve only said "I don't want you to continue like this", but whether it was out of guilt or for other reasons, Tony used various reasons to refute him.

They are not lovers, are they lovers after going to bed a few times?That Tony's lover can serialize several magazines.

He likes Steve, but he doesn't like being tied down.Even just a promise, a pale promise to "change slowly," would suffocate him.

So Tony just warned the other party - "Don't mention this to me in the future, if you don't like it, you can leave."

That night Tony continued to live a life of luxury and money. He drank so much that he couldn't remember if there was one person or two people in his bed.He doesn't know where Steve is, but at that moment he doesn't care.Alcohol and sex let him relax, his keen senses focused only on his lower body, and he was perfectly served, which was his reward for a tiring day.

It wasn't until late at night when he got up from the smelly room and wanted to go out to have a urinate that he saw Steve sitting in the hallway.

Steve didn't turn on the light, just sat silently at the table.

Tony feels a little guilty, but before Steve can stand up and speak, he drunkenly pushes away the arm that was trying to hold him.

"Jesus...can't you make me have a good day?! Can you stop being a victim to me all day? You should get out Steve, you're making it hard for me to breathe."

Tony doesn't remember how he got back to his room, or how Steve responded afterwards.In the dream he vaguely saw those blue eyes, and there was something hurt in them, which annoyed Tony so much that he couldn't even sleep well.

But when he woke up, Steve was gone.He listened to Tony and gave Tony the freedom to indulge and the room to breathe.

At that time, Tony really introspected about this, so he restrained himself for a while.Afterwards, he decided that he had done something wrong, so he took the gift and found the place where Steve was renting.

Steve forgave him, and of course Steve would forgive him.Steve loved him, and if Tony showed even a little repentance, he'd believe Stark nonsense again.

Then they come back to square one and start all over again.

Everything, repeat the same mistakes.

Tony continued to deal with outside political forces on Steve's behalf, telling him where to go and where to stop.When to take a stand and when to keep silent.As always, Steve did what he was told, even on the extremely sensitive subject of the Winter Soldier.

Tony knew that Bucky was Steve's buddy and boy, but so what.That is a thing of the past, a thing of death.He could not send someone to arrest Bucky, and he could not strongly support the government's decision to send the Winter Soldier to a court-martial, but he couldn't stand Steve's slight hesitation and mercy on Bucky's issue, so he decided to Deport this bad-minded murderer.

"He has to leave America and never come back for the rest of his life." He said to Steve, and he had already started to do it when he said it. He just informed Steve, and didn't intend to ask for his opinion.

"He can't take care of himself, he's out of his mind," Steve whispered, "He's my friend, I can't—"

"I think you haven't figured it out. Now he has only two paths. One is to die, and the other is to sit on the judgment seat."

Tony looked down at Steve, "Do you think he has a chance of surviving after sitting on the trial seat? Even if he is sentenced to life in prison, how long can he live in those prisons that have been prepared? Huh? "

He couldn't survive, and if Steve let him stay, Tony could guarantee that he wouldn't survive a year.

Steve is his own thing, and no one but Tony can shake Captain America's decision.Captain America is already unaccompanied, so don't try to catch a "friend" from other places and try to compare with his status.

No, absolutely not.Even if Tony admitted that he didn't love Steve enough to love him, he wouldn't want anyone to touch his collection.

That was the second time Tony saw Steve's weakness.

At that time, Steve put his hands on his eyes and didn't lift them up for a while.He clenched his teeth, and his Adam's apple was rolling.He forced the civil war to break out in his own mind, keeping it as far away from Tony as possible.

Regardless, Tony got the final go-ahead.

Steve agreed to exile the Winter Soldier, and Tony leaned down contentedly, and kissed Steve affectionately.

"You're my good captain," Tony said, "you're my Steve."

Steve put his head on Tony's shoulder, putting his weight on Tony's shoulder.His hug was tight, and even though Tony never said it, he knew it was forcing him to choose between the two.

The nature of the Winter Soldier and Tony is completely different from him, but in order to continue, he still gave up all the past before he woke up from the ice cellar.

Yes, he gave up many, many things.

Steve left many times and came back every time.Tony gradually understands that the prey that has been caught in the net is not thinking about how to choose, but to use time to convince his heart and accept Tony's arrangement.

So they spent a long time in this back and forth separation and reunion, Tony's way of calling each other back did not fail once.

Over time, Tony no longer needs to introspect.He knew that Steve couldn't live without him, and without him Steve couldn't connect with the world, couldn't live on, couldn't lose the only thing after giving up everything else.

In this way, Tony turned Steve into a captive and a puppet in the other party's connivance and self-indulgence.

Do captives and puppets have status?No.

With Stark's high-profile and ruthless way of doing things, he has attracted countless enemies.Steve was always a shield in front of him, so Tony was very relieved that those people would kill Steve first before his body was harmed.

But they couldn't kill him, the only one who could kill Steve was himself.

Only he can watch the other party let go of his guard indifferently and take the medicine alone.Only he could make Steve's heart ache and tears flow down his face.Only he can do whatever he wants with Steve, and the other party will only clenched his teeth, pursed his lips, and was willing to bleed to satisfy some strange fetishes of Stark.

That's why Steve stepped into it when someone else set up a trap in the name of Stark that Tony didn't even notice.

That was the last time Tony saw Steve, and Steve's eyes were closed forever.

Stark didn't know what kind of trust it was that would allow a soldier with the perfect serum to lower his senses, let the enemy handcuff him, and walk on the road that others told him "Stark has agreed to".

Tony walked that short road countless times. He tried countless times to find out where the sniper was ambush, and asked the forensic doctor to re-examine the body countless times. Model, bullet material.

But he couldn't find the murderer, because the murderer was a faction, not the guy who was also a puppet holding the gun.

So he wants to become a god.

He has become a god, and he is the only one who hurts others.

But after becoming a god, he also realized that the person who indirectly killed Steve was himself.It was he who turned Steve into a slave fighting for the Iron camp, and it was he who destroyed Captain America's ability to save himself in the name of love.

He felt guilty, that monstrous guilt was like a ghost digging in his chest.So he was in a dilemma, especially when Captain Hydra bit off the bandage, left his upper body bare, changed the dressing on the wound and bandaged it properly, Tony saw the similarities with his own Steve, and saw the steel he killed the world The original intention of the hero.

To kill himself is to fulfill Steve.But now, he wants to sacrifice Steve again.

This may be doomed.

No matter how they go, they will still come together.

No matter how he goes, he will still kill him.

Steve looked up to meet Stark's gaze, and looked down at himself, "Do you see anything wrong?"

Tony returned to his senses and smiled, "From my point of view, I probably can't see anything right."

Yes, not seeing the desired result.He suddenly wondered what it would be like if the person in front of him was killed in front of him.Is it as hollow as seeing Steve's eyes closed tightly, or is he as refreshed as he is at this moment.

I didn't think about it before because I didn't dare, but now I try to think about it, only to find that I can't think of an answer at all.

By coincidence, Tony walked over from his seat and walked over to Steve.He unbuttoned the other and took off the old shirt.The traces of the bandage were exposed in front of his eyes, and he pressed the wound with his hands.

Steve was surprised, but he didn't resist Tony's approach and touch.The smell of perfume and engine oil on the opponent's body was mixed together, and there was still a little bit of blood from the fight just now.

Tony didn't sit down, he just stood in front of Steve.He clasped the back of Steve's head against his chest.There is now a screwdriver on the computer table behind them, which was the one that Tony and Jarvis had thrown on the table when they were talking.

Tony took it and squeezed it in the palm of his hand.He made as little noise as possible, thinking Steve couldn't see anything.Steve's head froze for a moment, and the next second he leaned heavily as if he didn't know anything.

It's hard to tell who Tony thinks the other party is, but the moment he leans on himself, a strange feeling surrounds the bodies of both parties.What a familiar weight it was, giving Tony the illusion of going back in time.

Tony's fingers moved up from the wound and held down the sweat-damp blond hair.Steve turned his face to the side, and from Tony's angle, he could see the tip of his straight nose protruding a little from the tip of his hair.

Tony tightened his grip on the screwdriver and lifted it from the table.

The shirt was only half undone, and the ripped neckline exposed half of the chest muscles and shoulders.The half-naked muscular body presents a strange beauty, but it has nothing to do with emotion.

Steve closed his eyes.He could hear the little noises, but he didn't want to react.He knew that if Tony stabbed himself from behind at this time, maybe everything would end early.But for some reason, he didn't expose Tony.

He chose to lean in, and for the first time after being strong for so long, he let Tony make the decision.

He breathed lightly, letting as much of the other person's body odor overflow his nostrils as possible.The smell was familiar, yet slightly different.He really wanted to raise his arms to hug the person in front of him, but he didn't dare.

He showed a cold and cruel side, intimidating Stark.But there is still a huge black hole in my heart, and there is a bottomless fear in the black hole.He was afraid that if he hugged him, he would wake up the sleepwalking person instead.The man would instantly turn back into a beast and push him away, opening the abyss again.

So he could only keep as quiet as possible, enjoying the precious closeness of this white monster.And he was like a huge black stone, he stopped in place, praying that time would stop.

"Do you really believe that you can keep me?" Tony's voice came from the top of his head. It sounded a bit like the voice of God.

"Letter." Steve replied softly.He closed his eyes, trying not to let the external environment distract him as much as possible.

"How much?" Tony asked again.

"One hundredth." Steve blurted out.

one percent.Steve has been clinging to this one percent.In fact, even if it is one in a thousand, one in ten thousand, Steve still believes it.He had to force himself to believe otherwise all the evil he did was pointless.

Tony stopped talking, and quietly put his hands on Steve's body.

It took a while for Steve to feel the trembling of the hands and the trembling of the body.Something dripped on one shoulder of Steve's chest, warm and cool, and the moment Steve looked up, Tony rubbed his cheek desperately with his hands.

Tony didn't make a sound, but he couldn't get a grip on the screwdriver.He pressed it hard against the counter, and he didn't let go, and he didn't meet Steve's eyes.At this moment, his eyes were looking straight at the wall behind him, bloodshot eyes and misty eyes.

"One percent...can you be more ridiculous?" Tony laughed to himself, but the mist in his eyes became thicker.Make that laugh more like a gasping gasp, cramped and hoarse.

Tony couldn't do it himself.He didn't know what made him weak and hesitant, he couldn't insert the screwdriver into the back of Steve's neck, and he couldn't convince himself to give up the murderous intention he had planted.

He let go of his fingers, and the screwdriver lay back on the table.It doesn't seem like it's ever been picked up, and Steve doesn't seem to know anything about it.

Tony tried to regain his composure, and after a moment of stalemate, he suddenly leaned over and grabbed Steve's shirt tightly.Steve tried to hug him, but he pushed Steve's hand away, and stubbornly pressed his head into Steve's chest by himself.

Steve tried to wrap his arms around his back again, but Tony kept pushing Steve's arms open.He warns Steve not to touch him, but he strangles his shirt hard and presses his head hard against Steve's rib cage.

He was sobbing, sobbing so hard that he shuddered.He was like a hedgehog, he allowed himself to tremble, but he didn't allow anyone to come near him.

His tears stained Steve's chest and dripped down his brown pants.Steve could feel the weight of each drop, but the chemical composition contained in it was not understood by Captain Hydra.

The shirt twisted in a knot in Tony's fist, jaws rattled, and the fabric began to crumble from the force.Something is collapsing in Tony's heart, and those thoughts and guilt that have been suppressed for too long are pouring out of the secret fortress like a flood.They roared, roared, and ran wildly, trying to break the calm that Iron Man was trying to maintain.

"We can't be together, the end of being together must be that one of them dies." Tony gritted his teeth, the side of his tight clothes pressed against Steve's wound, and the wound oozes blood.

Steve couldn't stand his perspective, didn't see what the future would look like.But Stark came from a world later in time, and he knew too well that no matter how he went, he couldn't avoid the final outcome.

He didn't want to be sad again, didn't want to sink again, didn't want to turn back into a human form, and helplessly accept the mercy of fate.

But Steve...Steve is a fool, a fool who has been frozen for 70 years, a stubborn and self-righteous bastard, he can never figure out how to fill the gap between two people, Rogers and Star As long as these two people with completely different personalities get together, there will only be tragedy.

Tony didn't know if his vision was too broad or too narrow, he saw countless possible paths, but all paths had only one ending in his mind.

I have already seen the end of the game in advance, how can there be any idiots who want to continue this game.

"There is no one percent, not even one thousandth, one ten thousandth, nothing... You don't know now because you haven't seen it. If I don't kill you now, I will kill you sooner or later. Directly, indirectly……"

Tony's nasal voice got thicker, and the wetness in Steve's chest widened.

"You don't understand...damn you don't know...you're blind, you've always been blind, you're blind in my world, you're blind in your own world...why don't you let me go?! you don't My leaving will only make us all die badly, what do you think you know, what do you think you know!..."

The more Tony spoke, the more excited he became, and more and more blood spilled from Steve's wound.

He was incoherent, and he burst into tears.He wanted both of them to have a good life, but Steve insisted on being together.This is true in my own world, and it is still the same here!He hated Steve, he hated it to the bone!He didn't know what he was talking about, and his mind was finally overwhelmed by those turbulent emotions.They were taking revenge on him, and he couldn't figure it out.

He didn't want Steve to sacrifice for himself, nor did he need Steve's protection.He shouldn't have accepted it in the first place, shouldn't have condoned it, shouldn't have softened his heart, shouldn't have regretted it, shouldn't have allowed this disgusting American soldier to turn around in front of his eyes, shouldn't have...

Steve froze, but the next moment he put his hand on Tony's back.He stroked the other person's spine, trying to calm down the violently trembling body.He didn't know if doing this would have any effect on the person in front of him, but a certain inertia, a certain instinctive drive, made him always believe that——

"Yes, it's possible," Steve said, his voice calm.This calmness is not like the previous indifference, and there is an extra layer of real, ignorant but sincere things.

"Even if there is a day in the future, it doesn't matter," Steve continued to caress, he still didn't dare to hug Tony tightly, every word he said was very clear, but Tony felt ringing in his ears, and every sentence was full of pain. There was an overwhelming noise.

"If you're going to kill me, you're going to kill me. If you're going to leave, you're going to do it. But I still want to try and fight for it," Steve said. "I just want to be together."

"One year, one day, one hour. A little more is a little, and a little more is a point."

"Maybe I will succeed? Maybe... Are you really willing to stay?"

"dont you agree."

is not it.

No.

Tony cried out inwardly.

No, no, impossible.

But he can't say anything now.

He is crying.

TBC