Treasure this life [Rebirth]

Xiang Qiuran died.

Shi Rong suddenly became depressed.He couldn't bear this blow, because he knew Xiang Qiuran's death, and he couldn't absolve himself of the blame.If Xiang Qiuran hadn't accidentally discovered that he was in a relationship with his manager, the car accident would never have happened.

In fact, he hesitated to say anything because he knew too well how badly Xiang Qiuran would be hit by moving out to live with his agent.Originally, I was going to talk about it in the morning, but Xiang Qiuran was as happy as a child when he saw that he had prepared a bad breakfast.Moreover, it seems to have misunderstood something.

So, the teacher swallowed the words on his lips, the timing was not good.

However, Shi Rong could not bear the final result.

Xiang Qiuran's parents passed away, and he has no relatives anymore.Who held his funeral?As soon as Shi Rong mentioned it to his agent Li Chengfeng, the other party warned him severely, "You are crazy, what does his funeral have to do with you? Are you not afraid of affecting your reputation? Do you want everyone to know that you live together? Silk horse traces If your homosexuality is discovered, it can destroy you!"

The flustered Shi Rong listened to Li Chengfeng's everything under the helplessness of the six gods.

In fact, they called a car in a hurry on the morning of Xiang Qiuran's car accident, and moved away all of Shi Rong's belongings.The neighbor also asked Shirong why he didn't see Xiang Qiuran to help him move.Shi Rong said guiltily, "Qiu Ran said he was going on a business trip, and he didn't want to drag him down."

Living in the manager's house, Shi Rong couldn't do anything. He sat on the sofa with his hands in his hair for a while, and started pulling his own hair for a while.After a while, I turned on the TV again to see if there was any report about Xiang Qiuran's car accident in the news.

Many years later, Shi Rong still remembered that when Li Chengfeng came back from outside that night, he brought back the news of Xiang Qiuran's death, and, it is said, he stopped breathing on the way to the hospital.

Although he saw Xiang Qiuran's head was bleeding, his eyes were lax, and a puddle of blood was spreading all over his body, he vaguely felt that something was wrong with him.However, Shi Rong, who was waiting anxiously at Li Chengfeng's house, still hoped that a miracle would happen and Xiang Qiuran would survive.

However, the bad news brought by Li Chengfeng completely broke Shi Rong's spirit, he didn't fall asleep all night, Li Chengfeng got up several times, turned on the light, and asked him what was wrong.

Shi Rong said, "It's nothing." He said to himself over and over again, this was an accident and I did no harm.It was planned to separate, and there is nothing wrong with not caring about his affairs, and colleagues from their company should help him.

Indeed, colleagues in the translation company helped organize the final funeral. Xiang Qiuran has worked part-time in this company since his freshman year.Later, he became an assistant to the manager.For ten years, the colleagues who have worked with him have feelings for him.

At that time, the police investigated that the cause of death was a traffic accident, and found the company phone number from Xiang Qiuran's mobile phone. The company manager was shocked when he knew the cause of Xiang Qiuran's death.What a surprise!They are all sorry, what a pity, what a good guy, he has a good job, looks good, and has a good temper, what a pity.

Colleagues knew that Xiang Qiuran lost his parents, so they spontaneously chipped in to help Xiang Qiuran with the funeral. The company paid for medical expenses and most of the funeral expenses.Xiang Qiuran's cousin, who was notified by the police to deal with Xiang Qiuran's property and burial, thanked his colleagues in the company again and again.He bought a cemetery for Xiang Qiuran with the money from disposing of the inheritance.

In the end, in front of Xiang Qiuran's cemetery, the people who saw him off, apart from his cousin, were mainly colleagues from the company, and there were also a few college students who came in a hurry after being notified by colleagues.

On that day, the classmates remembered that Xiang Qiuran's best friend was Shi Rong, and wanted to inform him to come to the funeral.But Shi Rong's phone has been unable to get through.

At that time, Shi Rong's cell phone was out of battery.He and Ben didn't feel like doing anything, and started drinking too much, and he didn't even realize that his phone was dead.

There were beer bottles all over the floor, things in a mess, and there were even cigarette butts on the sofa. This was the mess that manager Li Chengfeng saw when he got home.

Li Chengfeng likes Shi Rong's glamorous appearance outside, but he really didn't expect him to be such a sloppy ghost in life.At first Li Chengfeng thought that Shi Rong was too sad, he was hit and couldn't live a normal life.But a few days passed, even half a month passed, and Shi Rong still looked like this.

Li Chengfeng became irritable, this is not the life he wants.

In his imagination, life with Shi Rong should be like this: two people work together, he helps Shi Rong win more opportunities, and Shi Rong also performs well, making him a good manager.After work is over, go home together, prepare dinner together, and after dinner, nestle on the sofa together, sip tea or coffee, watch TV, or do nothing, and accompany each other quietly.

He really likes Shirong, not unspoken rules.Li Chengfeng has never threatened Shi Rong with the resources in his hands.The relationship between the two is a matter of course, and they are naturally together.Once the two talked about it and confirmed their relationship, Li Chengfeng didn't want Shi Rong to live in the house of someone who loved him deeply.

Li Chengfeng did not expect that Xiang Qiuran would have an accident.This accident ruined everyone's life, including his planned happy life.

"How long are you still going to be decadent! I have been taking care of your emotions for half a month. There will be an announcement tomorrow, and I have made an appointment a long time ago. How can you get on the announcement with your ghostly appearance? Do you know how many contacts I have used to get you here?" Help you win this opportunity. But you do nothing, mourning a dead person at home every day." Li Chengfeng broke out unbearably.

But the unshaven Shi Rong smiled, "Come on, keep drinking, buddy, come on, let's go. Get drunk and relieve your worries..."

The furious Li Chengfeng grabbed the beer bottle and threw it out. The next moment, the beer bottle exploded into a flower on the wall.

The loud impact and the sound of glass shattering didn't wake Shi Rong up. He was just dazed for a moment, then got up again, walked to the kitchen, opened the refrigerator door, and took out another bottle of beer.

Li Chengfeng looked at it, okay, there is a refrigerator of beer, Shi Rong went out to buy it during the day.

Li Chengfeng, physically and mentally exhausted, sat on the ground, looked at the drunk who started drinking again, and told himself once again that this was not the life he wanted to live.

However, Li Chengfeng is a formidable manager after all, he threw away all the beer, dragged Shirong to the bathroom, sprayed him wildly with the shower, and gave him a shower.When Shi Rong fell asleep, he shaved Shi Rong again and applied ice cubes to his face to remove the swelling on his face.Li Chengfeng only slept for two hours, and woke up Shi Rong in the early morning, called a makeup artist to finish his makeup, help him match clothes, and then no matter what his emotions were, he began to tell him what to say today.

Shi Rong was still lifeless, so Li Chengfeng told him coldly, "From the manager's point of view, I will not cultivate an artist who gives up on himself. If you are like this, I will not take you again. Of course, as a friend , I can let you live in my house, and I can help you. But, are you willing to be a waste and be supported by me? You are willing to see other artists become famous, but you are unknown. Do young people play supporting roles, or even backup dancers? I tolerate you, but the company won't. If something goes wrong with today's announcement, you can wait to be hidden by the company."

Shi Rong finally reacted, he looked at Li Chengfeng with wide eyes, as if he didn't know him, Shi Rong had never heard such harsh words from Li Chengfeng's mouth, the word "Xue Zang" irritated him.

In fact, Shi Rong also knew that this would not work. He was just relying on Li Chengfeng's ability to temporarily cover him up. He really couldn't cheer up, so he had some thoughts of escaping. If he could delay for a day, it was a day.

Now Li Chengfeng is not willing to accommodate him anymore, yes, of the two people who can accommodate him, one is dead, and the other is getting bored.

Shi Rong barely finished the announcement, even though he tried his best to keep his most charming smile, it could still be seen that he was not in good spirits.The fans finally looked forward to Shi Rong's program, but found that the idol's spirit was not good, so they left a message on Shi Rong's Weibo with concern:

[Xiao Rong should take good care of herself. 】

[Why change assistants?The original assistant brother is so good.Another classmate, and careful.After changing the assistant, Xiaorong really had a hard time. 】

[Xiao Rong, when will the assistant brother come out again, I miss him. 】

……

After Xiang Qiuran left, Shi Rong felt a big emptiness, and often didn't know what to do. He was bored looking at Weibo, and saw these heart-wrenching words.

There is no chance to see him, there is no chance again.

Shi Rong sent a reply in a strange way:

【he's gone.Never coming back again. 】

The fans noticed this reply, and the one who got the reply was very happy, but soon everyone couldn't be happy.What does it mean?I always feel that there is something wrong with Shi Rong's reply.

Not long after, a fan posted a message in the circle, saying that she followed her family to pay homage to her grandfather, and at the cemetery, she saw a photo of her assistant's brother on the tombstone.

The fans didn't quite believe it. Basically, Shi Rong's old fans knew about the assistant brother, and some even had a crush on the gentle assistant brother.Everyone didn't believe it, and they sent private messages one after another to ask Shi Rong that the assistant's brother's death was not real.But Shi Rong didn't respond.

Moreover, everyone realized belatedly that Shi Rong hadn't updated Weibo for a long time.

A dozen or so unwilling fans organized a group to go to the cemetery to find the tombstone of the legendary assistant brother, and in the end, they really found it.

With a young, handsome face and a smile, it's not his assistant brother Xiang Qiuran, but who else.That smile has been frozen forever on the tombstone, where he has been buried forever.

Everyone who went there cried, and the sadness struck unexpectedly, and all the fans felt that it was unacceptable.Some of them once misunderstood that the assistant brother had abandoned Xiaorong and pursued his future.Now, being slapped in the face by the bad news, that fan who had misunderstood and accused Xiang Qiuran on Weibo, hated and scolded himself on the spot, and finally lost control to the point where he started beating himself, and was stopped by his friends.

Most of Shi Rong's fans are young female fans in their teens to thirties. When the news spread in the circle, everyone finally understood why Shi Rong's last reply said, "He left. He will never come back again."

It turned out that I didn't leave Benqiancheng, but said goodbye forever.

At this moment, Shi Rong's sadness infected everyone who saw the news again.

In the following period of time, Shi Rong's fans were united like never before, and they stopped fighting on Weibo, and they didn't care about fighting with other fans. They often appeared in places Shi Rong would pass by, encouraging and cheering him on. , I hope he will come out of his grief soon.

However, as soon as Xiang Qiuran was mentioned, Shi Rong was speechless.His lonely expression was captured by many people in the camera.

Not long after, a new web drama starring Shi Rong was launched, and fans said, sure enough, this novel was tailor-made for Xiao Rong.This online drama doesn't have a big name, but there are a lot of fans of online novels, so Shi Rong is considered popular.

The improvement of his career made Shi Rong somewhat happier. He sincerely thanked Li Chengfeng, but this time Li Chengfeng was not complacent.He hesitated for a moment, and told the truth, "I promised Xiang Qiuran not to say anything, but since he's gone, it wouldn't be considered a breach of the oath to say it now."

Shi Rong suddenly felt something was wrong, Li Chengfeng was the last person to mention Xiang Qiuran, what happened today.

"I didn't fight for this web drama for you. Xiang Qiuran traded his house for the right to adapt the novel. This intellectual property right is now in your name, so the crew promised me that you can only be the lead actor."

Shi Rong, who was finally cheered up, fell into self-pity again.At the meeting of the online drama, fans asked Shi Rong if he was still sad for his assistant brother, and Shi Rong burst into tears on the spot.

After a period of time, Shi Rong began to suffer from insomnia, and Li Chengfeng couldn't rest after following him.In the end, Li Chengfeng, who couldn't hold on anymore, proposed to break up, and transferred Shirong to other managers.

Li Chengfeng helped Shi Rong find an apartment close to the company and rent it out. He helped Shi Rong pack up his things for the last time. When he was about to leave the house, he turned around and said to Shi Rong, "You are actually lucky, there are always people who love you by your side." You. I can't guard a person with a grave in my heart. This is not the life I want to live. And you called his name, woke up from a dream, and made me feel that there were three people sleeping on the bed. I'm sorry for you, I can't hold on anymore. If you meet someone who loves you in the future, Shi Rong, please cherish him."

From Shi Rong's point of view, Li Chengfeng's departure will happen sooner or later. After such a thing happened, how could they still be together as a matter of course, pretending that nothing happened.Li Chengfeng was also a witness to the car accident. Seeing Li Chengfeng, it is impossible for Shi Rong to forget Xiang Qiuran.

In the ten years that followed, Shi Rong was still struggling in the showbiz circle, and there was no one around him who tried his best to fight for opportunities for him.The teacher's appearance is also ups and downs, half red and not purple mixed with the third-tier niche students.

When new fans asked why Shi Rong often had a melancholy temperament, some old fans kept secret and avoided answering.Some will tell the whole story and talk about the year in detail.Therefore, Xiang Qiuran's name will be mentioned in Shi Rong's fan circle every once in a while.

In order not to make Shi Rong sad, everyone agreed not to mention that name in front of Shi Rong.

But some fans are quietly maintaining the "Assistant Brother's Support Club", and some people try their best to get photos of Xiang Qiuran's elementary school, college, and work. Although there are not many things, there is a group of stubborn people. The girls are guarding the Weibo of the support club and updating it from time to time.There is a person here, Xiang Qiuran's former colleague, Xiao Qin.

When Shi Rong was young, he could win some resources by relying on his good looks, but when he was close to 40 years old, his appearance really began to look old, and the setting of handsome boys was almost untenable.The agent asked him to switch, but he didn't know how to switch.

Until one time, he saw someone else's script, in which there was a male No. 5 who didn't have many roles, he was a white-collar worker, and majored in foreign languages.Shi Rong stared straight at him, this is exactly the same as Xiang Qiuran.

Appearance, personality, professionalism, they are all similar.So, Shi Rong found the director and tried his hardest and hardest. In the end, he even said that he would not be paid, just because he liked the role.The director saw that he really loved the character, and felt that it was rare, so he agreed.As for the producer, I heard that there is no salary, and I have no objection. Anyway, a male No. 5, the role of the role is not important.

But what I didn't expect was that it was this male No. 5 that gave Shirong a new artistic life.

There were even a few episodes where Shi Rong’s male No. 5 beat the male No. 1. Not to mention that the fans wanted to celebrate wildly, even passers-by felt that the actor who played the role of a white-collar worker really did a good job. The gentle and elegant workplace handsome guy came to life.

In fact, Shi Rong has heard these beautiful words a long time ago.When filming on the set, every time he entered the mood, Shi Rong's temperament suddenly changed, from the usually indifferent and aloof peacock man, to instantly becoming a professional elite who exudes a gentle temperament from the inside out.Everyone from the director to the actors has to admire.When the play was almost over, Shi Rong's usual demeanor also changed a lot. The male No. 1 joked, "You're happy to be a different person."

The transformation problem that had puzzled him for a long time was solved naturally in this way, relying on imitating Xiang Qiuran.

For more than ten years, Shi Rong has always thought of Xiang Qiuran, his eyes, expressions, and words. Shi Rong always thought of Xiang Qiuran at that time, when he ignored him, he was thinking of What, is there a lot of grievances.

Shi Rong began to like to wear suits, and there were all kinds of white shirts hanging in the closet, and those gaudy clothes had already gone into the trash can.Sometimes, Shirong puts on formal clothes, looks in the mirror for a long time, then smiles, and says to the person in the mirror, "Hi, long time no see."

Relying on this role, Shi Rong, who has been on the ups and downs, reluctantly staying in the circle, finally won a nomination for Best Supporting Actor. Although he did not win the award in the end, it also allowed his acting skills to be recognized professionally.

And in Shi Rong's fan circle, someone came out and said:

[Does anyone feel that Shi Rong is becoming more and more like that person. 】

[Shh, this is a secret that cannot be told. 】

【What are you talking about?Why do people always say "that person" and "that person", who is it?Mysterious, so annoying. 】

……

That night, Shi Rong dreamed of "that person" that old fans said. In the dream, Xiang Qiuran was wearing a white shirt, playing the guitar, and singing, "It's raining heavily in the old hometown, and the vegetation is deep. I heard that you are always alone... ..."

After waking up, Shi Rong felt unbelievable, this dream was really strange, how could he dream of Xiang Qiuran playing the guitar, he had never seen Xiang Qiuran playing an instrument before.What's more, what's even more unbelievable is that in the dream, facing Xiang Qiuran, the rock singer Feng Zirui that Shi Rong hates the most, and a big boy who can't see clearly are sitting opposite.

Shi Rong asked for leave from the company, and he went to a place, a place that Xiang Qiuran had taken him to, which was the mountain temple in Xiang Qiuran's hometown. The big tree outside was covered with red cloth strips for wishing.

This is the second time Shi Rong has come here.

The first time was because the career was not going well and the album was not released well. Xiang Qiuran said to Shi Rong, "There is a wishing tree outside the mountain temple in my hometown. Let's go and make a wish."

Shi Rong was in a low mood in those days, so he thought it would be good to go to relax.

There were so many red cloth strips on the wishing tree, Shi Rong didn't make a wish, he didn't believe it, he felt stupid.Xiang Qiuran wrote the wishing red cloth, but he didn't let Teacher Rong see it, so he hung it up alone.

Revisiting the old place, things are different.

Shi Rong suddenly wanted to know what kind of wish Xiang Qiuran made back then, and he began to frantically search for the red cloth, this, no, this, and neither...

Although I remember the general orientation, there are too many cloth strips.From noon to dusk, tourists left one by one, but Shi Rong was still looking for him.Many people were wondering what was going on with this man, wearing a mask, and kept reading the words on the red cloth strips, reading one after another.

When Shi Rong finally saw the familiar font, he had a feeling of thanking God.Then he looked at the red cloth strip for a long time, with mixed feelings in his heart, and tears kept falling without knowing it.

Xiang Qiuran's wishing cloth reads: My wish is that Master Rong will make my wish come true.

Shi Rong took out the red cloth strip bought at the foot of the mountain from his pocket, and solemnly wrote down his wish: I want him to come back alive, even if he no longer loves me.I am willing to trade everything.If he can come back alive, he must not forgive me.

……

A few months later, Shi Rong suddenly fainted on the set and was sent to the hospital for examination. The cancer was already in the terminal stage. Shi Rong acted calmly and left the hospital without further treatment.

When Shi Rong was sent to the hospital by neighbors again because of fainting, the doctor shook his head, "Get ready for the funeral."

Shi Rong disappeared for a while, and the manager was forced to jump off the wall by the fans, so he had to tell the truth, "Shi Rong didn't want to make you sad, kept it from you, and hoped that you would gradually forget about him. But, in fact, a few days ago, he Died of cancer."

The fans didn't believe it, they ran to the hospital where Shi Rong was the last one, surrounded the doctor who was about to get off work, facing a group of crying girls, the doctor repeatedly said, "We can't disclose the patient's news."

A fan cried until his voice became hoarse, "How could he suddenly become so ill, and there was no cure as soon as he found out? Why?"

The doctor thought that cancer is still a medical problem, but I can't tell you why your idol got cancer.However, out of medical ethics, the doctor patiently explained, "There are many reasons for cancer, such as bad mood, and for example... Moreover, sometimes it takes a long time for cancer to form, and it is very likely that the first cancer cell The lesion started in my 20s, but it’s not obvious from the outside..."