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Chen Chen received a call from Chu Zhenzhou. On New Year's Eve, Chen Chen knew he had to answer the call. Chu Zhenzhou asked for credit on the phone: "I just made several kinds of dumplings, and you taught me those. Shocked, haha, Xiaochen, what are you doing?"

Chen Chen looked at the small dwarf pine that his father had brought down from the mountain in front of the door, the emerald green tree was covered with colorful lights, and said softly: "I'm in the yard, I'm calling you."

Chu Zhenzhou frowned: "It's cold outside, let's go inside, what should I do if I catch a cold?"

Chen Chen suddenly felt sad, couldn't stop being sad, and blurted out: "Did someone come to your house today?"

He regretted it as soon as he said it. He shouldn't have cross-examined him like this, but the photo was lying brightly on his phone, so how could he remain indifferent? I didn’t notify her in advance, and it’s not easy for her parents to stop her from the door. Who would have thought that she came in to look at the dumpling making in the kitchen, and came over to make dumplings together after washing her hands after talking to herself. Later, I drove her away. I guess she is I want to ask for some money from my parents or me, but don't worry, I will take care of it."

He was so honest that Chen Chen was speechless. Although he was still uncomfortable, he felt a little more at ease.

Chu Zhenzhou was sensitive to the fact that the matter was not simple, and then asked, "Baby, what's wrong with you?"

"Do you love me?"

Chu Zhenzhou clenched his phone tightly and thought for a while and replied: "Love may have thousands of forms, and the one you want may not be the one I give you, but don't doubt it, I love you"

Chen Chen pinched the hem of his clothes, his fingertips turned white, he seemed to have a lot of words stuck in his throat, wanted to say, wanted to ask, but couldn't say anything, Chu Zhenzhou didn't hear a sound for a long time, sighed and asked: "Chen Chen , if one day, someone said something to you, or let you see something, would you believe me, would you rush to me and let me explain it to you?"

Chen Chen's heart was in a mess, he hesitated after thinking for a while but said truthfully: "I don't know."

"Among us, I want to be close to you, and even force you to stay by my side. If one day, we have a distance and I will no longer be close to you, will you be brave and close to me for me?"

"I do not know"

"Chen Chen, have I ever walked into your heart?"

Chu Zhenzhou knew that he couldn't wait for the reply he wanted, so he said, "Come back early, happy new year, baby"

Listening to the busy tone on the phone, Chen Chen only felt a stuffy pain in his heart, and when he lay down after the New Year's Eve dinner, he suddenly remembered that in the first year with Chu Zhenzhou, he didn't even say that One sentence: "Happy New Year"

He tossed and turned all night and couldn't sleep well, and told himself to himself, to talk, to be brave, and he returned to City H a day early after the year, without even notifying Chu Zhenzhou, but fortunately, not long after he rang the doorbell, he was worried He took a step forward, and said to Chu Zhenzhou panting heavily as he ran up the stairs: "Can you never see her again, that Xia Yufei, don't see her, don't associate with her, is that okay? "

Surprised and delighted, Chu Zhenzhou nodded heavily. Chen Chen stood on tiptoe and leaned forward to kiss him. At this moment, he only wanted to be lingering until death, so that he could suppress the uneasiness in his heart. Love always makes people feel like this. Worrying about gains and losses, and falling in love with Chu Zhenzhou, this is a reality that he dare not think about or face.

After returning from a long vacation, Chen Chen had some vacation syndrome. Chen Chen found time to send some of the New Year’s goods brought by his parents to Luo Li. Luo Li was transferred a few years ago, and she was obviously busier than before. Watching Chen Chen come in, she said with a smile: "Look at my side bedroom, it's full of New Year's goods, what else can you bring me, where can I eat, the house over there hasn't been renovated yet, so I can't move there for a while, it's too small here. "

He and Sun Jian bought a bigger house with a mortgage. They have already paid off the loan for this house, and they have a lot of provident funds. After weighing it up, they simply bought a bigger house and rented out this house. Chen Chen said with a smile: "Evil rich people, how small is a 90-square-meter house, I can't even pay the down payment"

"Tch, you are the evil rich people, your husband is rich!"

Chen Chen smiled and asked, "How about the new job? It's still a little far away from home, and it takes more than an hour to drive."

"Fool, how many people are vying for this position. If it weren't for your husband this time, I would be really embarrassed. The competition is too fierce. I would also be in your favor."

She was talking to Chen Chen while she was folding her clothes. At this moment, she raised her head and realized that something was wrong with Chen Chen. Her face didn't look very good. She put down her clothes and asked worriedly, "What's wrong? Did you quarrel with Chu Zhenzhou?"

Chen Chen knew that he couldn't hide anything from her, so he thought for a while and asked, "Why do you say he likes me? I always find it a bit unbelievable"

"You reflex arc, why are you still entangled in this now? I see that you interacted with each other before, didn't you have a very happy life? It's not good if someone loves you, what to do if you entangle too much?"

"But I always feel that we are not down-to-earth, unlike you and Sun Jian, who are noisy, but look very harmonious, but we, I always feel that someone will appear one day and say that it is all fake, Or one day he suddenly lost interest in me, just like he was interested in me all of a sudden."

"You, you're just in love with him, that's why you're worried about this. Do you remember back then? You told me that you wished him a white moonlight, and quickly destroyed your marriage and gave you back your freedom."

She flicked Chen Chen's forehead with her fingers, shaking her head "fool"

Chen Chen stood there in a daze. If the person who knew him best in this world, the old friends on the opposite side were definitely among the top few. At this moment, he clearly recognized the reality that he had already known in his heart. He fell in love with that person, but such a Man, how can he not love?

Luo Li continued to fold the clothes in her hands, and suddenly stopped and threw the clothes out: "No, Chenzi, why are you asking this all of a sudden, isn't there really some white moonlight popping out?"

Chen Chen waved his hands: "No, no, as for his previous relationship history, I don't know too much, he said no."

"For a 38-year-old man, it's really unreasonable not to have a past, but I also asked about it, and I asked my second brother, and he also said no, let's not guess, I think you are free, think too much, move quickly Go to the big house over there, don’t hire part-time workers, clean up by yourself every day, make sure you feel fulfilled and happy forever.”

Chen Chen smiled and didn't answer, and helped her fold the clothes. He didn't dare to tell Luo Li about Xia Yufei's text messages, just as Luo Li knew him, and he loved her too. In the second year of high school, there was a boy in the next class The child stole the letter from the girl in his class from the reception room, opened it and read it aloud in the class, and refused to return the letter. Chen Chen still remembered that Luo Li rushed back to the classroom from the playground, opened the wooden platform, and there were some cleaning items underneath. Brooms and shovels, she took the boys in her class with those shovels, went to the next class and dragged the boy out of the school gate to beat him up, because fighting in the school is punishable.

Although they have grown up now, she is inevitably impulsive about her own affairs, and he doesn't want to bring unnecessary trouble to her old friend.

Although Chen Chen had his own car, Chu Zhenzhou still asked to pick him up every day, but tonight he insisted on driving to Luo Li's house by himself, and only said that his hands were itchy and wanted to touch the car, so Chu Zhenzhou naturally agreed.

At this time, he parked the car in a secluded alley, and the colorful ice lamps outside the window filled the streets and alleys of City H. He hid in the car alone and digested his little things. He fell in love with Chu Zhenzhou, this The recognition made him happy and panicked. He thought of Chu Zhenzhou's questions on New Year's Eve. He knew that if Chu Zhenzhou hadn't approached him proactively, he would never have expected to be close to such a person in his life. The rope between the two He has been holding each other's hands all the time, the difference is that he wanted to break free at the beginning, but now he is afraid that the other party will let go one day, and now there is someone who wants to cut the rope.

He knew that he would never have the courage to rush to that woman and say, "He is mine, stay away from him." To some extent, he knew that he was a stubborn pessimist. In fact, it seems that falling in love can only be resigned to fate, a heart can only drift with the other party, and can no longer guard it by itself.

A few days later, Chen Chen received another text message. This time, Xia Yufei came out of an office building. Chu Zhenzhou had invited him several times. The place Chen Chen felt embarrassed to refuse to go was Chu Zhenzhou's company. Same, stared at that photo many times, then clicked delete.

This night, he cooked Chu Zhenzhou's favorite dish, and put a lot of salt in a panic. Except for the first bite, Chu Zhenzhou paused, and then he ate the whole dish with a normal expression.Chen Chen wanted to question the person opposite him like he questioned Liu Junhong back then: Why did she go to your company?Have you met again?But he couldn't ask, he didn't want to let himself become like that, hysterical and lose himself.

Chu Zhenzhou swallowed the last bite of food. Of course he knew that something was wrong with his little lover, but he really couldn't figure out what happened. This trouble, but he looks preoccupied, but he doesn't say anything. Even though Chu Zhenzhou loves his gentle appearance, he has no choice but to be tolerant and helpless at this time, and wants to knock his little head open to see clearly , What are you worrying about?

At night, Chen Chen took the initiative to ask for sex again. It has always been like this recently. Chu Zhenzhou was naturally happy with his initiative, but he always felt uneasy in his movements. After the joy, Chu Zhenzhou hugged him and patted him lightly. Ask: "Baby, why are you so enthusiastic recently?"

"Do you not like it?"

"How come, I like everything about you."

"Then, will you fall in love with others in the future?"

Chu Zhenzhou stood up and scratched his nose: "What are you thinking, you are not allowed to say such things in the future, how could I fall in love with others?"

"But as you said, you fell in love with me right away."

"Yes, so I will cherish it very much, this is what God gave me"

"Then will you lie to me?"

Chu Zhenzhou always felt that he had given all his patience to Chen Chen, and at this moment he also felt helpless sulk, he kissed Chen Chen's forehead and asked, "What's wrong with you, can we say something if you have anything to say?" ?”

Chen Chen thought for a while and said, "I haven't figured out how to tell you, wait a few days, okay?"

He didn't lie, he really didn't know how to express his feelings to Chu Zhenzhou, his view on love, his position in this relationship, his way of thinking about problems, and his ability to deal with emotional problems, all of these had nothing to do with Chu Zhenzhou. The state is very different, and he doesn't know how to best let the other party understand his worries and panic.

He started to sleep poorly, always pretending to be asleep and waiting for Chu Zhenzhou to breathe evenly and open his eyes again.

The text message still came as expected, this time it was next to Chu Zhenzhou's car, he seemed to have just closed the car door and walked a dozen steps away, holding the car key in one hand, and answering the call with the mobile phone in the other, Xia Yufei standing behind the car It was still placed on the handlebar of the car, as if to confirm whether the car door was closed. Chen Chen also had this habit and was very familiar with this action.

This time he saw the pain in his eyes, so he deleted the picture.