chasing autumn

Yu Huolian walked into the room with a lonely expression.

Turning her head, she saw Du Fu laying motionless by the bed, Yu Huolian asked in surprise, "What's wrong with her?"

"She's all right,"

Li Jing said calmly, "I fainted her, but she didn't hear anything."

Yu Huolian was taken aback for a moment, then smiled and said, "I understand Brother Li's meaning, actually..."

"Are you... surnamed Zhan?"

"You..." Yu Huolian frowned, "What else do you know?!"

Yu Huolian's reaction gave Li Jing the best answer. He sighed imperceptibly, and said solemnly: "From now on, I don't know anything. I, Li Jing, swear to the sky! - I will never interfere Any grievance disputes between Dao and the imperial court! In this life, sit on the sidelines! If you violate this oath, you will be punished by heaven and earth!!..."

Facing Yu Huolian's surprised and puzzled eyes, Li Jing said again: "Li Jing is not afraid of being involved in the future, but I know what I should do and what I should not do. I also know that things should not be judged by appearances alone. Who is right and who is wrong, it is still unknown... Come to think of it, the destiny-it has its own justice."

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In the evening, the main altar of Infernal Affairs.

The strong wine is tangy and intoxicating.

As the night darkened, shadows engulfed a long wooden box placed on a square table.

Zhan Hao sat at the table, quietly looking at the wooden box in a trance, lost in thought.He didn't wake up until the wine jars all over the place were empty, and murmured to himself in a low voice:

"Zhan Hao...the things you will regret in this life...too many..."

"Father..." Yu Huolian stepped into the threshold with some hesitation, and stood by the door, hesitating in her heart whether to step forward to disturb the inexplicable sorrow in this room.

After a long time, Zhan Hao glanced at him and said in a low voice, "What are you doing here?... Come to see my jokes?..."

"Father, what are you talking about..."

"Drink it." Zhan Hao raised his hand a little weakly, pointing to a bowl of soup on the table.

"This is……"

"Don't make me say the same thing a second time." Zhan Hao's eyes were still lowered, and his voice was calm and pretentious.

"..." Yu Huolian didn't dare to say anything more, she approached the table and drank the medicine, "Father, why don't you go...to see her?..."

Zhan Hao snorted, "What? They left?..."

"Who, who?..." Yu Huolian hesitated.

"If you don't hide them well, you won't let me in!..." Zhan Hao said lightly, and suddenly laughed, "You think I'll kill them to silence you, don't you?... No wonder... maybe I Really, I will kill and silence..."

"I……"

Being caught by Zhan Hao's words, Yu Huolian said softly, "I think, Dad, you seem to... care about her... Ruyun her... Is she so important—"

With a bang, a wine jar was smashed.

"Shut up!" Zhan Hao sternly said.

Yu Huolian was taken aback, not knowing what she said wrong.

Zhan Hao restrained his emotions a little, stood up, and walked out of the room slowly, "Do what you should do. I'll say it again, from now on, you are not allowed to come back without my permission..."

"I-I know..."

Yu Huolian paused, and followed him a few steps, seeing that his footsteps were a little sloppy, she wanted to help him, but she still had some concerns in her heart.When he stepped out of the door, he suddenly saw Zhan Hao's body fell to the side, and he was about to hit the tree trunk in the yard. He hurried forward and stretched out his hand to hold it, but was slapped on the chest by Zhan Hao's palm. ,

"Go away!"

Disgust was written all over Zhan Hao's face.Yu Huolian fell to the ground.

"Don't touch me!" Zhan Hao said, "From now on, don't touch me again!"

A trace of astonishment flashed in Yu Huolian's eyes, and it disappeared after just a moment. She lowered her eyebrows and lowered her eyes, her expression darkened, "It's the child who shouldn't forget father's rules..."

As he spoke, his face was pale and dazed, his hands were tightly clenched into fists, and his fingertips were deeply sunken. After a long time, he gradually let go.

"Go down." Zhan Hao suddenly couldn't continue, suppressing the anger in his heart with difficulty, turned his back, and waved his hands to signal him to back down.

Yu Huolian stood up from the ground, frowning tightly, hesitated for a while, and finally couldn't bear it anymore, took two steps forward, hesitantly said: "Father...are you... thinking of mother again?..." Without waiting for Zhan Hao Answering, Yu Huolian said again, "I know you miss her, I miss her too, and I also want to be loved by mother, but..."

Fist behind his back, fingers trembling slightly, an uncontrollable rage and resentment rose from the bottom of Zhan Hao's heart, and in a little trance of drunkenness, it became more diffuse and thicker, and more dispersed.He turned around suddenly and cursed sharply:

"You don't deserve it!!—You were born to pay your blood debt! You don't deserve mother's love!!"

Ignoring the astonishment and pain in Yu Huolian's expression, Zhan Hao stumbled into the room, stumbled out again, and shouted at Yu Huolian: "Get the wine!"

In my mind, the blood and tears from 20 years ago and the sobs from the past 20 years are rolling like a tide.

There was always a calm expression on his face, but now he couldn't find any composure.

Yu Huolian looked at it, her heart couldn't help feeling sore, her eyes filled with tears, "Mother is dead...she can't come back...Mother is dead, she can't come back! Dad, don't drink any more..."

"Shut up!" Zhan Hao scolded, "Shut up! What do you know?!..."

"Dead people can't be resurrected!...Why did father torture himself like this!..."

"die……"

Zhan Hao came over suddenly when he heard the words, and grabbed Yu Huolian's arm with a look of fury, "The damned person is you! It's you!...I won't drink when you die! I'll be happy when you die!"

Why do you say that...

In Zhan Hao's mind, there was suddenly a sliver of clarity: Did I say something? ...I didn't say anything!

It's just that the alcohol came up again, and I was very dizzy.He drank too much, and he had never been so completely drunk. In a daze, he felt that he was on the grass in the yard, and took a few steps in a trance. He fell down, and then... seemed to be supported by someone again.

That night, the night was as cold as water.

The warmth of people's hearts is indeed no match for Qiuhan.

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