mountain sleep

"... Exit?"

"Yes." Chen Siyi sighed, and decided to tell the truth, "I'm ashamed to say, because I have to prepare money for his study abroad, so we don't continue to look at this house. It's really causing trouble for you and Lao Zhao, and the hard work is in vain. .”

Yang Yiwen never thought that Xu Zihang would do this, she was silent for a long time, and asked, "Why do you agree?"

She asked this sentence, really confused.Parents should choose the best path for their children, shouldn't they?Let him fall and experience within a controllable range, but the real obstacle will try to clear it for him.A university professor like Xu Xingqiang has good resources and contacts in the country. If he has the conditions to buy Xu Zihang a house in Naicheng, he will at least make his life worry-free in the future. understand?

"Because I want him to be happy."

This is the answer that Chen Siyi came up with after tossing and turning day and night, rather than making arrangements for a rainy day, it might be better to let him do what he wants to do.

"The life we ​​prepared for him is not what he wants. This is his life, and he should choose it himself."

"I just want to make him happy."

As mothers, we always have more understanding and empathy for each other than others.Chen Siyi understands that it is not easy for Yang Yiwen to raise a child by herself, but she feels even more distressed about the situation where she has slipped into a corner and cannot get out.Before she hung up the phone, she sincerely added: "Yiwen, you have to trust them."

Trust them to be able to take responsibility for their choices and trust them not to disappoint.Children are not puppets in the hands of their parents. The right to control their lives should be returned to their own hands.

Happiness and trust, Yang Yiwen never gave Yao Ge.A heavy mountain in her heart began to disintegrate slowly, making it difficult for her to resist for a while.

There is no summer vacation for prospective high school seniors, and school will resume after just two weeks. Only the new graduates are sitting on the campus of Nuo University.Xu Xingqiang accompanied Xu Zihang to the school to go through the withdrawal procedures, and then went to the division office to say goodbye to the teachers of various subjects.The English teacher who cared most about him confirmed again and again: "Is it true that there will be no suspension of school? After dropping out, there is no way out."

"No need." Xu Zihang shook his head, thanking his teacher for helping him all the time, he put the Dahongpao gift box in the corner of the teacher's desk, and grinned, "I will trouble the teacher to write a recommendation letter for me in the future!"

When I went back to the dormitory to pack things, there was no one there. Last night he and his father invited everyone to have a breakup meal outside. Xiao Wu even wiped a few tears: "If you leave, no one will get up early to bring me breakfast gone."

It’s sad to be emptying out your belongings a little bit, packing all bedding and personal belongings, and emptying out the bed and desk.The traces he left in Naicheng were cleared away little by little, leaving only the part of Yao Ge's house.

Yao Ge heard Aunt Xiayue calling him downstairs, and poked his head out from the corridor on the second floor: "Auntie, what's the matter?"

"Look who's coming!" Ji Xiayue opened her mouth happily, "Your mother missed you, so she came without saying a word, I hurried to the backyard to pick and order food, and you come to help your mother carry her luggage to her room. "

In front of outsiders, the relationship between Yao Ge and Yang Yiwen has been maintained without pain, and they mainly rely on Zhao Fengnian and Yao Ge to communicate with each other on weekdays.Seeing Yang Yiwen now, Yao Ge called "Mom" nonchalantly, then picked up the luggage without saying a word.

Usually, Yang Yiwen is always evaluating whether it is worthwhile for the relationship between them to become so tense, and whether her heart will hurt. She thinks that time is the best palliative, and she can bear his indifference. One day Yao Ge will know her good intentions.But now, looking at Yao Ge in front of her, she began to think, how sad is he, is he happy, how did he survive such a long time.

Yao Ge didn't know what his mother was doing here suddenly. He probably came here on a business trip, so he wasn't interested in knowing.

"You should have a good rest." Yao Ge put down his luggage and prepared to go out.

"Little Ge." Yang Yiwen called to stop him, patted the chair to signal him to sit, "Let's chat."

Yao Ge was impatient and had nothing to talk to her about, but he sat down anyway.

"Are you still used to it?"

"Habit."

"Is summer camp fun?"

"good."

"Does your wisdom tooth still hurt?"

"No pain."

Yang Yiwen looked at Yao Ge, and when he spoke to her, there was a trace of hostility in his eyebrows, showing his displeasure.

"sorry."

"It's okay..." Before he could finish the conditioned "it's okay", Yao Ge tilted his head in confusion, and asked, "What?"

Even if it was a question, his eyes still quickly fell elsewhere, not meeting Yang Yiwen's eyes.They sat so close to each other, yet each had their own cramps and restraints like two strangers.Yang Yiwen hasn't watched Yao Ge carefully for a long time, and even if she had the chance to meet up in a hurry in the video, the camera is always moved away.

Yao Ge is not happy.It's my own reason.She always takes his emotions lightly, is harsh and indifferent to him, and makes decisions for him at will.

Yao Ge felt the eyes that had been lingering on him all the time, feeling like he was sitting on pins and needles.

"That's right," Yang Yiwen looked at his cold-eyed side face, and raised the corners of her mouth mockingly, "Mom is sorry for you, and I want to apologize to you. I made you suffer."

She suppressed her smile, bowed her head sincerely and backed down: "In the future, you decide for yourself and Xu Zihang."

After she finished speaking, she wanted to pull Yaoge's hand, but he slammed it away, and she was frozen in the air.

Every inch of Yao Ge's muscles began to tense. From the moment Yang Yiwen said sorry, his defense system was activated automatically. He would rather let time stop than listen to these sarcastic confessions.

Why should I apologize to him?If a light "I'm sorry" can offset everything, then what are his struggles and sufferings, and who can understand and compensate?Yao Ge clenched his fists hard, defending his line of defense that nearly collapsed because of her few words.

Yang Yiwen expected that there would be no results in a few words, but she still felt sad. She withdrew her hand, lowered her eyes and said in a low voice: "I did something wrong before. Now I just want you to be happier."

Too late, Yao Ge leaned his back against the edge of the table, thinking, too late.When he longed for support, he stepped into nothingness. The scars that were not healed before were torn open again, and his face was covered with blood.

Yang Yiwen didn't expect them to reach any kind of reconciliation, but seeing Yao Ge's indifference with her own eyes still made her a little embarrassed, and the dull air came in from the window, pressing on her back.She's not feeling well, really.She and Yao Ge have pushed each other away for a long time, and the conflict just picked a node to erupt.

Yao Ge bit his lip, and forced his peripheral vision not to pay attention to her, he was annoyed that he still couldn't see her so sad.I was struggling in my heart whether to go out at this time, when I heard Yang Yiwen say: "If it wasn't for Xu Zihang, I wouldn't be here to tell you these things."

"I didn't expect that he would have the courage to tell his parents about you, let alone that he would choose to drop out of school just to be with you."

The corner of Yang Yiwen's mouth couldn't help but bend, thinking of the evening when she stopped Xu Zihang at the door of her house, she said harsh words to make him quit, but in the end it was she who was shocked by him and wanted to give in .

She disapproved of his innocence, but forgot that only young people would do such stupid things regardless of cost for the sake of feelings.

"Little Ge, you have grown up, it's because your mother never believes that you have grown up properly."

This time Yang Yiwen's hand was placed on Yao Ge's head smoothly, she was a little flattered for a moment, and she didn't dare to act rashly, for fear that this touch would be a dream.

Yao Ge sat there blankly, even forgetting to hide when Yang Yiwen's hand came over.He repeatedly confirmed the two sentences Yang Yiwen said just now, but he still couldn't believe it was the meaning he understood.

"Xu Zihang told his parents about us and dropped out of school to be with me?" Yao Ge faced Yang Yiwen for the first time after entering this room, "Did you just say that?"

"Yeah. His mother came to talk to me." Yang Yiwen was secretly surprised at his ignorance when she saw his distraught appearance.

Yao Ge didn't speak, the two sat quietly for a while, then he stood up, his face returned to indifference.Seeing that he was about to go out, Yang Yiwen didn't stop him, she had already said what she had to say.

The person who walked to the door stopped again, turned his head and said in a blunt tone: "You don't need to apologize. I have long forgotten."

Between them, there is no one who owes more.

As soon as Yao Ge returned to the room, he closed the door, finally he could let go of his guard and let his emotions come out to breathe.He doesn't want to sort out the mess with Yang Yiwen yet, the turbidity accumulated over time cannot be completely filtered out in a day or two.

He walked over to the desk and rested his fingers on the photographs pressed under the glass.

The last time they quarreled, the man said he was afraid of disappointing his parents.Since I'm afraid they will be disappointed, why confess everything and make them sad?Mingming said that she made him breathless, why did she drop out of school for him?Since I didn't want to give up, why did I keep silent for a whole month?

It turned out that this was the feeling of being concealed, and Yao Ge felt a little uncomfortable.Where is the deviation between them, and they want to know each other's mind, but they are all guessing blindly.

Yao Ge opened the door and wanted to go downstairs, but just as he reached the corridor, he ran into two women sitting on the sofa.

Yang Yiwen hurriedly turned her back and wiped her face with a tissue. Ji Xiayue patted her on the back lightly with a hand out of sight of outsiders, then turned her head and greeted Yao Ge with a smile: "Xiao Ge, are you coming down? Lin Jisen got up No? Go and call him, it's time to eat."

Yao Ge stood at the top of the stairs, hesitated for a moment, but didn't go down, nodded his head in response, turned around and knocked on Lin Jisen's door.

Lin Jisen, who was wearing chicken-nest hair and dark circles under his eyes, had already got up, and with the handle still in his hand, he opened the door and yawned: "Good morning."

"time to eat."

"Oh."

Lin Jisen dropped the handle and was about to go out. Yao Ge reached out to stop him, and made a gesture on his lips to make him whisper: "Wait a minute."

He turned his head to listen to the movement downstairs, and after confirming that he heard Ji Xiayue speaking at a normal volume, he put down his hand and said, "Let's go."

Lin Jisen, who didn't know why, rubbed his already messy hair, but didn't ask anything, and put his bones on Yao Ge's body: "I'm starving to death, and I didn't even have breakfast."

As soon as Ji Xiayue saw him coming down, she half ordered, "Did you stay up late yesterday and play games again? You didn't sleep well all day long."

"Aunt Wen!" Lin Jisen immediately turned the direction of the cartilage when he saw Yang Yiwen, and put it on her shoulder coquettishly, "Look at my mother, she scolds me every day."

"Come here and help me." Ji Xiayue called Lin Jisen to go to the kitchen with her winkingly, "I didn't eat breakfast, so I have some peanut and red date soup to fill my stomach."

It was probably because other people's children were easier to get close to. As soon as Lin Jisen left, the atmosphere in the living room became cold.Yang Yiwen and Yao Ge sat facing each other without making eye contact.

Yao Ge clasped his hands between his knees, and he was the first to say, "I want to go back to China for the summer vacation." He raised his eyes to Yang Yiwen, and added his request, "Go back to Sichuan Island."

Yang Yiwen lowered her head and straightened the corners of her skirt, then nodded slightly: "Okay."

After saying this, the two were speechless again.Fortunately, Ji Xiayue showed up in time and invited them to dinner.

Within a few days, Yao Ge and Yang Yiwen got on the plane back together.Who knows what is going on in this world, the collapse half a year ago has turned into anxiety now.He pulled down the blindfold, more or less relieved.After flying thousands of miles in the sky, I can finally go home.

Yang Yiwen didn't go back to Chuandao with him, she didn't have much vacation, so she managed to spare a few days.

She sent him to Naicheng Station, and stopped him when Yao Ge's hand touched the car door: "Can I go alone?"

This question is too much to ask, Yao Ge has long been used to being alone.He paused for a moment, hummed in a low voice, and said in a low voice before closing the door: "Be careful on the road."

Yang Yiwen didn't expect to have this sudden concern, and when she realized that she was going to respond, the other party was nowhere to be seen.The car behind honked its horn, but she didn't feel unhappy about it. She was happy and couldn't hide the smile on her lips.

Yao Ge was carrying a small suitcase, and looked up to find the train number written on the ticket and the ticket gate.

In the past six months, too many changes that he is not familiar with have taken place in this city.The high-speed train between Kawashima and Naicheng has been opened, and it only takes four hours to arrive, and there is no need to take the train all night to reach the station.

Yao Ge got on the bus following the crowd check, and he didn't feel the hustle and bustle around him for a long time.In this era, everything pursues speed, and the screen reads 350/km per hour. The feeling of wanting to see him is still getting longer with time.Wheat fields and low houses are speeding past the window, this speed is much slower than his urgency, as if looking down at the time, you can calculate when you will see him, but you can't measure the time it will take to warm up your feelings. how long.